I really wonder

I wonder and i really do,

when was the last time he even care to look into my blog?

To learn the inner me?

To not confuse incident which causes frustrations to be linked with another.

Not to vent anger anyway how.

Being pissed with one single incident linking into a series?

Everything is in oneself.

I cant even be bothered to be pissed or angry.

I cant be bothered.

I dont know why i get into a relationship with so much of problems?

Isn't the other half should be someone to share burden, encourage each other and give more faith as time goes by?

But why am I always hounded by negative feelings?

This journey is a learning stage.

I just feel lost in this relationship but i do not know why i still hold on?

Love and faith is losing bit by bit as days goes on.

And i know, he dont even know a bit about it.

He do not need to feel or say anything about this.

I am just not the right one for him.

Its time he should think about it and find someone who love whatever he does.

Not grumble, be a simple and obedient girlfriend he is longing for.

And that person is definetely not me.

I dont feel the pain or hurt, love still exist but look at a bigger picture.

Pain can always be heal as time goes by.

I do not want to look back as its time to move forward.