Over the weekends

Its Sunday

I spend pratically most of my nights with my hubhub in our usual night time cuddle. Of course, I fall into the predicament of my family and him. I was talking to my mum and she is thinking of her retirement plan. Which means, I will be taking over whatever burden they have. I am stress up over my family business and the only one I can turn to is myself. I have got no one to help me up nor do I have anyone to share the burden with me. I was talking to my brother Alfred somedays ago, as he wishes to learn the trade of our family. I really need someone whom I trust to help me up. Intensive work loads and sandwiched between my parents' debating session really screwed me up. Therefore I tend to get piss over minor stuffs.

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I am so freaking hell tired.

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It was, and then, and then. . . .

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We were at Richard's place for some chills Edinger before we headed down to velvet. During our convo, Huhhub comes into place during our discussion and I believe he couldn't take it anymore. Some issues on the private space in between.

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This topic did outbreak later part at night where he did voice out that I am not giving him a space of his own. I just do not like the way he potrays himself. For a fact the body languages he gave is obviously inviting curious dates for women out there. He gives a feeling that he is afraid to let people knows that he is attached and he is mine. For a matter of fact, he just drives me mad when things he said were ridiculously mean. : Probably, I should just change a club to party. I turned and walked away when he said that. I was mad at it even at this present moment. Why not just make a point that when he is doing his casanova act, make me a stranger. He makes me sound as if I am an unreasonable girlfriend who will agressively tag along where ever he goes. Or some posessive girlfriend who hinders his private time with friends. This is especially irritating when everyone keep asking me where he was and most of the time I practically have got no idea.

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I am still mad.

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still mad

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I remembered him telling me this not long ago; My dear, next time we go phuture party together ok, we will have fun together, I will be a good boy and keep you company. Not to mention this, if he don't intend to mean it, please don't say it. The worst thing, he said something like that, not fulfilling it yet tells me he is changing a place to club so he will not bump onto me. The . . . . this just makes me feel like a pain in his ass.

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I am mad and I am still pissed

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It was last night during shower, he rolled into my mind and I just cant stop missing him.^ Impromptu; my dad also watch " Ou Xiang Ju " Ming zhong zu ding wo ai ni. So funny - - Ruan Qing Tian and Chen Qiao'en^ Alright, back to my hubhubie. It was past mid-night when I was having my shower yesterday. We parted early last evening with a ^.^ see him soon kiss and I went back home. During shower and scrubs for half an-hour, I can't help but to tell myself that I am sleeping alone tonight and due to busy work schedule both of us have, we can't see each other the next day, which is today. . . Somehow I just feel real sad. I got to miss him for a day. I find my blog turning into " Rachel's" blog with entries of myself and hubhubie most of the time. brandoniloveyou.wordpress.com Well I just hope these sweet misses and entries I post just go on and on and on . . . . . . . . . without anymore hipcups or emergency humps which gives heart attacks. I hope that my hubhubie misses me as much as I do, I hope that my hubhubie think of me when he has the time to. I hope that when he is lying on his bed with my favourite pillow by his side, he is missing me.

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I just got home after my work appointment, I looked at my newly bought roller blades, I just had an instant thought of heading towards ECP like now. But looking at my way to recovery scarp on my right knee, I abandon the idea as I do not want to suffer another slow fall comical fall upon the trip over my brakes behind my right blades. Isn't brake pads suppose to act as safely device, yet I got myself injured because of that. Silly me. . .

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I was having lunch with my aunties this afternoon in my dad's workplace when my gossipy auntie asked me about hubhubie. The question she probed. " How come your friend looks so different now? " So i went, last time young ma. . . I went back to work after lunch when hubhubie called ^.^ He was ordering MacDonald's when the server asked him " Is coke fine for him " Spontaneously I replied. No, have Sprite instead. Hubhubie instantly replied after me over the phone and had his coke changed into sprite. After which he realised, eh -.- he is the one having the big mac meal not me. Hee.. heee ... then I told him, coke stains teeth but not sprite and he accepted my reasoning. At that certain moment I found out, my life spins around he's. Even during those weeks and months he left me standing and fending by myself, I hasn't leave him a single bit because I didn't give up. I understand that many of my dear friends are sick worried about me, but I know hubhubie will be able to prove them wrong this time round. He is my precious baby and I know he treats me as he's as well. ^_^ Going for shower, face mask now and wait for my dearest Baobei's call ^..^

