I do not understand

I do not understand why is he pissed when i didnt went down with him for his appointment?

I do not understand.

I do not understand why

I helped you with what ever I can,

Yet you are pissed with me for not accompanying you for your appointment.

It is my fault for not doing enough?

Why do you blame me for not helping you with ur stuffs instead i was watching tv.

Please tell me how to help.

You are just vexed over ur busy and frustrated with ur work and stuffs.

Is it my fault or am i not helpful enough?

I am pretty piss, unhappy and sad.

Isnt i myself is doing all these all by myself?

Prepare everything

Do everything

I do vex and get frustrated over work or sch

Did i flare at you for these similar stuffs u did to me?

I really do not understand.

And I really cant be bothered to,

I am simply too tired to do that.

Ninety-Four

In my ninety-fourI just looked through my cellphone and realised that i'hv taken a sumptuous amount of interesting pictures which now finally have got the time to load it up.

This is my new workplace

My new office at TPY.

Looking down from the window of a MDRT Table.

Those award and recognition will be mine one day.

Working as a Financial Planner in MAnulife.

Thanks for the support my dear ones.

Here's the personalise *Thank You* postcard i made.

Stranger who became my client.

Friends who became my client.

You'll receive it Soon.

Taken while i was smoking at the fountain at bugis.

Stacy, kang kang and I went out for dinner on the 15/1

stacy brought me for yummy desserts

Sorry, i didnt have the pictures

*I should take a pic of that batman in the dessert store and

the boy who looks like a frog in green.

My dad's company dinner

It very comical

Look at our paper product hanging on top.

Its definately a pretty rare sight.

Last but not least we invited

*Ge Tai*

while having dinner and

Boy is the star who got 5 Angbao after his courage to sing on the stage.

Dad did a thank you speech as well thanking my mum.

I did record it up but i do not know how to post it up.

Its kinda touching as well.

This is what he said" I want to the person who had been sleeping beside me for the past 27 years"

This is during the first day of school and the one is white is my dubee darling.

The one below is my MomoButa pencil case. He gave way and i have got no choice but to replace a new one. My lovely Momobuta, accompanying me throughout my poly days.

This is my new pencil case. Its hand sewed ok. But not by me. So cute right, it makes me laugh everytime i sees it. And his name is called " Heee Heee " with the 3rd pitch of hanyu pinyin for the 1st "heeee" and 4th pitch for the 2nd "heeee".

Two Zero Zero Eight

2007 hasnt been a good year for me of course as many of my close ones should know. Not the toughest time throughout my life but somehow it really hit me hard. The pain of gaining and losing. The pain of a sudden fall when ur at the peak. Its a roller coaster ride in my love life and school. Eventually everything is over. Toward the 3rd quarter of 2007 my life changed drastically. I found a fulfilling job which i love, the social life i can up-hold with and lastly the promised and the change i see in the love of my life.

Life had been so fulfilling and great which i cant seems to find a reason to be unhappy about. I told myself. I am going to sustain it. 2008 for me WILL definitely be a great year for me!

Here's some pics i got. Have fun 2008!!

Entry number 90

In this entry number 90,
I would like to thank my friends, the trust they have in me.
Friends and love ones who have the faith in me
All these faith accumulated and gave me the strength to pursue my dream to make it into reality.
My dream is no longer a dream.
I can make it come true.
Strangers who trust me and gave me a chance to do financial planning with them.

In this life till now,
2007 is coming to an end.
I know i am neglecting alot of my pals out there.
Job commitment and the responsibility for my current job.

I can tell everyone out there my job is so fulfilling.
Ting often laugh at me.
She said i fell in love with my job.
The passion i had is a relay.

I do feel dejected at times during rejects
Thank god i always do climb and re bounce back fast.
Those encouragement you guys gave me.
Thank you so much.

In this month of sharing,
i make a miss of the old folk home due to work.
I am sorry.

I will double it back during CNY.

Thanks my love

Thanks my love,
I really like my new watch.
Thanks for being so sweet as you know i love this watch.
I really appreciate it to the max my sweetie.
Thanks for all the effort.
From day 1 till now we are a year old.

Both of us did make changes for our future too tough to be pen down.
I really hope to hold ur hands,
walk down the years till old and grey.

I just approved the message you left on my friendster.
Thats really so so sweet of you.

I really do cherish us alot.
Thanks du bee.

