Day 142

Day 142

Asia Conference Day 1

They are such great Host !

Thank you Cindy and Micheal for being such wonderful host.

God bless Ang Family with harmony and peace!

Cindy even prepared new shower bath gel,

new tooth paste and brushes for me!

In the morning 6am Asia Conference!

Wooohhhh!!!!!

Good morning! Welcome to City Harvest Church Asia Conference 2010

1st session Pastor Cho from KOREAN !!!

Korea Pop ChoirWe are the greeters to serve you for this Asia Conference

Day 1 Asia Conference 26th May 2010
6.30am – Rise and Shine
7.30am – Singapore Expo Convention Hall 7, 8, 9, 10

I am ready to serve as a Hospitality Greeter serving delegates from all around the world for the International Church Growth Conference Asia Conference 2010.

Delegates were filling up the Hall. Our main Hall 8 is packed up in less than 20 minutes. The over-flowing Halls were Hall 10 and 7. The main speaker Dr Yonggi Cho Pasturing the largest church in the World of 1.2 million and Dr Phil Pringles a wonderful Dramatise speaker who speaks recession proof in our personal wealth are at Hall 8. Therefore overflowing halls are projected with mega screens and live praise and worship bands.

Dr Cho spoke to us about prayers and how to pray in the 4th dimension. How to receive in the spirit of the promises God gave to us. Dr Cho received the promise from God 40 years ago about the Great vision. That is how Yodi Full Gospel Church was born with 1.2million Koreans. 178 disciple churches all around Korea. How Korea revived from the casualty of long period of war. Sometimes I really wonder how do 20 believers can grow till 1.2 million. Amazing!

Dr Cho said what did God spoke to your heart? When God spoke to your heart, he will confirm it through external forces. Therefore he wants you to pray, stir up the gifts, pray to situations, and receive by Faith from God in the 4th Dimension. For that Faith and endurance you put in Father God, he sees it and he will move. I had been praying so fervently to God and I witness he changed my life from uncertainty of curses to certainty of blessings.

People, if you are feeling really lost or uncertain. Probably try praying to this person call God. If you really seek him with a heart for peace and directions, comfort and healing, he will answer to you. Experience it with your heart and you will be amazed.

Many times, you don’t even realise it is actually God talking to you.

Prayers: God I pray for hubhub that you touch his heart and walk with him. Let the whisper you had be printed in his heart, discern it and know that it is you talking to him. For I love him, please protect him God my Father.

Day 140 - 141

Pre Asia Conference

It is a splendid WOW !!!!!!!

Asia Conference Blew me off TOTALLY !

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Monday

I went to school, Finally !!!!! I missed School SOOOO MUCH !!!!!! I got all the greatest hugs from everyone in my team. I miss all my praise and worship ! Went down to the office blah blah. Praise the Lord everything is cleared up for Asian Conference !

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Prayers: God please safe guard my hubhub when he is away, put angels that speak to his life and renew his mind with REVELATIONS. I love him God please protect him.

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Tuesday

I went down to my shop to lias with the contract and worries, I thank God he gave my sister wisdom to discern. I know father is with her and she is in good mind of decision. I can leave the shop to her. Headed down to Cindy's place after dinner with Arvin. She is so sweet ! She prepared new shampoos, conditionals, shower foam, tooth brush/paste and even face mask for me. She is such a great host. Father please bless the Ang family and I speak prosperity, peace and harmony into prayers for them every night. Spirit of disharmony in the Ang Family GO AWAY in JESUS's name. Rest early for the evening. GET REady for ASIA ConFERNECE!!!!!!!

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Prayers: Father bring love and peace into the household of my hubhub. Protect his mother and bring agreement into his family. For God I love my hubhub, you love him and protect his family too ! I love you hubhub !

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Stay tune for the GREATEST impartation from Asia Conference ! Life changing EXPERIENCE and ENCOUNTER ! More Than AMAZING especially Dr Yonggi Cho, and my Favourite AR Bernard plus Dr Bonkie. I really believe Asia Conference changes lives of PEOPLE ! Revival in 70 nations around the world. I am too tired I cant blog anymore. I will upload all my knowledge before I leave for Bali on Tue. Hugs People!

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Day 139

Day 139 Friday

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I miss you smelly ^^

I've found my purpose is life,

have you ?

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I found my life in you,

I found my love that is binded deep down,

I see your face,

I see your smile,

I see you smelly ^^

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Thou you are really far from me,

yet you will never imagine how close you're to me,

you are just residing in me,

yesterday, today and tomorrow.

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I can never take that out of my heart,

My father told me,

you must stay in me.

For you are part of me,

you are part of my life.

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I will walk on with you in me,

the kind of love undescribled by words,

only you and I understands.

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I know I am in you,

you couldn't explain why as well,

that is how we're bonded,

and that is why I choosed to leave.

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The inner voice of your heart will speak the truth to you,

the voice that cannot lie.

Your mind will wander,

but not too far from mine.

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For I love you,

and I will,

at least for this lifetime of mine.

I love you silly smelly.

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Prayers: God I pray for the safety for my love, pray for a direction, I will speak to weak situations in my hubhub and for the amazing love many may feel silly to do, for I pray my love for him brings strength in his life, break curses to failure and bring blessings downpour into his family, his career and his mental breakthrough. I love you hubhub.

