Young days

I was trying to recall how is it like to have a crush?

Eh,

my 1st crush was when i was kindergarten school when i had a crush on a senior from kindergarten 2 where i get to see him during our morning prayers session as i was from a Methodist school,

I remembered that i cried hard and didnt want to go to school anymore when he promoted to primary 1.

My 2nd crush was during my primary school days.

He is my dance senior, 3 years older than me.

Thinking back, wah... dance school, senior ballet somemore. . . quite chao sissy in a way.

Moving into secondary school,

I was in secondary 1,

the hot favourite was a guy in the NPCC,

he is the crush of most teenager of my age.

Again Senior 4 years older than me,

That was his last year when i entered secondary school.

But in a way or another,

i improved as i did speak to him on the phone before and those were the days when we brew telephone porridge.

Moving up into polytechnic,

my taste of crush deviated from seniors to juniors.

Meteor garden drama by the F4 were so freaking hot at that moment of time,

and my crush happens to be a super duper cute guy who i met on the bus.

He loves to wear red,

and in order to catch him,

i'll be late for lessons every tue as i suppose his lesson starts at 10am while mine was at 9.

I'll make use of every angle to peep at him or do some funny stupid stuffs to catch his attention.

In an incident,

back then i was using the 1st nokia slide camera phone.

Pretty huge phone. he was sitting down while i was standing and holding to the grip pole next to where he was sitting.

And i purposely use my phone and hit his head when the bus did a minor bump.

Wrong move indeed,

he never take 61 at the timing anymore.

Towards the start of the uni days,

i bumped onto this freaking cute boy whom i met in a levis store.

The Elvin Ng lookalike at that point of time.

To see him more than often i patronised that levis store almost 4 times a week and ended up spending more each time of the visit.

I took chance to talk to him,

get him to try on the male clothes and using him as a male model with the excuse of getting something for my male friend.

I blush when i see him,

and one fine day i plucked up my courage and bought a box of dark chocolate for him.

With no guts my friend handed the box of chocolates to him and left my numbers with him.

Using the LG chocolate at that point of time,

a call was made out to him accidentally.

Eventually i hang up.

He replied me with smses and we start our connection.

On the same day,

it was late at night and the cute levis boy offered to send me home after he knock off work.

I realised he was 2 years my junior in poly.

I love his crap and found out that we stay nearby each other.

He is the one who makes laugh till i drop.

I still do remember, the first met up with him was at the macdonalds near our place.

I was so pissed with my bf as he was 2 timing me at that time which i bit his arms on our first date out.

I had 1/2 dozen of yakult and was farting badly on our 1st late evening date.

From then the neighbour crush relationship grew.

Being the crap rubbish bin of each other.

The day i officially gave up of my 6 yrs relationship at that time, he broke off with his girl coincidentally.

We met up again below my flat.

Argh . . . that was the first time we hugged each other,

being both of us feels like shit.

The neighbour crush relationship continued,

and i realised that i will tell him to marry me whenever i got drunk or something.

He will as usual show me his stupid looking face which says wait long long.

He will complain that why the girls she date all heck care him,

And as usual i will tell him,

sooner you will just get use to it.

We managed this rubbish bin business for a few years

till One day,

i decided to focus all my attention onto a single man.

I stopped seeing him simply i have really got nothing to grumble about anymore.

Love do make your grumbling stop, so does him.

He found his girl and

both of us should be able to live happily ever after with the love of our own . . .

.End of the story of my crushes.

How is it like?

To have a neighbour when?

Post 335

I was late for my MAS training,

far too late.

I was late for 2 hours.

That was amazing when i messaged my colleague that i was reaching when i was still in lala land.

Same old thing,

I couldnt get off my bed and continued the rolling under my cozy blanket with my "nice smelly" pillow.

Walking up early in the morning is disastrous for me.

Skip the training part,

I headed to Queensway to get my uniform for GALA night at KL.

looks funny and its funny.

The uniform is right now spinning hard with my washing machine and i'll post it up with myself in it when am done with the washing and ironing.

Spent a good 200 bucks on clothes again while waiting for the pick up for my altered uniform.

Someone help me. . . am spending too much . . . i need a Royal qiqi purse holder/ financial controller.

YEAH !!

Muah Hubbiee will be back tomorrow !!

hahaha

At least thats something good for me for the day.

Post 334

I had my meeting with my girls for crab feast as our usual hangout at xian's place after my appointment.
We had our usual girlie talks and bitchings about the people around us.
We were browsing through friendster and we clicked on Terry's page as dear hol forgot how he looks like and needa little recall about him.
Saw a testi on his page which switches on our laughing nerves.
We really do not understand what is there to hide among friends for such long period of time.
Well to my regular readers, *cross hearts* should know who and what am i referring to,
just dont laugh too hard.
Its not the appearance that counts.
Its a great meet up and thats what friends should do.
HEY GIRLS; Keep your notebook of New Year Resolution 09.
I know Holly wants to get married; * roll my eyes * If you really do, firstly you should pen down in ur notebook of getting a decent and reliable guy.

