I really dont

I do not want doubt or feel paranoid about what had happened.

I dont want to fall into the mental stress of that.

Something come into my mind and should i feel if i am being treated in the normal way i should be.

I come to realise i am always being hidden in a corner where he will bring me out only to people whom he feels no threat to.

I was waiting for him one late evening in town after movies with my uni mates.

He is around the vicinity with his friends for KTV session.

The movie ended and the big group got scattered.

Some went for supper and some headed home.

They asked me if i am heading home and i replied i am waiting for my boyfriend as he is having a singing session at Kbox,

Kay Heng pops by with the question of why am I not joining him and his friends.

I do not know how to answer his question.

I just replied casually Kbox cant smoke and i was smoking at the point of time.

Back in my head,

i know i wasnt even invited to join in the first place.

Most of them left, it was late,

Jason and Pinky urged me to join him and his friends as they do not want to see me waiting alone at that hour which was 2am in the morning,

and I really cant answer their question of why am i not joining him.