To and fro and to

Woke up in the morning realised i didnt call to wake my tong tong up, i jumped up grabbed my cellphone and smsed him immediately. Thank god he is awake le. He told me he's going down to office to sign the contact and will be meeting me for lunch and do some shopping together. It was 10am in the morning. I foresee that it will take at least a few hours but tong tong assured me that he can leave after he signed the contact. Well since he put this up i wont want to object him even thought i know its quite impossible to sign any contact without briefing. He is the kind of person, he believed in himself too much and at times wont even take others advise into consideration.

He told me off saying why didnt i tell him that. In my mind i was wondering, would u listen? didnt i told u lets meet at 3?

This suddenly came into my mind. He told me his family has gone no objection for him to stay out late, go drink or what so ever. Hearing his dad nagging at him for drinking so frequently was that so? They told him off ample times, its obvious he just turn deaf ears.

For so many years of naggings for the things he did, did he change? the answer is no. Knowing me for less than a yr, my words do hold a weight in him? I dont dare to say. Sometimes yes and sometimes no.

He feels that I am stupid. I dont say something smart but i say things due to my past experiences. There's quite a number of occasions where he doubt my ability. Those words really do cut. He doubt with my stupidness how the hell i got into the university. He did say that to me. He used to say i use my wit on a different matter. Frankly speaking i dont really wish to use my wit on u. Its real scary when a woman would wan to start to plot and narrates a story.

He can be very loving at times, he's sweet, he pours water for me, pat pat me to sleep, bring me herbal tea, peel da hao da for me and many many more. I really love those time.

He does have his silly times but did he realise did i once complain or grumble about that? He is the kind of person who would want pple to remind him of what is right or wrong, what he can do and what he cant. I wont do that just like how people around you did, I believe you are old enough to think and judge what is to do and not to do. I realised even by saying or telling you what, you wont take into account, so why waste my breathe. You know the pain when you do it, learn from it and not to repeat the same mistake again. So many years of ur parents shouting screaming and stuffs they dont reform you. So bottom line screaming and shouting doesnt help.

I hope i can be the one whom he will really grow up and be a man with. One day he will be sensible enough to tell me and show me, he has reform into a man, a better man who will care and love most importantly to think before he speaks.

I do not know will i be the woman who will be till the end with him but at least for the moment, i just wanna support him and be there for him. Maybe one day god decide to take me away without any warning.