Day 138

Day 138 Thursday

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Rather to say that I am ill in the physical,

it is the mind of mine blocking and hindering recovery in health.

I start to take more rest this week,

I do not have the strength to work.

I am burned out mentally.

I do not know why am I missing him so much,

in times at night, I surge to call him but I was refrained.

and this turns into prayers of misses,

prayers of blessings,

I really don't understand why is this amount of love being plunged into the heart of mine for him.

Forgiveness, love and understandings comes from God,

like what I always tell God,

because I love my hubhub,

and Love that do not deteriorate over time,

is from my heavenly father.

God wants me to pray for my hubhub,

to intercess prayers for him,

to bring light into his life to revival.

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Enjoy this beautiful from the Bee Gees

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Prayers: God please bring the word of yours into the heart of my hubhub. Shed wisdom in him, pray for goodness that binds. Lord protect him. For I love him never lesser and is praying for all the darkness and doubts in his life to go away.

Day 137

Day 137 Wednesday
My book review on Assignment Faith. Faith comes by hearing and by doing increases Faith.
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Assignment 1 FAITH BOOK

The learning experience and application after reading the Book of Faith by: Dr Phil Pringle.

Experiencing Faith
During SOT God gave me the capacity to handle many items at the same time. I am to operate a newly retail store with partnership with my younger sister during this challenging period, on top of SOT, music teaching and my current Job as a financial planner. I have no experience in handling retail outlet. I am nuts in that. But when I know when I made decisions, I felt joy in my heart, I felt peace and I have no worries. Even I have no experience in it but I so glad. Even I know challenges will be huge waiting in front of me. I have no doubts and uncertainty. What a wonderful feeling to trust God who walks ahead of me. Faith is not Hope. Faith is the confident to Trust God to walk what he plans. Faith is hearing it and doing it.

What comes with Faith?
When I am troubled, by confession and praises for God, it is Faith! For whatever kind of circumstances in darkness, or trials, I believe that God has another open door for me to receive his blessings. Faith is looking for opportunities in the darkest moments, looking for the door God plans for you to open it, with the Key he puts in you. Key Faith. Faith is the key to open doors to blessings.

Faith is new each day
To receive new faith, it is through repentances. I have to repent to God every-time, I am really too tired, seek for his forgiveness that I didn’t attend bible school promptly. Ask for strength to overcome fatigues so I can be prompt in school like my 1st day in bible school, so fresh, so ON-FIRE to hear his words.

Faith comes by prayers and hearing God’s word
I’ve learn to wait on God patiently for him to work through my prayers. I prayed for my love ones to be saved. I do not interfere by human strength. It is easier and more effective to talk to God than to try so hard convincing disbelievers that My GOD is Great! When I pray and fellowship with God, God gives me promises, paint wonderful images in me. So beautiful, believing all these will come to pass soon with God’s power, this is Faith. Receive by confession, by letting my heart and mouth in uniform. When there is Faith, doubts cannot survive. My faith with God brings revival, reconciliation, joy and love into the people I love. God reconcile relationships “I trust you God, I believe in you!”

Never give up
Faith is never to give up. Endurance, ask according to God and I receive. Renew everyday in asking. I always feel that God wants to see how persistent I am in asking, while he puts temptation through the devil to shake my determination. How faithful I am in my decisions and requests. Endurance will build me up to a capacity, I know when God gives it to me, I can stand firm and transform the Gifts to others because I endured.

Thanking God for saying a Yes to me
I had been constantly thanking God for the promises he gave to me. Although I see nothing at the moment, BUT I know, it is in me. I am pregnant with God’s promises, I don’t see it, but I feel it. It is all inside of me waiting for a right time for birth and a new creation God is giving. I thank God in advance, grateful to him in saying: Yes to the request he gave to me.

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Prayers: Lord I pray for the protection over the heart of my hubhub, protection against the dark. God please disarm dark weapons against him. Guide him towards the light, bring health mentally and physically to him. I love him and I miss him. Lord please protect him and shower on blessings in his life.

Day 133 - 136

Day 133 Saturday

Every weekend I teach music in this place call Orchard Delfi

Orchard delfi is a place full of bridal boutiques other than my music school.

Everyweek, I see couples coming in and out,

trying on gowns and suits

Seeing this blissful look,

my heart for such joy is in black and white.

But I trust in Lord,

I trust that, it will be colour up !

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It is Mikey's Birthday,

Old liao he is 31 this year,

still single ^^ lolx.

Prayers: God I pray for protection for my baobei luoyi, Lord give the lightness of Joy in his heart. Protect him from harm and guard him with your angels. I love him.

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Day 134 Sunday

Edmund gave me a flower today ^^ so sweet and nice. Edmund is so cute. Edmund is my student, my 5 years old student learning drums with me. I headed off to Chinatown to help out my sister flee market stall. It was raining . . . . Crazy ! Tired but a nice family gathering dinner after that is my comfort. I am blessed !

Prayers: Lord my heavenly father please look after the health condition of my hubhub baobei, keep him healthy and walk him as he walks. Help him as he fall, be there for him to give him strength when he is weak. I love him.