默默

It is simple yet Wonderful

I had a great weekend with hubhub! Although we meet up everyday, but it seems to be never enough. We had lovely strolls in the park, kite flying in the open field and I know there are more to come. Having him by my side, physicially and emotionally gives daily sugar rushes. We had an early night yesterday, hugging each other to bed, with interlocked legs gives pure happiness in us. Thank you I had a well-night sleep, thank you my lovely hubhub. I have a dozen of appreciation for my good-boy hubhub. I've conclude that I really sleep best when he is around me. Can I be selfish enough to have you for my lifetime?

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Sunday

We had our prayers for lunar 7th month at dad's workplace. Therefore, today happens to be the soft-launch of showcasing hubhub to a fraction of my family. Hubhub came in an adorable dressed-up yellow strip jacket accompanied by his new hairstyle which looks like a replica of Bruce Lee. Hubhub is so damn cute. I had his picture taken of him posing beside his little yellow bumble-bee and that makes him looks amazing adorable.

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Food served at the workplace sucks, I practically eat for the sake of eating. We hang around for a while and headed towards the abandon house at the hilltop of Jln Remaja. Hubhub poor bumble-bee stalked for a few times before we reached the final hilltop. The uphill road is steep and sitting in the co-driver seat can't stop me wondering if bumble-bee will back speed down the slope. The abandon house on the hilltop was flatten. There's practically nothing left now except the high wall of the drive way. Hubhub and I had over the fence to get onto the other end of it. On our climb-up out, I accidentally landed my butt on hubhub's head (So sorry my lovely hubhub :S) After which he piggy back me on his shoulders before I landed safely on the ground. We drove down-hill and pay Masaki a visit as he resides just nearby. I love the part when Hubhub is doing the arm wrestling with Masaki. As an audience point of view, both of them just look so comical.

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We left and headed towards 6th Ave for some steaks. Steaks at Aston, a coffee-shop steak house with afforable pricing. Sirlon steaks at just S$10.90 :) After which we headed down towards Tan Quee Lan st for my baobao's indoor tanning. During the wait, I just roamed around Bugis junction when I bumped onto Shane, who exclaimed that I put on weight. Yipee. After 40 mins, I reconcile with my baobao and we went shopping for mask at Wastons, window shopping at the toy-shop as usual and Kinokuniya for fashion magazines.

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Kinokuniya - Hubhub insisted of getting me a VIVI MAGAZINE to make me update on my fashion sense ("-.-). . . But fashion this season is kind of the Mama Leopard style. The kind of style I'll never follow. I always prefers the Victorian / Bohemian style. I had a few new style in mind and the problem is that those quality clothings are not availiable in Singapore. I fell inlove with a Emporian style Jacket and I was reminded on the VIVI MAGAZINE again. Once again I was tempted to get my ass to Umeda-Japan streets once again. Umeda-Shin Osaka is the place loaded with quality priced clothings and lovely one and only style. . . Baobao and I are making our plan to HongKong next month after his shoots. I was kind of relectant as I can foresee I would not be able to get that kind of quality clothings in "Bugis St style" in Langham mall or Yau Matei/Mongkok of HongKong. Designers clothings in Central were never cheap. Most likely the possible brand(s) I'll be interested in is the Playboy Jeans. Anna Sui, Miss Sixty, G-star raw in HongKong is never worth the buy, I will rather get them in Japan with a fast forward in fashion and a good price of 30% off in their departmental store, or even better in the FACTORY OUTLETS in OSAKA>/.

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On our way back to our car to update our soon to be overtimed coupon, we met up with "Fatima" but the male one. I shall name him Uncle Summon. Fatimas are in their fasting month, therefore should be quite "Bo Eng" My KPO hubhub is very happy to see car owners getting summon for not putting parking coupons. We practically stood along the roadside for a good 10 mins for see cars being summons. We had our dinner again, at the Crystal jade tea house. I love the beancurd there. Most important factor of the beancurd. It is smooth. We had our quiet dinner reading our magazine we had while waiting for food to arrive. Although we never chat much during dinner, but its the comfortable feeling we had enjoying in the company of each other's pressence. Nevertheless I just want to thank my baobei for being so much joy for the week.

