6th Aug

I love that couch,

but just couldnt get the effects right,

Thanks to my bei bei,

I love the pictures you take

Erm.... .....
Mysterious Bartender Missy Seven

Entrance to the doorway

Clear and not so clear

I just need to relax and walk behind back.
Looking fromt the top of the building
Blah....

Happy Birthday to my one and only

I enjoyed the evening very much.

Thanks.

Blessing you to be fruitful in what you want to do

E.N.J.O.Y.M.E.N.T . I.S. U

Dreams

Dreams that reflects the reality.

Quiet and peaceful

As Request

Tokyo Disney at age 15

Mount Fuji Hotspring bath

Osaka market i suppose... Gee

Its a peaceful and quiet day spent with the person i missed so much each day, that someone whom i am unable to hide my feelings with.

I logged on to msn the moment i reach home, his message came in. I reached home pretty late after meeting up with bro Alan and i missed him online. Well my bei bei, i'hv post up the pictures i promised to show it to u.

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Thought of the day

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Tell me why do i miss you so much each and everyday? How would life be without you, sigh i dont even want to think about that. Why are you occupying and infesting my mind more often that i thought. As for your side, i observe that there are a dozen of things weighing on you right now. I guess it may be the uncertainties that you are facing at the current moment. I just want to let you know that you shine. You shine the moment i met u a month ago. You still does, but somehow, i feel that you start to doubt. We WILL shine, as 2 individual. Taking other things aside, you definately has the charisma to attract. That wed night when we really strike a conversation, you attract me in a way, i choosed to push it away, simply i do not want to be just another prey of yours. Thats why i choosed a repel attitude towards your behaviour and the things you said and the way you act. When i first met you, my mind sent me a signal of, :" Whatever this following guy is to say to you, just listen and forget. Remember 20% of what he says and forget the rest, simply he just wont get serious". But actions and feelings you gave really proved otherwise. I hope i am not wrong.

Being with you for the past weeks really made me feel great, the feeling of the true me. Where there is no need to impress or whatsoever. I just like to cuddle in your arms and whine. Make funny face at you, the one and only you. Having a familar and heart warming shoulder for me lie on when fatigue over-runs me. Mr Leow told me, Seven is too strong-headed, but once she meets the person who she feels she can relax on, she will become the little kitten and i guess thats what i've become when i cuddle in ur womb like arms like your little baby.

In fact, what I really feels is not what the other half achieve in the current moment, but the attitute towards what he can secure his future with. I believe in him, he has got so much unrelease potential, i will see him fly. And when he fly, i know he will grab me tight under his wings. That is the security i see.

Nice and encouraging words are too shallow to be said at times, its the believe that holds me to him.

P.S Bei bei: Put your soul into what you have in current. Hardwork with a sprinkle of luck. Ample of trainings and trainings... Make a dash for the coming weeks, think about what is said, think harder and work on it. I want to be that shadow behind your back, holding a peaceful, comfortable back for you, a cozy imaginary home for you to rest on. I thought i will feel insecure being with you and turned into a paraniod gf but, i didnt... simply because, you too gave me the feeling of peace, love, joy and home.

MR Q

Mr Q,

.Undesirable.

.Those msg just came in.

.Crappy little boy.

.No more nonsense.

.From you, from me.

.Do what we have to do.

.And promise what we promised each other.

.Dont miss me.

.Dont tell me you miss me.

.Say Ulu things to me friend we are not.

.

Sunsets

Well well

[R]

At the end of the day,

you are just another core loser.

Barely a month,

You jus prove kar n myself right again.

He cannot live without S.e.x

Haha, stay single? My foot.

I really thank god,

that i didnt accept you back.

I feel so relieve

[R]

Zouk

Its fun

Its embarrass

Holy Shit

I miss u

I miss you my Bao Bei,

Didnt get to see you tonight.

Thanks for your encouragement and blessing,

life turns better for me.

Thanks for the invite to your house tmr evening.

I am looking forward to your green curry, steam fishhead and crabs.

I am drooling.

I will turn up as request with a bottle of white.

Happy KTV singing with the girls :)

Miss ya Bao Bei

Repeat

My "Nan Hai" told me, if there is no change to what had happened before,

the change will still be a stagnant.

History will repeat itself,

and you will fall into the same situation once again.

The remedy is not about the situation but yourself.

I moved in a direction so different now.

In whole, if you change nothing about yourself,

every relationship will end the same way as how the previous one ended.

And you will react the same way how you did.

