I really wonder

I wonder and i really do,

when was the last time he even care to look into my blog?

To learn the inner me?

To not confuse incident which causes frustrations to be linked with another.

Not to vent anger anyway how.

Being pissed with one single incident linking into a series?

Everything is in oneself.

I cant even be bothered to be pissed or angry.

I cant be bothered.

I dont know why i get into a relationship with so much of problems?

Isn't the other half should be someone to share burden, encourage each other and give more faith as time goes by?

But why am I always hounded by negative feelings?

This journey is a learning stage.

I just feel lost in this relationship but i do not know why i still hold on?

Love and faith is losing bit by bit as days goes on.

And i know, he dont even know a bit about it.

He do not need to feel or say anything about this.

I am just not the right one for him.

Its time he should think about it and find someone who love whatever he does.

Not grumble, be a simple and obedient girlfriend he is longing for.

And that person is definetely not me.

I dont feel the pain or hurt, love still exist but look at a bigger picture.

Pain can always be heal as time goes by.

I do not want to look back as its time to move forward.

Festive season

Happy Valentine!

Purple rose from Daddy kong

This is something i do not know.

Until i saw this at the clinic nearby my place and its kind of scary

Dear all do have a healthy diet.

Thats our Lo-Hei lunch @ The legend fort canning

So messy
Everyone's so happy :)
Toast to a better 2008

"HUAT AH"

I received a call from my long time friend days ago, and he was wondering what happened to me after reading my blog. Thanks bro, for the concern which i really do appreciate.

Get well soon :)

Give my blessing to all my friends and love one.

2008 will be a fruitful year for everyone i love.

With love,

Seven

Thank You

That 100m dash at seletar reservoir,

I was running with my feet bare.

Its not about the race,

Its not ab who is the winner of that dash.

Its a release.

Of all my stress in work, sch and relationship bottled to its brim.

I released 10% of it.

Its time to pressure myself again towards my goals.

I need to do that.

For studies, work and my relationship.

I am utterly tired emotionally.

I just need a break.

Aisk and ruews

I am sick and tired of it.

I am starting to loathe and hate,

I know that shouldn't be the way it should be.

I am simply so fucking tired of tolerating.

Pls do pity me a little and let me leave you.

Pls do not tell me how much you love me when you threaten me of bring another woman home.

Pls dont tell me how much your family loves me i dont care a damn.

The outcome does not revolve between me and them.

ITS YOU AND ME.

Dont promise me anything.

I dont need that anymore.

Make all your promises to the person who comes along after me.

Good luck.

I simply cant and do not want to stand whatever or so.

Just leave me alone.

101 Post

What makes u think of?

The Lugi Brothers

Him and his brother

Mario and the " Pai Nang "

Him and the Mario brothers

out of the bluez

I found this pic on my darling's friendster,

Thats our papa kong.

The ah beng leader of our group.

Erm, somehow

Thanks

for bringing me into this line.

I find this pic kind of cool

You are beautiful

You are Beautiful

Yeah, she caught my eye,As we walked on by.

She could see from my face that I was,Fucking high,

And I dont think i'll see her again,

But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

I saw you face in a crowded place,And I don't know what to do,

'Cause I'll never be with you.

There must be an angel with a smile on his face,

When she thought up that I should be with you.

But it's time to face the truth,

I will never be with you.

I particularly like the above lines in his song.

Its like such a fanatsy to me in real life.

of something which we call that Fate.

I got a new Lappy

I'hv got a lappy.

I wanted to save all the trouble,

so i just went to the nearest, West Mall to purchase one.

Lols

Here's some pictures to share

The Spa centre i went to for my massage and facial,

located at Takashimaya,

Be-Santury Spa

I took this from Gary and i find it rather meaningful

Its talking about me i guess,

and it may be applicable to alot a people

I like this guy!

