Day 336 and 337

Day 336

I found my first love once again with Jesus Christ. Falling deeply in love with Him all over and over again. I didn't understand this at all in the past. Now, not only I understands, I see it, I feel it and I hear it.

Conviction is more than convincing. Jesus convicted me. Some people say : Seeing is believing.

Jesus did 3 times more for me. Jesus not only let me see it, he let me feel it, hear it and encounter it. Chills man. If seeing is convicing, then seeing, hearing, feeling and encountering can throw you off your chair. * Bioh * Blew off.  haahaaa Ye'shu Bewasha In Bahagsa Indonesia is Jesus you're the best!

I went to dig for Oysters with chou chou at Punggol. Chou chou ~ ~ ~ For a short of 2 hours, sometimes a selfish part of me will wish that he will be able to piggyback me *(like how he did yesterday across the waters so I dont get my shoes wet.) for my life and never to leave my life. 

To submit to God's will, I should stay an obedient child to God who really knows what is the best for me. Wait for His timing, when the right word, right timing and right person appear. I dont want to stumble in my relationship anymore.

I know he is so busy lately and he will not look into this space of mine anymore.

Anyway, here's the place chou chou and I went to hunt for oysters.

 Time for Oysters hunting

 chou chou digging for oysters

 Oyster!

 Chou chou you know I don't love you because you do this and that for me,

or whatever.

These incentives are just bonuses.

You once said something to me,

I am important to you and your life.

You told me you want me, because you have never realised you wanted someone so much for a very long time.

That was in 2009 July 27, 2 days after my birthday.

and I kept that super long message you sent me even till today.

Seriously I told God,

Father, my chou chou is who you sent to me,

and I cannot leave without fufilling my purpose lord you send to me.

Sometimes I want to run away from that purpose.

It is so much easier for me to run away from it than to face that fact that,

I have to love and care more for this man who dont deserve it.

God showed me to this verse : What is it to love someone who deserve it? That is easy. In the book of matthew I saw Jesus loving the unworthy and undeserve.

Because His love is so great, He restored them back higher and from where they have fallen off.

Each time I feel unhappy I talk to Jesus, I talk to the heros of faith in the bible.

They teach me, so many many things.

They told me about my purpose with God, and they encouraged me not to give up.

Keep my focus on Jesus.

Sometimes when I pray for smelly, I tears.

I start to cry.

Crying out to my Father to restore smelly back.

A soul that knows how to feel.

A soul that do not do injustices to himself and others.

It is not for me nor my good.

I just want the man I love with all my heart and soul to receive real happiness.

To have a life of joy and love.

Whether is that me or not to be with him, it is not my concern.

I just want this man, God gave me to love to be happy.

* * * * * * *

Day 337

I met Jonah today.

The hero of faith in the bible.

A man who only knows how to run away in the bible.

God as him to go west, he runs to the east.

Wherever he ran, God follows him.

We cant hide from God.

God is everywhere.

Especially when you are someone who can hear him.

He appear everywhere.

Jonah was being swallowed by a big Fish which kept him alive.

I was telling Jonah today, he reminds me of Pinocchio.

You can hear Jonah story in the bible old testament ( I almost typed testicles )

Book of Jonah before the book of Micah.

Jonah only had 4 chapters.

It was raining and I was on the move,

( I am not siao la ok, everything happened in my heart, I am not talking to myself verbally)

I was walking while in conversation with Jesus and Jonah at Blackmore drive.

Jonah told me today,

Dont escape from God, he is everywhere, you cant escape from what his purpose is for you.

Promises of God starts flooding my mind which the voice of Jesus.

From Pslms

You shall be like trees planted at the river bank,

and your leaves will not withered,

You will bear fruits each season,

and whatever you do you will prosper.

and

Trust in me,

my Father's promises to you will never come back void or empty.

and

I am the vine and you are the branches. As you abide in me, I abide in you.

and

Trust in me your lord, I cannot go back in what I have promised you.

and

All things work for Good for those who love God called according to his purpose,

I spoke this out:

All things work for Godd for those who love God called according to his purpose.

