Day 98

Day 98
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^^ Gahhhhhhhhh........... I just want to say I love you boooooooooooooooooooo smelly ^^ I love you love you !!!

Hug hug hug . . . .

BIG HUGS, bite you ah.

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I love you hubhub!

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Dinner at this Japanese place at Central . Eeekkkk . . . . The beef is as rock-hard as dried up bread. Headed off to Helipad thereafter for a quick chills with the guys. No pictures taken too bad. ^^

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Prayers: Thank you heavenly father, Thank you for breathing into my life. Teaching me with the touch of the holy spirit. Heavenly father guide my love like how you guided me so gently and so warmly. Make me your vessel and move as I work. ^^ Smelly hubhub, still as smelly as before but still so huggable. ^^ I pray for my hubhub for enlighten wisdom, a heart to feel, the power of self-control and the strength of determination.

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I pray for strength in him to do what is really right for him. Love him always and never lesser than yesterday.

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Grace

Day 97

Day 97
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Sincerely and truthfully: Thank you Janet for leading me out the attack I had. I was scared and was crying when I told Perry about it this afternoon @ Ooosh. I never imagine spiritual attacks can be so physical. I am never alone, thank you Jamshed, Perry, Sherry and Allen gege ! Thank you Perry ! Jacq and Doureen I will be back tomorrow stronger with more faith, casting away the fear and to be on Fire for being a warrior of God. Armour up MAN ! With my armour of mighty shield, belt, armoured boot and helmet, I am going to be the victor of this spiritual warfare.

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There is a realm of spiritual war to be fought tonight and I am not going to be afraid anymore.

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In worldly view

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You guys reading this may feel bizarre, but for mature Christian you will know what I am talking about. In life and the spiritual realm, we encounter this thing call the spiritual attack. This attack happens in our christian walk with God. When human walk closer to God, the devil attacks through fear,negativeness, resendment, bitterness, pride and ego etc to pull you away from God and to reject God. I encountered intense fear last night and was totally taken back. My faith grew weak when my physical was challenged. I have strange people pulling me on my bed. I am not able to move and I have fingers pressing on the back of my head when I was asleep. Scratching sounds of sharp finger nails on my aircon. My aircon is not even on. The devil will try to pull you away when you try to get people saved and when you put yourself aside and pray for others.

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I recalled about the overnight prayers I had on Tuesday night for someone whom I dont even know. I really prayed with my heart and soul. This attack came on Wednesday night. Janet told me, when you are working with God will, the devil will challenge you because he feels a threat as you are winning souls over to lord. Because you do not blame nor feel bitter but instead pray and bless, you are in favor of God. To chase you away from doing the favors of lord, the devil will hit on your faith by weakening it, put fear in you. My faith was weaken and I thought God left me when I struggled last night. I fear and I cannot feel God nor the holy spirit. I panicked and the devil got his upper hand, he draws me away from bible school this morning.

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Cast away the fear; I am a God's child, I have no fear for the evil because I am well-protected ! Peace and Faith be with me always. Lord Jesus you are always by my side.

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Prayers: Let peace and joy be with my love hubhub always. I know that he will doubt my behaviour in my believes but let wisdom enlighten him and he will understands it one day. God I love this man, my hubhub, God you protect him from all harm as I pray earnestly for him.

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Being a true christian is never easy, it is never about just going to church, sing songs and clap hands which gives you an insurance to heaven. God gives a purpose in your life. He prospers you and make your hands be blessings to others.

Day 96

Day 96
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Home after night calling/appointment setting, only managed to clinch 3 closing appointments for the week and 2 the following week. Kind of slow with business for the start of the month. But it's alright, God will bless me and move in my life so long I move and have this great passion in my job. Yeah ! Had a nice dinner with Rena and Lilian at Old Town ^^

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When the heart connects

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The touch that connects and the kiss which is so familiar.

The way you embrace me,

the hug which is so warm,

the way when you looked at me

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the way you caress my hair.

This is what happens when 2 hearts connect.

You are not my dream guy neither am I yours,

I just fell so deeply in-love with you and I do not know why.

This connection blazed through thick and thin,

went through trials and tribulations,

my heart still beats mad furiously for you,

the one and only you.

That is when I realised that I can only have you for this lifetime of mine.

