Sunday, July 31, 2011

Day 399

Met shane today, and I really find him attractive. Especially knowing that he was the one who went mountain climbing in Tibet with daddy kong. He's an american boy, and he has his birthday today. So he is a Leo. ^^ You know leos always have their charisma to attract me to them, think about my daddy kong - Leo, Arvin - Leo, Luoyi - Leo, Eddie - Leo, Shane - Leo, my buddy zhong - Leo. Myself who is also a Leo. I love Leos for their confident and a different sets of air they have. Shane and I went back together as we stay a stone throw away from each other. He really has the drives, and determination. Daddy kong wanted to give up in Mount Congo, if not for Shane, they wouldnt have reach the top. Meaning Shane is an overcomer. He has the mind to take extreme weather conditions and negative tombstones they encountered along the way and sees in faith a different sets of motivations. I am very impress with this guy, seriously. And he is really good looking, well built, tall and he seems to love playing monopoly deal with bubu. Lets see how this friendship will grow into. If you realised, I have not spoken so highly about someone for a period of time coming. This guy really impressed me by doing nothing. Wow. . . . 

Saturday, July 30, 2011

Is craving

Qiqi is craving for Laksa, Sashimi, udon and the cute sushi chef at the counter. I am going to eat sushi until at Suntec everyweek till he talks to me. I dont like suitors, so seriously . . . . I prefer going after man, this is more challenging. HAHA . . The only boyfriend that I didnt chu pattern to go after is only Luoyi, because in the first place he was the least appealing to me. Never intended to hold his hands, never intended to kiss him, and pretty seriously dont like his category of so insincere guys. He is the least appeal in fact. I like cute de, and luoyi is not cute at all. . . But the tables got turn around, and it seems like, shitz, I am stucked to him this lifetime. I think its er xin in a way, and I think chou chou feels that too . . 

Day 397

In house scouting, I was telling LN to get the sunny cove, the house where they found the dead China woman lying in the swimming pool. Its so much cheaper and can bargain further more as the property market is really plunging. Guess what, he told me crazy la got ghost. My eyes went straight and glared away, such a big size man, Taewondo black belt at least 2nd done, scare of ghost? Seriously, ghost? Tell me something, is it because I am too bold or the man is weak? In fact zhong and I met the ghostly stuffs for a couple of times. But we are the totally bo chup. I met once when I was with Luoyi, but I didnt tell him. I have the tendency to give a ultra bo chup one line eyes when appeared, if they distrubed me, I give warning first, : You better get lost before I open my mouth. Ghosts are so much friendlier than demons, wait you u meet demons, then you know what is call sweat. Their differences are ghosts normally wont retaliate, they just stand quietly by themselves, or maybe sing or float abit. Try dealing with demons, you scold them, they scold you back, you tell them to get lost, they say, I'll kill you. I am still stuck with one inside me, so sometimes I'll get abit silly especially when I drink. Many of u guys encountered that before. So in future if you met up with ghost, just thank God, its casper the friendly ghost not demons. 

Friday, July 29, 2011

Day 396

It's a very busy week for me! For this as well as for the next. Festival of Praise is coming next week, Leonard and Kelly is coming with me. With all the busy schedules next week from Monday all the way till Sunday. Lili is moving house, and so sweet of her for having the thought to give her new house keys to me, so I nua in her place anytime I like. My hubhub's birthday is coming, next week, Father I miss my beloved Chou chou. How come the nicer my suitors turned up to be, the more I miss my chouchou? Father, Sentosa cove and Maserati you know. They must be temptations and I shall not be tempted. Seriously, I still dont understand why will people want to go after me? I am so mean towards them. ? I dont know. For hubhub I can still understand why he see me different. But for other guys, deducting Arvin away for he knows me so well. What is impressive about me? Especially when I dont doll up that much anymore. But now I have the kind of Genki like what hubhub always describes. 

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Facebook

Search me on facebook @ username Seven Kaiqi, but fyi, my facebook will be inactive till the 15th of August. I'll resume interactiveness after end 15th August. 

