Day 294

Day 294

1st thing:

We are having our very own Fashion runway show at Siloso Beach, Its a beach party with nice chillout music, runway for various sponsors. We are one of them. Everything is in coordination and the tickets will be out soon. Stay tune and very tune my lovely friends!

By the way, this event is so WOMEN, ladies, lets rock.

So excited, party, chillout and have fun !  Tickets will be out at SGD$25/- inclusive of free mani/pedi services. photoshoots, makeup and  . . . . . .  exciting something. . . .  whahaaa . . .

Guys, actually there is not much of perks for you. Anyway, when there is a place filled with ladies, naturally men will be attracted I guess. Don't care about the guys, women are my piorities . . . LOLX sorrry . . .

2nd thing:

Super steady females buddy. We punch breast type! hahaaa although I dont have a big one. I really want to thank you girls for all the support you gave GIRLS!

When I told them about the beach party events, without a 2nd word, get 10 tickets for me. I will be there, and the amazing thing is I haven even told them when and where? Sarleee . . . I say Sembawang beach lei then everybody faint!

Its Sentosa. You know true friends are really hard to come by, where they are the type who will always stand for you at their expenses. That is true friends. From a long way, be there even it cost them something which they dont ask for a return. I do have them, and Praise the Lord, many of them by my side. Thank You for believing in me and trusting in me.

I really feel so blessed with such beautiful people around me. They may ill-treat others, slanders and plot against others, but never towards me. They are always so real and true towards me, they protects me, and stand by me in all circumstances. Some even fend for me during my difficult times. Told me not to give up and continually walks with me and encourage me. They are the ones who will never leave me, or reprimand me for being stupid to love my hubhub, for they stood up and said, for love to go this far, you are never dumb. Others may see me stupid in loving my hubhub but they have never deemed me in that way. I am just doing things majority of the people out there do not dare to do it. They find a cheaper and easier alternatives in finding a life-buoy in my situation and never have the courage to face their real problem. I faced it through their constant support and the strength they gave me which is love.  

Say me weird or sturborn. I just clearly know what I want and what I need. Better than those lost sheep who forever do not know what they want in life and constantly hitting on problems they do not want to face. I love my silly smelly and I just know I love him selflessly. True love do not require returns, and you just want the one you love to be happy.

3rd thing:

I want to give thanks to my faithful clients who defended me from my previous company, wrote letters of compliement without my knowledge. Some of them are referrals and some are friends. So grateful and holding great gratitude to you guys. It is your trust, and believe in my that makes my world spins.  

My world is made alive through your love that continually teach me to give and love in a language that is not selfish.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 

The Halloween we missed

 Sorrie, but I think this ghost guy look like you smelly! 

 The group of Samsui Woman

 This is so freaking cute!

 Amazing!

The bride

hubhub's fav.

Photos from Zouk Halloween album 2010

Day 293

I have been praying for you despite of my daily tedious schedules. I have to thank God for you constantly for the movtivation vibes you create in me through Jesus, in seeking my convenant with Lord Father in heaven. Through you, I've to seek God and learn to trust in his everlasting promises he made to me. I pray everynight for you, praying for your COURAGE, your BOLDNESS and spirit of determination to walk and be in charge of your own life. To live the life God put in you and not turn away from the living truth. I ask God for your happiness. For truly I love you and so sincerely wanted you to be happy, many times I teared when I felt your unhappiness. For I love you, I want you to live a REAL life for yourself and not living in constant contradiction and diliema. I want you to be happy even thou I am not in your life! I want you to have joy and love from someone who is constantly watching over you and wanting to give you the best in life who is Jesus Christ. I live a life filled with his love and promises even it seems that I am alone in your eyes. Living a life with full of faith and joy is what I really want to see in you and never you always living in the regrets you put yourself in. Forgive yourself for I have long forgiven you and moved on in life to be the one who is always here loving you and wanting to see you live a great purpose in life. Things happened for a reason, because of you, I found my convenant with Jesus and it was him who led me on, teaches me how to pray for you as you walk, love you as if you've never hurt me before. I dont remember a single bit of the past in which you did to hurt me, the only thing I remembered is I love you so much even till this very day. Loving you is to see you happy, loving you is never selfish, loving you is to accept all your flaws and loving you always be the one to encourage never to demean.

Fighting Spiders

Anyway, that's the best I can capture.