I have got a dozen of it for my New Year resolution SHOUT OUT party.
1) Cut down on drinks
2) No smoking - - sigh. . that really tough . .
3) Work wise, just do it with no BUTs looking at my Million dollar, we will revise it during my personal quarter planning.
4) I want to setter down with my hubhubie. . .

The meeting was a fun one,
I headed back to my house area for a second round of supper with dear friend Stephen,
Poor boy he lost his way when picking me up and the funny part,
he should have call me *silly silly*
We had fish beehoon around my house area,
It started raining,
arghh... . . .. . and now am lying on my bed,
Stopped raining . .. . .
Anyway, thanks for the ride back.


Thoughts in place
Probably i just find myself too confident in the past in handling my relationship with him in the past which resulted in creating so many opportunities to the invaders.
But i dont regret.
One who love you enough will not do anything to make harm to you.
Thats what i strongly agrees with.
Without him, in the past i will never learn from my mistake.
Its just that this lesson took me 6 years to learn it.
In fact i have got nothing to lose,
I am glad with who i am and what i have become after the 2 previous failed relationship.
The art of loving people who loves you,
friends, lovelies, family and of course my hubhub.
Just be true and people will love you who you are.
That must be Qiqi.

Post 333

There is this weird and unexplainable feeling which is there since yesterday.

I am feeling lousy due to the cold when i head down to meet my hubbie.

He was late as usual so i sat there and waited for him patiently.

He gave me a tight hug, "sayang" me and held my hands as we walk on.

Its a different feeling as in yesterday.

Its unexplainable.

He no longer walk ahead of me,

we just walk on side by side and hand in hand.

we headed down to his shop after the retirement planning seminar to get some medicine to stop the ill condition of my cold.

My plans last night was to leave my lovely alone for the night, as am afraid that i might pass the my cold virus to my hubbie.

Eventually i still stayed over and fetch him to work early the next morning.

Being ill, i was so wimpy,

I started whining non-stop early in the sleepy morning as both of us gotten up at about 5am in the morning.

I was whining and twisting in his arms complaining how terrible i feel,

thinking that he will "Sayang" me. .

he just looked at me and said ; Drink more wine lor . . .

. . . . . . . . .

My whining stroke failed.

Hubbie is super damn moody this morning which i could really understand.

Early morning, tiredness, worst of all facing the terrible old foxy gay.

I know he is damn stress thats why i am not complaining.

Dont worried my hubbie... Your wifey will take good care of herself and you will see her well and bubbly when you get back from ya trip.

:)

其实我很想对你说，

我们结婚吧。

Recognition

The feeling of recognition.

I am over-joyed

The thoughts of how much he wants me in his life.

I am so happy to hear that.

I find myself blending into his life and vice versa.

I would really love to move in with the man i love so much and blend our life together as one.

Within a couple of months,

we are walking into a total different phase of level in term of managing us.

We discover the flaws in each,

and rediscover the in depth sight in us.

and we just cant help but to love each other more each day.

Allow me to hold on to you through the pleasant and foul,

happy and sad moments in life,

hold your hands,

be by your side like time never exist.

Making my love for you that will never deteriorate.
I am so awaiting for the day where i can call you my hubby in the presence of everyone.
From the bottom of my heart is calling;
Where ever you are,
my heart beats just for you.

我们结婚吧

View the video bar on mike he especially the 2nd one. So cute...

Blessed

I am so blessed,

blessed with love,

the love of his.

The lean on his shoulders is so comfortable,

its great to fall asleep in his arms again.

I dropped tears of joy and fear at the same time when i was lying next to him.

Joy; Happy and blessed to be lying next to the person i love so much again :)

Fear; afraid to lose this feeling one day.

and I fell asleep in his cozy arms.

We were awaken by the irritating drilling sound of his neighbour early in the morning.

I rolled under the blanket and

dozed off again despite of the drilling and knocking.

Post 326

Yet again,

we were stuck 'ed together for the past 48 hours.

We had late night suppers,

cozy dvds,

fond cuddles,

Supermarket shopping,

and sweet corn for supper.

Hilarious and comically.

No more sweet corn supper anymore i promise.

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Sony DSC

Finally got the chance to post them online.

My sony DSC, thou not exactly the camera i wanted initially,

But still good enough for me to capture shots like below.

Post 324

I am still missing my hubhub badly,

Stacy said i've changed,

i feel that i was poisoned instead.