Goals 2008

1. Quit Smoking
2.Pass all my modules
3.Maintain my job standard
4.Hit bonus for March
5.Qualify for the chairman circle
6. Convention to Rome 2009
7. 90 000 NAC
8. Go jogging 3 times a week
9. Have a substantial savings in my acct

Check this out!!

My boss Terence and me
Our Retro theme

Look at David's look

Bull Lee king and the village idiot

Mr Synergy and the 50s reporter Ah Seng

My love du pok and i

I love my job.
I really would like to thank my darling for introducing me into this job.
Doing financial planning for myself and the people around me.

To others
they might think its just another salesman job
but its otherwise to me.

My job is the prepare people for rainy days.
Its difficult to put it down in words.
Those people who knows me fairly knows what kind of a person i am
how true am i towards other people.

I guess its ab being sincere
as you guys know,
am allergic to hypocrites.

though there are days where i feel low.
people closest to me may disappoint me.
I am bless
i have my greatest asset of being jovial
which makes me cheerful everyday.
I really thank my mum of giving me such a character.

Dear all friends whom i neglected during my busy vacation.
Cya guys back in school 2008

I am working hard towards my goal.
People,
u'll soon see a change me
someone new!!

Annual planning Synergy

He is Varman

Our Mr SYNERGY

I'll tell you how.

Look at that Wig

and guess who

This is Varman
Me and my boo

Bintan Silk Disco

Check it out on the free flow

Our Retro theme night

Du bee and i

Thats my Ah beng boss

What a pic.

Look at that smile on David's face

The gang on the dance floor

Retro theme

Dear frnds,

no time to put on what have i been doing lately

i'll upload more pics

i took in bintan gala in my next post.

The deep

All along when i thought that i have put that fear and burden of past down. Things which happens still triggers the unhappy past which i choose d to escape. Deep in the the wound is never heal. From the past one year till now, and the incident i met months ago.

I supposed i am really badly scared emotionally. Once i thought i have walked out of that shadow but when the night falls at times emotions still flows and those wounds just stabbed me hard. I was view emotionally strong but i guess i am utterly beaten up once again by the when my heart aches and sour.

I hate this feeling totally! Faithless i guess no longer that person who hold her chin up high and tell herself she deserve to be love. The feeling is sort of, she dont want to fall again. The only way not to fall is to avoid.

I am getting sick and tired of something which i deem unfruitful. Remember the me 3 years back, all out for the search for her Mr Right but now, she dont even dare to step out an inch more. She is just too reluctant from her disappointing past. Its like she is just running on a treadmill at the same spot, perspiring and exhausted but she just couldnt get herself from point A to B. No matter how hard she tired there is a barrier the only way is only to persist and she dont even know why.

When everything comes to him, i just get nowhere and always place myself in a dilemma of not moving front or back. I know i had been grumbling alot to my ** i guess she had said what can. I just cant move on emotionally. I know there are times when i am unreasonable. Its the insecure me. In fact the real me is so shattered emotionally.

I just wish to be left alone, as the more i run and expect, the more exhausted i get. I am breathless, i just wish to get off the treadmill.

ITC

Training course had resulted in a dead beat me. Freaking hell tired for the past days. I managed to replenished my sleep last night for a total of 15hrs of sleep. I was awaken by an sms from Ming at 3.30pm, jieoing for Mambo tonight. Nope i turned it down and ended up hereby updating my bloggy.

In the day,

I went to school today to grab some files and staplets for my mum, packet dinner for them and headed back to their workplace. I saw my aunts in the workplace and told them i am working as an insurance agent now. Something which amused them and turned them away, anyway i do not have any intentions to sell it to them either and wont want to as well.

Save my saliva, pointless and i fairly know i do not need them to survive in this industry not to be sour, i do not want to waste my time to explain or persuade them, anyway my Million dollar round table (MDRT) auntie will service them well i hope.

When the possibility is an absolute zero u realized no matter how hard you input into it, it will always be = to zero. Especially in in this line. I do not know if cold calling helps or a wastage of my resources people are getting irritated by this cold calling stuffs and even when you are sincere not to sell anything, they are not there to response. Singaporeans are too immured.

April and Inez
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Dear all.
I will have a piano duet with my student Inez at Vivo on the 1st dec at 3pm. I guess i'll just have fun out there and most importantly to give more confident to Inez. April and the rest of the students from Magic Fiddler will be play violin and piano duet with Teacher Shirley.

