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I woke up immediately after my alarm went off, it was 8am in the morning. I wanted to press on the snooze mode but jumped out of bed instead. I do not know why my mouth just spoke; thank you holy spirit. I headed off to teach. God blesses me well, 4 new students signed up for classes with me after the 1st trial classes. The parents are really impressed with the way I teach, as I often ask the parents to sit in for the lesson to observe the way I teach ^^ I realised love and passion for kids is my ministry of act that is sweet aroma to God. I love my students and they love me. I am anointed to teach and have a flair love for children.
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Baby delication
In christian life of City Harvest whenever a child is born, parent usually delicate their love fruit into God's hands for blessing. A child of a christian parents are not christians by default when it comes to our church. We believe that God will touch the child in his ways, and the child will only be baptism when they are old enough to encounter the relationship with God themsleves.
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We have 200 babies for dedication today. I looked at how Pastor Kong blesses the babies on the stage, something touched my heart and I started tearing. I realised I will never have a baby of my own and I can never be mother. As I looked at those cute little fruit of love carried so tenderly in the arms of their parents, I asked God in my heart; will I even have a chance to have my own fruit of love? My tears went running non stop. . . . . . My regulars will know my greatest wish is to have a baby, a baby as my fruit of love. Him my love is as good as dead, I expect nothing from him, expecting only bring me more hurts and wrecks in life. All I can is to love him from far.
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Cldie came in the hall after that with a bouquet of flowers. She just did some wedding shoots. My heart spoke again to God, why do you have to poke at me again? Make me feel sad again; everyone is getting married right and I know I never will.
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Had been receiving so many wedding invitations this year. I am not trying to say that I am jealous seeing people getting happily hitched to the man they intend to walk their lifetime with. I am really happy for them, especially for some whom I know that they really love each other so much, they got married because want to and not because they have to. But Seeing more weddings only makes me feel, Yes, I will never have that moment in my life. Maybe only in my dreams, so . . .. dream on . . . . . . . as this will never happen in reality for me.
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Prayers: God I put the man I love in your hands, bless him with love and walk him through the greatness I might not be able to see, give him wisdom to walk through decision making, be with him as I love him and binds him closely to my heart. To love from far and to wish him my greatest.
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