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Day 135 Monday

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I was ill and I didnt attend school. Tired and heavy. But still I have to work and fulfil all work appointments. I had to run some errands in town and meet up with Ian while my evening appointment is at 7.30pm. Glad to see boyboy aaron again, he is back from philipines.

He is Aaron. Nice to see him again ^^

Prayers: God path the life of my hubhub with light, shine him on with your goodness and let him walk with Good. I love him father, please protect him.

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Day 136 Tuesday

I am still ill, went to meet Isaac and her Girlfriend for lunch and headed off to headoffice to look for the underwriters. I received a call from my sister and headed off to fareast plaza for shop viewing. Finally after much turbulance and unpleasant agent, we locked in with another agent from propnex. We handed the deposited our rental.

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After which, Thank God, I managed to call Evelyn and she picked me up from Fareast Plaza. We headed down for chapel service together. The sermon about rest was good and refreshing.

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I miss you real badly hubhub I miss you so so so much !

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Prayers: Father please protect the man I miss, the man I love. I have no idea where he is now, how he is now, what is he facing now, but for the fervent prayers I am intercessing for him. Please send my misses and love to him heart. Please tell him that I miss him and love him.

Day 132

Day 132 Friday
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I haven got the time to upload some tinny wooden furnitures I have been mailing to my hubhub. They are just so cute ! I had been sending mails everyweek to my hubhub. Everyweek without fail. I hope that those gifts filled with intense amount of love reach him every every week without fail as my spirit of Love and my spirit of care that I am always there even though I've left him physicially. He had been excluded from my Blog for this reason, blocked in my facebook for this reason and I refrained myself even to reply his smses. I really have to hands off him, God told me he will take care of it, I just have to do as God planned. I did.

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If you guys remembered the Wooden grand piano I made for him, the furnitures are about the same. Just that I didnt paint it. So far I've sent, A toilet bowl, a washing basin, a comic note pad I made myself, a bathtub . . . . . to him. There are so many things in the wooden furniture set. Those I've mention is only a tiny 2% of what is in the whole set of mini furnitures.

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Enough for Today, I am freaking tired. The chillout with the ladies at dempsey is really wonderful. Thank you God for a great wonderful evening !

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By the way, I prayed for my Grandma today, she sprained her ankle. I prayed for healing in the name of christ and laid hands on her ankle. My grandma was healed. Thank you Jesus for using me to heal my grandma. Thank you Jesus.

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Prayers: God i pray that you deliver my Luoyi from crookedness, let him walk straight and in light. Bring him out of darkness and stir the goodness in him. He is a good man, but his flesh is weak and his mind is weak. Father, please help him, please deliver him. Thank you Jesus. I love you hubhub. God says : for 1 is saved, the entire clan will be save.

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I am not trying to be weird, extra religious or what. This is my story and this is my true encounter.

Day 131

Day 131 Thursday
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You guys can check this out, hen2shes its high quality custom made handbags designed and made by my student's mum ! She is incredible ! And she just delivered me from a $1400 thought of getting a Celine or Loewe jumbo bag for her custom made beautiful classic design she has. Her baggage is one and only ! They are unique and durable ! Her prices ranges from $400 SGD to $800 SGD.

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I am still praying for my shop, I haven find a good location yet. All my resources are ready, I will be heading to BALI end May straight after Asia Conference 2010. I need to stock up more for my opening. Even though I DO NOT KNOW my location of the shop yet. Through FAITH I believe my Daddy God had prepared a place for me. I will wait on Lord, God will give the best to his faithful child.

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I told Daddy God, I know opening a shop, work, teach, serving the house of LORD and school will be really a great challenge for me. There will be trials and waves coming along trying to rip me apart in pressures and stress. BUT I know ! God you are with me, with you I will walk through and get into the promise land you have for me.

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Prayers: God, you know my heart as I pray fervently every night in Faith, for I believe Lord you will always be loving the people I love, and the people I cared. God, speak love into the heart of my hubhub, for I leave him in your hands, God please do whatever you want with him. I love you baobei, that is why I left, that is why I put you into the hands of God. Always be loving you and I miss you.

Day 130

Day 130 Wednesday
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Another busy busy day ^^ Hubhub I love you ever more '-" intercessing all prayers for you hubhub. I am another day closer to the Asia conference International Church Growth 2010. I was delicated to serve full-time in the last week of May. I am excited to see many great people. I know I have dozen to help out with international VIPS coming to Singapore for this great event.

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Welcome to City Harvest

I am your greeter for Today and I let me bring you around the Church "."

other than that,

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I will be performing in the millennium orchestra as a 2nd violinist ^^ My efforts will be pay off. ^^ I serve a great and wonderful GOD. My job is to administer to people, all the people God loves whether you are a believer or not, whether you think Jesus is God or Mob.

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I am really Glad I went to bible School, I am really Glad I am in the house of God. Thank you God for choosing me ^^

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Driving down for my Orchestra liao Ciao ^^

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Prayers: Lord shine light into the life of my baobei ! Love him and let him experience your Agape-love. Let him cry and humble himself before you. Let him get touch and experience who you really ARE ! God he thinks you are a scam. Father prove him wrong while I do nothing, have my hands off and Lord touch him yourself. For he who encounters you himself will turn and deliver his crookness off his flesh. I love baobei, everyday and every moment ! Love you baobei !