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I am getting so irritated over blogger. It shows error on page whenever I want to get my pictures uploaded. The accumulated pictures backdated since hubhub's Birthday chalet. I've tons of interesting pictures I took at my workplace and I'm sure you guys will feel a pinch of hair-raising experience when you guys see those pictures. hahaa. . . (Especially during this lunar 7th month )The spellcheck is not working as well so pardon me for spelling errors on top of my poor command of English. Working 2 fulltime jobs at the same time is hectic. I am glad that I do no have to waste time in school this semester. I requested for a pause for it. Otherwise I will be a piece of dead meat. . . . I started spending lesser and lesser time with my valued friends as time has been always a constrain.

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Naturally, during off-work hours, I will try my very best to spend some quiet time with my hubhub. Even though I am dead beat at times, I will still take every opportunity I can have to meet up my lovely as much as I can. He is just so addictive and I can't wait to see him after work. I start missing him all over again the moment we part each time I can't stayover his side and I will look forward for our meet-up the next day. At a point of time, I really wish that I can sleep next to him each and every night but I know I can't. Argh. . I simply indulge into him and I just love him so freaking much.

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and yes, I will do my upload of pictures once I am able to do so. :) -

Lovely evening

Evenings of golden

lying in his arms made heaven

In those nights of indulgence,

they seems like having a mouthful of creamy melted chocolate dripped onto a silk woven dress.

I love it when you caress your fingers along my hair,

and when you hugged me tightly within your well built arms,

to show that I am truly yours.

I will press my lightly weak fingers onto your back,

hoping to distress the ache you had.

Sometimes I'll elbow the lower hip of yours to make you kick and swim,

not in a puddle of water,

but the warm cozy bed that we always roll-on.

I am mesmerised by you,

not for the appearance you gave,

but the feeling is just so right.

The passionate feeling I reckon that can last for our lifetime.

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你看你的脸。 。 。哇

不要看我的哪 。 。 。

我的宝贝最可爱了!

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甜甜小品

甜嘴蜜舌: 如果你要我算算我爱你多少，我想我会许要用上一辈子去算!

傻傻女 : ("- 。-)

甜嘴蜜舌: 你知道你哪里最美吗? 没想到，你人美，心更美 。 。

傻傻女 : (- ，- ")

哇，脸上有蚂蚁，从嘴里爬出来! 你果然是甜嘴小弟!

Misses

It was Monday evening when I headed down to Chinatown to meet my lovely hubbie hub up for my favourite " water boiled beef " Shui xu nu rou,

I parted with dearest early today as I know and I can feel that he is longing to hang out with his group of brothers, knowing he had been a "Zai nan" for quite sometime.

I headed back to my hometown and meet up with my usual kakis.

The usual group of buddies ;

In fact I am really thankful that I am surrounded by this group of great people :)

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Finally I got to see who is kny's his "colleague",

lolx, the one hol and I was so interested in.

She sent me home after our chillout session.

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Conrad celebrated his birthday at Zouk Velvet last Friday with Fu and company,

no wonder Chris was there last Friday,

It was a "BANG" last Fri and Sat due to the guest DJ and anniversary thingy.

Although I was not there for Conrad's Bday,

Sincerely blessing him with great health and luck in work.

Sorry Conrad, I wasn't there for your birthday,

You made my day on my Birthday last month.

Do have a post celebration, I'll definately by there :)

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Coming back to my Dearest hubhub,

I miss his so much ever since we parted this evening.

Good night and kisses.

I am longing to see you tomorrow ! ! AGAIN !!

Till an extend I just cant stop missing him,

it has been a year,

thru all ups and downs we've went through,

we finally recognised each other,

being the one and only.

Thank god,

he dim and shoned our path once again to make us realise want we really want in life.

Chalet updates

There's some problems with my java script and apologise that the photos cant be uploaded.

I bunked in the chalet hubhub had for his post birthday (Tue and Wed) celebration at Changi Safra club,

It is tiring and hectic for the both of us as we only managed to sleep during dawn for the 2 nights.

Thou it was mentally and physically draining,

but I really do appreciate that hubhub invited me along to share fun and laughter with people he often hang out with :-)

People around him are great, sincere being.