When is the full-blown episode be on air ??!??

and

my meal everyday

Potatoes, ham, lecttuce, cucumber?

Day 292

Day 292

I seems older with this hair-style.

Is my hair black?

I want them Jet-black.

I really can't tell by myself for I always feel they are not dark enough.

I should call Preston very soon

He is Preston, the guy who dye my hair for me

Whenever I talk to him, I find that I am more man than him.

Stacy's friend

By the way,

I am not very motivated to talk about Joseph today.

sorry, he is the son of Jacob not Isaac,

Isaac is Joseph's ah-gong.

I'll start by a debut.

Joseph is a hero of Faith.

His father Jacob is as well.

Just a switch of mind, I decided to talk about Jacob instead of Joseph today.

Some history about Jacob and I will start my version of the story of Jacob.

You know the Father of Faith?

You're right,

Father Abraham, who sacrifices his son Isaac at the Altar of God.

Jacob is the Son of Isaac.

So Father Abraham is the ah-gong.

 Seven's Version of the Story of Jacob

Part 1

Mummy's boy.

Jacob has a twin elder brother Essu.

Essu is those super macho type of man, he is a hunter.

Jacob is the opposite of Essu, therefore I feel that he is abit gay, niang niang one.

He loves to cook for he is a mummy's boy,

everyday stick around his mum learning how to cook.

One day Essu came home after hunting,

he was super hungry and smell the red stew soup,

he was so hungry and begged Jacob for a bowl of it.

But dont see Jacob chao sissy sissy de, he is a super cunning guy.

He told Essu his brother (obviously not very smart),

Give me your birthrights (In the past, birthrights means inheritance for the eldest child) and I will give you in exchange of a bowl of my red stew soup.

I think Essu is hungry till dont know like what shit,

he stupidly agree and gave Jacob his birthrights not knowing what is his inheritance.

His inheritance can buy him a whole reservoir of Red Stew that he can swim and get drown in it.

Jacob cheated his brother Essu of his rightful birthrights

My question

Will you exchange a billion dollars worth of inheritance for a bowl of "Ang dao Teng" (Red bean soup)

 like Essu?

I know your answer is : STUPID! of course I am not as STUPID AS THAT ESSU.

But the real answer towards life is,

in times, many of you guys are willing to give up that inheritance of more than a billion dollars to this broken world of fear and regrets,

Have you realise my story?

That billion may be you dream, you happiness, the kind of life you really want to lead.

You actually gave them up for a bowl of Red Bean Soup that will only fill your stomach for that meal.

Think about it,

do you want to starve yourself for a single meal?

or give up your life long inheritance?

Make your choice.

Regrets are for Failures you are afraid to inherit.

My Father God said : I am the heiress of his goodness because he loves me, and he did not plan my life with any Regrets.

But I am given to free-will to choose.

He gave it to us,

choose Life? or Regrets?

I told my Father God no matter how difficult or hungry I am now,

I know I have my inheritance.

I choosed Life.

How about you?

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Promote abit more for my shop can?

Increase some awareness for me?

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I KNOW there are alot of keyboard warriors reading my blog and I know who you are.

Friendship first lar okie.

Haaahaaa . . .

My private blog's daily hit-rate seems to be higher than my shop's

HOW CAN?

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Nice ^^ Good nightS!

Memory Lane

I found these!

OMG look at these!
My besties!

This is really dont know how many donkey years back!

those days when we play the rat-race game at Yong KamSeng's class.

and after 6 to 7 years later, 

 and

this, Roy totally black until cannot see.

 Then mel, and our chinablack mac cafe days.
** Ok Mel had went MIA due to Rbc, you know who I am referring to lar right.

 and then

the Fullerton days when we really can have girlies nights out.

Oh man! I remembered we were using the timer mode of my Olympus cam back then.
Now,

Time flies,

and through the years

Thank God, you guys are always with me.

When I cry and when I rejoice.

During my lowest point of time you lend me a shoulder to cry on,

accompanied me till dawn,

hear my nonsenses even thou you are dead-dead beat!

you know who you are,

and

For the invisible female warriors who stood by me,

although you girls are not in the pictures,

you know who you are.

*smiles*

I love you girls!

you are someone close enough to me to know my private space exist.

I really love you guys!

Day 291

Day 291

Especially sweet to have rainy nights by your side,

to cuddle in your arms,

to hide under the blankets and chat like little kids.

