Do and dont

There is alot of things i would want to do and many donts i wouldnt want to persist anymore. I will love myself more and have more things to occupy myself with rather than doing some stuffs which others may find it silly enough for a commoner would want to do and stress over it. I would not want to look into his phone or neither being so worried about whatever things he want to do. It concerns me, but its out of my reach to reform anything i have come to realise it. The more i care, the more unhappy and argument it will just lead us to.

I 'hv come to a conclusion nothing will change. I'll just have to accept it or to leave it. In my case where i have choose to accept it, i'll have to stop anything which will cause more miseries to myself or to others. I do not have the power to do anything about whatever it is.

I have been updating my joy and realise its half gone, may it be crap or nonsense i wrote in there as much as i m concern we cannot compare.

He is doing the best he can and its utterly unreasonable for me to ask for more and more. If that could be the best he does, i should be glad he treats me better than anyone he came across in his life. Learning to accept the flaws and accelerate on the better points he had.

Thats life it would be miserable if one keep comparing with the past and draw a benchmark which makes up to a good or bad. Its up to ones ability. Its up to my ability as well.

All i wish is to reduce any misunderstanding we could possibly have. Try not to pin point onto the bad where initially at the start of the relationship no one would want to do that. Its a personal liking and style one would like to be comfortable with, no rights or wrong. I just hope to move on towards a better future with more selfless and less selfishness in every phase of it.