Day 290

Day 290

I need 2 buddies for 2011

a) A put on weight buddy

Someone to encourage the tedious activities on putting on weight healthy, go workout with me, rollar blade with me, monitor our weight together so it can be put onto the right places. Boobs and Butt of course. It is really getting on my nerves in putting on weight.

The daily food intake diary, keeping track of all the intake in proteins and carbohydrates. Milk and healthy fats intake.

The only but

No herbalife for me, this disasterous milk-shakes shrinks my boobs, herbalife wants to make me into a real-man, instead of helping me to put on weight.

Ensure milkshakes dietary supplements are better and taste better, they come in packet drink forms which is easier to carry them around.

It is quite sickening and really tedious routines in not eating junkies but potatos, beans, nuts and chicken breast meat which I hated the most! I wasn't kidding you that I am eating potatos every other day. Steams, boiled, grilled and all kinds of potatos/salads/mayo/thousand island/egg.

I really wanted to give up, for it seems highly impossible for me to gain weight after all these years man. I do grumble to God regarding this matter. But God says, he is going to put me on a healthy BMI, I just have to keep pushing.

My aim is to be perfect inside out.

Swimming again at 10pm later ^o^_ //

2) A Million Dollar Round Table (MDRT) buddy

I am going to get a new buddy in work, not from my own team but from someone by the name of Charles Low district, this team clocked a total premium of SGD5million worth of premium. SGD5million worth of premiums, looking at the commission rate, 40% for instance, with a manpower of 10, per agent brings home $SGD200,000/- per annum not inclusive of bonuses and recurring income. How handsome that figure is. This district clocked 3 COTs as I have known. so, what is COT? Court of the Table, is 3X  MDRT. Follow the work standards of a yearly COT, even if I don't end up a COT 3rd quarter next year, at least a MDRT right.

Quite 'Er xin' if I don't make it to MDRT, this is a nuts shit shifting year for me, shifting office/ changing company and opening of shop. Let that not be an excuse 'hao bu hao', make it to MDRT next year or I quit the industry.

Come 8th Nov, I stick BIG BIG, and super very BIG on my new assigned Desk at Tanjong Pagar, I WANT TO DO MDRT 2011 OR ELSE I QUIT INSURANCE LINE!  Holaaa !!! Career at risk ah !! I will do it unless I am the winner of next year Ang Bao draw of SGD10 million.

Put the weekly quotas on my table, each day how many calls make, how many opening, how many closing. OPENLY declaring  my GOAL to the Whole Tanjong Pagar Office. If I dont clear my target monthly/quarterly, let the whole Tanjong Pagar branch laugh at me. Charles Low district is my motivation. Heard so much about Charles Low district, ok I will taste their power appointment team very soon.

Cant imagine, Charles Low has turn out to be my greatest motivation.

This is call setting Ultimatum I guess.

Seriously I don't know how to do it lar, it seems quite tough for me, because I am hardly into cold market and is quite fearful of it somehow. But I think, just close my eyes, and die die dash across, 'shi jiu shi' le la. Jesus say, it will soon be over because, he is in this challenge with me, don't fear. If there is any fear, just put on my shield,. . Tada !!!!!

You will believe in the lord who saves you with his own hands.

Jesus did that for me

came into my life and now walking with me till eternity.

He will do it on my behalf if there is anything too difficult for me to handle. Sometimes I find Jesus really cute, and I am really funny, because everytime when difficulties come, I will say: Jesus, help! I dont know, I dont know, you fight on my behalf. Then I hide behind Jesus. And he really work on my behalf through me, using my hands, my voice and my feet. Encountered it so many times. So peaceful and loving this Jesus is, that is why the bible says: Lord is your hiding place, you can find peace and joy even in times of trouble. This is so darn true. Anything that happen, Jesus backed me up. That is why I always looked so good and relax, can joke and blahhhh nonsenses even I am in amid of trouble. Because even when trouble came, I still can feel happy and joyful, because Jesus is with me ^^.

Jesus is just so cool man! I love him, for he first love me! Sometimes I bitch about my situation to Jesus, he is like my best friend ever, I told him, I am superbroke last night.Credit Card bills Hp bills nahhhnaahhhnahhh .. .. eeekkk so many financial situations, pay my bills for me? Received a cheque today, just nice with no excess. All bills paid.

God can pay your bills, get you out of debt, give you success and give you joy at the same time. Ok, I am stupid in the past . . . . . . I inherit the wealth of Father Abraham after Jesus consulted me himself.

