A lesson to be learn

The lesson to be learn

Out of own accord

At once I felt so tired

I felt so unworthy which is meaningless

There are little appreciation and everything is taken for granted

It is a bad omen when I start doubting

Nothing good comes out of it eventually

I am giving everything up

It is painful

but it will be more tormenting if I have to take the risk to go through these adhoc behaviours he randomly gave.

I am a human,

a living person who needs appreciation.

I am not an object, a tool nor am I a thing.

I do not need him to be grateful of the things I've done,

I do not need him to entertain me 24/7,

I do not need him to give me surprises every now and then,

I don't need these.

Sometimes I just need a simple hug and a gentle whisper to tell me that he appreciate it.

But I ended up receiving the feeling of I am just an extra.

An extra who is at help of his when he needs me,

and "please give him some space" policy when do not need me.

How nice he is when he wanted me to help him out with work,

How attitude he is when wanted me to leave him alone when he is merrying in a party.

I do not want to be that Extra anymore

Why do I need to be an Extra when I can be so well protected like a precious piece of GEM ?