It will go on and on and on,

just like Dee'javu.

You will never learn from your mistake.

I do not want to repeat the same old parttern again.

I break the chain of it.

I am not going to be in that kind of predicament once again.

What comes around goes around.

There is no room for regrets or time for you to look back.

Once you look back,

You are on a treadmill.

Running over and over again at the same pace, same rhythm and will fall at the same spot once again.

I noticed the chain pattern in you.

Nothing amazing as everything is as predicted.

Well well,

life goes on.

Time will not wait for anyone.

Its time to take a snap.

I learned my lesson.

X-files

ITs a crap show and a waste of time.

Well its up to you to judge it if u have got too much money to spend on.

Happy bday to me

Reflections identity 7

Reflections identity 5

Mess
Before

Blessed and loved

The surprise you never fail to give,

the hugs from the back which i love so much.

You always know what to do.

:)

You did all you can to pamper me and shower me with love.

Never fail to show me how much i meant to you.

Weeks after weeks

We are looking into years ahead of us.

:)

The dream both of us indulge in.

Me serving you breakfast in bed.

The wonderful sofa couch.

A metronome for you my love

The classical grand piano we are going to own.

A jamming studio of our own.

A wall full of violins.

Pictures we took framed up along the walkway.

The leather bed we want

:)

You cooking yummies for me

in return i will learn to make desserts for u

.Tian tian de.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Thanks everybody!

Thanks to Stacy, I LOVE YOU.

Thank you April, stacy, jason, hp, wp for the lunch buffet.

Thanks to uncle, ur plan is brilliant.

Thanks to my ma ma, hope you like the cake i bought.

Thanks to all of my lovely friends to smses me or called me.

Thanks you Bao Bei for dinner, i enjoy window shopping for furniture with you.

P.S BB: Next stop we shall go daimaru and enjoy each other's company shopping at MEIDIYA together. I know you will love it. You will be the birdie crapping and i will be the hippo lazing around the smelly pond. I really enjoyed everyday with you. Enjoying moments with you. Sharing the same thought and loving each other equally. Change feelings into long lasting memories in us. We are going to build our 40 years, calculating 16400 days, 18.7 litres. That will be how much we will build on with just you and me.

P.S JM: I learn about you all over again. YOu are a great girl!!!

I Really do

I really do hope,

that day we wake up every other day,

seeing each other by the side.

The commitment we can give for the rest of our life.

Its very scary,

When you met someone,

who share the same thought as you do.

Holding on to him gives you the feeling of being with him for the rest of your life.

Never in my life.

I am so looking forward.

Being 2 individuals,

but shares the same thoughts and ideals.

When this strikes,

There is no way to escape.

Things that both of us is willing to scarifies

to build on a path for 2.

Indeed,

I find him a miracle

Never in my life i thought i can find someone,

so alike myself

Thank god

I've found you.

Ladies night

Last night was a freak night of love and both of us got wasted somehow. KTV last night was crazy but enjoyable. My day starts at 4pm today and was woken by his call. He sounded so bloody tired from the call and he was running some errand for his workers. If this goes on, i think within couple of months we will be dead beat. I feel real bad as his fatigue is partly because of me. Well but he said, love do make people do wonders and it is reciprocal in our case. Thank you my AA.

After my appointment with WP, i headed home and prepare documents for the next appointment later at night. Daddy Kong called in, he called for a girls night. We headed Fareast plaza, its a lesbian pub. The night consist of mel, ms fletcher, auntie molly, daddy kong and myself. Its was great company. I got to know more about mel and the stuffs she is going through these while. Well girl, you have got the right man and i m happy for you. Daddy kong wasnt usual tonight, and he entrusted me of fulfilling the "thing" he did not achieve years back. He was like " Seven, u are not a good driver in this camery, get yourself a merc SLK." He spoke to me about my current relationship and wants me to go all out for it. Things in life shouldnt be based on money. It is the love which keep one rich. I can list down at least 100 over things money cant buy. Money is only gives you more options in life. Be rich in life money cant buy.

To AA: Hope you have a good night rest. Thinking of you all the time and i know you are as well. Through the weeks, i've learn alot from you and i really appreciate your sharings. I love your drive in work, ur analytical skills and the wowability you have. Do you know, ur character is an exact replica of mine, that might be why "you are so me, and i m so you." Being with you and hugging you is so comfortable, simply you are a total male version of me.

The Message

I like the message you sent

So sour,

The taste of sour apple martini

So adorable

So cute

" Why still wxxx xxx, haiz"

Flip side of the coin ll

The shadows of him always cast onto mine.