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Prayers: God please continue to walk with my hubhub, give peace in his heart, take away the worries he has in his mind, guide him and shine positive values in his heart. Heavenly father, you know that I love this man and because I love him I want to dedicate him into your loving hands. God protect him in everyway everyday.

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Round off with this lousy quality handheld video for easter drama

I love this part by the guys !

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Day 94 - 95

Day 94
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Cast away the lazy bones in me, for all the screaming fatigues of the physical body be crucified as I walk towards a victorious life.

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I had been feeling so guilty lately not living the expected life Lord wants me to lead. The word procastination bold out. 1John3.21 says that a guilty conscience hinders communication with our heavenly father. That is why it is so important to stay true to your conscience and quickly repent if you've made a mistake.

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I went for a massage on Monday pampering my body, that is the worst thing to do in fact. This lazy bones of mine do not deserve such treatment. I am going to make you swim like before, 4 times a week. Take charge of your own body and never be a servant to it. Self control!

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.Day 95

Monday night is the night things went wrong and this stupid idiotic body got its protest overboard. I overslept for school. I felt so bad about it and headed off for prayers 365 to connect it back.

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Work meeting in the day, but I didnt live my day up to expectancy. Faith arise I know I haven been pleasing and sending my best in work lately for dedication in my ministry in the marketplace. I know God wants me to do better in work. Far far better and he will help me.

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We live in the reality world with this gift and exercising of faith, I am drained out without the sermons and vision from Eng Han. The marketplace vision. How I wish Thursday come quickly I need to recharge in my Business Breakthrough Group BBG. I am nua-ing away. . . Sharks . . . .

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Prayers: Dedicate the gift wisdom to hubhub, I felt bad for what happened last night, God hears my prayers. God you understand my heart, God protect the lady I have been praying for. I love him my dearest hubhub and I dont want to see him getting stress up over situations. Sending my earnest prayers of love, care and understanding. God, give wisdom and strength to my hubhub to resolve everything that he is facing currently. Guide him through you God. I love him so so much and I want my hubhub to be happy.

"My" overnight prayers

Prayers: Likewise as what I prayed earlier, God please protect her. I do not know her name, father please send angels to protect her. I know father you hear my prayers. I feel her, I understand the agony and pain. Embrace her lord, hug her your ways. I will be faithful in my prayers tonight. Lord I am not there to hurt anyone. But when I see someone get hurt because of me, I feel sad too. My presences did stab pain in her heart. Let powerful prayers tonight be lord's will and not mine. God be there for her like how you are there for me. Mend her brokenness. I really feel her. God please protect her. God moves when we make scarifies, likewise I want to scarify my time tonight in prayers for God to move in her life, from the true and bottom of my heart. I know I am going to get real tired for the school and work the next day, but I know when I pray with my heart with scarifies, God you move and heal Heavenly father, I know you will give me strength for school and work tomorrow, God you love a child who scarifies for the need of others, to feed a need and to heal a heart. I am tired but I know I have to do this. The holy spirits in me is whispering to me it is Not my will but God's will. Thank you father for giving me a heart of mercy, forgiveness and a loving heart to care.

Day 93

Day 93
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I am shopping for shoes after a tired day of work. Yes, I am a designers shoes fetish. I indulge in the comfort of designers shoes. But I didnt buy any today. Either no size from marc jacobs or argh . . . I have to go to walk all the way to Takashimaya, I am lazy. I'm glad I am or else I would have splurged a good 1k on a pair of Chanel. ~.~ Keep the money for better use. Dont buy designers Shoes until I reach my target, Prada and Chanel wont go close down for sure.

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Not allow to spend unneccessary $$

- Sorry Chanel, You are Void -

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Rounding up, I had an amazing day ! Although I woke up so damn early today and its raining so heavily wishing I could cuddle in my bed till wee, tired . . I still do enjoy my day very much. It is so fulfilling ! I am blessed with my students today, they are so looking forward to see me each week. * Imagine, they will run to me everytime I wait for them outside the studio for music lessons, I love them * Kids are just so adorable. They cant wait for tell me what happened in the week for them and what interesting things they went through for the week. They will call me during the weekdays and chat with me on the phone. So funny. They are barely 7 years old by the way. Counting on, I have 15 adorable students who packed my weekends weekly ^^.