Jesus VS Tua Pek Gong

I always like to laugh at Joyce before I met Jesus, I always ask her " how come u know Jesus love you, u confirm? " How did he tell you? He is dead and I dont even believe Jesus actually exist in the past. I thought it is the christians who cooked this Crucifixion up to bluff people de. Maybe Jesus is just a criminal you christians put up to make u people feel good. Majiam so Holy like that! Hallelujah Hallelujah what, act ang-mo only. We chinese is Tua Pek Gong one lei, don't know your own roots. We are chinese ok! Don't forget your own father and calls someone elses father. Nuts. Remember Tua Pek Gong hor, because if you pray to him, he will prosper you. You pray to him, and tell him what you want, if you sincere enough he will give you.

Recalling what I've said and now I also become Hallelujah liao, I find this really hilarious and funny now. The critics I gave, had even more nasty ones. When my christian friends said their grace before meals, I said the same grace to Tua Pek Gong too. It is meant to be a joke to them actually. I have no respect for christianity in the past at all back then in fact.

Sometimes I wonder, do we treat Tua Pek Gong like genie or more like a god? And there is so many god, some I also dont remember what is their names, except some major ones. Pray abit here, pray abit there, human just like to keep themselves busy by praying to alot of gods, whoever answers ahhh.... Genie. But solutions given by genies are always short-term, sooner or later, same thing arise again. Like that really happy meh? Like that really receive joy and freedom meh? I dont know about you, but I am not happy in the past. Always living in fear, always scare this, scare that. Worry this worry that. If the god you prayed to is real, what is there to worry? Or maybe you dont trust that god you prayed to enough. Or you pray to him for fun?  Or maybe? I dont know?

Then Linda Mummy

Mummy Linda said, 5 appointments a day, 2 closing, 2 opening, 1 servicing. Give and take some fly kite you. The run starts in Dec 2010. and It was mummy Linda who said, unlearn all you half past 6 presentation skills, start it all over again. First 3 months of the year, only close cold market, April onwards then start on your warm, she even calculated for me, by Sept 2011 I should have clear MDRT. If I am extremely blessed and she thinks I am, by June or July I will be able to clear it. Aim for your COT then.

Linda said, you don't need to work also can close case, what if you work? or what happen if I work hard? I know I am a blessed child, always good with people, but don't take it for granted lar you idiot Seven!

and because it is AIA, it is highly possible to close 30 cases and above a month. I need to start counting my numbers:

To have closing everyday, 3 appointments for me before closing.

30 closings = 3 x 30 = 90 appointments a month/3 appointments per day assuming all close.

For variables, and play safe I have to fulfill 5 appointment everyday.

I have to total down to how many calls I have to make each day other than time set aside for appointment.

5 appointments per day, an appointment last for an hr,

5 hrs a day on appointments,

3 hours for travelling time,

3 hours for follow-up appointments setting

11 hours in total to spend in work to get this income of minimium SGD$12,000/- per month and additional renewals the following year which will eventually accumulates up to additional SGD$30,000 every start of the year.

An income of SGD$320,000/annum for COT citeria, God make it happen, through your strength, your will be done, your kingdom come! I can seek peace and comfort in you, and follow you Jesus. Bless me with more clients like Sl, JJ and KH, who sees the goodness of financially planning and put $1000/mth premium with me each month. I pray for more quality good clients, so I can rest after August 2011 and serve your kingdom in outreach spiritual Mission field in Taiwan, China and Japan.

More more more quality clients, so I can have lesser appointments and do some 'bo liao' stuffs like hanging around the beach or staying over in Sentosa and do all the love love 'bo liao' stuffs alone, like feeding the squrriels hahaaaa . . . . 

I know I am a weirdo, likes to drive to Sentosa alone in the morning, have a quiet walk at the beach, say my prayers and spend time with God. Spending time with God is really wonderful lar. Spiritual prayers early morning are the best, for they kick-start your day and makes it fulfilling not missing out any goodness God place for you each day.

Let me contribute my tithe that adds up to $32,000 next year to work for the good of your kingdom.

By the way, God loves numbers, that is why all my commitments are in numbers. How I know Daddy God loves numbers, for there is a whole book in the bible named NUMBERS!

God will never give you numbers you cannot achieve.

Thank God I have a secretary to run paper work.

This is my MDRT activities.

Need consistancy and determination, motivation and hardwork.

The promise I made for my own Goal, if I don't earn at least a SGD$10,000 by next year, I will suck my own toes or lick my own armpit without washing them! Eeeeekkkkkk, Ok that sounds really gross! I will do my best with the help of Jesus in order to not make such gross threat to myself come true... Ekkkkkk.......