To touch your face and to see you smile.

To hug you tight and to show that your love for me blessed me so greatly.

I love you just so much,

probably more that you ever could imagine.

Someone told me,

the word "regrets" are for failures we are afraid to face.

I thank God so greatly that he has never plan my life for any regrets.

Thank you father that you gave the boldness to walk in strength through loving this smelly you planted so precisely in my life.

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I spent the whole day in shop and believe me, I am constantly hungry for a good cause. As many should know that I am on a strict healthy diet to put on weight. No junkies, but a balance diet. Sharks, I am still eating my potato salad now by the way, on top of my dinner and milkshakes. Having cereals with nuts and rasins, lectuces and mayonnise sounds so sinful at this 1.17am for weight losers. I am on a weight gaining diet so, I have to, and I am determined to put on weight, as much as I want to acheive my Round Table award next year. Nothing fail through God who strengthens my will. As I have said, REGRETS are for LOSERS, I am not a LOSER! 

Was watching this show just now and I thought of a friend.

Shirley "yeh yeh", said I cannot watch this show because I will surely cry.

For she watch this and makes her feel me in some parts.

Just like what she ask me,

if you truly love someone,

you want him to be happy.

You know that he is not happy,

but you can't do anything about it.

You know that he loves you,

but he do not have the courage to be with you.

Often Shirely thinks that why am I always so hopeful about situations?

For she cant seem to hope.

She ask me why am I not disappointed with my smelly each time I was hurt.

I told her,

because I dont hope in my smelly,

I hope in God.

My smelly can disappoint me,

but Jesus will not.

Which is why,

I need Jesus in my life and Jesus is hope.

I am too tired today.

I will tell you why in my next post,

and I am going to introduce Joseph to you guys.

Son of Isaac.

Good night

Love you people!

Love you smelly boooh!

I Love you Jesus!



Day 290

Day 290

I need 2 buddies for 2011

a) A put on weight buddy

Someone to encourage the tedious activities on putting on weight healthy, go workout with me, rollar blade with me, monitor our weight together so it can be put onto the right places. Boobs and Butt of course. It is really getting on my nerves in putting on weight.

The daily food intake diary, keeping track of all the intake in proteins and carbohydrates. Milk and healthy fats intake.

The only but

No herbalife for me, this disasterous milk-shakes shrinks my boobs, herbalife wants to make me into a real-man, instead of helping me to put on weight.

Ensure milkshakes dietary supplements are better and taste better, they come in packet drink forms which is easier to carry them around.

It is quite sickening and really tedious routines in not eating junkies but potatos, beans, nuts and chicken breast meat which I hated the most! I wasn't kidding you that I am eating potatos every other day. Steams, boiled, grilled and all kinds of potatos/salads/mayo/thousand island/egg.

I really wanted to give up, for it seems highly impossible for me to gain weight after all these years man. I do grumble to God regarding this matter. But God says, he is going to put me on a healthy BMI, I just have to keep pushing.

My aim is to be perfect inside out.

Swimming again at 10pm later ^o^_ //

2) A Million Dollar Round Table (MDRT) buddy

I am going to get a new buddy in work, not from my own team but from someone by the name of Charles Low district, this team clocked a total premium of SGD5million worth of premium. SGD5million worth of premiums, looking at the commission rate, 40% for instance, with a manpower of 10, per agent brings home $SGD200,000/- per annum not inclusive of bonuses and recurring income. How handsome that figure is. This district clocked 3 COTs as I have known. so, what is COT? Court of the Table, is 3X  MDRT. Follow the work standards of a yearly COT, even if I don't end up a COT 3rd quarter next year, at least a MDRT right.

Quite 'Er xin' if I don't make it to MDRT, this is a nuts shit shifting year for me, shifting office/ changing company and opening of shop. Let that not be an excuse 'hao bu hao', make it to MDRT next year or I quit the industry.

Come 8th Nov, I stick BIG BIG, and super very BIG on my new assigned Desk at Tanjong Pagar, I WANT TO DO MDRT 2011 OR ELSE I QUIT INSURANCE LINE!  Holaaa !!! Career at risk ah !! I will do it unless I am the winner of next year Ang Bao draw of SGD10 million.

Put the weekly quotas on my table, each day how many calls make, how many opening, how many closing. OPENLY declaring  my GOAL to the Whole Tanjong Pagar Office. If I dont clear my target monthly/quarterly, let the whole Tanjong Pagar branch laugh at me. Charles Low district is my motivation. Heard so much about Charles Low district, ok I will taste their power appointment team very soon.

