All together

Maybe all together its a different story. I'hv heard stories of how my male buddies pamper their girl and how the girls show blissful look of happiness being dote by the one they love. Those kind of innocent love whom some of my friends to me is out of reach. My relationships often underline factor of the feel of being threaten.

I saw this :

Thanks for making caring for mi,pampering mi,spoiling mi, perfecting my life with lotsa efforts & surprises ,loving mi wholeheartly!


its so heartwarming they are coming to a year. They are great people, had been quite sometime not seeing them... just to let you guys know, i really miss you people.

Probably its just a different issue all together, maybe he's just not good in pampering his girl. Whenever i see how my friends wrote about their love life, they have got so much of wonderful occasions and surprises from their love. It can be simply a late night supper surprise. The coca cola surprise fridge from ping to sammi, a cold remedy hot tea in the middle of the night which cure every illness during a flu. I longed for the feeling to be pampered once again.

I do appreciate the piggy love pillow, the mama and baby gui gui, the effort he made to send me back, the time we spend usually either in a pub or at home, the time we used to stroll along his estate. I do love surprises, usually he gave me shocks more than surprises. When was the last time i was really pampered. Being pampered like a little girl.

Being with him coming towards our 6th month, there is alot of things i would want to do. Like bringing him to visit my " Yi yi" in the zoo, the gui gui and dugong at Sentosa, sitting with him at the most southern part of singapore closest to the milky way to admire the stars, catching a gimpse of fireflies, visiting a goat farm, fish for prawns, catching guppies at pasir ris park, feeding little tortoise at the botanical garden, breathing the fresh air in a park early in the morning, accompany auntie to the market poking smelly fish, playing happily in the rain, walk the dog together, hold a picnic session, laze around looking at clouds on the grass, sing ktv with just the 2 for us. So many things left undone.

I would want to start a scrapbook of places of joy, but its just not enough for me to begin with. In that case our moment of joy will be, the pool at toa payoh, his home, cineleisure cinema, PS couple lab, school, colour zone, a rubbish truck and the void deck you used to hold my hands and chat till dawn. In a period of 6 months thats what we do. Thats what we accomplish for apx 180 days. I really would want to spend wonderful moments with you. The moment we will always remember and make it reside in our heart for life. Being by your side when we used to party with a group of friend doesnt truely belongs to us, i longed to sit side by sit with you, sip the wine we'hv brought along to a sky of stars, a place where there is just the 2 of us. The memory of us being the lead. I hope i'll dream of it tonight and smile during my sleep.

Beach day

It was a real fun and relaxing day with my dear Joze, sipping beer and relaxing at the beach. With just the 2 of us we really did enjoy ourselves. Heart to heart talk of 2 leos.

Talking about 2 scorpios in our life, we see similarities in the 2 scorpios. They are both short tempered guy, love to drink etc.

Horoscope of a Leo
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All Leo's have high standards and they don't like to let themselves or anyone else down. They enjoy being seen as a person of substance and status, and prefer to be in a position to help others rather than approaching them cap in hand. Leo's pride would not allow them to live or work in a situation that they consider as 'beneath' them. They are far more comfortable working in an exciting area where they can jet off to glamorous places and influence the more mundane members of planet Earth. Leo's won't stand for being treated with contempt or ridicule, but they are very aware of other people's need for dignity, so they are rarely offensive or hurtful.
Leo's can become surprisingly downhearted on occasion, but they don't usually stay depressed for long and their confidence returns fairly quickly. The thing that saves most Leo's in hard times is their joyful sense of humour.
Leo's faults include impatience and a tendency to over dramatise problems. They become irritable when things go wrong and quite sarcastic when ill, under pressure or over-tired. Leo's live in the fast lane, working and playing very hard. However they must remember to build in some rest and recovery time. They can be pushy parents because they want their children to achieve as much as they have - and exceed it. Leo's encourage their children to become independent.
Leo's are generous and kind and will do anything to help others, especially their family. They excel as a family member and enjoy keeping in touch with relatives although are not the type to cling. As a marriage partner, Leo's are very loyal and dependable, as long as they're feeling loved and at the center of the family network. It is very unlikely for Leo's to have a fling simply out of curiosity, although if they are feeling undervalued and unloved by those around them, it may lead in that direction.
Leo's love the best of everything. They love to travel to smart places and to holiday in five-star comfort. Their values are traditional and although there are a few rogue Leo's around who seem to have no standards at all, these are untypical.

Horoscope of Scorpio
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Reliable, resourceful and enduring, Scorpios seem to be the strong men and women of the zodiac. But are they really? They can be nasty at times, dishing out what they see as the truth, no matter how unwelcome. Their own feelings are sensitive and are easily hurt but they won't show any hurt or weakness in themselves to others. When they are very low or unhappy, this turns inwards, attacking their immune systems and making them ill. However they have great resilience and they bounce back in time and again from the most awful ailments.Nobody needs to love and be loved more than a Scorpio, but their partners must stand up to them because they will give anyone they don't respect a very hard time indeed. They are the most loyal and honest companions, both in personal relationships and at work. One reason for this is their hatred of change or uncertainty. Scorpios enjoy being the power behind the throne with someone else occupying the hot seat. This way, they can quietly manipulate everyone, set one against another and get exactly what they want from the situation.
Scorpio's voices are their best feature, often low, well modulated and cultured and these wonderful voices are used to the full in pleasant persuasion. These people are neither as highly sexed nor as difficult as most astrologists make out, but they do have their passions, even if these are not always for sex itself, and they like to be thought of as sexy. They love to shock and appear slightly dangerous but they also make kind-hearted and loyal friends, superb hosts and gentle people who are often very fond of animals. Great people when they are not being cruel, stingy or devious!