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Day 395

Dear Father, today is my little brother Arv 2nd day of work, may you shower him with favour in his workplace and show him your way in the workplace. Father, I have a few questions for you. Who are the people you kept sending into my life? It seems like they want to date me. Some even go far to the extend of telling me, Father you are the one who led them to me. I find it really absurb, they just know I love you God, and they conveniently just used your name. But I know lord, you are using me to be your mouth piece and reflect in my life as well as in character who you really are. Thank you lord for giving me this gift to read people's motives that I can be as shrew as a serpent. Some are just interested in me, because I am so hard to get. Whatever pattern all come out already. Thank God for Luoyi, I am totally immused to whatever worldly ways these people used to impress me. Sorry to remark, I find them stupid. =.=!? What has sandy island in Sentosa cove has to do with me, I am least impressed at all. I have not seen a man cry in front of me for the longest time, why not you cry? Than showing me to whatever Sentosa cove house? Shallow isnt it? and Seven is a super tough nut to crack isnt it? My chou chou must be thinking, qiqi also not pretty, why so many guys going after her? 

Day 394

生日快乐,今年的生日,我告诉上帝,父啊,我还是那么的爱我的臭臭。。臭臭,你有想我吗?应为我天天都在想你。。 我们之间的爱,不会再有第二个人会了解了。就只有你跟我,和我爱的上帝。 老爸,你会帮臭臭的对吗?让他勇敢的去面对一份得来不易的这种爱,让他不要害怕 :) 让他知道我们是对方的祝福。

Friday, July 22, 2011

Bamz

If you ever felt touch again, it wasn't me anymore. It is God Himself reaching out to your heart. He wants to nurse your insecurities and self doubts that you thought you cannot. He is going to restore you to who you will eventually be. Dont resist what is to melt all the hurts you faced as a child, as a growing youth, as a teenager or an adult. He is going to heal them all and restore back what the devil has stolen away from you. You may even tear and you do not know why. For when the Spirit of God is circumsizing your heart and doing His heart operation on you, you will turn soft and tender when He your creator is making wonders to your heart.  Just be open while He speaks to your heart. God does best when you are self reflecting. God loves you and He wants you to know you are His beloved child. Your time of experiencing God has reached His perfect timing. Enjoy the presence of God my Father and yours too. You will meet me again  when you learn to love God more than you love me. I am just a vessel God used to bring you back into His arms.

Day 393

Important :  Friends are important to me for without them, life wouldnt be worth living. Family is important to me for without them, there wouldnt be me. A husband is important to me for without him, my life cannot be complete. My church is important to me, for without it, I am at lost. Most importantly above all, God is the most important in my life, for without God all the below wouldnt be made possible. Thank you Father God, You are above all else.

Thursday, July 21, 2011

silly milly ly

!?! silly man, I know what is he thinking .. But he dont know what am I thinking .. Hellooooow ... He didnt realised one thing, I'll never want to date him again and he can never date me again. If you are thinking that I am making things difficult for my suitors, for chouchou maybe it will be 10x more difficult bah. Know him too well and all his stunts doesnt work on me anymore. I know I am definately worth it, and I am not looking for a wimp but a warrior. I am looking for someone who will love my madness. Will you?  I find it really cute and funny when he is struggling with something against his own feelings. Struggles are good, my Jesus told me. Struggles will make clear what you want in life. I am super clear with what I want in life. Its your turn chou chou. Chou until max ah .. Your turn to grow stronger and happier now. 左脚右脚一步一步就好,一步一步来 。。。AH-HA.XOXO..

Angel 天使

I upgraded and became an angel. Helloooooo, +speaking in Babarella's tone,  Chouchourella is no longer a silly silly, my G.O.D says I am an angelllll . . . . His angel to many broken hearts. Chouchourella is now a counselor to the broken hearted and the discouraged. And chouchourella is not going to runaway anymore like the Jonah in the bible, who got swallowed by a big fish. She will be a pasta (Pastor) one day. No more running away . . . . . . +swing swing shoulders. Good night. + back to the normal mode. Snores. X.O.X.O I am going to love my new diamond cross necklace from my spiritual family! X.O.X.O  LOVE U MANY MANYYYYY.... CHOU PIG HEAD! WAKE UP SOON OK.

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

今天我想了想,我的存在到底是给我的臭臭快乐吗?还是一脸的自责?我不想我的臭臭不快乐。

City Noose

Check this out ! Its done by the youths!


I have never been to youth camps or church camps.
This is how youth camps should be like.

Still/Be Still My Soul

Day 392

Day 392

Finding the ultimate refuge

I had been reading this book and is revelating from this chapter "That sinking feeling"

At some point of time in our lives, we will come to a point of sinking feeling.

In the cave where King David was, David said to God, You are my refuge. Of course we know the rest of the story that David didnt die in the cave. We know there is a crown ahead of him. Eventually he became one of the heros of faith in the written bible.