I see a different side him last night and i was much taken back.

I was impressed by the things he said without mercy.

I numbed for awhile and realised how much he cared.

At the end of the day he wants be to be the person he sees me in and the things i m capable to accomplish.

I took another perspective.

If the roles were switched, i suppose i will say the same thing to him as well.

I looked at him so differently now.

The other side of him, the depth in him.

P/S: Its so unbearable not hearing from you.

Sunday, Monday, TUESDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!

I regain who i am, what i am, the lady who looks vulnerable yet has the strong point in her.

Her pride, ego, drive and integrity

.She got them all back today.

She just stand being wishy-washy and being an escapee, she will do what she needs to.

Face what she has to.

The bottomline she did it for herself and NOT anyone else.

SHE is back, stronger, more determine and focus to be herself than ever.

The flip side of the coin

Ample times, i turned and look at the building he was at and smile.

Chilling out at the Scarlet hotel

Holding his hands as we walked,

Retro past-time, with his ultra cute retro hairstyle ~~

Reminiscing

I really cant help but to smile, Bishi Bashi,

Nothing means everything

I am feeling much better today. The running nose had stopped. I had a meeting with Daddy Kong today at his cafe and he is aware of whats happening around. Lol, he must be papa Kong, papa kong knows it all. Haha... It starts to rain when not long after i reached. Well well, its a fulfilling day though i didnt managed to hook up with Elaine. [" Lainie, Jia You next time confirm can pass one !!!] Learn valuable lessons with papa Kong and his "New GF" Tommy knows it all and Joey's going to blust into laughter if she realised that. The target board suspect from police school which look like kenneth, wth~~ hahaa. During the evening, i headed down to meet him and spent quality time sharing and individualising ourselves though i waited for awhile for him. Things he said really made me feel so warm :) Those examples he gave, funny yet true. Those insight thoughts and feelings we felt, is pretty scary in a way. A dozen of why him and why me. Well fate usually strike when none of us expect, true enough the feelings were so genuine and comfortable. Its the feeling of appreciation i suppose. It is great sharing inner thoughts of us and concrete on certain facts and doubts we had. Thank you for everything, i really treasure every moment we spent.

That someone

Walking on with someone else in my life, i do not want to put any expectations onto my other half. I just want to see him good in what ever things he does.We met and the feelings were mutual, somehow or rather weird the actions and feelings are not within any control. I thought that i will never fall for someone like him, with such glib-tongue. I usually gets turn off towards this category of man. I can only say, something just pushes us together somehow. The kind of feelings i had 7 years ago suddenly came back. The feeling of being shy and blushing infront of the person you love. OMG~~ me blushing is a serious issue. I just do not know how to explain it. After so many years, i believe its a different stage of life in current. I will treasure what i have and add-priceless values to make myself a better person.

Thank you

Thanks to Ian, i can lead the life i longed to lead met wonderful people. Being myself and truly Seven. The confidences, the shine and taste of Seven is back. I lose trails of myself when i am with him. I learned alot of priceless lesson with him. To be patience, to care, to give and to appreciate. Without him Seven wont have grown up. She will still live in her fairy tale and get everyone around her to please her and taking alot of people for granted. Throughout this 1 and a half year, she learn to be tolerant. She learns to take care of people without anything in return. She changed for the better. He let me meet fantastic people Calvin, Zw, Morgan, Sharon, Jody, Kenny, Eric, James, Jaz most importantly i met Terence Kong who changed my life from a little girl to a responsible woman. Thank you "Daddy Kong" i wont let you down. On my way i met people who filled my life, changed my life and added values to me. I thank god, everything is a blessing in disguise. Life is like a rollor coaster back then, where i thought i found the person whom i can spend my rest of my life with. But everything is just too beautifully painted by him. What i would want to see in a relationship is not only you impressing me. The bottom line is to be who you are, what you are.

She is happy

She is happy with what she has now. Enjoying every moment in life. Work is in place so does her love life... She looked into her production sheet and she feels please with what she did. All of a sudden, everything start to fall into place and what she believes in finally came true. The happiness from the bottom of her heart. She stopped puking and feels great about her life. To calculate what she has in her life, probably at this moment she is at her peak after so many years. Thank you for giving me all these. I m so glad i met you.

Gee .. Its a secret advertisment

Soy Joy

Sing song Shunappi

Lovely rena

Ah-tas bu

These few days ii

These few days