I can trust in my faithful God.

and I was too engrossed,

I wasnt looking and I almost bumped onto a lamp-post.

I looked up at the lamp-post.

and I said what the lamp-post told me to do.

I blur and speak it out.

God you are so real yet so funny.

Lamp-post,

you are so cute.

and I just said AMEN!

* * * * * * * *

It was dinner time and I went to the Riders cafe for dinner with L.Kong

It was raining and it is still raining now.

By the way the riders cafe smells of Horses.

smelly smelly de.

Horse Pee...

hurhurhur. . . .

And there's a very fat cat sleeping so cozily on the sofa.

 This is taken from my Hp la,

so pardon me on the picture qualities.

A very European style cafe restaurant.

Next time jie jie bring you go ok, mountain turtle de Arvin.

I bring you go mountain hide.

You will wow to see something else there.

hurhurhur

My chou chou, he must have been there before for sure lar,

there a driving range.

Chou is better in hunting places than me anyway.

But I like my chou chou, he is the only one I dare to whine and behave like a little girl.

ARgh...

I miss you even thou you dont miss me.

I am perfectly fine with that.

Really love you de lar * Pinch *

You didnt hug me enough yesterday,

you must put in the shortfall you chou chou.

By the way,

you know God is so good,

he is not like those hypnotherapist who can sub consciously erase my memory of you chou chou away.

Thank you, I didnt erase chou away from my memory,

cause if I really listened to that hypnotherapist,

I might have even erased the wonderful love you gave me baobei.

If I've erase baobao away,

I wouldn't have grow so much wiser.

Love so selflessly,

and receive so much joy and happiness from the awesome God!

God is Good.

God didnt erase the loving memories of you baby,

he just erase away the bad things you did on me.

He erase the bad feelings and scars you left on me,

He opened my heart to give more for you with the no grip of pain of the past,

plus add on of more loving memories.

I only remember how sweet my chouchou is,

and how adorable chou chou is.

How amazing my bao bao is.

My bao bao do love me.

How sweet is God.

Wah..

My God is a good God.!.!

Amen and Good night

God; Thank you for L.Kong he is really a nice guy, the first guy so funny who will want to pay for shampoo for my family. Other than Brian who opens the car-door always for a lady, he is the next one. Sheltered me all the way in the rain even thou I insisted I dont need that, I'm not made of paper. And he walks me till my doorstep and saw my sister. My sis is kind of surprise I guess. Because the only male she sees in my life or will appear at our house is only Hua Zhong and Arvin.

Thinking of Arvin. You know what I want to say, and dont want to repeat myself. Dah . . .

Day 335

Day 335
Loving him the way like how Jesus had love me. Jesus didnt love me because I am Good. He loves me and touches my heart when I was broken and wounded. He poured His faithful love into my emptied heart and make it full again. A new heart full of life, positiveness and power to forgive myself when I hurt myself so Badly. Now I surrendered my life to Him. My relationship into His hands. My love into His, my life, my future and family. Trust him to bring out the best of my life. Entrusted my hubhub into His hands. I dont know why is it him. But each time I interceded prayers for hubhub I was taken away and filled with joy. Sometimes I cry to my LORD, because I felt his oppression, I felt his difficulties, I feel my smelly's Heart. I will ask God how and what can I do to help him? I know prayers does miracles and God answers prayers. Just know that, this smelly God gave, is not based on just a personal growth But of a different purpose in the life of the both of us to love each other and to grow strong in each other.

Jolin Tsai

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London Garden City. Rome.Milan. I want to be on an expense paid trip.
Who would like to come and be my photographer of the trip ?