We know the story but David does not. For all he knows, this cave is as good as it is going to get. But he makes a discovery. For he has a refuge.

Sometimes when we are in a cave, and no human action is able to get you out of it, There is something you can't fix, cant heal, or can't escape, all you can do is to trust onto certain promises made by God. In my context, I trust God, not because of I am a christian, it is because He found me sitting in my own cave crying one day.

In life, everybody has their own God, or a refuge to seek in. I am not an extreme believer nor am I an ageist. I reasons and walk my own path of faith with one only underlyning reason, my encounter with my almighty Father, Spirit and Son.

Finding the ultimate refuge for me is in my God meaning, I am so immersed in his presence, so convinced of his goodness, and so devoted to his lordship that I find the cave is perfectly safe place to dwell in for he is here with me.

Coming back to a story I read,

Here's a story about a man who attended a graduate school in psychology and wanted to get married. He was quite healthy himself emotionally but seemed to attract dating partners who are not serious. This became discouraging after awhile. He was in the dating cave. When he became an university professor, he used to teach abnormal psychopathology with a twist. He would illustrate each major catergory of psychopathology by describing one of his girlfriends. It was one fo the most highly attended classes in the campus. He refused to make a foolish choice to get married for the sake of getting married. He just waited patiently on the Lord.

He finally met a girl who would become his wife, she was vibrant, a devoted christian and an emotional healthy person with superb relational skills. She, like him had a Ph.D in clinical psychology. This man finally emerged from the cave. But it was not the last time he would find himself there.

After they were married, the they wanted to have children very much. But she had breast cancer. It looked as though it is not going to happen. It was cave time again. But then she recovered! Their time in the cave was over. Eventually they had a beautiful baby girl.

A few years later they had another child. After 7 years her breast cancer returned. This time it was in her bones and inoperable. And on the answering machine, when she left the message along with pain, anxiety and fear, this is what she expressed:

"I have never felt God's presence more strongly or have been more sure of God's goodness than I am now"

This lady said the same statment of what Jayesslee had said when their mom were suffering from cancer.

Likewise for myself,

I have never felt the strong presence of God if not for the past life and death tribulants I've went through. God is good and he is always good.

Sometimes there is no way out of the cave. In those times all you can do is find refuge in God. Then you come to learn that God knows about caves. Because Jesus suffered like us and for us. The son of David understood that sinking feeling more than David did. No one has ever descended the way Jesus did.

Jesus not only lost his position and status as a well known teacher, his safety and security. He lost not only his best friend, but all his friends, in spite of his teachings and warnings. His life too was endangered.

His failure got worst. He went to the cross and he died. All his dreams all all the dreams inspired, appeared to die with him. What started as a shining success ended in an ignoble failure.

Dear all friends, no matter what you are facing today that you maybe in a certain kind of cave, there is hope. Because you are still alive. Your story hasn't end.

For when the body of Jesus is put in a cave, that was their biggest mistake. His body was there for 3 days. But they could not keep him there. They forgot that God does some of his best work in caves. The cave is where God resurrects dead things.

I do not know what cave you are in right now, maybe a dead relationship; disappointment in your partner; a lost of dream; a dying hope or broken marriage, thinking that you are facing a dead end. Maybe it has become apparent that the greatest longing of your life will never see the light of day.

I want to encourage you, there is hope. For in whatever dead situations we are in, there is a God up there, waiting for your signal to surrender your dead situations into his hands, in await of resuraction.

Maybe like me, you see an end in certain areas of your life, but I want to tell you today, if a plain common jane like me didn't give up. Don't give up too.

Here's my little prayer,

God,

I trust in you and I know and I know there is nothing you cannot do. Come and meet me this cave, give me an encounter with you, show me the way and I will walk. Breathe life into the things that I thought they were dead, bring them to life again. I commit my situations into your hands. Walk with me, so I do not give up. In Jesus name, Amen.

Credit this blogpost ot John Ortberg. If you want to walk on water, you've got to get out of the boat.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Day 391 the continual part

I beginning to see cycles of his life repeating and repeating and repeating. Physically people may see an improving man. But for what I saw, =.=!! It relates back to Love Genesis, this stupid word Chou chou mentioned when we broke up for the first time after 8 months of our relationship. To puzzle everything back, it comes to make sense. How amazing my memories are, wow the scene can even be reacted out. Pieces and puzzles made me feel even more for him. Those kind of insecurities sub consciously seeded in him since young. He is a super big boy who ought to be dote. It was the Love Genesis episode that he said, why do I give him a feeling and the feeling is home. Love Genesis is the first analogy he gave to officially broke up for the first time, and it was subsequently the more breakups we had, the stronger our relationship went. After more physical experiences and emotional challenges, more or less, it concrete certain things in us. It somehow shaped the both of us in some kind of path we didnt expect.