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I am glad that I am lazy, didnt go down to zouk after Airport and escaped Velvet last night for Alfred's birthday with the Fu gang. Or else I will be dead this morning.

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I walked bypassed Ion foodcourt and I missed buying Hwa Heng Beef noodles for hubhub in the past after my music lesson on Sundays although most Sundays I am tired.

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I took a bus home, very tired and fell asleep onboard the bus. By the time I opened my eyes, the bus is in the Buspark and I missed my stop.

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I am bedding . . . Dont want to wash Toilets. I have to be in the Artiste Room by 8am tomorrow morning, 7.45am to scan in for SOT.

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Hugging my hubhub to bed is a dream I have been longing for especially when the night is cold. I have to say no not because I want to but I have to. It is going to be a super long day tomorrow, SOT, work office, night calling and scheduling of work appointments. I have a tedious load of work appointments to run on the coming week. Thank God I am a step nearer to my goals.

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How I wish I can have a super physical body which will not get tired even when I sleep lesser. April will get really pumped up, somehow I hope I am not selected for the finals as I will really get so packed up with those tons of photoshoots. May is even more packed up with Asian Conference. . . . . . God please give me more Strength to work through this physical body and achieve what I have to and need to do.

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Nights and Prayers: God do enlighten my hubhub, stir up his interest in the exam topics and give him the wisdom to understand the topics. God give him strength for determination. I love him and is always thinking of him every now and then. Praying for every Good thing that is going to happen to him. Grace

Day 91 and 92

Day 91
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Wooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ................................. Easter Drama is a great BANG !!!!! *Applause for the Drama team* They are as good as the professionals !!!! The play is so funny and the Lady Gaga Bad romance thingy is soooo cute !!!!!! Hey guys ! your effort is really many many thumbs up ! Thank you for making LifeBook such an ExPlosioN !!! Boomz !
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Want to bring hubhub to watch it. It is motivating for an actor to watch it as it is really amazing to see such professional acting skills by normal people like you and I. Moreover Stage Dramas, there is no NGS. I will load the video when it is up ^^ for those who missed this wonderful easter drama, tune in ^^.

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I was talking to a friend, and he was sterotyping my hubhub from the comments he heard from alot of our mutual friends. I told him off and said he is not in the position to judge. I mean he dont even know my love, so dont judge and remark till as if my hubhub sounds like a retard. I defended hubhub and told my friend off in a stern tone. My hubhub is not a bad person. Even we broke up and he left me, this doesnt give any of you people the right to make him sound as if he is an idiot. He is always my hubhub filling all of my heart! I know and God knows.
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Grace and I love you smelly hubhub Booooo........
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Day 92

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Day 2 of Easter! Great and amazing; Had a wonderful morning drive to work, I am excited to watch the Easter play again ! I watched it twice in a row today! Although SOT student is to attend just 1 Easter service everyday, But I attended all in fact. We rule by integrity. No attendances marked actually, you can go/not go in fact no one will know. But as I said, we rule by integrity and honesty.

I attended the 3.30 service with Summer and her 2 children, as like what happened yesterday, I still cried when I watch the drama again today. Summer's 2 kids are so cute, they initiated to give their pocket money as offerings, child like faith is so amazing. They raised they hands and prayed more than the adults. In fact I feel the brothers love God more than many of the "so call" christians out there. And they are willing to give more than 50% of their pocket money into the hands of God. I saw them pray through their heart, and Noah is really like a young adult when he is only 12 years old.

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5.30 service with Nikki, she was weeping and I know she was touched. I didnt prompt much as we are all adults, we know how is it like to feel peace and the feeling of Home in the arms of God. She dropped me a sms after I left, asking me to buzz her for the next service. I just want to say; I love you girl. ^^

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After service, the whole gang accommodated me to the airport, fetch me daddy lei. We had dinner and here's some whoring with Ivy the nursy.

In Ray's glasses
I forced Bloodworth not to smile in this picture. lolx. Because people say we look alike when both of us smile together. I am so mean hahaa . . .

Ivy looks kind of kinky in this picture ^0^
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Thats all for today. . . . Gotta open shop tomorrow at 8.30am in my music school, the bosses all not in. I got to one man show tomorrow at Orchard Delfi. Blah . . . . .