Day 129

Day 129

Tuesday

Isn't this beautiful ? It is Tuesday today. Its a wonderful and fulfilling day ! Bible school I marvelous. All the practical on the Holy Spirits is great ! The moving in spirits and the amazing power she left in me. Full of Joy and happiness man ! I love you and I thank you Holy Spirits. I head down to Riverwalk for bible study in the late evening with my cell-group and I met Wan Rou and Bryan. I shared my story with them and taught them how to pray in spirits, enhancing their prayer life. Prayer brings revival ! It brings on revival in my family, brought peace and harmony into my household. My family is no longer quarrelsome. My dad transforms into a well-communicable dad, slow to get angry and with much manifested care he had on us. He is no longer the easy to get angry dad I used to know. Thank God and all thanks to the Holy Spirits for intercession for my prayers. My prayers life came alive, and it brings along revival in my family. The bible says : A household of Agreement is a household of POWERS !

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Here's some guidelines for a fruitful intercession prayers :

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1. Thank God for the greatness that you read this potion of my blog about a wonderful prayers life. Your great prayer life is about to come alive.

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2. Hide into your prayer closet ; a quiet close room or somewhere of your privacy. kneel down/ stand up/ sit on. Do not lie on the bed.

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3. Think about what do you want God to do for you ? Do you believe God can help you ? Do you have doubts about God ? If you do, STEP up in FAITH, speak it. GOD I know you hear my prayers and you will lift me up in ____________ speak out your worries in conviction. Speak it with conviction.

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4. Impress what you have in your heart, speak them out in words. Let God take care of your situations. ( If you can speak in tongues, speak it and let the holy spirits do intercession for you )

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5. Speak with all your heart and soul, conviction, you must believe that with that slightlest faith like a mustard seed, God can grow them. Hold onto God and he will reverse the situations in your life.

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Speak and confess this verse : For where God's presence is here, peace and joy follows. I know you are a Good God, for I pray for with all my heart and soul, you will answer my prayers.

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In mat7:7 God says:

You parents - if your children ask for a loaf of bread, will you give stones to them instead? If your children ask for a fish, will you give a snake to them instead? OF COURSE NOT ! If you sinful human know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will our lovely heavenly father give to those who ask him.

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Ask and you will be given.

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6. Stay quiet and allow God to speak it back to you. It may be audible voice, a voice in your heart, a verse in the bible, a vision, a thought, a sms, a phonecall, a confirmation from somebody ( somebody need not have to be a believer )
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Witness the change :)

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Grace

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Prayers: God as I pray for my love hubub baobei, I told God, I love him, and I know God you left him in my heart for a bigger plan your have in the future. It is not time yet and I have to leave in pain to put him into your hands. For God to teach him through his heart. Heavenly father I have faith, I know you will mold him and do a new creation in my love. Father, continue to protect him as I do intercession prayers for him, Let my faith, endurance and love turn into POWERS of reformation under the plan of yours my merciful heavenly father. Grace.

Day 128

Day 128 .

Isnt this so Beautiful?

It is taken in a chapel in Bali by my photographer friend ^^

Joy ^^

Do you know something? Happiness and Joy can be really easy. What does it takes to rejoice even in sufferings? I can't tell you the exact way of how do I rejoice in such wonderful and great joy ^^ The only thing I conclude, it is God who paint rainbow into my life. I spent my day in a quiet park this afternoon after returning from my work desk. I read a book from Dr John Beaver, How to Respond when you feel Mistreated ? It is really a wonderful book of wisdom. Sometimes in life, it is such a contradiction, being treated so unfairly by things you do not deserve? Every mistreatment you overcome and counter it with JOY and PRAISES, God says : Well done ! YOu Are PROmotED ! Pay rise, favor in other people, Increment of capacity and Love by people !
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Do you know I am very happy today ? I dont know why, nothing really fantastic happen, instead, I realised I got to wash toilets in church for 130mins. I found the peace and joy in life.
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Do you know I didnt managed to get my shop lease I wanted. Someone, " Plong " someone put the deposit faster than I do. But I am still very joyful. I dont know why. ?.?.? ^^ So dear people, my shop cant open on time. Probably mid June. So dearest, wait a bit bit while more ya :-)
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Prayers: God, please love love love my baobei. Shine shine shine on my love love! Make him rejoice ! I love my bao bei so so MUCH ! Please bless my baobao with tons of joy ^^ exchange my love with blessings for him ok heavenly father ^^

Day 125 - 127

Day 125
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Intercessory prayers for
: Cindy and micheal
Peace in household and harmony, the knowledge of wisdom, lesser anger, slow to flare and increasing the capacity of micheal. God please protect their household with love ^^

: Luoyi
Praying for a Breakthrough and open hearted for my lovely baobei. God I love this man. Lord my savior please protect luoyi, love him and be there for him. Let me pray for him, love him and care for him even it is from a distant. Although I choosed to leave at this moment, but I know I have to leave him in God's hand. I trust in you lord.
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Matthew 7:7

Keep on asking and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking and you will find it. Keep on knocking and the door will be opened to you. For anyone who ask receives, for anyone who seek, finds it and for anyone who knocks the door will be opened.