My Balls - (music video)

Day 334

Day 334, I believe God puts everyone of us in a specific place, in a specific time, and specific thought for a certain reason in life. In that time of reflection, God wants us to know certain things. Learn certain lesson which will be only useful when we follow a simplicity of Heart to learn to hear his voice for a greater purpose in our lives. As I get sensitive to God's movements and his voice, I start making rightful choices in life. I cannot say that every single choices I make are right, but I certainly understand this point that, we cannot understand God's wisdom, even when in time it really hurts so much to obey to the will of God. He knows what is the best for you. He is in front of you watching and behind you to catch you failing each time you fell. We do not need to be afraid of a Heavenly Father who loves us so perfectly; He cares for us each step we take. Learning to courages, learning to overcome uncertainty in life, Learning how to fail and to climb up hIgher in life under his grace for us. Always remember, God is there To bring us higher each time situations fails us. He who is greater than any situation IS ABLE to elevate you each time you faces challenges in life. I serve a FAITHFUL GOD, thru JESUS I gain all authorities in life. My life, i choosed to surrender to his love for me has Empowered me. A Love that cast out all fear. The Love Jesus has for me.  Jesus is NOT a teaching. He is someone whom you feel, closer than your own heartbeat.  I cry each time He touches my heart, I feel closeness, a real touch that Im no longer afraid, because He is there to shelter me in every challenges I face, a REAL n FAITHFUL shoulder i can rely on. Because of him, I have this ability to reign above all storms in life for He is the one who carried me. THANK YOU JESUS!

Day 333

Day 333

Last week I was stopped by a group of age about 20s ladies at the Paya Lebar MRT station. I believe they are evangelising. As a christian of course I do not want to dampen their spirit by ignoring them and walking away rudely. They are from this church call the  World Mission Society of God.

They asked me a few question of am I a Christian or what, I replied yes.

Do I believe in God and Jesus: I replied yes.

After that they started leading questions in their pamphlets leading to someone call the "Holy Mother" Initially I thought that was the Catholics Mama Mary or something. I really have no qualms against other religions. Really, even in religions that worship the Aliens or sorts, I just feel curious about their Theology and would like to read more about it.

I have questions due to curiosity but I really do respect other people's religion faith.

They showed me a verse on their pamphlets in Revalation saying something about He and his bride which is the new Isarel.

These group of ladies, They worship someone call the "Holy Mother" BUT not the normal Mama Mary.

They claimed that there is a someone else to glorify other than the Trinity which is the Father,Spirit and Son. They are the NEW AGE !!! " So called I think "

They believe That Jesus has Come, Meaning Already came! They are waiting for something call the 3rd coming.

1) Why must Jesus come so many times?

2) How many times does Jesus have to die man? If there are so many comingsssss?

I just remembered this; Anyone who doesnt glorify the Father and Son are of fake doctrines.

And then she said something, for those who crucified Jesus will go to hell. I gave a very doubtful face. If anyone remember in the movie Passion of Christ: Jesus said this before he died. Father Forgive them for they do not know what they do.

Apostle Paul used to prosecute the Christian, kill them before he encountered Jesus himself and got convicted. Does it mean this historian the writer of the bible is in hell? I dont think so.

This lady potray Jesus as a man who don't forgive? I mean even non believers know this whether they believe or not Jesus died for them. Jesus died for sin he bore in himself for human race. 

I was so curious by what she said, I started checking my bible when I was on the train way back home. In the new testament.

1John2.23 No one denies the Son can have the Father; who confesses the Son has the Father as well.

The teaching of Jesus is on the Sermon on the Mount:

 Summarise :

1) Tell the truth

2) Go the Second mile for people

3) Love your enemies

4) How to give

5) Do not judge

6) How to forgive

Just a few points I am not a Theologian anyway.

Hebrews 13:9-25

So do not be led astray by false ideas, trends, or other things just because they are new. Rather, receive and build your strength in Christ's true Truth.

