Management

I am thinking of love management. Managing a relationship with future outcome. I am doing whatever I can to manage it, but the jig.saw wouldn't fall into place with one party. I cannot do it alone. I never want us to fall into a stagnant. A plain boring long term relationship like many couple do, stay home, watch tv, do nuts, have sex . . . I mean, haven these people forget how they used to date each other? In a nut-shell, a love relationship needs to be manage and not taken for granted. I start to think over my existance in his life. I am glad that we spent a great Saturday doing Kayating together. On the hind-side, I believe it makes no difference whether I am there or not. I can sense that he is getting bored again and its less than 2 months time. So what is the point of being there, for the sake of being there? No incentives, no bonus, no appreciation and worst of all, it just make you feel like a piece of unnotice hanging hook on the wall. I do have dignity, ego and strong pride which I decided to lower myself in front of him. But it is never appreciated.

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* Don't make me feel that I can cling onto you day and night IF you don't intend to make it happen.

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* Dont tell me that I invaded your privacy WHEN you are the one who told me I can look into your handphone anytime.

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* Don't make me feel that we can spend our lifetime together IF you don't intend to make us workout.

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* Dont make me a boring GF not because I am boring, BUT its you who got bored of me.

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* Dont tell me that we have reached the husband and wife stage BECAUSE you are not interested to bring me out for a date.

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* Dont tell me you love me alot BECAUSE this is the way you love me.

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* And dont make me look like a stupid fool WHEN you are the idiot who hugged me tight and told me you will treat me with greatness from then on before you left for work assignment at KAPLAN Centrepoint.