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Prayers: With all glory and grace we magnify you lord for the amazing touch you gave. God continue to shine in my hubhub's path, make all dead-end he faces an open-door for resurrection. I love him never lesser yesterday, today and tomorrow.

Day 90

Day 90
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It is a wow today! I had my practical during lessons. One word Amazing ! I was late for lesson a full 45 mins due to the traffic jams on PIE. - Accepted to wash toilets of maybe peel dou gay (beansprouts) for the old folk home. As I was late, I sat behind the auditorium. During the practical of the movement of Holy Spirits, I held the hand of my neighbour ( frankly I have no idea who she is, I dont even know her name ) Pastor wants us to communicate with the Holy spirits and tell the person next to you of what the Holy spirits want you to tell them. I spoke from whatever message that comes to my heart and told her that God will give her wisdom and knowledge to pull through her exams this year. To clarify I do not know her, and I seriously dont know if she is even a student or what. I didnt even exactly look at her and judge her age. I was late !! When I reached school I just raise my hands and pray. I spoke to her about the vision God has for her which is something really alien. I dont really remember exactly what I told her, I just spoke on behalf of the Holy spirit. She cried and give thanks to God.

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Then my turn for her to answer my questions: she told me: sister, holy spirits wants me to tell you, one day you will get your family saved. I see you struggling in an entanglement of a relationship, trust God he will guide you through and mold the man you love for you. God locked your heart, because he wants to protect it. Until the day God unlocks it, the man you love in which God is molding right now will be the rightful man for you. Be patient, you will be fruitful and love the man you have in your mind now. You guys will definitely know who I see. I am really amazed of what this girl said to me.

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She do not know me, she do not know that my parents are christians/not christians, and she do not know that I am attached/not attached, married/not married.

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After the session it was breaktime. I hugged her, shook her hands and ask for her name. Her name is call Xueni, a christian for 4 years. I finally looked at her, she is pretty young in fact. I asked her what is she doing currently. She said that she is 19 years old; ok she dont look like . . . lolx. She failed her A levels and is retaking it this year. I was thinking in my heart, wow . . I dont know but Holy spirit knows everything.

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Just have this random feeling, suddenly all the 700 students in the auditorium became what part-time fortune tellers all of a sudden. hhahhaa ^0^

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School ended and I drove down to Mount Faber for the company event. Had a great time with my team ! It is our Synergy family Day. Play bowling and sampat with Evonne and Joey . . . Hahaaa so funny, I had a wonderful Great Easter eve.

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My day didnt end just like that, I drove Xiao-hong's new guy, Daren's new soon on board colleague home and went on to meet my long-time no see client/buddy Ken at the old firehouse. We had such a fruitful evening together, he is my childhood friend undergoing some self deluding situations right now. Ken and I are wonderful buddies for 20 years. Can you imagine we are childhood playmates since kindergarten? Amazing right ~~ I know all his family so does my family, I miss playing mahjong with his mum. ^^

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Ok time for bed ^^ after such a long day.

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Prayers: I pray for a peace and sound sleep for the smelly who played an april fool joke on me. * raise my 2 fingers up pointing and chou chou I PINK YOU AH !!!! * Now I know why you are always so close to my heart even when you are not by my side. You are locked in there by God.

Day 89

Day 89 我不会放弃，除非我断气 this sounds so funny ^^

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Easter is coming = ^^= and It is finally 31st March 2010. Thank God, the premium is cleared. I had been running around bank and head office again. Driving around like a crazy woman in the busy traffic. Reached home at 5pm and relaxing around the corner. Its 31st March month end! Never had such a Gan-chong month end for so so ooo long. It feels good!

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Time to catch up with all my dearies, I am intending to book a resort stay at the IR, planning for a date so everyone can chillout together. But I really have got no idea when; as I really have no control over my busy schedule! Mondays - Sundays I am working every single day ! Ya, in time to come I will be a 小富婆. Throw all my money into investment portfolios, yeah yeah yeah make my money grOW !!!!

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Turned on the TV and it is some repeat telecast from Channel 8. Lolx. I saw you smelly on TV.

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臭臭今天考M5，应该是凶多吉少，要不然应该是会SMS我HAOLIAN HAOLIAN 一下! 今天下午的SMS 也没听他提起。。。。希望他有记得去考才好 ~，~ 宝贝啊!! -.- Pork你啊 Pink 你啊!