Monday, July 18, 2011

Day 391

It all went back from love Genesis. There was this man who spoke to me about love Genesis in year 2009 or even maybe 2008. Love Genesis. It was only few weeks ago I undercover the books of Genesis and Exodus once again. It says in Genesis, The earth was void and empty ( Refering to me, void meaning nothing and broken. Empty meaning, everything was thrown out of sight ) Remember that phase of my life? Back to Genesis, and the God feels light is good and He said let there be light and there is light. ( Me again, when I saw darkness, God spoke light, and Jesus came. He shone as the light and darkness just disappeared ) Then while reading, Holy spirit spoke, Love Genesis. Sounds familar. Again . . . . Love Genesis . . . oh, Chou ren. . . . . .  why must everything has some relation with him, I asked. So not very creative. Why cant my life get done with him. I am getting bored and Chou chou is not getting any interesting to me. Nothing of him seems changing. Not for the better and not for the worst. That is the boring part. . . . . OK I'VE REACHED MY SENTOSA, TO BE CONTINUE . . . .

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Commercial shoots

Once again, I am recognised for some commercial shoots =.=!! But the question is that wasn't me. I am really curious of where they saw these commercial standees or shoots, who do I look alike? I was walking around in my ministry last weekend and members whom I bumped onto just tapped me saying : hey sis, nice commerical shoot. . . . and my face went =.=!! since when? Once I was even being recognise as a pagnent queen, but seriously since when I took part in pagnents? I went for events and I receive casting invitations on roles and commericals, they just asked me which agency do I belongs to. And I gave a real spontaneous answer, AIA SP-Terence Kong, I sell life insurance! But truly, if I will to take part in a pagnent one day, that will be MRS UNIVERSE or something! More interested in some hot mama pagnent than those whore for fame stuffs.  Teehee!

Is getting excited over our new 'Prada' like hospitality uniform designed by Sun ^^ We're all gotta look so sharp in our new uniform.

Monday, July 11, 2011

We are happy as a family


We are happy as a family!
Elijah of the cover of Straits times!
A miracle boy of Suzanne, a young social entrepreneur of our times and my partner in Asia Conference 2nd violinist.

Elijah, we are all so proud of you to shine on for God!

周杰倫


I am not his fans,
but I want to hear his story,
a true story of his.
To me, he is a testimony of faith
I want to listen to his testimony of faith
and
I will meet him one day and hear his story face to face.
Thank you God for Ps Abraham koo in Newlife church Taiwan. 

Jay Chou


Say Good Bye

MV: เธอไม่เคยเป็นแฟนเก่า by Dr.Fuu


This is a beautiful song,
I was watching its MV in ooosh.
KT was the one who showed me this video.
I am really happy for my bible study student KT.
They are a group of youth at risk,
youth who just came out boys and girls home.

They are a group of young adults, youth of age 18 - 20,
God put them into my hands to love them and to care for them.
In my eyes they are never bad children, although that they have done wrong in the past,
but in the eyes of our loving father, they are good children.
Every single one is given a 2nd life to live on for.

KT received a miracle from God,
and we understand that when we trust in Him, 
he will create miracles in our lives.

KT was given a 2nd chance,
a chance to live again.

God gave KT a new home, a shelter a new heart and a new life to live.
Thank you father for helping my students,
thank you God for answering my prayers.
Amen. 

Lord I thank you for Perry and Sherry who started Ooosh Academy,
lord today I want to pray for Ooosh that lord you continue using them in your kingdom to attain the higher purpose in their lives.
In reaching, caring and transforming a community,
to shower love and hope into a community of desolate and hopeless.

Giving Hope. Love. Care. Transform.

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Off The Pill - Farts


Hey, I am the Ninja F-A-R-T
This guy is really cute!

江蕙~家後

Thank you


Thank you for all your love ^^
loves

Slient prayers getting answered


Faith can do miracles
Impossible is just a reason you gave yourself so you can give up
I will not give up and I will never!

A place I call home


A place I call home,
City Harvest Church
An awesome place to be with every Saturday evening without fail.

A place I found my positive energy,
a home my heart belongs.