Loving blood doner

While waiting for my du bee in Ben Sherman Paragon

My Project mates,

J&J

They are just too volitile

They flucturate as fast as stocks

At this moment at least,

we are happy eating crabs

thats a blur shot

This is so freaking CuTE!!!

Raffles city

She is getting impaitient

He can just drink and party all he can. I cant really be very bothered. I have got things better to do than to go track him. He can spent what he wants i dont even care. He is old enough to say No. I dont see things changing, nothing changes actually. He still drinks like a fish, the differences is with a different company. Things are actually getting from bad to worst, When he drinks till wee hours, he called and apologise, and I am damn fucking Tired of all these!!! What is the point of apologising? I do not even want to nag or say, its just HOPELESS , Crazy things happening around me. Fuck@@

I dont even know whether he still remember the things he promised me when we got back together. Its just incorrigible. I dont even dare to hope that he cut down on his drinking. The words he gave doesnt weigh. He will just forget about everything after a few apologies. What is there to even say, needless to nag.

Salohcin - My ringworms will know me better
Happiness in wise people is the rarest thing i'hv seen.

It utterly crap

I finally understand alot of things. How come things happens and happened. Its all crap. I was thinking in the past how can someone actually break and patches so many bloody times. Now i see the meaning beneath it, someone sees no outcome.

They just sees no point at all. There is no future. Even if there is, it will be an unfruitful one because the man just cannot be a man, not physically but mentally. He is unable to stand alone and all he does is to grumble and blame. Everyone's is a fault except.

When will all these fucking grumbling and blaming end? I really dont understand and i am definately unhappy about it. All you need to do is to blame A and B or maybe C which makes u feel better. At the end of it. What do you expect of yourself and what can u actually do? What do u expect yourslf to do FOR me?

I expect none, because you simply cant. And thats it.. Try doing what i did when u expects me to do? If u cant do the same of what u expect me to do for god sake dont grumble and show attitude.

Its utterly crap. Its a total absolute zero tensile strength and of course i dont care a damn.

I would want to stand, a physically weak appearance but a mentally determinated self.

I do not understand

I do not understand why is he pissed when i didnt went down with him for his appointment?

I do not understand.

I do not understand why

I helped you with what ever I can,

Yet you are pissed with me for not accompanying you for your appointment.

It is my fault for not doing enough?

Why do you blame me for not helping you with ur stuffs instead i was watching tv.

Please tell me how to help.

You are just vexed over ur busy and frustrated with ur work and stuffs.

Is it my fault or am i not helpful enough?

I am pretty piss, unhappy and sad.

Isnt i myself is doing all these all by myself?

Prepare everything

Do everything

I do vex and get frustrated over work or sch

Did i flare at you for these similar stuffs u did to me?

I really do not understand.

And I really cant be bothered to,

I am simply too tired to do that.

Ninety-Four

In my ninety-fourI just looked through my cellphone and realised that i'hv taken a sumptuous amount of interesting pictures which now finally have got the time to load it up.

This is my new workplace

My new office at TPY.

Looking down from the window of a MDRT Table.

Those award and recognition will be mine one day.

Working as a Financial Planner in MAnulife.

Thanks for the support my dear ones.

Here's the personalise *Thank You* postcard i made.

Stranger who became my client.

Friends who became my client.

You'll receive it Soon.

Taken while i was smoking at the fountain at bugis.

Stacy, kang kang and I went out for dinner on the 15/1

stacy brought me for yummy desserts

Sorry, i didnt have the pictures

*I should take a pic of that batman in the dessert store and

the boy who looks like a frog in green.

My dad's company dinner

It very comical

Look at our paper product hanging on top.

Its definately a pretty rare sight.

Last but not least we invited

*Ge Tai*

while having dinner and

Boy is the star who got 5 Angbao after his courage to sing on the stage.

Dad did a thank you speech as well thanking my mum.

I did record it up but i do not know how to post it up.

Its kinda touching as well.

This is what he said" I want to the person who had been sleeping beside me for the past 27 years"

This is during the first day of school and the one is white is my dubee darling.