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在你离开的第89天，我还是一样的爱你 。 。 。心里对你的感觉好神奇，我也不知道为什么。虽然你离开了，在4个月前就已经不见了，但我的心还是紧紧被你锁着。原以为只要时间久了，对你的爱也会慢慢的变少。可怎么会爱你越来越多? 神奇吧? 就是因为太爱你了，所以更不能跟你在一起。虽然以老早就原谅了你，但我也怕了你! 怕你不知道什么时候有会因为不想面对责任和许下承诺而又把我给丢掉。想了都觉得自己好笑，我既然被你丢掉了3次，我应恨你才对。还在这里给你什么祝福。就是有一种重来都没有过的感觉，我要继续爱你。不在我身边也没关系，你知道我一直都会在转角，在你选择离开的那一处从来都没有离开过。想笑我傻尽管笑吧!

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我觉得这份爱好神奇!我想它真的能陪我走完这辈子，不是开玩笑的。多少人能够经历? 我想这样的爱绝种了吧????? 竟然会发生在我身上。算是我的福气好了。

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Prayers: I pray for an open heart and the mind of my hubhub to absorb whatever which is good and to put it into actions. Stay away from the deceptive. Pray for my hubhub and continue loving him everyday.

Day 88

Day 88
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Went for my drums audition for musician today ^^ hahaaa I guess it is abit " Buang " ^^ Had lunch with Victoria and sent my korean friend Huyun yo to Signature park. Huyun yo is a well charactered man *thumbs up* young fellow who is the same age as my hubhub. His wife is gorgeous !! Hahaa . . My kimchis is all self made by his wife. So nice of his wife, knows I loves to eat Kimchi.

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What a busy/rainy day! Had to run around office and head office to clear underwriting for my production for March hahaaa. . . otherwise later april my financial curve becomes a valley. Finally! Cleared !!!

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Haven got the time to catch up with alot of friends, Holly, she is back from HKG, no chance to hear about her HKG fun happenings yet. . .

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My hubhub; I miss that fellow. Hope he is working hard and making his effort. I love you that smelly fellow de lar. Scratch you ahhhhh . .. .. . .

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Prayers: I love you my smelly hubhub, God take away his procastination and take away the self deceiving pattern in him. Blah . . . . He just like to lie to himself, I am worried about his M5 papers. He must be watching his PPS most of the time rather than reading his book :p hhmmmmm . . . .. poke poke poke poke you ah ~ ~ ~ ~

Day 87

Day 87 (Monday)

.Each and everyday, it is day 87 and I know I haven love the man I put close to me any lesser ^^

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.I drafted it into the post of my private space. It is Monday another exciting week ahead with more trials and tribulations. We have to understand that living the path with Christ is to pull through all crisis with a mind and heart to praise even when we are in difficult situations. During financial downturns or crisis; I lift up my hands, praise and live by faith. I smile with my heart during challenging times of my life because I know God is there for me to lift all my worries. With the words of God I ate everyday, I know God wants his child to be strong, tough in faith and bind in his words like a collar. In return he makes us Always the head and never the tail. Because Jesus is here to break all curse of poverty, give hope in life, heal the sick and broken hearted. I hold closely onto the faith I have in my loving heavenly father, learn to good as like what I've learn

I had a letter from God which says:

Trust with all your heart, bind kindness, righteous and never let loyalty leave you; You will find favor with human and God. You will earn a good reputation. Learn from me where wisdom will fill your heart and knowledge will fill you with Joy, wise choices will watch over you. Understanding and wisdom will keep you safe. Hold tight onto me when you are afraid and I will take away all the fear in your heart. Bring all the difficulties you faced into my hands and I will teach you how to walk through it. I am always by your side. You can rely on me. I love you my child.

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This is one of the letter written in my prayers' journal during one of my quiet time, after praying in spirits this is what was taken down.

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Prayers: I pray that you speak to my love and guide him through like how you does for me. Teach him what to do like how you teaches me to. Embrace him like how you bind peace onto me. Make him the head and never the tail from inside out and never the other way round. Grace

Day 86

Day 86

Once This encounter,

This experience,

This love touches you,

you know HE is one True God HE will love you and stay Faithful to you.

He teaches you what to do, guide and gives you instructions when you are lost.

The one and only God whom he will love you and care for you.