For some people I've met,

somehow you just can't help but to love them for the true being in them.

I can't help but to love the people around him,

David, Yvonne, Kelvin . . . . .

What I see in people are seldom the physical appearance in them,

I tend to listen, observe and feel the sincerity in others.

And they are simply great people,

the care, they give, and they are true hearted beings.

That is what I am concern with, and those are the people I will love to know.

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For my hubhub,

I know that he is trying his best to prove how much he loves me ever since we decide to hold onto each together once again.

I would really like to apologise to him during times when I am afraid.

I just couldn't help it, because I am terrified to get hurt once more thats why I am paranoid.

I understand that he is making alot of changes for me,

to be a promising good boy,

to let me know that he loves me alot.

I didn't mean to drench him with cold water each and every time when he promises something,

I didn't mean to tell him that don't bluff lar,

I didn't mean to tell him all the skeptics friends had on him to turn him down,

I didn't mean to be mean at times when I am not as accommodating as before,

I really didn't mean to.

Deep down in me,

I am just scared.

I just love him too much.

On the other side of the fence,

I really indulges into every moment we had together,

exploring parks,

walking up slopes and got freaked out hopping toad,

flying helicopters together,

talking about future plans,

hugging and kissing him during every opportunity I have.

Spending time together although we are doing nothing.

I would really love to spend my life with this man hand in hand.

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Prayers for the day, Sorry that I've miss the service today due to heavy work load. But nevertheless, I would like to tell god, to shine onto my path with more faith and trust with this man I often mentioned. I know he is trying very hard and I really do appreciate it. I told god I want to spend my lifetime with my hubhub regardless of the turbulence we went through. Turbulence empowered us and make our bond stronger, makes our path clearer and proved to us how much mutual love we had for each other. This love can only get stronger each day and I believe it is. I thank god for making this happen and bring him back to to me again, not the playful man everyone used to view but a good man he is.

National day celebration part 2

Having a fun private party at Fannon's place;

Left to right: Richard Sng, Me, Chile, Fulala, Alfred, Winyin, Sebast, Fannon, Calvin, Holly, Shirely

The intoxication
and Yummies

Sean, Fu, Alfred, Winyin, Calvin

Cafe Del'mar?

btw the halfway done up Jacuzzi is beside the tent.

Happy National DAY !!

The Chess set in the living room

Stairs to the balcony and roof garden

The sliding door to the balcony

The living room

Zoom in of the yummies

Standby - -

For Holly

For Holly,

for the Ferraris and GTR below Fannon's place,

now you know who they belongs to.

lolx.

Find some Familar cars here?

Photos from abstructed from Sean's early morning drive.

National Day updates 1 ~ Fannon's penthouse party

Garden Roof top of Fannon's place.

I love his living room,

cozy, great carpet, nice big arms chair, outdoor damn freaking nice balcony and of course a massage chair.

The National day team. . . . Thats only 20% of our drinks .. . . . Crazy . .. .

Fannon even prepare slipper for all of his guest to his penthouse rooftop, so thoughtful

We had like 2 cartons of beer,

2 cartons of wine, red and white,

buffet dinner, Osyters and

yes the 3 litres bottle of Martell,

Rice wine,

imagine that, there is Mao Tai too.

Anyway, I am just sticking to my beer and 7-up and some champange for the whole evening.

We have a professional photographer at our party,

mine just sucks,

pictures will be uploaded once I've got my edit copy :)

Meanwhile its an awesome party,

even more shiok if the Rooftop Jacuzzi is fixed up.

Anyway, somehow I feel thankful Chris is not there.

One of the week

Ecclesiastes

Ecclesiastes 4, 2 : 13

It is better to be a poor but wise youth rather than an old and foolish king who refuses all advice.

Such a youth could rise from proverty and and succeed.

He might even become king, though he has been in prison.

1:4:15

I observed everything going on under the sun, and really, it is all meaningless - like chasing the wind.

What is wrong cannot be made right

What is missing cannot be recovered.

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** BBG services on Thurs 7.30 pm and Fri @ Riverwalk

*** 7.30pm @ DXO on 21 Aug 09, featuring BBG Band named : SE7EN; interested parties do drop me a message :)

Is thinking about . . .

I am thinking of many things which occurs in the recent months.