You parents - if your children ask for a loaf of bread, will you give stones to them instead? If your children ask for a fish, will you give a snake to them instead? OF COURSE NOT ! If you sinful human know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will our lovely heavenly father give to those who ask him.

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: Kelvin Sng

Power and faith, strong will and endurance. Lord please protect Kelvin and his household, bless it onto KSP. Kelvin is a great leader, a child of God, a man of dreams. For God you say those who believe in you, the young will see visions and the old will dream dreams. Kelvin is your building lord, and God you will watch over him.

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: Pastor Kong

God please protect, Sun, Darin and Pastor Kong. For he is our apostle and a great man who shared your word, saved many lives, let many children of God live their Dreams. Lord please watch over Pastor Kong Hee, disperse all the slanders which comes upon God's children. When we suffered attacks, Pastor Kong suffers 10X more than us. As he is a great enemy of devil because of his righteousness and a protector of our church. God please protect this man of Faith. Our church is not build on wealth, but we are build on love, the love for the house of God.

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Holly:

Lord I pray for my best friend. God brighten up her path and open doors for her career. Lord I pray for her health, I pray for a heart of Joy and peace. A wonderful life to live and a joyful heart to receive all the blessings.

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I spent my whole night on intercessory prayers ^^

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Day 126

I had an eventful day ! The gathering with the girls were sooooo fun !!!! all those ugly shots on Macbook and tons of catch up with my dearies @ Copthone Waterfront. I love you people, thank you for lighting my life with smiles and laughters. Thank you people ! Its an extremely tired day. Time for rest ! Thanks for Jian Xing and Huixian for the ride back home. Thank you Roy and Joze for the invitation. Thanks Uncle Jimmy ! Thank you God !

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Prayers: on this Day 126, my heart shouts I love you to my baobei luoyi ! God please protect my bao bei, I love him so so much, please God make greatness in his life. Arrange his life as written in the book of greatness, I will be praying for you baby, loving you more each day. Always loving you more than yesterday and lesser than tomorrow. Thank you God.

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Day 127

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY ! I love you mum ! I brought my family to Richard's restuarant for mothers day dinner today. We had great family time and we drove down to Sand Marina Bay after dinner. Although I am dead beat, but it is worth it. My family is my LIFE, although I have a strayed family member baobei, But I trust God will bring him back into my life one day. Our loving Father Lord will bring out the best of my Baobei. Lord says to me; For love I left, and for love this man shall return.

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We had a family meeting after dinner. Our shop is building, a building for God's kingdom and a bridge to bring our family bonding closer. My shop will be build on dreams of my sister, a bridge for my family and a stronger faith that holds our family stronger. I believe, I trust, because God says, he is on my side. ^^ I really cant imagine how will life be without God. Ever since Jesus poured his love into me and my family, peace and harmony come attracted rooted into my household. Glory and presence of Lord. Peace and love follows.

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As I prayed day and night for my family, not any lesser than how much I prayed for my baobei Luoyi, I see a change in a household. Joy and peace at home everyday ! With God, and christ reigns in my household, a place of agreement is a place of love and powers. Thank you God for changing my dad from a grouchy father into a father who is so peaceful, lesser anger and the power of showing affections in us through actions.

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Prayers: I love my hubhub ! I am convicted and I will wait on you. Baby, my love for you wants to bring peace and love into your life. Even I am not by your side, God is. God is shaping and molding my baby to be a wonderful great man ! Baobei, I really miss you so so much ! Father please transform my love for hubhub into power of endurance, power of change. I love him.

Day 124

Day 124
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Yes, I've change my URL. I've decided to exclude my hubhub off my list and I decided to pluck up my courage to kill the man I love because I left him in the brazen alter of the tabernacle. I finally decided to put him in faith of God totally this time round. I've decided to cut away all means of contact with my hubhub in all ways. I have blocked him in all access with connection to me. I put him into the hands of God. God will mold him his way, teach him and walk him through for excellence. I trust in God, Totally this time round.

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I will never interfere in my own worldly methods anymore. The wisdom of a human mind is limited. For what I've plan will always go beyond what it is plan. Lord my saviour I leave my precious ISAAC my luoyi into your hands.

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I am really grateful to God about the miracles he did on Luoyi. Can you imagine, this idling man, is learning consistency and diligent now. God heard my prayers. Like what I've told my daddy God.

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I had a big fight with Luoyi last night and our conversation lasted for 2 - 3 hours. I was angry and feel really unjustified. I do not know why did I lose my temper. But when I calmed down, I realised and know, both of us cannot remain in this way anymore. I have to go, I have to leave him. Leave him into God's hand. God will be my judge and for God who loves me will only give me the best. God I trust in you. Trust in you that you will transform him into a man of excellence. I will wait on you my heavenly father. Praise to my lord and all glory to be with christ.