The working life

Working life had started ever since i passed my insurance module 5 & 9. I'hv got my first official interview with my director and its time for my to run fast for my short term goal. I am not going to benchmark myself against anyone in the unit but to expect more from myself. A target i set which is different from what my manager had set for me.

I want to fly in that job and hopefully to be how i expect myself to be. There's something i wouldnt want to do, people my age is so difficult to get the message across, they just to understand why they should protect themselves from the risks they face.

True enough we are young, and most of us would feel, its not applicable or most of them feels that they had enough protection which is not true at all.

I had been thinking this problem, that a friend of mine, i shall name her "J" born in the yr 82. She is suffering from leukemia for the past 3 yrs. Still surviving. Its sad to see her party and drink as hard as she can, to her, life is no longer meaningful. She was only 21 when she was diagnosed. She is not really that close to me, she is my buddy's ex gf to be exact. "J" was still looking for a suitable bone marrow, she was lucky i think because if she has a rich dad who pays $8600 every month for her treatment. This really makes me ponder as, if she has a poor dad maybe she had died long ago.

dragged for 3 yrs and my buddy said; wah if she is a healthy person she would have get a new car every yr.

Its Nov

Had been awhile since i last up dated my blog. Exams and more exams are driving me crazy. I'hv lose track of time and there's a dozen of unsolved problem. True enough i didnt use pragmatic ways to solve it rather i'hv choosed to sweep it under the carpet.

There are indifference in the style of living the way of attitude towards what ever things that happens. I have come to realize what are the things i may be longing for and what are the things i cant expect on.

Those things i missed in the past, things i'hv gotten now. Things i've lose and gain. I just hope and wish that things will go on fine with lesser conflicts and a more promising future.

Painful

Hey people.
I sprained my ankle today while lunching at Holland V.

This is how the story goes.
After lunching mouth watering Lasak with my clicks at 323 ,
We'll about to leave,
I reached out for my freaking heavy textbook on the next table,
Yup, i saw the steps in front of me.
BUT i didnt realise its TWO steps rather than a single one.

As expected i missed the step and
* Pum*
Its freaking painful where i cant even pick myself up initially.

Somehow,
i do not know why i still managed to grab my stupid text and
dragged myself to the nearest stool.

At that point,
*Wah Lao eh*

Really feel like crying man!
*Well its just a thought*

**- Thanks Eugene for getting me the ice bag which ease the pain a little.

I twisted my foot a little here and there,
erm not as bad as i thought.

Probably its just a sprain without some serious fractured to whatsoever.
Thanks to my Angels.
(Invisible or visible)

I survived.
I strolled to the cab stand to grab a cab,
Saw someone selling tissue paper on a wheel chair.

I felt so blessed.
And i gave $2 to him.

As a gratitude may it be blessed or lucky of surviving the ordeal of " spraining ankle incident"

Thou after all when i reach darling's home,
i did tear a little,
he wasnt in a good mood,
somehow i pissed him off and everybody pissed him off.
He was foul.
He received stupid calls of somewhere's NETS machine got a problem and ask him to repair it.

Too Bad he didnt understand the "law of attractions"
I did.

So at the end of today.
I round myself off.

I had a happy day!

New Hair Cut

Dear all friends,

Here are some updates.

Am sorry i do not have the time to pen down all my thoughts.

Exams are hitting end of this month.

Do wish me good Luck!!

Work Hard all my party animals muggers.

Lol~..~

And I'hv got a new hair Cut.

I am soon joining a professional industry :p

I need a new hair cut.

And its done!!

Gimme some comment yup!!

View my hair style timeline

3 Months Ago....

6 months ago......
2 months ago....
Last month Sept

She has got a new hair cut

A change of style finally.

Here's some update

Hey there,

rocking on the floor,
Stacy's Birthday in the House

It Party World
With the usual gang of suspects

S.H.E
Definition:
S[si kin na]. H[hum ji kia]. E[eh ni pui]

Thats his usual look
dont be afraid.

Why are we smiling so happily
when a 100ton human is weighted onto us?