Day 289

Day 289

Today Pastor Kong preach about Hope. The gospel on we can hope for the best to happen, not in man but in Jesus Christ. Ya lor, that is so true, because when we put hope on human, we always ended up getting disappointment and hurts. That is why I have never demand anything from smelly anymore. The only thing is him to receive happiness and joy. I learn to Hope on Jesus instead, for Jesus is the author of Faith, and the fruit of Faith is hope. In the character of God, which is built onto Jesus Christ, it is Love. Love produces faith, and faith produces hope. That is why in 1Cor. it says: In him we have these three things, Love, faith and hope and the greatest of all is Love. God never forget his promise to me. I know and I know. Sometimes we just have to let Go and let God do the work.

I have already let Go my smelly and let God work in his life. If I haven't let him go, I wouldn't have bless and pray for him instead I will most likely curse him. I realised that to love him is to let him go and let god be in control. Certainly, God work in his life in many amazing areas. Although this silly smelly still likes to lie at times, but well I am not the judge, God is, so I stayed very nonchalant about it. I just know that I love him, and have to continue to do so until God says, it is enough. God is the one who create a work in him not me. If there is anything, it is up to God and not me. I just follow. Picks up the cross and be a cross bearer. Walk with Jesus and love this man I was told to love. We can lie and cheat anyone, but we cant lie to ourselves, which is why I will never lie to myself about my feelings and love affections. Lying to ourselves only accumulates greater hurt to ourselves at a later stage.   

I love smelly, and I do. God works both ways, if God tells me to love you, and told me you will be the blessings in my life, I believe he said that to you too. If at a certain moment God makes you miss me so much, that maybe one of the moment I misses you as much too. He seems to know everything, well, that is why he is call God lor.

Good night.

Day 288

Day 288

I love Jesus and I love you God, with all my life. I asked Father, what do you want me to do for you today? I am your vessel. Use me for your purpose. My daddy God  showed me a picture of 2 broken hearts and it was God who cuts them away. I asked father, why do you want to cut them away? The 2 hearts are crying. But daddy God replied, I have to do that, even when they cry. But my spirit is there to comfort them. They will understand my will once the change is done. God cuts the pair of hearts and they were bleeding so badly.

I turned my bible and I read the words of God, in proverbs: God is like a father who disciplines you because he loves you. He trims and cut away all your bad trails. your selfishness, your bad habits, your jealousy, your ego and pride, so you can be a better child of his to love selflessly.

I learn about brokeness in God

The Revelation came and I thank God for doing his work in me. Although it is painful from the start, but as time goes by, I know God is cutting away all the evil sins in my heart, the proud, the unforgiveness, hatred, the selfishness, egos, jealous, unloving . . . What remains in the other half of my heart is kindness, caring, consideration, mercy, grace, faith and most importantly love.

There is nothing I can ask for, my life is so well-taken care of and I have no worries. Everynight I can sleep in peace and wakes up in joy. I do not need to worry about anything, for the faith in father has put me through.

You know, I have walked till this point, to walk a purpose, to fulfill his will. I pray all my love ones too receive this joy and happiness. Because Jesus is real, and you can leave your pain, hopelessness and agony into his hands. Where he will exchange them for peace, love and joy in your life. Thank you Jesus. I know you, you are my Friend, my Shepherd and my redeemer who died for me because you love me. 

I love you Jesus, please guide the people I love to come to you, know you and to experience the kind of love you have for us. Daddy God, your kingdom come, your will be done on earth as it is in heaven, give us our daily bread and forgive us for our trespasses. 

Guide my smelly, Jesus, please take away his unhappiness, hopelessness and exchange them for your love and liberity. Jesus, he needs you. Show him that you are the real stuff. For you Jesus, you know my heart, all I want to see is this man whom I love to be truly happy because seeing him being unhappy really breaks my heart.

Day 287

Day 287

It's a crazy and dusty day,

the piano movers came to transport my piano away and

I packing up my room for the whole day.

Finally,

after the moving and muscular moving, I shifted my wardrobes and the barangs off to its new places.

 Added a new sitting area for my girlies,
as they always complain that I made them sit on the floor
because I do not allow anyone to sit on my bed.

 My hair curling tongs, hair straightener and hair-dyer all packed nicely besie the sofa-bed.

 The dressing table

 My work station,
just beside my bed.
What a "good" combination to "nua" when working.

Anyway there's too many things in my room and this is the best I can make do with it.
I was tidying up and I saw my wigs
I decided to give my wig a haircut and there it goes.

See my face so cui, you know that I wasn't with much makeup except the translucent shisedo BB cream.
I MMS this new hairlook to 2 person,
Smellyhubhub and holly.
The first message I receive is from Holly saying: kns, wig. . .
She is so smart.
hhaaaa
and then,
cam whoring again.
with the long-haired wig.
The twin sisters series
Love you ^^
We love you smelly ....Blah . . . ~~

 

Ok, Enough

This long haired wig is really making me go nuts,

so itch.