I was so curious about this "Holy Mother" thing I started googling about it.

and I found this

The World Mission Society Church of God was founded by Ahn Sahng-hong  in 1964.

The church believes that he is the second coming of Christ. * Blur ? So meaning he is Jesus ?

But Ahn Sahng-hong died in 1985. * If This Ahn Sahng-hong is christ, then he died ? How many times does christ have to die ?

and the current leader of the church is Ahn's spiritual wife, Zahng Gil-Jah, known in the church as "the Heavenly Mother" 

So this is how the "the Heavenly Mother" comes by. Heavenly mother is this Zahng Gil-Jah.

and that Ahn Sahng-Hong is God the Father. So Ahn Sahng-Hong is god in their believe.

I cant help but to think about back in China long time ago people worship Chairman Mao in the extreme communist state.

The two fundamental beliefs held by the church are their claim that Ahn Sahng-Hong was the second coming of Jesus, and that only those who keep the Passover  and obey His commands will be saved.

They also said that only those who are baptised can be save. But what about those people who can't? I am referring to those on their death bed, they can't walk, speak, or move.

Followers are baptized in the name of the Father (Jehovah) the Son (Jesus) and of the Holy Spirit (who the church believes to be Ahn Sahng-hong ) Ahn Sahng-hong is holy spirit ? So followers have to be baptised in the name of Ahn Sahng-hong?

The members pray in the name of Ahn Sahng Hong, whom they believe the scriptures testify is the Second Coming of Christ.

I mean in all church, we respect leaders, but we do not glorify them. We glorify Father and Son.

Frankly speaking how can human be 100% flawless other than Jesus Christ who is the son of God? Now this curiousity is about a "holy mother" ?

So their prayers are : In the name of Ahn Sahng Hong ah !!!! Huat ah? Even if Ahn Sahng Hong is Jesus. Shouldn't prayers be in the name of Jesus?

I don't know, I am not here to judge, I am just curious. No one judge except Father in heaven.

These are all my personal views and doubts, not trying to cause any religion war here. Peace out people.

Day 332

This is what happened after a night of bun tied hair and a day without make-up other than my brows.

Teaching since early in the morning and during break time,

I walked to Orchard Ion and got this for daddy!

Finally cny clothes for dad!

A simple Ed Hardy

If I will to get the one I got for Av for dad,

dad might scream

lolx.

Too mad Blink!

* Lazy Av, your T-shirt is still in my shop lor.

You and your 3 pack 5 pack stomach,

come and take your T-shirt !

** Mmmm and I miss you chou chou and is those kind very much de :(

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Day 331

Day 331

I do ! I do ! I DO !

Why so many people getting married?

I was out with mummy to be cindy and michael last night to review their insurance portfolio,

Her baby will be due soon.

Must be damn cute playing with your own stomach.

OMG the baby is moving and kicking,

Cindy: When is your turn?

Me: Aiyo . . . .  what do you think?

Michael: What happened to Luoyi ah?

Me: Don't know him.

Cindy: Then when are you getting married?

Me: Er, don't know and I don't have any plans or thoughts for that at all, at least for the present moment.

Cindy: But you love kids, a woman only feel in whole when they have life in them with the one they love the most.

Me: Er I guess by the time I really get married, ok I don't dare to think.,

By the time when I have kids, majiam Madonna.

Anyway this is not within my control.

Or maybe . . . . . . . some nice new surprises coming along.

Day 330

I have so many things to talk about but I do not know where to start off from. This is one of the longest time I had been away from my blog if regular readers had realised. I had been so busy with fulfilling the committed Goals in my life.

Making a choice to really be someone amazing not for others to see but to put myself in favour with my God. My wonderful Father in heaven.

Day in and day out I had been working hard sowing and never to let my hands rest till evening like what God instructed me in the bible in Ecc.

I am working really hard, I can't possibly blog so frequently anymore.