It is an exponential experience and relationship with our heavenly father.

I enjoy spending my time with God; skeptics may think " Well you are just getting emotional "

There is nothing to preach about, JUST Experience it yourself and you will find true peace, protection and provision.

I am even more skeptical than SO MANY of you guys once

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God gave me my 1st Gift last Christmas :

I experienced peace in front of the situation I came across last Dec.

God gives peace in me,

I should feel grieve and hounded with agony when I come face to face with such situation last year.

I didn't tear, nor did I feel that my life is treated so unfairly.

I was given the Gift of Forgiveness right on the spot.

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I truly thank you Lord for being my redeemer.

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Prayers: Thank you God for the letter you have given to me. It is amazing and I know father lord you are always beside me. Father God please protect the man I love as I lift everything into your hands. Lord you molded my life in your way, shall Father God you mold his life in your way too. Protect his heart and keep him away from harm. Give joy in his heart and make him a true maximised man in time to come. Let him find Love, be great and walks on life with a true happy heart. I love this man alot, chooses to love him with all I can even though he will never be by my side anymore. I know and understand that this is one love God you gave it to me, you allow it to be locked my heart for a reason. I will walk on my life giving blessings and prayers to the one and only *smelly* I have. I will love this man for my lifetime and no one elses anymore.

Day 85

Day 85 is all about children
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I woke up immediately after my alarm went off, it was 8am in the morning. I wanted to press on the snooze mode but jumped out of bed instead. I do not know why my mouth just spoke; thank you holy spirit. I headed off to teach. God blesses me well, 4 new students signed up for classes with me after the 1st trial classes. The parents are really impressed with the way I teach, as I often ask the parents to sit in for the lesson to observe the way I teach ^^ I realised love and passion for kids is my ministry of act that is sweet aroma to God. I love my students and they love me. I am anointed to teach and have a flair love for children.

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Baby delication

In christian life of City Harvest whenever a child is born, parent usually delicate their love fruit into God's hands for blessing. A child of a christian parents are not christians by default when it comes to our church. We believe that God will touch the child in his ways, and the child will only be baptism when they are old enough to encounter the relationship with God themsleves.

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We have 200 babies for dedication today. I looked at how Pastor Kong blesses the babies on the stage, something touched my heart and I started tearing. I realised I will never have a baby of my own and I can never be mother. As I looked at those cute little fruit of love carried so tenderly in the arms of their parents, I asked God in my heart; will I even have a chance to have my own fruit of love? My tears went running non stop. . . . . . My regulars will know my greatest wish is to have a baby, a baby as my fruit of love. Him my love is as good as dead, I expect nothing from him, expecting only bring me more hurts and wrecks in life. All I can is to love him from far.

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Cldie came in the hall after that with a bouquet of flowers. She just did some wedding shoots. My heart spoke again to God, why do you have to poke at me again? Make me feel sad again; everyone is getting married right and I know I never will.

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Had been receiving so many wedding invitations this year. I am not trying to say that I am jealous seeing people getting happily hitched to the man they intend to walk their lifetime with. I am really happy for them, especially for some whom I know that they really love each other so much, they got married because want to and not because they have to. But Seeing more weddings only makes me feel, Yes, I will never have that moment in my life. Maybe only in my dreams, so . . .. dream on . . . . . . . as this will never happen in reality for me.

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Prayers: God I put the man I love in your hands, bless him with love and walk him through the greatness I might not be able to see, give him wisdom to walk through decision making, be with him as I love him and binds him closely to my heart. To love from far and to wish him my greatest.

Day 84

Day 84
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I was on MC for the day due to my flu. But I still headed back to head office, and Toa payoh office till 8pm today. Managed to fix a few appointments for the coming week etc. Rushed off for an appointment in Chua Chu Kang to meet up with an old friend. I am very amazed with her, pretty incredible I should say. We chatted till early morning 3am before we headed home. I was dead beat + flu, I prayed to God for strength in work the next day.

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Rehma for the day; I was so dead tired for the day, have got a few appointments for the coming week, big and small cases, I prayed to God to lead me along and make me a fruitful servant. And this verse in Deuteronomy came to me ; my hair stood up when I read it ;Deut 1: 17 Hear the cases if those who are poor as well as rich, be fair in your treatment, dont be afraid to anger someone, for the decision you made is God's decision. Bring me any cases that are too difficult for you, I will handle them. At that time I will gave you instructions about everything you will to do. Just do it as how I speak to you in your heart.

