Ceasar

Spent my night with my du bee
and his colleagues at Ceasar along Liang Siah Street

My assumption was he's busy
and wouldnt want to hinder him for
some social learning experiences or some
tipping point his superior might have tip him off.
I went home after a few drinks.

Work is busy for him,
In future
lesser and lesser time to be spend together
My work will be loading up soon.
A kick start for most of my projects.
Knowing that there will be lesser time to be spend together.
I hope that for the time we spend having each other side by side
to reduce argument.

Probably I am just not myself.
Not the usual self i used to be
making my own priority top of anything else.
Now his priority had became mine.
I do not know why.

Most of the time,
Thinking he will be happy after some of the things i did.
But i was wrong, totally wrong.
Probably I should spare so much of a thought for him
Too much i guess.

I realized its not that easy making the one you love happy.
Sometimes of the night before i sleep,
I felt feelings which i really longed for.

The feelings of being pampered.
The feelings of being spoilt.
I am not greedy.
Probably just once in a blue moon will satisfy me.

The feelings of being dote like a little baby,
Had long parted me.