Friendly Drivers V.S

Cocky Drivers

Jason: Hey! we must sing with more feelings.
Seven: Then do what
Jason: Lets stand on the sofa

Seven: Its rather lame, Let come down

The past week

Haven been updating since weeks, projects are killing me off and am rushing projects after projects like mad dog. Work load got even heavier when one of the group mate play us off.

How i will hope that i can give her a penalty red card and out she goes. As how she convey the message, she had got no intention and wont even bother if she pass or fail any modules. She just cant seems to bother. Her mind was set to forsake school and swirl in the agony world of hers, blaming onto thing that she cannot be undone. We have done what we can to talk her around. And Hello! pls everyone has got their own sets of problem, do what an adult should do and stop behaving like some teens.

As what i'hv learn dont expect what others can. Expect what you can.

The amount of work to complete. I had been slogging hard since last Sunday. It was freaking hell stress when we afraid that our project cant be handed in on time which's dateline was Friday 21/9. By hook or by crude we still got it handed in on the dot.

That moment~ a sigh of relieve. I was freaking happy we did managed to hand in what we can squeeze out of the few days. I was still in the mode of my DC project even after the submission. My mind cant function, I was so hell tired, but i couldnt sleep. I cant imagine we really did it. *Well done my dear punch chest brothers and sisters*

We were stuck together for the past 4 days,
seeing you me and still you for 12 hours or more a day.
We did not replenish our sleep.
We simply have got no time to.

My apologies if i did raise my voice,
or be unreasonable during our meeting.
At that point of time i was just too anxious to get work done.

Thank you: WeiPing, April and Gavin
I really appreciate the help of you guys.

Stacy and Jason: We did it!
*Punch chest*
Great to have ku ku friends like you pple.

My Du bee: *Hugs* Thanks for all those nights.
Sleeping late.
Cooking noodles for me 3am in the morning.
Editing of our project till wee morning.

I must be really bless to have so many angels in my life.

**By the way people I am a qualified driver now**

I'hv Learned

Dont expect what others can.
Expect on what you can.

Dont rely on what u think others can,
See upon what u achieve.

Dont blame others for what they dont see,
Just a pity,
They just dont love themselves enough.

Dont vex over things u cant get,
There may be better ones on the other end.

Dont make urself unhappy,
Its doesnt solve any problem

You wont want to reach the peak within a short period.
Cause, you know it will be a deadly if u happens to fall.

People fell and stood up ample times,
They learned,
They gain.
They experienced,
They know what to do,
how to protect themselves from getting hurt.
To fold and climb up as quickly as possible.

Its not how quickly you'hv got yourself up there.
Its the matter of how long can you stay.

The times

Those are the times i feel,

there are no mutual understanding,

There is nothing i'll need to say to some sordid terms and word used.

Based on some expects,

the viewing point of a situation and always one sided.

Never on behalf of my view.

I touched my heart,

truly from what i felt,

is being blamed on someone whom i am not.

Oblique remarks of what i am not.

It doesnt hurt,

Its just disappointment.

In him,

I am such a person.

The word cant be bothered about.

I am not to authenticate or justify.

I touched my heart and asked?

Am I taken for granted that I'll be always there.

Optimising

Probably am stepping into a new phase,
giving myself a certain stress level to optimize my work quality.
Do not doubt how capable can i work when i am challenged,
especially when i am put beside a class A opponent.
My confident and ego DO NOT allows me to fail or
lead the last.

You never know how well can you work,
how much can u really do,
until you are being thrown to the harsh situation.

Things i never gave up on,
Myself,
My violin.
No matter what others says,
or how drench am i.
Its determination.

I picked that up by my own choice.
I will never give up,
Its my own choice.

May it be useless to others.
To me its more than passion.
Its what i want to train on.
DETERMINATION.

A simple thing.
Violin.

If i cant press it on.
I shouldnt even use that word.

Especially things where u really need patience.
Drive. Trust. believe.

Pls: Tell me what i knew you guys had in your mind.
The person you guys longing for.
Work not for the weaklings.
Yes I am back on Track.
Just like the one u people met years ago.
That's so me.
She is finally back.
Someone had just ignited her drive.
Just like that Jenny who bombed her dumbed during the presentation at NUH
She got her distinction after that mean bombard of questions during presentation.
She thanked Jenny.
From then on.
Jenny recreate a new Seven
Someone who do not fear to be bombed anymore.
She is all out to impress for the coming months
not with appearance but results and figures
That fucking Egoistic joker.
Seven