She is "Disturbed"

I feel kind of twitch after seeing a link to a shoutout in facebook. Immediately, I have the thought that the shoutout was referring to me. To be frank and honest, I am none of like what it was said. I've never wanted to be anybody nor do I envy the kind of life she leads. We're just people of a different social style.
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I feel tinted for some reasons I do not know why. For some smart ass who know whats going on and rationale about this "used to be" triangular relationship months ago would comprehend and see the whole story without any further elaboration. And seriously I do feel kind of sad to hear that from her. Since when, she turned so shallow? Those statements were Bimbo-tic to me. Even if it is not referring to me, I just feel so " you know, Boomz "

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X X X X : Why do girls wanna date the guys I've been with, especially RIGHT AFTER I've dated them? Are my second-hands that much of a steal or do I magically up their 'market value'? I feel so used... like Britney... Poor Britney. I watch...ed For the Record. I feel you. And girls, please stop trying to be me. There can only be ONE X X X X, you bloody wannabes. :) Read More .

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.Although we are not really friends to be, it is still part of disappointment to hear that from her. I've never dislike her or loathe her for whatever reasons or whatever things she told me many months ago. I've never doubt, hold criticism or feel the things that she said were sarcasm. Until someone reminded me yesterday where I just scratched my head and said maybe its her ego.

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It may be her ultimate EGO penning that statement down after she discovered it. I told her to take care and good luck to her in our last phone conversation.

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' MARKET VALUE ' is never determine as such. Probably she just think too highly of herself in some ways, In many cases, credits of self are determined by "unseen goodness" people rate you deep in their heart. I cannot deny that I have a great credit, I am just being myself.

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Deep down in my heart, I am sorry but I have to say, I do pity the lady who pen that down. Its her EGO and PRIDE, which makes her feel so undeserved. Her EGO and PRIDE make disappear the impression she used to give me. Now, she has to get through something in MEN. She is great looking, even better ever since recent months. I am thinking about how shallow men were and when you are perfect and gorgeous, you never know who loves you and who lust over you. I find that it is a hassle. What if one day, you went weak and beauty is never a concern anymore. You finally realised the man whom you thought, who loves and care about you actually lusts over you. He walks away. It becomes a tragic. <>

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Nevertheless in my case, nothing is about lust. I dont lust over my boy hubhub, I do not think that he is damn good-looking or whatsoever. I do not date him to make me feel proud. The factors that magnet me to him is, I see him, without his mask, the bottom simple heart he has. He is really great in many ways, if only he make and anchor his choice and option for something less complicated. Most importantly I really love alot him.

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If one day god decided to change him into a hilarious creature. He knows and everyone else out there who knows me can predict my actions. I love him enough to put him close to me, I will not even be ashamed to hold him tight on the streets, to kiss him like never before. He knows and everyone knows, the fact that I love him too much.

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I am beautiful, I dont need any approval. Because I have the kind of beauty which never age and last for a lifetime. I am SEVEN .

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P.S : I want to thank hubhubie for the bringing me out for Meteor Shower last night. This is the 1st time, I've got the chance to catch a Meteor shower. AND with the one I love so much. Thank you hubhub!