Never did she see i miss someone so badly before.

My eyes laid on no one.

Simply,

you've got my heart and in my eyes,

no one seems to be comparable to you my lovely.

We sent Shanghai girl home,

she stays in sengkang,

we drove pass your place,

and there is this feeling of me lying on ur bed,

even when you are not around,

there is this urged of lying on ur bed.

To make me imagine ur presence and fall asleep in that familar smell of urs.

I sound freako.

But that is what that comes into my mind.

thats how much i miss you.

I really miss you like hell,

and i am going mad.

This cant continue,

and i just want you,

you and only you.

Sometimes misses turns into tears in the middle of the night,

that's how bad i miss you.

You know i realised that i really cant live without you.

Post 323 - Girls out gathering

~ The girls out ~

My all time favourite
Me huixian and Joz
Still miss my hubhub so freaking much and i cant wait to hug him.

Count down + 1

Hubhub's return was delayed.
He will not be back tomorrow evening,
a total of 4 nights without my hubhub,
do you know how unbearable was that?

It terribly lousy . . .

PS: hubhub my daily missings for you, made me dream of you every other nights when you are away, i do not wish to wake up from my dream as thats the only way i stay connect with you in my dreamer's world. And I know i will dream of you tonight, Tomorrow night all the way till you are back in my arms once again.

check out my video bar

What ever hipcups i face,

i am true and i believe i can over come it.

In work, in whatever,

as long as i have to determination and faith.

i know i will.

Listen to this song fm my video bar,

taken fm the movie; Honey starring Jessica alba.

I've watched it more than 1o times.

Its a source of motivation for me :)

The Lyrics of the theme song:

They said you wouldnt make it so far

and ever since they said it,

it's been hard

but nevermind the nights you had to cry cause you have never let it go inside you.

You worked real hard and you know exactly what you want and need

You can reach your goals,

Just talk to your soul and say

I believe i can

I believe i will

I believe i know my dreams are real

I believe i'll stand

I believe i'll dance

I believe i'll grow real soon

That is what I do believe

Your goals are just a thing in your soul

You know that your moves will let them show

You keep creating pictures in your mind

So just believe they will come true in time

It will be fine

Leave all of your cares and stress behind

Just let it goLet the music flow inside

Forget all your pain

And just start to believe

Nevermind what people say

Hold your head high and turn away

With all our hopes and dreams

I will believe

Even though it seems it's not for me

I won't give up

I'll keep it up

Look into the sky

I

will achieve all my needs

I will always believe

Post 310

I believe from the theme song of honey,

I love this song

try listening to the lyrics,

its hardwork.

Nothing comes by easy.

Probably there is a sprinkle of luck,

but eventually,

its hardwork which create the chance.

200 pound beauty,

one of my favourite movie,

the only Korean movie i watched so far.

The pain of staying beautiful the endurance and the understanding of people to undergo those pains which gives great returns in the end.

Call back

The call back of my hubhub makes me jumped up with joy,

Hubhub is so adorable,

i was re joyed when he says:

我好想你哦，我们成家吧!

Its the thoughts that makes me feel so heart warming;

and i will definitely want to be the little house woman of yours.

To love him with all i can for the rest of my life.

It is a strange and unexplainable feeling,

never in my life i had such a strong and determined sixth sense to setter down with someone.

Its purely out of love,

to build and create a life and joy of our own.

Sharing the woes and joy,

walking side by side,

pacing with each other

and

adore each other with care and love.

In fact we do not need posh and extravaganza ways of living to make us happy.

Simple lovely little dishes and meals or a priceless walk along the bay against the breeze is good enough for me.

Hubhub : : wifey miss you so much !!

Madness

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Empty

Its a cheerless empty feeling without my hubhub by my side.

The moment he kiss me goodbye this morning,

i knew i gotta miss him madly.

I feel so aimless and my talks revolves around him,

and i really do miss him so much.

I found out that he is the fruit of happiness and motivation in my life.

Although I have my friends to keep me occupied this evening,

but misses for you are just infinite.

I am freaking hell tired for the day with just an hour of sleep last night by your side.

But i am sure that if are back at this timing,

i will flew straight into your arms no matter how tired i am.

You are in my mind more often then you know . . .

Please release my emptiness and be back into my arms soon.

2 days countdown

Measure love

We cant possibly measure love,

but through the months of sugar rushes,

i realised Hubhub really loves me alot.

Especially the way he hugs me this morning before he outstation for work once again,

I knew what he propose the other night wasn't for the fun of it.

In merely months our topic of discussions switches from surface fun talk to in-depth,

In fact there is a glimpse of marriage,

and thats something i didn't expect in us from the start.

Simply we grew from mutual liking to comfortability love and family.