What happened and how much tension I've caused in my life as well and family.

I've repent it within the purest of my heart when I teared during the sinners prayer yesterday.

In the past, I've let this man down because I love myself too much.

Now, I've let many people down because I dont love myself enough.

I am facing an internal crisis where no one else would ever understand,

needless to put my family in the picture.

At a certain point in life,

you' would realise you do not live for yourself anymore.

You just live to please everyone around you, to make others happy.

I am really very tired,

mentally and physically.

Where is my breakthrough?

I am handling everything not within my means,

that is the reason why I am making my struggle.

For the night I am home,

I never fail to look into god's word to keep my faith in life moving.

I am stuck along the cross roads of my career and family.

There is no advise given.

I am tired of doing nothing.

I am tired of giving.

I am tired of the tears.

I got myself into shit again which alcohol intoxication.

I deem to be more focus.

Directions in life.

Things concerning him which no words or descriptions can explain.

Myself,

being ultimately paranoid over my relationship and I hated myself so much for being that.

When will such hurt and dishonor end?

How am I suppose to wipe off the done to make it undone and refresh as before?

At certain nights, I am still quenching in pain.

I would like to ask him,

is he really happy?

Old school Sinema

Seven : What say you?

April kanna Tui tui tui

Its Gavin's turn to be tui now, the following, just Tu HIM.

HuiPing : Nee Nao Hia . .

Hubhub's turn . . .

Yeah . .

This is what we call physical bonding. .

Say Cheese to the " Little Yellow Truck" which 6 passengers on-board.

And Happy Birthday to my dearest,

bringing you tons of blesses in my prayers each and everyday of my life.

With the finest love and sincerity.

借我你的一辈子，我下辈子再还你.

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Lovely

The violin without an A string
I just love the colours

Recognition

This is a quiz for recognition in self;
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There is an empty house along the forest, what would you choose to hang onto the wall of the empty house?
1) Clock
2) Photographs and frames
3) Pictures
4) Calender
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1) Clock - You are a systematic person, with selfish rationale and logics. Right brain over left. You tend to make full possibility of situations which gain an upper hand. You are nice to everyone but fake and is a hypocrite. You will do what ever which satisfy your greed. You gain recognition with the amount of capability you will do to gain satisfaction.
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2) Photographs and frames - You are a person who love recognition from people around you. Your high ego and pride makes you to be the darling in everyone's heart. You love to miggle around people in order to gain trust and faith of others in you.
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3) Pictures - You are an abstruct person, and loves to be called the unique. You impress others with the amount of talent you have to gain recognition among people. You are most likely a arty farty or a musical incline.
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4) Calander - You are a planner, someone who plans too much to make sure everything goes on fine and smooth. People get impressed by your logics and math in planning which in return confirm the stablilty and trust of others.
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I fall between the catergory of photographs and pictures. From the elaboration I find it rather true as I am that kind of person. Nice and considerate towards others which in returns makes me a darling among my lovelies. To a point if anyone will to realise, you will never hear any bad-mouth about myself, simply I am too netural in all ways.

There is a reason why . . .

There is a reason why I hated bangkok.

I've been there twice in my life.

Phuket, Bangkok and Pattaya.

On the 1st occasion I was lost and I loathe that place.

The next trip to BKK,

the traffic jams just turned me away,

the streets were so dirty, alittle worst than Hongkong and that turns me off somehow.

I dont really like to go on shopping trips as I find it pretty tedious and hectic.

Japan is exceptional due to the fashion and style they carry,

anyway my Japan trip wasn't planned to be a shopping trip in the first place.

Back to BKK,

the reason being why I disapprove the idea of going bkk with him.

What is the point of heading to the same city twice in a month with 2 different girls each time?

It is not at all impressive nor is it interesting on my ends.

That makes me feel cheapen somehow or rather.

Seriously, I don't need any fancy trips or whatsoever.

I just want to be with him . . . ^ EXCLUSIVELY ^

Peranakan Museum

Pop Art heels V.S Traditional

I particularly love this,
Remembering our Ancestors who brought us here so far from our family tree.
For the dead or for the living,
we just got to be filial

The vintage

This is my favourite.

Perenakan Museum located just beside Sub-station.

Entrance: S$6/-

Next stop Singapore Art Museum :)