Day 286 continue

Day 286 continue . . . .

I had my early appointment this morning at 9am. Back home to pack my room to prepare for the piano movers for tomorrow. I found these old photos and an old dream logbook and an old diary. See these . . . . .

Wah . . . thats Jian Xin,

10 years ago, he is so skinny man,

can do break-dance somemore.

hhaaaa . . . 

 Huixian and MingHao,

Ok, Huixian is very skinny too 10 years ago.

Wah Seh Jian Xing

You Are My Father - True Worshippers (Glory to Glory)

True worshippers Indonesia
Doesnt matter where I go, you're there for me,
Doesn't matter what I've done, your love is for me,
You wipe away my tears and lift me when I fall.
My life is safe by the mercy of your grace.
Doesnt matter where I fall, you cover me
Doesnt matter where I go, you walk with me.
You are my Father, provider, my deliverer.
Father I love you. Your love is for me.

Day 286

Day 286

The riches of life

There is a king who live a luxuries life. In his life stays 3 wives. A queen and 2 concubine.

A queen who provides wise choices, paitence, and give selflessly for the king. She loves the king and always wanted the best for him even through in times she suffer injustice and pain. But the king often feels that she is just a stupid woman and do not like to take her advise into consideration. While in times of need he then realise the smile and hug of the queen is the comfort that will always give ease to his heart. 

A concubine who is really lovely and caring. She knows what to do to cheer the king up, talk to him and put jokes and laughter in his life. The king loves her and enjoy merrying with his lovely concubine. The king will shower her with lots of beautiful gifts and give whatever the concubine wants. The king just loves her, pampers her like the most precious jewel in his arms.

B concubine who only knows how to have fun and create trouble for the King, but even though, the king loves her. For she is gorgeous, attractive and everyone just cannot seems to not love her. Everyone in the kingdom wants to have a taste of her. B concubine is the dream of every man.

One day the King fell seriously ill and on his death-bed he looked around. He saw his Queen and his 2 Lovely concubines.

He turned to look at his most gorgeous B concubine. My precious beauty, I am going to die, will you die with me. B concubine immediately turned her face and replied of course not!!. I am going to get married to the next richest king once you die. B concubine walked out of the king's sight. The King was heart-broken and he turned to A concubine.

He turned to look at A concubine and said: My lovely beauty, I am going to die, will you die with me? His concubine replied. No of course, I can be here with you till your deathbed, but dont worry, I will not remarry but stay by your tomb till I die one day. That is the best I can do for you. The king was heart-broken once again.

Next, he turned his face and looked at his Queen who is always giving selflessly for the king. The king said, my faithful queen, will you die with me? The queen smile but shook her head, No my king, I will not die with you, but I will weep and walk the last journey with you till you are buried back to the earth. I have to manage your kingdom of people on your behalf, but wait for me for one day, I will see you again once my purpose is done. The king was devastate for even his faithful queen is not willing to die with him.

The king teared and cried, I am a king but when I die, no one is willing to die with me. But a voice spoke at the back of the room. I am willing to go with you King to be with you and to take care of you, the king turned and looked. He is a steward whom the king didn't even take notice of. And the king died.

Thinking of the moral of my story. In fact everyone is a King. The queen and concubines represents different things in our lives.

B concubine: represents our wealth. Our cars, houses, title deeds, assets. Althought you love them with all your heart and soul when you are alive. But once you are gone, they changed owners and belongs to someone elses.

A concubine: represents our physical body, our looks, our appearance, our beauty. It will stay with us, be with us as long as we're living. We will love them for they represent our looks. But once we are gone, they are gone buried deep in the earth till it rots. We cannot carry them with us. 

Queen: represent our loves one, family and people who are important in our lives. They walk with you, care for you, although you always take them for granted but the most they can do for you is the walk you your last journey. Nevertheless one day, you will still see them in heaven once they've fulfill the purpose in their life. 

The Steward: A faithful one who is willing to walk with you, is the voice in you which you have always negected. He is always with you but you have long forgotten who he is. He is always in your life but you treated him as an unworthy slave. He is the steward who get ready every little things in life for you. Even small little details that you didn't even take notice of. He will be there to walk with you whether you are alive or dead. He is always pathing your way when you cant be really bother to even care. He is always walking ahead of you, scotting for dangers to warn you, hoping that you will hear him. He is always there for you, always there with you. This voice belongs to the trinity, Father, Spirit and Son.

I realised this and followed this father who lead out the best of my life in joy have you?  

Day 285

Day 285

I cannot express how much I love you through words or speech.

In all I want to say, I am really certain that you are the blessings in my life. 

Thank you for being such great blessings of happiness to my life.

Thank you for loving me.