Cant imagine, Charles Low has turn out to be my greatest motivation.

This is call setting Ultimatum I guess.

Seriously I don't know how to do it lar, it seems quite tough for me, because I am hardly into cold market and is quite fearful of it somehow. But I think, just close my eyes, and die die dash across, 'shi jiu shi' le la. Jesus say, it will soon be over because, he is in this challenge with me, don't fear. If there is any fear, just put on my shield,. . Tada !!!!!

You will believe in the lord who saves you with his own hands.

Jesus did that for me

came into my life and now walking with me till eternity.

He will do it on my behalf if there is anything too difficult for me to handle. Sometimes I find Jesus really cute, and I am really funny, because everytime when difficulties come, I will say: Jesus, help! I dont know, I dont know, you fight on my behalf. Then I hide behind Jesus. And he really work on my behalf through me, using my hands, my voice and my feet. Encountered it so many times. So peaceful and loving this Jesus is, that is why the bible says: Lord is your hiding place, you can find peace and joy even in times of trouble. This is so darn true. Anything that happen, Jesus backed me up. That is why I always looked so good and relax, can joke and blahhhh nonsenses even I am in amid of trouble. Because even when trouble came, I still can feel happy and joyful, because Jesus is with me ^^.

Jesus is just so cool man! I love him, for he first love me! Sometimes I bitch about my situation to Jesus, he is like my best friend ever, I told him, I am superbroke last night.Credit Card bills Hp bills nahhhnaahhhnahhh .. .. eeekkk so many financial situations, pay my bills for me? Received a cheque today, just nice with no excess. All bills paid.

God can pay your bills, get you out of debt, give you success and give you joy at the same time. Ok, I am stupid in the past . . . . . . I inherit the wealth of Father Abraham after Jesus consulted me himself.

Jesus VS Tua Pek Gong

I always like to laugh at Joyce before I met Jesus, I always ask her " how come u know Jesus love you, u confirm? " How did he tell you? He is dead and I dont even believe Jesus actually exist in the past. I thought it is the christians who cooked this Crucifixion up to bluff people de. Maybe Jesus is just a criminal you christians put up to make u people feel good. Majiam so Holy like that! Hallelujah Hallelujah what, act ang-mo only. We chinese is Tua Pek Gong one lei, don't know your own roots. We are chinese ok! Don't forget your own father and calls someone elses father. Nuts. Remember Tua Pek Gong hor, because if you pray to him, he will prosper you. You pray to him, and tell him what you want, if you sincere enough he will give you.

Recalling what I've said and now I also become Hallelujah liao, I find this really hilarious and funny now. The critics I gave, had even more nasty ones. When my christian friends said their grace before meals, I said the same grace to Tua Pek Gong too. It is meant to be a joke to them actually. I have no respect for christianity in the past at all back then in fact.

Sometimes I wonder, do we treat Tua Pek Gong like genie or more like a god? And there is so many god, some I also dont remember what is their names, except some major ones. Pray abit here, pray abit there, human just like to keep themselves busy by praying to alot of gods, whoever answers ahhh.... Genie. But solutions given by genies are always short-term, sooner or later, same thing arise again. Like that really happy meh? Like that really receive joy and freedom meh? I dont know about you, but I am not happy in the past. Always living in fear, always scare this, scare that. Worry this worry that. If the god you prayed to is real, what is there to worry? Or maybe you dont trust that god you prayed to enough. Or you pray to him for fun?  Or maybe? I dont know?

Then Linda Mummy

Mummy Linda said, 5 appointments a day, 2 closing, 2 opening, 1 servicing. Give and take some fly kite you. The run starts in Dec 2010. and It was mummy Linda who said, unlearn all you half past 6 presentation skills, start it all over again. First 3 months of the year, only close cold market, April onwards then start on your warm, she even calculated for me, by Sept 2011 I should have clear MDRT. If I am extremely blessed and she thinks I am, by June or July I will be able to clear it. Aim for your COT then.

Linda said, you don't need to work also can close case, what if you work? or what happen if I work hard? I know I am a blessed child, always good with people, but don't take it for granted lar you idiot Seven!

and because it is AIA, it is highly possible to close 30 cases and above a month. I need to start counting my numbers:

To have closing everyday, 3 appointments for me before closing.