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I am not got to live by what I feel ; heart is deceiving, those emotions are stirring up negativity. For a good child of God, I should not let my deceiving emotions open doors for Satan. God says : We have to love. Therefore let me continue to love hubhub in my own realm and in God's way. I love hubhub and I will be saying prayers and blessings for him like I do everyday.

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I am not got to live by what I hear ; human remarks and condemnation are judgemental. No one will be in the shoes to judge except God. My God will give me a fair judgement.

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Deep down I know that God you are here with me. With you and your powers which strengthens me will enable to do anything. Human strength is limited but with you God, nothing is impossible. I trust in you Lord and I believe in you.

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Thank you heavenly father; greatness to be with you when I rejoice even though deep down I am so hurt with what I went through. I am thankful to you lord, you made me laugh my heart out and praise you even when I am broken. You feed me with living water and embraced me with so much of Love. Thank you God. My strength, my sanctuary, my hiding place, my place to recharge and do great works for you as I walk towards the blessful life you planned for me. Let it be you and not me anymore.

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Thank you God.

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Prayers: God please protect my hubhub as I continue loving him, protect his heart and break him in order to shape him into a better man. My hubhub is GREAT man ! Even thou he is yet to be, But I believe God will definitely mold him in his ways. God I love him. I know you put him in my life for a purpose, you made me wait for him, for a reason. I trust in you father.

Day 123

Day 123 ^^
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有一天，你会发现时间在我身上留下的痕迹。

有一天，你会发现我多了一些皱纹，

头发也会多了一些银丝，

我也没有从前的可爱。

时间会让一个人的外表变老，

但，也会是我爱你最好的证明。

当你说；已经没有办法回头了，

我心里也在默默的回答着；我也没有办法回头了，我不知道要怎么不爱你。

想你的每一天就是这么的自然，

爱你的每一天就像呼吸，

为你祈祷就像吃饭一样。

为你献上祝福也是我爱你的表现。

我每天都对神说；请给你快乐，心乐，平静，就算你永远都不会在属于我，我都要继续的为你祈福。你的幸福将传变成我的快乐。

我曾经说过;宝贝会是我生命中最爱的人，也说过宝贝会是我一生最后一个男生。

这到底是祝福或诅咒?

我选择了；宝贝你是我的祝福。

我选择了爱你。

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I am a grumpy kid.

For the whole of today, I am a grumpy kid. I was grumbling and whining to my daddy God. I am like a whining kid stamping my feet on the ground complaining to God. I ask daddy God, why ? why didnt he open up my heart and let me love others ? Why cant I be together with the person I love ? Why must 2 person who are in-love with each other be apart ? God why you like that one ? Why you make me feel like a weird person seeing so many people getting together, setting down and happily in-love with their other half having a family ? Then I cannot love another person other than Luoyi ? Why God you like that one ? I just keep complaining . . . . . Hmmmmmm I am unhappy. God you told me to forgive him, forget about the hurts and continue loving him, but why today I am so unhappy ? You want to tell me why Daddy God ?

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I flipped the Bible :

Deuteronomy 29:29 The secret things belongs to the Lord our God, what is revealed to you is to be with you forever.

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Revealed to me ? Revealed the forgiving, caring, understanding part ? Be so nice to him for what ? That man never even appreciate that. He only knows how to make me sad. Stop laughing at me ok. I am not stupid.

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God, you keep telling me to wait on you, wait and wait, should I wait till this man get married and have a dozen of kids while I am still the weird person waiting and waiting ? Why you told me to wait and hit me down with disappointment over and over again. Are you testing my trust and faith towards you Lord my God ? I know now I am like prophet Elijah, complaining to you like he was at Mt Sinai.

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But Daddy God, I am really very disappointed. I am tired. I am never appreciated by him.

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Daddy God replied :

For a father who loves his child, why will he give something bad to the child he loves so much. For God who loves you will give you only the best. God wants you to be strong in faith, strong in character, strong is determination. For when he gives you what you want, that will be for eternity.

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Ok I dont know what to say anymore. I think I had enough for today. I had been stoning for the whole of today all throughout my violin practice. Enough, enough of my complains to Daddy God.

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I love you God, please let me encounter more of you. Take care of my precious Isaac Luoyi. I do not know how to deal with him anymore. You deal with him yourself. Hands off for me. I put my Luoyi my Isaac into your hands. I put my precious in your hands Lord.

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Prayers: A place of agreement is a place of power. A place of agreement is a place of peace and harmony. Let power, peace and harmony behold into your household like never ending strong mighty wave. For you are the one I love. Peace and harmony be locked in your household for eternity. I pray for greatness in your entire household. For me who loves you my hubhub loves your household as well.

Day 122

Day 122 . Chou chou * boo * Pink you ah !

