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I do not long for a perfect relationship, but i am unsure of what will be the outcome of the current. I do not force nor pressure on the other party. We are all adults and no adults would want themselves to be reprimand like kids. Adults will understand what is right and wrong to do. I do not want to fall into that kind of predicament of ignoring anymore. I really do care alot but somehow when caring for someone becomes a pressure, it's definately hard to digest for the both parties. No one want to fail in their relationships so do i. All i want is him to do the right things without much naggings, in school or at work.

I am pretty worried for him, somehow the drive in him had long left since Eugene signed on the dotted line. That was when the last passion left a trail on him. All i want to see in him is simply being independent, considerate and a more caring him. I am not someone who need her bf to be around her 24/7, but the least more sense of "automatic-ness" when it comes to work and play.

He used to be a Yes person, an incident converted him into a No person. Months after being a No person he differentiated back to being a Yes person again. Even thou, he is more focus on relationship now and i hope that applies for the future as well. I really hope that he can be the last man in my life as i am so tired of falling in and out of relationship, its get even more tedious when all my relationships last for at least 2 years. I do not ask for much just a nice warm shoulders to rely on when i am tired, not a shoulder which gives me more stress when i m mentally and physically drained.

Hopefully he can be the one and for those promises made fulfilled.