My takeaways from Colombo
A place where war just ended, a place filled with poverty. I have a choice to option for the Fukuoka mission in Japan or Sri Langka. Eventually I was brought down to Sri Langka to fulfill something the Holy Spirit prompted me to do. God never fail me. It was truly an awesomely amazing trip. A trip that caught me into tears where my heart went out for the people.
Other than humanitarian work in Vanuniya, I was there for ministry work. I was so burdened during our ministry work during one of the nights we had in a village church. I was there to share a message to the people who are mostly children and widows.
During the Tamil tiger war, many husbands and sons were sent to fight the war. The war just ended less than 2 years ago. Many husbands died and many sons died. Widows are all over Varnuniya. Frankly, I will never understand how they felt. The desolate of hopelessness and a life filled with agony mixed with ample of sorrows. Imagine walking down the streets shown in the pictures in the previous post Colombo, it was a place filled with crows eating flesh of dead bodies lying on the streets. And maybe one of them is someone whom you are longing for to come home, someone you've loved with all your heart.
I felt so much for the trip. I am so greatly thankful to God, who choosed to use me. To use me as a tool to perform his signs and miracle. Thank you Jesus, you taught me how to heal people using your name. I performed healing for a grandmother who was limping. I walked her home after the clinic and laid hands on her swollen knee. The amazing thing was, when we really put our faith in God, God hears us. Thank you Jesus for healing that granny. I was so amazed of how God healed her through me.
Thank you Jesus, for using me to set people free. Free from the bondage of bitterness. Once again, Holy spirit used me to set someone free. It is a miracle. It must be Jesus. Because, I do not speak Tamil, I just use my heart to feel and to pray using the brokenness in me. I feel them. Which is why God can use me. Understand that God can only use broken people. Only broken people, they are not blinded by pride and arrogance. I am broken, broken so badly in the past, shattered into a million back then, it seems like a utterly bad experience for many others who come to hear about it. But to God, that is the best expected way I can come to know Him and for Him God to use me as his vessel.
Because I was badly broken, that was my greatest strength as I walked on. That brokenness has the strength of Love. My strength is Love, no one can take it away. I love people, and I love every single one God wants me to love. If you will to ask me to conclude this mission trip in a single day. I really can't. Simply, I can't finish describing my inner feelings of how God showed me during my entire trip.
x.x.x I do not know why, I told God, Father can you send my chou with me during one of those trips ? For lord, I really want him to experience what is loving others without agenda. I was so touched by the people, who hugged me and cried, thanking me for setting their agony free through doing deliverance. Although we dont speak the same language. But this language of love has got no barriers.
Jesus oh lord, because your love filled me, which is why I can love others like how you have loved me. I can love the needy, I can continue loving someone who hurt me so badly, and at the same time not being torture by pain of scars left in my heart. For my emotion wounds are completely healed by your nailed hands Jesus. Thank you. Thank you for giving me freedom. Thank you Jesus.
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