Smelly, thank you.   

on the bus

On the bus right now, reading my bible, book of ephesians, and this reaffirmed my prayers. I prayed an exactly same prayer this morning for my hubhub. I wow?!? when i saw this now. It reads ephesians 1;16 I never stop giving thanks for you as I remember you in my prayers. I pray that god of our lord jesus christ, the glorious father would give you a spirit of wisdom and revelation in knowledge of him. I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened so you may know what is hope of his calling, what are the glorious riches of his inheritance he has for you and what is the immeasurable greatness of his power to us who believe according to the working of his strength. I prayed a TOTAL SAME PRAYER, WITHOUT KNOWING THIS IS ACTUALLY IN THE BIBLE.

Thank God

Thank God I love to Camwhore

Cam 1: Single lips

Cam 2: Kanna Shock

Cam 3: Normal

Cam 4: Buggy hammie

Cam 5: Huhhh.... look...

Cam 6: Normal smile

Cam 7: I pink you face

Cam 8: Wattttt?

Cam 9: huuuhhhhhh why like that .. ..

Cam 10: Sad, today no sales

Cam 11: Nevertheless my Boss Jesus say its ok la

Cam 12: I will still be going home with a wide smile!

Day 283

Day 283

What a lovely Sunday evening,

awww . . . . sweet and fruiti.

To have the most reminiscing ride,

not on a private sedan,

but on this public transport named the

SBS bus.
So long, ever since bumble bee,
we haven take a bus together since then.

To be with the one I most loved by my side,

to hold him tight and kiss him right.

A sweet wait at the bus-stop,

and time spent so wisely.

As time rewind itself,

it seems like we have just started dating.

The never tired feeling of sweetness.

It is God-gave.

The feelings God ignite through our god shaped heart.

Where my heart just skipped a beat each time he get close to me.
It just feel so sweet when he has his arms over me, kisses my forehead and I pecked his cheeks like secondary school student on-board the public transport.

Everytime, seeing him just make me feel like loving him all over again.

How awesome is this feeling,

how undescribable is this feeling.
Even thou our relationship is already 36 months old and it is still growing,
but in a abnormal way normal human may view.

^^ Feel really so " XINGFU " ^^

awwww . . . . . . ^.^
Thank you Father, I am so fortunate to experience this kind of love you prepared for me.

The loveliness of cuddling and rolling in bed,

the warmness of falling asleep on his secure shoulders once again.

I feel so loved,

so blessfully loved by my smelly hubhub.

The love language of smelly hubhub and me.

A hug reveals all.

*smiles*

God gave the both of us a pair of connecting hearts.

I know God will not only give us this pair of connecting hearts but he will strengthen them through God's way.

I trust in God,

God loves me
God loves hubhub
God will lead hubhub through the best pathway of his life

All I know,

I just want to be with him,

by his side to love him,

support him and never to have selfishness against him.

to keep him close to my heart.

Safe-keeping him in my heart and to love him through ways no-one can understand.

I cannot comprehend why it feels like first love,

but it is simply Awesome.

Love him in the way God wants me to . . .

When I seek God about this question,

Father, how do you want me to love this man I have a weird relationship with?

He showed me to this:

1 Cor 13:4

Love is patient; Love is kind. Love does not envy, is not boastful; is not conceited, does not act improperly, is not selfish, is not provoked, does not keep the records of wrong.

Bear all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

Wo HAO XIN FU Worrrr !!!!!

Day 282

Day 282

My favourite colour is not pink,

but I dont not know why so many of my daily stuffs I carry around are pink

Packed my room today as next week the piano will be gone and my room is undergoing some changes. I realised that I have new shoes, didn't even wore before.

Pack abit ah . . .

Super messy  

After cleaning and packing

Tahdaaaahhhhh . . . . . . .

All packed nicely in my shoes wardrobe le.

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and I found some old photos

 Wah,

when I was 15 years old

Ok enough already.

That was Seoul

^ ^



Jacelyn and Brian

Yes to friends that I will insist on a Christian marriage, and No to friends who feels

that christian wedding dinners are boring.

 Sorry they are not.

Be blessed 

Which woman out there do not want a lavish wedding, feel blessed and receive

blessings from every friends and loved ones everywhere?

Which woman do not want to be the prettiest bride marrying the one who love her?

Which woman do not want to have a blissful marriage?

Every woman want to get married to receive happiness and blissfulness to walk the rest of the difficult journey with someone they can trust.

No one get married because they want a divorce.

Only to those who really mean it to take the vow, and walk the rest of your life with the man/woman you want to love for the rest of your life. No matter how difficult it may appear to.

Those who don't mean it when you make the vow;

Please dont be idiots and cheaters,
the cheater of a somebody elses longlife happiness.
And the cheater of your own happiness.

