I learn to forget

I learn to forget,

Forget those unpleasant and things not within my means of control.

The reason is not that i cant be bothered ab it as i always said to people.

Its beyond what i can do.

The only way is to search for alternative psychological fulfil in work than to think about things not within my control.

Be indolent

Its a heart felt feeling of unwanted.

Anyway,

Its just a thought,

Wake up tomorrow,

This feeling will be gone.

I had a dream last night.

I was lying in the jacuzzi pool above marriot,

I think i really need to getaway alone.

I need to travel,

To throw all those unpleasant and negative feelings away.

To alot out there,

I know, they just want me when they need me.

Other than that I am just an extra to some.

The feeling of, being needed or wanted.

I dont want myself to fall into that category of his to be needed thats why I am by his side.

Other than that,

I am just a nobody.

Even when we talked about love,

What is there love to say?

I am losing all the feelings towards him,

I cant even tell if i stay by him because he needs me,

or i do love him alot?

Alot of question marks.

But when ever am with my bitches i tend to forget all these negative feelings inside me.

At this moment,

I really cant tell,

If i still love him that much?

Or we are just wasting our time away.

Its just an empty feeling with nothing at all.

I am just so handicap in this game called "Love"

Gimme a break!!

+ calling for my female buddies+

Trip to Okinawa this summer?

Buzz me.

Be my company

I will b making my booking of trip end of this mid april.

Pls do let me know.

Flying off mid May

For those who are unaware of my disappearing act this may?

I am on a pondering trip to Okinawa.