There are 2 kinds of being hardworking

1) Working in Favor of God

2) Working in Favor of People

Of course I choosed to work in Favor of God. I told God and I really do. I told him I really want it for the longest time since I slummed in 2009. Give me the wisdom to be a 5-figure income earner once again. My finances, I commit all into your might hands. Led me the way and show me. I surrender all into your hands. This time round, I do as I was instructed by the spirit of God. Do as He says. True enough and well enough.

Production closing is next week. As I work and sow, let You, my faithful father be the one who multiply it. Yesterday is always medicore. Today shall be a day of excellence. There is Today everyday and Yesterday everyday. Let everyday be sowed according to your mighty purpose.

My petition to Almighty Lord,

My commitments are high my Lord but I know I can rest in your promises of what you have shown me through the stars and sky full of your faithful promise. You promised me Father and I know Your mighty character cannot lie to me.

As I strive and work hard each day, let Your Mercy be with me, Your favor gain my position in all the people I've met and will to meet. You taught me so much through words and all the man of God. You personally taught me how to present and to protect life. Father Father as I call out to you. The blessings of Abraham is mine! I will inherit all your wisdom like Gold and silver, all your knowledge like rubies and emeralds. I ask for wisdom which is more precious than gold. The wisdom that will break all barriers in my speech and touch the soul of all the people I meet. Let me speak of a presentation that touches their heart, a spirit that touches their soul, a love that they will feel. 

Let all presentation I make be like your words. Let my speech be for their heart and not for their ears. I know I've made it this month Jan 2011. Let me increase and widen my territory. 

I will ACHIEVE my MILLION DOLLAR ROUND TABLE BY AUGUST 2011, MY COURT OF THE TABLE BY DEC 2011 in the NAME of JESUS.

20% off to MDRT for the start of the year. 80% more to Go. Make it happen JESUS!

I made a commitment to honor you and crown you my lord of ALL. Let it be 2011 that I can bring $30,000 of tithe into your storehouse and unlock the heaven of blessings you have prepared in my life.

You alone are my strength, I submit and bring greatest honor to you. Thank you Jesus.

I can feel like a millionaire now and be one before I turn 28. I have conceived a millionaire dream.

How much should God give me in order to give to the storehouse of God for the poor and widowed? My first 10% of my earnings. I told God I want to give him $1000 for the month of Jan 2011. He did it for me. Today, God my Father, I ask for $5000 commitment as Tithe in the month of May 2011. Make it happen. Make it happen as I sow diligently. I ask for May 2011 with a commision of $50,000. I need a Universal Life Legacy Account. An insured of more than 1.8 million. You said I can make plans and leave them into your hands. You will do exceedingly and abundantly well. I believe and I trust in you.

I want to give mom an allowance of $2000 monthly next month onwards. Can you do it for me Jesus.

I want to stop working at age 40 and run for your kingdom in missions worldwide. 

I want to educate people and preach your prosperity message in wealth, in health and in relationships.

Make me one, so I can show it to the world that I am made up there because of you alone are my strength. You are Jesus my redeemer. 

2011 is the year. This is it.

Myself

Its not a blog to tell you what my life is about ;

It is a place I remind myself about;

My space

to remind.

I once fell,

I walked,

I fell again,

I found,

I resuracted,

I believed,

I dream,

I hope,

I Love,

I have faith.

A private space of mine,

to record my thoughts,

Believes I once have,

Dreams I want to have.

A place to record someday,

it will all come to pass.

By a simple thought.

I once believe,

and I still believe I can.

Day 329

Day 329

Boobs ?

Sometimes back a few friends and I had been discussing on this topic on boobs.

I'm wondering how does a pair fake boobs feels like?

I mean its tenderness, its feel and etc.

Those friends who feel them before commented on its " toi toi " elasticity feel.

Try squeezing on pieces of silicons.

But those silicons doesn't really feel so " toi toi " afterall.

They feel pretty soft to me.