You have the choices and options to ruin your own happiness,
but you do not have the rights to ruin somebody elses.

 - Random -

* Sorry that I used to call Pastor Tan the Big-eared pastor in the past.

Taken from Moomedia

My male readers: Married ones: Please love your wife because they choosed you to trust.
Unmarried ones: Please dont make the vow if you dont mean it. Cannot anyhow say one de hor.

Female readers: Married ones: Because you love him that is why you are married to him, even if he throw his dirty laundry all around, you have to love him too.
Unmarried ones: Only get married to the one you love and to know that he will be there for you to comfort you and care for you when you really need him.

(王力宏 - 柴米油鹽醬醋茶)

Wang Lee Hom 你不知道的事

Why do I feel so touch when I watch this MV?

Day 282

If you haven been following me on twitter, here's an interesting thing about God. I asked him, what do you want me to do in my life? What are your plans for my life? God replied; Go and watch Iron man 2. His answer is really creative and funny. I did, and the big caps that came out of that movie was when Tony Starks SAID : leave a legacy, not for yourself, but for future generations to read about you and continue the good works of innovative ideas. That Revalation really blew me off. LEAVE A LEGACY?! It doesnt end there, the story continues; Every hero of faith goes through turmoils, they been through storms and struggles in Life, if you are feeling the same in your financial traps and discouraging times; PUT FAITH into your equation. You will walk through that, at the end, the oNe who holds the most powerful word is from the One YOU truly lOvE with your heart and soul. Who is the one in your life? For IRON MAN, it is his dad whom HE HATED FOR HIS LIFE until he Finally understands it when he replayed the video his dad left for him at the lowest point in his life. That is when he breakthrough in his innovation and thinking. You will walk this point as well. For it  is GOD's will for everyone to breakthrough in soul WITH FAITH in life. ^^ - making instant blogging possible via the creators of smart phones!

Day 281

He is a lord who guides. Never will he delay in his reply towards me. The lord says : Do not let your mouth bring guilt on it,( Things I blogged about)  and do not say in the presence of the messenger that it was a mistake.( Things I doubt in my mind) Why should God destroy and take away the work he asked you to do? (Why do you doubt me your Father)I will guide and lead the 2 for this is what I will do.(Dont be afraid for I am here) Trust in my hands and fear God. Dont dwell in the house of doubters who doubt my will. For I have perform alll signs and miracles to your answered prayers. Have faith, and do not doubt the promises or faithfulness of God. GOD reads my blog, more than anyone else.  Trials and testings are to make sure what god will be giving to us to stand fire furnance turbulance when one day our heart combain AS ONE because of the will of my Beloved Father. AMEN

Like what Pastor always said, dont read a bible, let the bible reads you. This is how a bible reads me. That is why you can read the bible 100 times, but each time, it gives something new through the living word. You can never finish reading the bible.

Day 280

Day 280

Blogging this entry on the train right now.  My love smelly is leaving town tomorrow to Narita and there's me spending my early Saturday morning by his side. Blessed for the love we shared and blessings for seeing him the first thing in the morning I opened my eyes.  ^^ What More Can I still ask for? I twitted to GOD, please give him protection and love for his trip. Thank You Father for always hearing my Prayers requests. Thank you God that you are always here for me.

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I went home after my meeting with AIA, the fever and flu came back. Took my medicine and I missed church service today. Switched on the online live-cast in service 2, back in my prayer closet listening to the sermon given by Pastor Kong today. Pastor kong just answered my prayer requests today and everything is in God's hand. I kept asking God this question: Father, when will you touch my smelly? Let him know you, a father who loves and a father who cares about everything that he is going through. Truly I prayed each and every night. I have never prayed to God that smelly will come back to me. I prayed for my smelly to have an encounter with you God. I prayed that God you will place him in favour and shower happiness into his life. Father, I know and I know that my life is safe in your hands, for you are my spiritual food, your words binds me like daily bread you have given me in my life.

I know father, you took me out of his life to put me into his heart. That is why his heart longs for me. But last night I told father before I fell asleep in the arms of my hubhub, I told God, let it not be me but you God, bless him with love and happiness, fruitfulness and joy. I have just prayed to God to release me off the heart of my hubhub. I teared last night with gracefulness and peace. I say God,...... if taking me out of the heart of my hubhub, will make him a happier man. Let it be. It hurts when I see him living in the guilt of me. I know my hubhub loves me, that is why he is not any happier everytime I sees him. Take me out of his heart father and replace it with your love instead. Your love will give liberty, your love is mighty, your love will free him off bondages. God, take away all the guilt he has in his heart. He owes me nothing. For Jesus cancelled my debts, and it is Jesus who lives in me now, I cancel all the debts he has with me in the name of Jesus Christ. If missing me and loving me cannot make him a happier man because we cannot be together, let him forget me. Let him not miss me anymore. God you know that, I love him and I trust him into your care. I believe that you will prepare a wonderful happy future for him, because I know you have hear my prayers God.