The one below is my MomoButa pencil case. He gave way and i have got no choice but to replace a new one. My lovely Momobuta, accompanying me throughout my poly days.

This is my new pencil case. Its hand sewed ok. But not by me. So cute right, it makes me laugh everytime i sees it. And his name is called " Heee Heee " with the 3rd pitch of hanyu pinyin for the 1st "heeee" and 4th pitch for the 2nd "heeee".

Two Zero Zero Eight

2007 hasnt been a good year for me of course as many of my close ones should know. Not the toughest time throughout my life but somehow it really hit me hard. The pain of gaining and losing. The pain of a sudden fall when ur at the peak. Its a roller coaster ride in my love life and school. Eventually everything is over. Toward the 3rd quarter of 2007 my life changed drastically. I found a fulfilling job which i love, the social life i can up-hold with and lastly the promised and the change i see in the love of my life.

Life had been so fulfilling and great which i cant seems to find a reason to be unhappy about. I told myself. I am going to sustain it. 2008 for me WILL definitely be a great year for me!

Here's some pics i got. Have fun 2008!!

Entry number 90

In this entry number 90,
I would like to thank my friends, the trust they have in me.
Friends and love ones who have the faith in me
All these faith accumulated and gave me the strength to pursue my dream to make it into reality.
My dream is no longer a dream.
I can make it come true.
Strangers who trust me and gave me a chance to do financial planning with them.

In this life till now,
2007 is coming to an end.
I know i am neglecting alot of my pals out there.
Job commitment and the responsibility for my current job.

I can tell everyone out there my job is so fulfilling.
Ting often laugh at me.
She said i fell in love with my job.
The passion i had is a relay.

I do feel dejected at times during rejects
Thank god i always do climb and re bounce back fast.
Those encouragement you guys gave me.
Thank you so much.

In this month of sharing,
i make a miss of the old folk home due to work.
I am sorry.

I will double it back during CNY.

Thanks my love

Thanks my love,
I really like my new watch.
Thanks for being so sweet as you know i love this watch.
I really appreciate it to the max my sweetie.
Thanks for all the effort.
From day 1 till now we are a year old.

Both of us did make changes for our future too tough to be pen down.
I really hope to hold ur hands,
walk down the years till old and grey.

I just approved the message you left on my friendster.
Thats really so so sweet of you.

I really do cherish us alot.
Thanks du bee.

Goals 2008

1. Quit Smoking
2.Pass all my modules
3.Maintain my job standard
4.Hit bonus for March
5.Qualify for the chairman circle
6. Convention to Rome 2009
7. 90 000 NAC
8. Go jogging 3 times a week
9. Have a substantial savings in my acct

Check this out!!

My boss Terence and me
Our Retro theme

Look at David's look

Bull Lee king and the village idiot

Mr Synergy and the 50s reporter Ah Seng

My love du pok and i

I love my job.
I really would like to thank my darling for introducing me into this job.
Doing financial planning for myself and the people around me.

To others
they might think its just another salesman job
but its otherwise to me.

My job is the prepare people for rainy days.
Its difficult to put it down in words.
Those people who knows me fairly knows what kind of a person i am
how true am i towards other people.

I guess its ab being sincere
as you guys know,
am allergic to hypocrites.

though there are days where i feel low.
people closest to me may disappoint me.
I am bless
i have my greatest asset of being jovial
which makes me cheerful everyday.
I really thank my mum of giving me such a character.

Dear all friends whom i neglected during my busy vacation.
Cya guys back in school 2008

I am working hard towards my goal.
People,
u'll soon see a change me
someone new!!

Annual planning Synergy

He is Varman

Our Mr SYNERGY

I'll tell you how.

Look at that Wig

and guess who

This is Varman
Me and my boo

Bintan Silk Disco

Check it out on the free flow

Our Retro theme night

Du bee and i

Thats my Ah beng boss

What a pic.

Look at that smile on David's face

The gang on the dance floor