
I learn to forget,
Forget those unpleasant and things not within my means of control.
The reason is not that i cant be bothered ab it as i always said to people.
Its beyond what i can do.
The only way is to search for alternative psychological fulfil in work than to think about things not within my control.
Be indolent
Its a heart felt feeling of unwanted.
Anyway,
Its just a thought,
Wake up tomorrow,
This feeling will be gone.
I had a dream last night.
I was lying in the jacuzzi pool above marriot,
I think i really need to getaway alone.
I need to travel,
To throw all those unpleasant and negative feelings away.
To alot out there,
I know, they just want me when they need me.
Other than that I am just an extra to some.
The feeling of, being needed or wanted.
I dont want myself to fall into that category of his to be needed thats why I am by his side.
Other than that,
I am just a nobody.
Even when we talked about love,
What is there love to say?
I am losing all the feelings towards him,
I cant even tell if i stay by him because he needs me,
or i do love him alot?
Alot of question marks.
But when ever am with my bitches i tend to forget all these negative feelings inside me.
At this moment,
I really cant tell,
If i still love him that much?
Or we are just wasting our time away.
Its just an empty feeling with nothing at all.
I am just so handicap in this game called "Love"
Gimme a break!!
+ calling for my female buddies+
Trip to Okinawa this summer?
Buzz me.
Be my company
I will b making my booking of trip end of this mid april.
Pls do let me know.
Flying off mid May
For those who are unaware of my disappearing act this may?
I am on a pondering trip to Okinawa.