Probably its due to the compression under the human skin which makes it feel so tightly firm and not as soft anymore.

How about saline boobs?

I mean, there are made of salt water right,

Saline to me means salt water.

What is the difference in feel ?

The following looks more like the filters injection more than implants to me.

Even filters injection doesn't makes the boobs feel good.

Their appearances make them looks bouncy to me anyway.

Recommended few friends to my Aesthetics doctor for such proceedures.

Anyway filters are non-lasting from look.

70% of my friends cursed and swear at the filters effects.

They seems to wear off like in 6 months for some.

I don't know, I haven tried any filters or implants before.

I had this rush sometimes back like about 1 and 1/2 years ago to go for boobs job.

But that didn't happen.

Far more happening things happened that year,

which is more impactful and heavier than boobs job.

Instead of changing a pair of boobs,

I changed a new heart.

(Which impact on so much of difference in my life)

I had better options now Hahhhaaa than going under knife.

Anyway, I have no qualms over boobs job.

You have to possess certain boldness to be involve to go under knife for such purpose.

May it be boobs, bone augmentation, eyes, nose, ears job whatever its considered to be under knife.

There are friends of mine who went through Lipo and obtain a max result of 6 pacs abs.

Super Amazing I was totally jaws opened for such result.

I don't take sides on remarks like " You have to be natural, realness is beautiful theory "

" You have to be happy who you are "

Dont tell me you will not take a 2nd look/3rd/4th/5th look on someone who is gorgeous?

May it be a male of female.

I've met alot of friends who went under knife for physical improvements,

fake implants somewhere in their body,

although that, they can be "real-er" than many of those people who didn't go under knife but puts on their plastic mask all the time.

The aesthetic look of human is shallow anyway in which I don't blame on it.

Some people focus of the other aspects like mental capacity/ spiritual capacity improvements and lesser of physical.

Its ok to me too.

Different people have different sets of things they pioritises in their life anyway.

I am someone who believe in continual and life-long improvements.

Mentally, spiritually and physically.

There must be room for improvement for all,

may it be under knife,

through hardwork or whatever shit.

However,

maintanance is the word.

I am not perfect, but I work towards perfection.

Somehow I am thankful that I am not perfect.

Meaning : along the years you will see me improve and improve, more and more in all aspects of my life.

You will never see a same Seven every year.

That suits me somehow.

Imagine a perfect person.

Now you see him/her.

5 years later still the same.

Quite boring right?

Thank God I am never boring

She is always my favourite all along the years.

Dont remember who she is ?

Look further

There . .

Jessica Alba

Looking good is a constant factor in life.

1) I don't have Pantene commercial kind of hair

But I don't believe when I condition and hair mask it for 10 years I can't get that

2) I don't have flawless looking skin

But I dont believe when I condition it, scrubs and body mask it for 10 years I cant get that?

The secret of this:

Is not SK II

Its maintanance.

Looking good now is taken for granted because we have not aged that much.

And I told mom,

I want to look "super chio" at 50 years old whether I'm married or not,

that goal doesn't change.

I am 27 this year.

and Way to go.

Most importantly,

have the absolute beauty in you that,

you can wake up in the morning without make-up, nor nicely done up hair,

and its so pretty as well.

sweaty after workout,

still pretty,

came up after a swim with messy hair,

still pretty,

walks naked into a sauna/jaccuzi room,

there is nothing you will need to cover up.

End of the day

Its Confidence,

not only for now,

but 20 - 30 years down the road.

Here I am

I am Seven,

rushed out today, crazily late for work.

Didn't put on much makeup except my brows, eyes and some blush.

Took this using the lappy's webcam in Sun Vale Avenue

A weird lady who is working hard now so she can be drop dead Gorgeous when she is 50 years old.

Because she believes, even at age 50 which is like decades down the road, the man she loves will thump his heart for her and fall in love with her all over again.

Again and again in all aspects.