30 closings = 3 x 30 = 90 appointments a month/3 appointments per day assuming all close.

For variables, and play safe I have to fulfill 5 appointment everyday.

I have to total down to how many calls I have to make each day other than time set aside for appointment.

5 appointments per day, an appointment last for an hr,

5 hrs a day on appointments,

3 hours for travelling time,

3 hours for follow-up appointments setting

11 hours in total to spend in work to get this income of minimium SGD$12,000/- per month and additional renewals the following year which will eventually accumulates up to additional SGD$30,000 every start of the year.

An income of SGD$320,000/annum for COT citeria, God make it happen, through your strength, your will be done, your kingdom come! I can seek peace and comfort in you, and follow you Jesus. Bless me with more clients like Sl, JJ and KH, who sees the goodness of financially planning and put $1000/mth premium with me each month. I pray for more quality good clients, so I can rest after August 2011 and serve your kingdom in outreach spiritual Mission field in Taiwan, China and Japan.

More more more quality clients, so I can have lesser appointments and do some 'bo liao' stuffs like hanging around the beach or staying over in Sentosa and do all the love love 'bo liao' stuffs alone, like feeding the squrriels hahaaaa . . . . 

I know I am a weirdo, likes to drive to Sentosa alone in the morning, have a quiet walk at the beach, say my prayers and spend time with God. Spending time with God is really wonderful lar. Spiritual prayers early morning are the best, for they kick-start your day and makes it fulfilling not missing out any goodness God place for you each day.

Let me contribute my tithe that adds up to $32,000 next year to work for the good of your kingdom.

By the way, God loves numbers, that is why all my commitments are in numbers. How I know Daddy God loves numbers, for there is a whole book in the bible named NUMBERS!

God will never give you numbers you cannot achieve.

Thank God I have a secretary to run paper work.

This is my MDRT activities.

Need consistancy and determination, motivation and hardwork.

The promise I made for my own Goal, if I don't earn at least a SGD$10,000 by next year, I will suck my own toes or lick my own armpit without washing them! Eeeeekkkkkk, Ok that sounds really gross! I will do my best with the help of Jesus in order to not make such gross threat to myself come true... Ekkkkkk.......

Day 289

Day 289

Today Pastor Kong preach about Hope. The gospel on we can hope for the best to happen, not in man but in Jesus Christ. Ya lor, that is so true, because when we put hope on human, we always ended up getting disappointment and hurts. That is why I have never demand anything from smelly anymore. The only thing is him to receive happiness and joy. I learn to Hope on Jesus instead, for Jesus is the author of Faith, and the fruit of Faith is hope. In the character of God, which is built onto Jesus Christ, it is Love. Love produces faith, and faith produces hope. That is why in 1Cor. it says: In him we have these three things, Love, faith and hope and the greatest of all is Love. God never forget his promise to me. I know and I know. Sometimes we just have to let Go and let God do the work.

I have already let Go my smelly and let God work in his life. If I haven't let him go, I wouldn't have bless and pray for him instead I will most likely curse him. I realised that to love him is to let him go and let god be in control. Certainly, God work in his life in many amazing areas. Although this silly smelly still likes to lie at times, but well I am not the judge, God is, so I stayed very nonchalant about it. I just know that I love him, and have to continue to do so until God says, it is enough. God is the one who create a work in him not me. If there is anything, it is up to God and not me. I just follow. Picks up the cross and be a cross bearer. Walk with Jesus and love this man I was told to love. We can lie and cheat anyone, but we cant lie to ourselves, which is why I will never lie to myself about my feelings and love affections. Lying to ourselves only accumulates greater hurt to ourselves at a later stage.   

I love smelly, and I do. God works both ways, if God tells me to love you, and told me you will be the blessings in my life, I believe he said that to you too. If at a certain moment God makes you miss me so much, that maybe one of the moment I misses you as much too. He seems to know everything, well, that is why he is call God lor.

Good night.

Day 288

Day 288

I love Jesus and I love you God, with all my life. I asked Father, what do you want me to do for you today? I am your vessel. Use me for your purpose. My daddy God  showed me a picture of 2 broken hearts and it was God who cuts them away. I asked father, why do you want to cut them away? The 2 hearts are crying. But daddy God replied, I have to do that, even when they cry. But my spirit is there to comfort them. They will understand my will once the change is done. God cuts the pair of hearts and they were bleeding so badly.