Monday, July 4, 2011

mom is so cute

In a convo with mom last night and I cant believe what I heard. We were having a conversation about luoyi and guess what she said.? She said, one day I will have the power to wake up the commitment man sound asleep in him because you really love him so much. I went wow . . . . . . She said, no matter what is the outcome in future, I am already the victor, these kind of love and responses truly shape a real strong character in me. That really came out from my mom's mouth? Mom is for the fact to see I love this man so much, she learns from me and said, she try loving dad more. That is so sweet.  

Day 390

Day 390

Good news Versus Bad news

I am pretty nonchalant about things as such anymore, what mean a good news or a bad news to me?

Growing up, I always liked good news and bad news stories where details keep turning the story from a triumph to tragedy and back.

I always have the tendency of this blessings in disguise mind concept. This theory evolved into a different kind of self concept I internalised after I met Jesus.

As I read the bible as often as I can, I picked up alot of examples which is worth my study as I mature spiritually and wholesomely.

There's a reason why I love Joseph, son of Jacob in the bible. He is my favourite Hero of Faith. I do exampled my life over his in fact.

Take Joseph into the contemporary world.

1. Joseph is his daddy's favourite -  Very Good
2. He is a dreamer, he has a crazy mad dream - Very Mad
3. But his brothers hate him due to the favouritee - Very Bad
4. When Joseph speak his dream is to rescue his brothers and save them the brothers turned - Very very mad
5. Being the favourite, daddy gives him a beautiful coat meaning authority - Very Good
6. But his bothers hated that and ripped of and cover it with blood, pretend that he is dead - Very Bad
7. He landed in a job in Silicon valley working for mircosoft, due to his great attitude, he became the managing direction and is on the cover of Forbes and Business week. Plus he is so good looking sort of better than Tom Cruise, but taller and better looking - Super Good
8. The CEO's wife thinks he is good looking and tries to seduce him - Very Bad
9. Joseph resisted - Very Good
10. But the wife became furious, lied to her husband and get Joseph arrested - Very Bad
11. In the prison Joseph met a royal butler, interpreted his dream and got him out of jail - Very Good
12. The royal bulter got out of jail but forgotten about Joseph - Very Bad
13. 2 years later, the bulter remembered Joseph and brought him to President Obama - Very Good
14. Joseph became the prime minister and the best 2nd man to the President - Very Good
15. Joseph stores up reserve for the economical crisis - Very Good
16. Joseph uses the reserves and saved his whole family including his brothers who tried to kill him - Dream restored and calling fulfilled.

So, what matters in any good or bad news story is the last turn. How does it end? If it ends with good news, the entire story gets redeemed. All bad news is seen in a new light. What matters in when we walk till the end of our road living a dream restored and blessings redeemed. What even seems mad and crazy now have its power to be a dream restored and calling fulfilled.

Friday, July 1, 2011

Day 389

Spend a day with myself yesterday doing my self reflections upon the wrongs I did. A day filled with guilt and self condemnation. A day filled with anger and hurts. I almost crashed the car 2 days ago and I had been on a constant guilt of why I even allow that incident to even take place. Guilt over I did wrong. I know I did wrong, I really do. I gave my driver's liscense away out of my own accord. I wouldnt be driving for the time being. Dont misunderstand this statement, my driver's liscence is not revoked. I just  gave it to Elwin. I know he will keep it for me. What hurt me were the words, now I truly understands how powerful words can be. They can be daggers that dug straight into your heart. Actions can be remedy with a series of sincerity of apologises. I apologised sincerely to my dad and he told its ok just dont do it again. No smoking in the car and no more drink driving. The worst hurt I've been struggling now is disappointment. After all the anger and stupid stuffs I created for myself, I am already with so much of self anger, self resendment and disappointment with myself. Probably the last thing I want to hear is someone rubbing salt to my wound. I took on another hurt when I was self recuperating. Or maybe I am expecting something else. Some words of care rather than condemnation. Maybe a word of concern rather than daggers of wound opening disappointments wrongs, in which I am already suffering badly from. I know I've create a vast disappointment, its done, and there's nothing I can possibly do to undo it. Its a wrong, and I fully take accountabilty for that. Words either encourage or hurt. And only words from those whom you care about, hurts. I am not blaming nor am I grumbling here. Because I am just not prepared those texted words is creating such a vast effect on me. I am taking some time off. When I ressuract with new strength, I will strike that barrier off and elevate. I am just too weak to do it now.