Day 4 Part 1

I was at Zouk with some fellow colleagues and JiaMei.

Walking around endlessly,

heart emptied.

Its not as enjoyable as i used to have.

In the past,

whether with Terry or x,

For Terry: many many donkey years back,

i will disappear within his sight in the same club,

and party hard with my friends.

For x: I will be more than happy if he dont join me when i m with my friends, cause i just cant stand his sulky face and naggy attitudes.

Clubbing with my gang seems to be so much fun without bfs around.

But now,

i practically sets no eyes on anyone else.

Its an empty feeling without him by my side.

I finally realised,

my whole heart is fully occupied by him.

Practically for the whole night,

i was like a wondering spirit.

Wondering around zouk, phuture and velvet.

Bumping onto, man who looks like woman and woman who looks like man.

The world is really changing ~~

It doesnt matter if you give birth to a boy or girl in future.

Simply because they are fusion,

can change their sex of liking when ever they like.

Having causal talks with Jeremy about Jason and Jerline because he asked.

and

Talks on market performance as usual with my colleagues.

Lovely,

I really miss you alot,

too much to be spoken or written.

It has been 8 years since i last missed someone so badly.

Thou we are seas apart,

Our thoughts are synchronised.

How i wish,

i can chin rest on ur warm shoulders,

accompanied by a heart warming hug....

My life dim so much without you.

Nothing seems attention catching other than you.

The only thing i can do,

is to look through the smses you sent and smile and it.

I realised,

my life has become lifeless without your presence.

You are so badly missed by me.