After praying to God, I had one of the most peaceful night of rest beside my hubhub. Peace filled me and I know that is what God wants me to say. I fell into deep sleep with blessings of God. Thank you father for you are always so close to me.

As I watch the online live-cast sermon at home, I broke into tears, my prayers were confirmed and I know that is the prayers God wants me to make. God says: Put your most precious as living sacrifies on my alter and I will shape him in my way. Work in my way and not your worldy ways. Because of your strong believes, your faith had made you right with me.

Father, I have my commitments with you. My most precious man is in your hands. Let it be you who works and not me anymore. I will obey for only you my heavenly father knows what is good for me and the best for him. Protect him everywhere he goes as I faithfully keep him close to me as I pray every moment God you insert him into my mind.

I trust you God with my life, I trust the happiness of my beloved man into your hands too. I know you will make him the happiest man the day you are done with your work in him. And I believe that God you will give me a husband who is shaped after your own heart. Amen

Day 279

Day 279

Self and SunVale Avenue

I fell ill today, headache and hopefully not running a fever. Through his stripes I will be heal. Our self-designed stocks are here today running as premium items in Sunvale Avenue. After all the hardwork/stock-checking and manufacturing, our own designs and labels are finally out. A sense a relieve that Sunvale Avenue is running an exclusive product-line of our own. Thank you Father that your favour is always with us. I praise you and I love you.

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My main work career

Going down for an early meeting tomorrow morning at Keppel branch for my official contract. I promised myself for an ADL position within 3 months and 6 months from now to rise up as a team leader in our branch meaning a manager. I have to step-up and I am getting myself ready. Although I failed my BCP paper on Thursday meaning, I didn't study hard enough. I was pretty angry with myself for not putting effort into studying it. It was my mistake and that mistake should never repeat itself anymore.

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Church

I was promoted in church. I made my pledge to God that I will love him wholehearted and love people fervently. For God, I just obey, believe and trust. God will shape a husband for me. I trust in God. He can make the impossible possible. For falling in-love with someone named my hubhub is already the greatest miracle God has created in my life even till today. What is too difficult for God to do? I pray that one day he will share the same faith I have with this higher being named God who does miracles in our lives. I believe. It is through faith I received.

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For the man I love

I just want to let him know, never a little I have left him behind. He is constantly in my heart wherever I am, always thinking about him and wanting him to do really well in life with or without me. I want him to be happy, blissful and lead a long-blessful life. I have never foresaken him, so do God. I am always here supporting him doesn't matter how long time takes. Time has got no effects on me, it just made me love him more and wanting to do whatever I can for him. Maybe this is the kind of love from heaven. Truly, there is nothing I want from him. True love demands no returns. I think, I really did it. :)

Good night everybody, resting and let my body heal by itself.

Sneezing real badly. . . .

Love Seven

Day 278

Day 278

I've hear this from Brian personally when he used to drop me in town after school
When 2 hearts combined to become 1 because of God

I believe just like what Jacelyn believes in.

God will give me a husband in his own likness and image.

It is not easy but I choosed to trust in God,

believe in God like how Jacelyn trusted in him

Remembering when we prayed in agreement the day I left in tears,
I told God,
God, he will find me one day through you.
I kept that deep in my heart.
I know God will answer my prayer like he always did.
Because I trust in my Father, entrusted my love sacrifies into his hands that he will faithfully take good care of it.

Enjoy this video and be blessed
^^

Jacelyn Tay & Brian Wong: Love Story Video

Day 277

Day 277

The undeniable substance in happiness. It is not in dollars and cents, it is not measured by the amount of individual effort you put into it.

To define happiness: it is generated from within. You do not have the rights to provide happiness to anyone when you can't seems to feel happy within yourself.

 Happiness is a spirit, a kind of spirit that drives you to do more for the other party you cared for.

I love you hubhub,

that is why,

I see happiness,

happiness through thinking about you,

happiness of knowing I have not hinder you in your progress,

happiness that I can continue to love you in this way.

God put you in my heart and without the permission of God,

no one can take you away from my heart.

Day 276

Day 276

I think Jolin in my previous post is so damn cool, if you've realised she had been dancing and kicking in her 5" heels. I tell you it is difficult, she is amazing "Thumbs up" for everything she did for her career. I see her hardwork in every of her MV. Dance is one of the most difficult part.

Am in my shop today and did a very demure look to work.