I turned my bible and I read the words of God, in proverbs: God is like a father who disciplines you because he loves you. He trims and cut away all your bad trails. your selfishness, your bad habits, your jealousy, your ego and pride, so you can be a better child of his to love selflessly.

I learn about brokeness in God

The Revelation came and I thank God for doing his work in me. Although it is painful from the start, but as time goes by, I know God is cutting away all the evil sins in my heart, the proud, the unforgiveness, hatred, the selfishness, egos, jealous, unloving . . . What remains in the other half of my heart is kindness, caring, consideration, mercy, grace, faith and most importantly love.

There is nothing I can ask for, my life is so well-taken care of and I have no worries. Everynight I can sleep in peace and wakes up in joy. I do not need to worry about anything, for the faith in father has put me through.

You know, I have walked till this point, to walk a purpose, to fulfill his will. I pray all my love ones too receive this joy and happiness. Because Jesus is real, and you can leave your pain, hopelessness and agony into his hands. Where he will exchange them for peace, love and joy in your life. Thank you Jesus. I know you, you are my Friend, my Shepherd and my redeemer who died for me because you love me. 

I love you Jesus, please guide the people I love to come to you, know you and to experience the kind of love you have for us. Daddy God, your kingdom come, your will be done on earth as it is in heaven, give us our daily bread and forgive us for our trespasses. 

Guide my smelly, Jesus, please take away his unhappiness, hopelessness and exchange them for your love and liberity. Jesus, he needs you. Show him that you are the real stuff. For you Jesus, you know my heart, all I want to see is this man whom I love to be truly happy because seeing him being unhappy really breaks my heart.

Day 287

Day 287

It's a crazy and dusty day,

the piano movers came to transport my piano away and

I packing up my room for the whole day.

Finally,

after the moving and muscular moving, I shifted my wardrobes and the barangs off to its new places.

 Added a new sitting area for my girlies,
as they always complain that I made them sit on the floor
because I do not allow anyone to sit on my bed.

 My hair curling tongs, hair straightener and hair-dyer all packed nicely besie the sofa-bed.

 The dressing table

 My work station,
just beside my bed.
What a "good" combination to "nua" when working.

Anyway there's too many things in my room and this is the best I can make do with it.
I was tidying up and I saw my wigs
I decided to give my wig a haircut and there it goes.

See my face so cui, you know that I wasn't with much makeup except the translucent shisedo BB cream.
I MMS this new hairlook to 2 person,
Smellyhubhub and holly.
The first message I receive is from Holly saying: kns, wig. . .
She is so smart.
hhaaaa
and then,
cam whoring again.
with the long-haired wig.
The twin sisters series
Love you ^^
We love you smelly ....Blah . . . ~~

 

Ok, Enough

This long haired wig is really making me go nuts,

so itch.

Day 286 continue

Day 286 continue . . . .

I had my early appointment this morning at 9am. Back home to pack my room to prepare for the piano movers for tomorrow. I found these old photos and an old dream logbook and an old diary. See these . . . . .

Wah . . . thats Jian Xin,

10 years ago, he is so skinny man,

can do break-dance somemore.

hhaaaa . . . 

 Huixian and MingHao,

Ok, Huixian is very skinny too 10 years ago.

Wah Seh Jian Xing

You Are My Father - True Worshippers (Glory to Glory)

True worshippers Indonesia
Doesnt matter where I go, you're there for me,
Doesn't matter what I've done, your love is for me,
You wipe away my tears and lift me when I fall.
My life is safe by the mercy of your grace.
Doesnt matter where I fall, you cover me
Doesnt matter where I go, you walk with me.
You are my Father, provider, my deliverer.
Father I love you. Your love is for me.

Day 286

Day 286

The riches of life

There is a king who live a luxuries life. In his life stays 3 wives. A queen and 2 concubine.

A queen who provides wise choices, paitence, and give selflessly for the king. She loves the king and always wanted the best for him even through in times she suffer injustice and pain. But the king often feels that she is just a stupid woman and do not like to take her advise into consideration. While in times of need he then realise the smile and hug of the queen is the comfort that will always give ease to his heart. 

A concubine who is really lovely and caring. She knows what to do to cheer the king up, talk to him and put jokes and laughter in his life. The king loves her and enjoy merrying with his lovely concubine. The king will shower her with lots of beautiful gifts and give whatever the concubine wants. The king just loves her, pampers her like the most precious jewel in his arms.