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Thank you God !

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Prayers: Bad flu and God please continue to keep my love love healthy. Grace

Day 83

Day 83
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Went to school today, 25% of the class is having flu, ohhh..... I was wearing a mask in class to prevent myself from hitting the flu virus. 25% is alot of people falling sick, we have 700 students by the way. Bryan is finally back in class, went off with bryan after lessons and headed back to office for case submission. Thought of meeting my hubhub after business breakthrough group. Arghhh... I still got hit by the flu bug and the flu symptoms is getting from bad to worst. I decided to call him only after I get home. As I do not want to pass my flu virus to him, he needs a healthy body. Love him so much how can I pass my flu virus to him even though I really miss him soooo much my love hubhub. ^^ Going to bed.

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Prayers: God please protect my hubhub with a healthy body. ^^

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Hubhub: I have never blame you for the past. Through you I learned what true forgiving is, my heart enlarged and grew more gracious. I learned paitence and learn what is truly like to love someone. The someone is you. Although I cannot have you by my side, but my heart for you, you will know that you will still have all of me even when we are apart. You occupied all of my heart and I dont know how to empty it away. Do you know that its blessful to love you and I have never regretted loving you ^^

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亲亲宝贝，我爱你的啦，我不会伪装，也不会逃避我那一颗那么爱你的心。我很肯定我的心不会再为别人而打开，其实我已经打算用我这辈子远远的爱你。我不想给你压力也不想再期待。我只想在你知道我一直都在，就在你离开的那个角落，一直默默的站在那里，帮你打气，为你祈福，要你快乐，要你幸福! 你问我该找个人约约会。告诉你一个小秘密；每当有男生想约我，想试试发展，我都会很老实微笑的说，我心里有一个我会爱他一辈子的男生。我也对他们说；这就应该是爱人的方式，我相信包容，原谅，接受。一当你遇上了你就会之道有一份爱，它会陪你走过一辈子。我很幸运我找到了!

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。我原谅了，接受了，才发现我还是一样的爱你。^_^ I believe this is the greatest beauty of love I have ever encounter ^-^ Thank you baobei ~`~

Day 82

Day 82 Wednesday

I bought a new pink music carousal ^^

.I was being buzzed by Edwin to get my ass down to Phuture. Rejected it, I am so tired after work today. It is month end closing, I am busy with all my sales closing . . . . . Bible school exams will be coming up soon, all the books thesis will be out. I have to read 10 books in total, they are rather thick books to be exact. . . .Have to finish reading my bible as well, I am only at the 5th book of the bible, Deuteronomy. There are about 80 books to read about in the bible. I better start my revision for exams early. All of a sudden I realised, University studies is nothing with compared to Bible school. Bible school is so so so much tougher. No time for procastinations ! I wish I can have just 1 hr of sleep each day and makes it feels like 8 hrs. hahhaa ! So I can do more things !
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Dear all friends, do buzz me if you are coming for the celebration for Easter ^^ next Saturday.
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I attended the leader's meeting last night and it was a loud bang ~~ our speaker Dr Paul multi billionaire imparting us with the mind to prosper. He will be the mentor for our Business Breakthrough Group together with Eng Han to lead us into prosperity mindset. We are the marketplace people and we need guidance to be in the righteous way of prosperity. Thank God for prospering me. I am so excited to give more for my tithe coming month because I will be having a fat paycheck! I want to build God a great house, so knowledge of financial prosperity can spread to more people! Thank you God! I can pay for my family holiday as well.
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The bible says; in 1Kings: when you seek god's kingdom first and follow his golden words, wisdom and knowledge is imparted; in return, you shine in the market place with that knowledge. When you shine in the marketplace, how can you not prosper? Prosperity doesnt come in 2 or 3 folds. It comes in 30 folds, 60 folds and 100 folds. That is what King david does, so do King Solomon. They are poor kings from start, but God never shortchange them when they love God and is willing to be the vessel for lord.

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我的亲亲.