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* Please remember to wash your hands after you bian bian. * Guess what's that ?
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I shooed away today ! Alamak ! I attracted bees . . . . Some of you girls may know about this Indonesian chinese guy heeling after me. Erm . . . In fact he knows that I am with Manulife and . . . . he came down to manulife office today and called me. I mean thank God, Synergy is in Toa Payoh not Valleypoint. He went down to Valleypoint. I was busy the whole of today and I turned him down.
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You know, some guys are really pushing their luck, he asked me to do up a proposal of some investment plans which he is keen on looking at. I really detest people using such excuses trying their luck to date me out. That will not work on me. I will bring Daddy Kong down for appointment with me. lolx
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I detest people who uses CHURCH as an excuse to date me out as well. I mean, CHURCH is a place of my sanctuary. Dont try to act or suddenly becomes a faithful Christian because you want to date me and ask me to give you bible study. That doesn't work on me as well. Thank God for giving me my group of guardian angels who guarded me from such people in Church. Eh Hello . . . Wrong motives la . . Don't come to church for a wrong purpose. Blah . . .
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It is perfectly fine being friends with them, but please don't push it . . . Don't create a negative effects on my gracefulness. Sometimes even when you put your word on the table honestly telling them straight to their face, I have a great man I love. They option it as if they do not know about it.
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I met a someone :
I met someone today ! A fine and good looking chap. My first impression on him Click this image:

The first question I asked him: Are you local ? and he replied, yeah . . and I went on, do you know how to play a violin ? He replied no. I thought I could like add on some pts for him if he does. lolx. He is a cute guy la, a year younger than me.

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He has wonderful complexion, I wonder how he does that. I will ask him the next time I get to see him. I'm too tired today when I met him, didnt really talk much and in fact I actually dozed off when he was talking.

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GOod night people, Nights and kisses to hubhub ^^

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Prayers: Hubhub I love you la. and is very very much those type... Geee.. .. God gives you sound and peaceful sleep, great and wonderful day tomorrow. loves you always and always naughty! Blahhhhhhhh. . . . . . . .

Day 121

Day 121
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Day 121 and I shout : I LOVE YOU BABY !!!!! Booooooooooo ^^ Smelly hubhub geee . . . . .

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Jake brought me to the Siglap young PAP association. So sorry and by the way Jake and I are NOT AN ITEM I am making myself very clear here !

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We drove down the ECP and chillout while he asked me this. It is a personality test in fact.

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Imagine your self in a great grassland with Serene and peace. While the cool breeze blows across your face and you feel yourself lifted.

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A cube appears in front of you and

Qn 1 : What is the size of the cube?

Qn 2 : What is the colour of the cube?

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After that, flowers begin to appear in front of you.

Qn 3 : How many flowers appear in front of you?

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You indulge in the peace and a horse came by.

Q4 : What is the horse doing ?

Q5 : How does your horse looks like ?

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You pat your horse and walks forward and you saw a ladder.

Q6 : What is the height of your ladder ?

Q7 : What is it made of ?

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He only told me my interpretation and didnt say any further. Its up to your imagination to figure out the rest.

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Ans 1/2 : My cube was mini and it is orange in colour.

Interpretation: The cube is the size of your ego and while the colour determines your personality : Orange is a mixture of red and yellow therefore it represent Vibrant and creativity. My Ego has changed so mini-ly after humbling myself in God's presence and having more humanity in me.

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Ans 3 : I saw a field of beautiful flowers !!!! Everywhere many many colourful flowers and all across the field. Flowers represent your friends. It is true that I am blessed with many many great and wonderful friends who really knows me and cared so much about me !

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Ans 4/5 : I saw my horse running all over the place in Joy galloping around me. My horse is not an ordinary horse ok ! It is an unicorn ! My beautiful magical horse ! Well the horse represent my love in fact. Then Jake asked me : You love your man amazingly alot girl ! He seems like a magic in your life. No one else had compared it as an unicorn before ! I am sure you are connected to him somehow in a way I cannot comprehend. I replied : YEAH !!!! I will want no one else other than him. If it is not him, I will stay single for the rest of my life. I speak that in conviction to him.

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Ans 6 : My ladder is high and endless, I couldnt even see its end. I told Jake it is like Jack and the beanstalk kind of ladder. And it is make of Cast Iron. Well, the ladder is my career and ambitious, Strong like Cast Iron as high as the sky ! Determination is the POWER and I know I will always be climbing.

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How true is this test to you? I wouldn't know, but one thing for sure, Hubhub you are magical to me ! My love, my blesses and the kindness of what God had given to me. I am really lucky to love you know ! Be loving you always and always baby . . . . .

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Lastly today Ps Ming laid hands of me, I was electrified, Oh man, I totally fell under the holy spirits. Btw my eyes were closed and I didnt even know he is walking towards me ok. Abit * Xia si ren * After I got up from the ground, I heard from the people sitting infront that, a few of them who got laid hands on actually flew 4 to 6 fts away !! Sharks.... Ai ya. . my eyes were not open to witness that. Fly 4 to 6 fts away, Woahhh..... Iron man Mian.... Kaoz, majiam Ryu's :Ordugen ! I also feel like flying, 4 to 6 fts away..... dont know how does that feels like ? Maybe kind of shiok I think hhahaaa . .. . .