Had a real fun night!

*Thumbs up* for zouk once again, i was accompanied by my favourite friend. It was rather empty when we first reach we had a slip of wine and looked down at the empty dancefloor with clubbers strolling in now and then. The reason why i love this place so much, its packed with friendly people all around may it be male or female. Its a place where i constantly see familar faces, gather friends from all over like how we used to hangout every wednesday night.

It great meeting Ryan again in zouk whom he happens to be Delun's campmate from the pilot division. Still remember that chalet Ryan organised and we had great fun during his birthday. We drank bottles of liqour, had our handmade sushi and he was forced to wear only his red coloured g-string carrying a hippo shaped birthday cake bought by his gf choyu. That was real fun!

~ At St James~

After zouk we headed down to St James to meet up with my beloved darling. I just cant stop hugging him. My darling is so addictive and i m totally mesmerised by him. His smile mean the whole world to me. We had supper at newton and we took a stroll back. That moment i felt so loved. Looking at our shadows we walked hand in hand and i'll never want to let it go. The feeling was so wonderful and i vow that i would want to keep this feeling of love till the last beat of my heart. Darling i love u so dearly. I really want to be with you for the rest of my life.

5 months being together

We watched spiderman 3 together today, and what flashed back thru my mind was on our first date when we watched deja'vu. He's so caring and considerate. He will shield me thru the crowd on the streets, ran back to his house to get his house keys,take me out for dinner at newton *smiles* that was so sweet and we were friends back then.

We had dinner at home, lazed around his room and went back after that. It was kind of late when we're at back around my estate.

I thought there will be still public transport, who knows i guess he missed the last bus to newton and he sounds pissed when he called. Probably i m the cause as i wanted to get my supper.

Loving him once again, hoping this will turn out better. With that little trust still unsure whether is it enough to substain. I am still unable to put on the stuffs that he gave me when we're so much in love those days back..

At times i still cant help,tears just rolled down in the middle of the night when the pain stuck me. I am still struggling within myself i tried not to show. My angels around me constantly remind me that Seven should be happy. I really didnt expect that to hurt that much.

He told me i do not have the trust in him, not only a little. I have really got nothing to say. I am still so wreck, still trying to pick up the bits and pieces. I just hope that the effort he gave will be constant. What i would want to see, its not yet to surface. I really wish that he will care more about the people around him. Listen more and talk less, his words do acts as a sword sometimes. It just cuts.

*Bad cough*

Having bad cough lately. The weather is lousy and dear friends do take care. Gotta to hit the beach someday next week after my mense. Its the start of the life of enjoyment. I love sch vacation. I was talking to my dad yesterday and he asked to join him in a tour to tibet. Yup and true enough he has got tons of leisure trip to fulfill and none of it taken into action at least for the time being *eye rolling* The Gold coast trip which he asked me to go get it booked from richard and he's settering the bill end of the month. Dad is just very fickle minded worst than a woman at times.

Approaching the fifth

We are approaching the fifth and, things are going on smooth through there are few hip cups along the way of healing. I'hv bought each of us a book of confession named Joy and Happyness. "Happyness" Happiness is never perfect. Just the the movie ' The pursue of happyness' Walking through the road of happyness, its bound to carry the foodsteps of tears and saddness. Walking through saddness isnt easy. I am trying to learn every steps i walked. To conclude myself a with a happier and the life i want to lead. I hope that he would be able to walk every single step with me. We had been falling and getting up and falling times after times.

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I happened to look through her pictures with him linked through her page. When i first saw her pictures, i found that she's really so sweet and cute. When i looked back now, doesnt look as it seems anymore. I start to ponder how sad was him when he forced himself to smile when he met up with me. The pictures of them, smiling so happily away, and now she's in the arms of the other. I know you'hv changed and you found someone whom u really care. I am glad. I saw those pictures, indeed reminiscing. Ultimately i think we can be only each other's rubbish bin.

Its been awhile

It had been awhile since my com crashed and i made no intention to have it done due to my busy schedules. There are drastic changes in my life for the past week, tears, heartache, confusion, stress for exams and current love life. Everything seems crashing down upon me i was almost breathless. I tried to help myself a little by not adding more stress to my exams, the only means is to take everything a step at a time. I dont ask for much anymore. Hoping for something better doesnt help either. I'm still faithless. The dark side of me, i still do fear. The only little hope i have is, him intergrating into someone more caring toward everybody.

I would really like to thank the people around me showering me with so much of concern. I am glad that my life is surrounded by angels.