B concubine who only knows how to have fun and create trouble for the King, but even though, the king loves her. For she is gorgeous, attractive and everyone just cannot seems to not love her. Everyone in the kingdom wants to have a taste of her. B concubine is the dream of every man.

One day the King fell seriously ill and on his death-bed he looked around. He saw his Queen and his 2 Lovely concubines.

He turned to look at his most gorgeous B concubine. My precious beauty, I am going to die, will you die with me. B concubine immediately turned her face and replied of course not!!. I am going to get married to the next richest king once you die. B concubine walked out of the king's sight. The King was heart-broken and he turned to A concubine.

He turned to look at A concubine and said: My lovely beauty, I am going to die, will you die with me? His concubine replied. No of course, I can be here with you till your deathbed, but dont worry, I will not remarry but stay by your tomb till I die one day. That is the best I can do for you. The king was heart-broken once again.

Next, he turned his face and looked at his Queen who is always giving selflessly for the king. The king said, my faithful queen, will you die with me? The queen smile but shook her head, No my king, I will not die with you, but I will weep and walk the last journey with you till you are buried back to the earth. I have to manage your kingdom of people on your behalf, but wait for me for one day, I will see you again once my purpose is done. The king was devastate for even his faithful queen is not willing to die with him.

The king teared and cried, I am a king but when I die, no one is willing to die with me. But a voice spoke at the back of the room. I am willing to go with you King to be with you and to take care of you, the king turned and looked. He is a steward whom the king didn't even take notice of. And the king died.

Thinking of the moral of my story. In fact everyone is a King. The queen and concubines represents different things in our lives.

B concubine: represents our wealth. Our cars, houses, title deeds, assets. Althought you love them with all your heart and soul when you are alive. But once you are gone, they changed owners and belongs to someone elses.

A concubine: represents our physical body, our looks, our appearance, our beauty. It will stay with us, be with us as long as we're living. We will love them for they represent our looks. But once we are gone, they are gone buried deep in the earth till it rots. We cannot carry them with us. 

Queen: represent our loves one, family and people who are important in our lives. They walk with you, care for you, although you always take them for granted but the most they can do for you is the walk you your last journey. Nevertheless one day, you will still see them in heaven once they've fulfill the purpose in their life. 

The Steward: A faithful one who is willing to walk with you, is the voice in you which you have always negected. He is always with you but you have long forgotten who he is. He is always in your life but you treated him as an unworthy slave. He is the steward who get ready every little things in life for you. Even small little details that you didn't even take notice of. He will be there to walk with you whether you are alive or dead. He is always pathing your way when you cant be really bother to even care. He is always walking ahead of you, scotting for dangers to warn you, hoping that you will hear him. He is always there for you, always there with you. This voice belongs to the trinity, Father, Spirit and Son.

I realised this and followed this father who lead out the best of my life in joy have you?  

Day 285

Day 285

I cannot express how much I love you through words or speech.

In all I want to say, I am really certain that you are the blessings in my life. 

Thank you for being such great blessings of happiness to my life.

Thank you for loving me.

Smelly, thank you.   

on the bus

On the bus right now, reading my bible, book of ephesians, and this reaffirmed my prayers. I prayed an exactly same prayer this morning for my hubhub. I wow?!? when i saw this now. It reads ephesians 1;16 I never stop giving thanks for you as I remember you in my prayers. I pray that god of our lord jesus christ, the glorious father would give you a spirit of wisdom and revelation in knowledge of him. I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened so you may know what is hope of his calling, what are the glorious riches of his inheritance he has for you and what is the immeasurable greatness of his power to us who believe according to the working of his strength. I prayed a TOTAL SAME PRAYER, WITHOUT KNOWING THIS IS ACTUALLY IN THE BIBLE.

Thank God

Thank God I love to Camwhore

Cam 1: Single lips

Cam 2: Kanna Shock

Cam 3: Normal

Cam 4: Buggy hammie

Cam 5: Huhhh.... look...

Cam 6: Normal smile

Cam 7: I pink you face

Cam 8: Wattttt?

Cam 9: huuuhhhhhh why like that .. ..

Cam 10: Sad, today no sales

Cam 11: Nevertheless my Boss Jesus say its ok la

Cam 12: I will still be going home with a wide smile!