Day 412 - 450

Day 412 - 450

I am tired, truly tired . . . . . . exhausted, just leave me alone for the time being. ^.0  Just let me be, filling my emotional tank once more. A breakthrough is coming and I have to walk this through this myself.

Day 411

Day 411

It has been a real long while not updating my space. It had been an amazing God gave journey. Truly it has been a while since I on my lappy at the same time. I had been really busy with work, with ministry and with meeting people. Touching souls one at a time, and protecting lives one at a time.

What Pastor Kong said to me is really true. The way to bring light to the world is to be the light that lit up lives of people. Bringing light to darkness. The darkness refers to the heart condition of people we met every single day. Giving hope, giving life and walk them out of darkness.

Certaintly I am not a professional in doing that ministry but I sure do my best.

It was a different light in the night

I finally watched smuffs, with an incentive of my chou chou Luoyi hugging me by my side as we spend time together. Chou was smiling with such a silly big wide smile and he indulged talking to himself saying, this is just so loving and this is happiness. I smiled lying on his arms as we cuddle thoughout the movie.

Love can truly be so simple, simple hug, simple kisses, gentle stoking on each other's head and the cuddles we had enjoying the companionship of each other. Eventually I fell asleep spooning him till daybreak. I truly felt his heart beating as he cared for me. He did raise up the question of asking me of getting back together, he thanked me for loving him so much. I didnt reply him, I know the answer deep down in my heart. I will not get back with him anymore, if my Father God didnt say yes.   

My prayers

God I really thank you for Luoyi, thank you Father for touching this man through me. Lord I know, he felt Your love for him. The kind of comfort You gave him through me. Those hugs of encouragement and those love You have for him. Lord as I pray, I ask for an encounter of You Father. Lord, my love for him cannot be perfected if not for Your love that flows in me. Jesus touch my beloved Luoyi's heart, let him come to know You only You can. Thank you Father for blessing Luoyi and myself so much, and so much, You are El Shadai, the Lord of more than enough. Thank you Jesus for redeeming me at the cross.