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我的可爱亲亲宝贝!他会说: 我最喜欢欺负你了啦! ^^ 想你的哪!!! 臭臭 ~~~

。我想你宝贝，想要一看见你就像树熊一样跳到你身上去。最爱就是你了啦 ! 重来都没有少爱你半点! 我每天都在为你祈祷，要你有一份平静，心乐和健康的身体。最近的天气好坏，多吃vitatminC and boost up your immunity system alright. Wife wife love you.

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Prayers and Grace

Day 81

Day 81 Tuesday
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Another day has passed, yet another day without him. I saw the bouquet dried flowers in my champagne flute. ^^ its my birthday bouquet hubhub got for me in 2008. That was the first and last time I've received flowers from him. Anyway, that doesn't matter, I dont really fancy flowers.

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I miss that stupid smelly smelly who doesnt even know how to fix the toilet bowl seat. Continue loving him tomorrow, the day after tomorrow and many many tomorrows. ^^ I believe he will think I am the silliest woman he had ever met. The silliest and the one he always bullies. Because he knows, no matter how time goes by, my heart still stayed unmend from where he left. I have no power to retaliate against him as I love him too much and he is my biggest weakness.

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Taking a nap, I am so tired. I have to run for my appointment later and rush off for my violin orchastra practice with Hautt. Zz.z.zzzzz.zzz .....................

Day 80

Day 80

That is what I do everyday during my quiet time with God. Speaking in spirits, praises and worship as well as praying for the well being for love ones. Thank God no more backache! I am perfectly good and bumppy now ! God tie all these proverbs round my neck to remind me to be good. To be true to other and not be a hypocrite. Cast away the deceptive tongue which lie and cast away all evil from my heart. Cast away the lustful thoughts I have in mind, cast away all the selfishness in me. This gives me peace to my broken heart and taught me not to fall into the trap for revenge for the one I love so much. I continue to love my hubhub at this far distance with no agenda or hidden intention. I just love this man, I do not ask for returns. All I wish for is him being good and happy, contented and well blessed.

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I saw Pastor Kong looking at this hot chick who walks past the stage and sat on the 1st row of the audience seat. Pastor Kong smiled wide open, waved at her and said; How sweet, and that's my lovely wife for the past 20 years, she is so cute ^^

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Prayers: Thank god for the healing, and financial blessings once again. Father Abba, please bless my love hubhub financially and move in his life. Take away the seduction mind of him which causes temptations and make him focus on his goals. Grace.

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My baobao, you are always the one and only man in my heart, soul and body. I love you chou chou ^^ I know I cant never fall in love again with somebody else. But at least I can be in-love with you this lifetime at a distance watching ^^ I will be always praying for blessing for you. I love you and I always do.

Day 79

Day 79
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Time flies and it is day 79 since we parted, I am another day nearer to my big day on day 88 ! I spent whole of Sunday in work at City Square and bumping onto alot of friends indeed. I am doing my drums demo at a roadshow for the music school I am teaching in ^^. Definitely I have a great way with kids. I am suffering from very bad backache and I pray for healing. I cant swim for nuts in such cold weather. Argh..... I haven been swimming for 4 days. . . .

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Headed off for work appointments during the evening. Praise to lord, another close case ^^

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Prayers: God I pray for a healthy body for my hubhub, may he never to suffer those backaches or shoulder ache as I do. God please heal him and give him a healthy body to achieve great things in life. I love him, God please send angels to protect him from all harm.

Day 78

Day 78
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没有宝贝的78天，

今天见到了他，

也抱抱了他，

我那头发长长的臭宝贝。

臭宝贝。

爱你的啦，你丑丑还是臭臭，

我都是那么爱的!

我没有变，因为我选择爱你!

你重来都不会相信，

我会爱你很久，很久 。 。 。

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Met alot of friends at Zirca for the Cleo Bach event, someone asked me this ; wah ! the current gf of ur ex is skinnier than you. lolx I was laughing about it when they told me they bump onto him and this skinny girl on-set. I have no insides of this and it is none of my business as well ^^ hahaa

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I had a great time with my gang ! I love them and they loves me! They are there for me during the lowest point of my life. Yeah! I love you guys! Allen/Stanley gege, Perry/Sherry, ^^ !

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Prayers: God enlighten my baobei and give him wisdom to understand his exam topics. I love him. I love him good and I love him lousy. I accepted him and I know he will be the man in life no matter may he be by or not by my side. ^^ Ai lao gong de la ^^