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Ok, enough for today, time for prayers and bedtime. Nights

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Prayers: God please give new visions to my hubhub, new anointing in his life, make him sow seeds of goodness and bless harvest of goodness in him in 30 folds, 60 folds and 100 folds. God I love luoyi, please protect him from all conditions and make him safe from all harm. I love you ^^

Day 120

Day 120

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I FINALLY catch a MOVIE !!!!!!! I watched Iron Man 2 today, I am so happy ^^ Geee. . . I managed to get a ticket during my teaching break and headed off for my movie after 4 months. All of a sudden many things became luxuries to me ^^ Simple things do make me happy. AND IRONMAN is GREAT !!!!!! Well, sometimes Heros suffered depression as well, Look at Spiderman, he went through depression as well . . . Lolx. Geees . . . . . Sometimes we get kind of lost in life, people dont appreciate the things we do, but its ok, hold on to the Faith and let the situation reverse it when you uphold who you really are. Today Ironman taught me something, Leaving a Legacy ! This word spoke straight to me. Leave a legacy, not for yourself but for my children. ^^

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IP MAN Gala Premiere.

I was suppose to catch the IP MAN Gala Premiere on Monday. I dated my dad for the Gala, as Valencia gave me 2 tickets for the gala. You know what, I didnt get to see Donnie Yen, nor Summo Hong. I didnt go for the Gala ! What a waste. SHARKSSSSS > > > > > !!!!

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Snow white and not so white

I was at the beach having lunch one afternoon, indulging in the creation of God with my Salad lunch reading my bible. Something amazing and sweet happened. I have got sparrows flying over my table and sitting on the back of the chair. I didnt notice much until one of them hopped towards me and I smile. They didnt fly away. I gave the lettuces on my plate to them. ^^ So cute right, the squirrels hopped over too ! I gave them my little tomatoes to one of them and it took it from my fingers. Some beachers find it cute and walk towards my table, and the squirrels and birds ran away. . . . Anyway, that makes me feels like snow white, but a not so white one, probably a snow black. Even the animals knows I am harmless and nice so, why not you ^^.

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Prayers: God I pray for my hubhub that God increase his capcity. I pray for the motivation in life of my love. God the man I love is definately a wonderful and great man ! God please bless my hubhub with joy ! I love him.

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In life there are ups and downs. Why is there a need to throw away all the happy moment because of a pitch of darkness in our life ? If only we learn to forgive ^^ the first door towards happiness ! Hubhub, it is you, the great happiness you seed in me. Thank you and I love you everyday eachday !

Day 119

Day 119
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Fatigue whelmed and I was cam-whoring,

my eyes were like swollen for the day due to the lack of sleep. Like this light effects which makes my nose look sharper ^^

Yeap, pictures are deceiving.

Like this blur off-focus effect ^^

I miss hubhub !

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In Service 2 - I am a cheerful and happy Greeter :D No matter how tired I am, when I am on force back into the formation : My Job as a Greeter, a job to make people happy, feel welcome, get them engage and brighten up their day ! It is wonderful to pick all those grouchy strangers you meet, big fat smile at them ! Engage them abit, and you brighten up their day !

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Pastor Kong gave a sermon is on Depression :

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A topic which is so close to me man ! He talked about why we fall into depression ?

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1. Due to accumlated exhaustion

2. Tramatised in events of hurt

3. Ungratefulness from the people you love

4. Suicidal thoughts

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Pastor say ; you will just feel like sleeping your way and never to wake up anymore. I am like prophet Elijah in the bible. I used to be like him when I went through that unbearable hurt. I fully understand how that was like.

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Wow . . . Bingo !!! Hahaa . . . . Thank God I walked through that and survived ! Jesus redeemed me from it .

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I was praying for this lady who suffered from the above, its another session of deliverance today. She was screaming at the top of her voice, but her voice sounded like a man's shouting instead when I laid hands on her. She was trembling crazily and 2 other ladies had to hold her hands to prevent her from hurting herself. My 1st encounter with that. She fell and laid on the floor flat, whole body shaking so badly. It sounds like some kind of exoticism. It took 5 of us to expel that death spirit off her. 3 sisters including myself and 2 brothers. 1 cell group leader, a previous batch bible school student, myself and 2 security brothers. She was puking and puking . . . . the spirit manifested and we took quite awhile to get everything in control. After awhile everything get back to normal. She hugs us and thank us for helping her. She smile with tears in her eyes.

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I fully understand how she feels, I've been through that stage of deliverance. Jesus came and releases that in me. Just myself and God when I struggled that moment. God's word is living and it is my sword which fends me from harm. You will to ask me why am I so into Christianity? Because my encounter with God, just God me myself when I struggled that 3 days and 3 nights. In that kind of Realm, it was crazy man back then ! I have friends who even went kind of mad worried when I went missing for that 3 days. The whole world was looking for me. For that particular time,I had almost hit the highest rate of Missed Calls. 89 missed Calls till my cellphone eventually ran flat. It was God who saved me, It was Jesus who redeemed me. If not for Lord my saviour, I would have been dead 5 months ago breaking the heart of everyone who loves me. Thank you God for redeeming me to make it who I am now. I am a grateful and happy child of GOD !

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Sometimes when you see me cry in the service, dont worry, I am not sad at all, I am just too grateful to the Lord my God. Thank you heavenly father.

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Prayers: God please bring living water of peace and refresh the mind and heart of my hubhub. Bring him happiness and joy each and everytime I pray for him. For God you put my hubhub in my heart every single day to love him, pray for him, and to be gracious towards him through loving him wholeheartedly. I love him, God please be there for him and protect him from all harm.

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