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I just saw some kids running around at the corridor of my shop. Imagine having a kid who looks like someone you do not love. Can you imagine how disastrous that is? Even for some divorcees with kids, but somehow you have to understand this, their kids are still born out of love at that point of time before they ended in a broken marriage. At a certain point of time love does hold 2 parties together.

Why am I kept talking about marriages for my blog post, because IT IS IMPORTANT ! ! Dont ever step into a marriage if you are not ready. Unless you are perfectly ready to be responsible, if not, don't go around wasting people's time, I am talking to both male and female individuals. You can never imagine the consequences and damages of a divorce. Although, I am at the age of a rightful marriage and I am certainly not rushing for any. I believe in strong and well solid marriages. I will never want a divorce in my life unless one day my husband decided to kill me one morning for no reasons. Marriage is part of my counsel topic. Oh, by the way, don't feel too alarm one day if you see me walking out of family dispute court. Dont see me young young ok. One of my aim this year is to walk into the counsel of helping verge on divorce couples and couples on separation to not file for divorce. The family court had deviated seperation and divorce cases to a new set-up department by Judge Kelvin for counselling. It is nice to hear from him last week.

Although I am really young with compared to those couples married for decades, I have never been married. But sometimes, its the pure heart that reminds them what they make that vow to get married in the first place. Using Nero-lingustic, you can bring them back to the days they stood by each other in the younger days, the love they used to have to one another. It is true that some marriages really have no turning point. I will try all my best to reconcile and to restore if they are willing to put the last try in their marriage. Most of the situations is that they don't even bother try before they gave the death sentence in their marriage.

Children does great roles in reconcilating their parents. For friends whom I had been encouraging to help parents love each other again, dont give up. I didn't give up and had been trying for the past 1 year for my parents. I see my fruit and I see my parents no longer quarrels, they start to enjoy once you can hit on the right button.

Advise for children in reconcilating parents: Your tone of advise plays an important, if your advise sound like teaching and reprimanding. You did a lousy job lar. You need to have a plan, observe and be extra paitence. Help them because you love them, do it with all your heart and they will feel it. Dont give up!
Dont underestimate the power of love! When played on the right place and time, you will bring back their first love for each other. Remind them of the goodness they used to see in each other in their younger days, now they have grown old, this shows the evidences of storms they used to walk through together because they are in love with each other during the younger days.

I really feel sad when a marriage devastate into a point of unforgiveness. One party just chooses to give up because they cannot forgive. I've met her and she is my friend. Although she is really optimistic despite of her ill-relationship with her husband. But this unforgiveness in her really blocks off the joy in her family. She can receive more, more of happiness. But she denied to heal her broken heart caused by her husband because she couldn't forgive. I pray for her and pray that God will heal her in God's way and let her receive the true happiness not only from her 2 bright lovely children but her husband as well. She deserve to be happy. she is such a wonderful friend of mine.

The following part of the blog contains christianity theology, if you feel uninterested or feels that this is intruding your own religion faith, you can stop reading from this point ^^

You know something, the devil hates human being. The devil don't like human to be happy, he wants human to suffer. It is because of human that is why Lucifer was being banish from heaven by God. That is why the devil Satan will do all sorts of funny things in your life to make you suffer. Suffer in negative thoughts, jealousy, blame and resentment. Satan just like to block you and blind you from knowing the gift God has given to us. We deserve to be happy. Satan deceive and lie, rob and steal dreams, he makes you feel that it is impossible to achieve happiness. But that is not true. Once you understand the authority you have in life, the authority of why Jesus died for you and me on the cross. Satan is under your feet. As long as you understand and receive Jesus, knowing the authority you receive from God. Your dreams will revive, your heart will experience and your eyes will see the purpose what God has in your life. 

Jesus is a gentleman, he will not force breaking into your heart. He knocks and call. If you hear him and open up your heart, he will come in and fellowship with you. Teach you, guide you and communicate with you of how to live a long good life with true joy and happiness. He is a living spirit. He died to promise us this, because he was whipped and stripped, so we can get healed, he was totally heart-broken for God left him when he carried all the sins we had. God have to leave Jesus so we can get healed of heartache. Jesus was accused, announced guilty to set us free from the wrongs we did in life. So we can get rid of sin and let Jesus work in us, do wonders through faith and not by the laws of the 10 commandments because we can never fulfill the law without the help of Jesus Christ. Jesus died so God's Grace and mercy can come upon us.

God is like a father, a leader, a husband and a loving friend. He will talk, comfort and walk with you. When I said he is like a husband, he is. For you will leave any husband if you dont feel love by him. For God loves me so much and everyday, everymoment so faithfully. You will never want to leave the responsible and faithful one who loves you. He is a friend who talks to you and gives the best advise ever, care about you comfort you and knows you well. I say God is my father for he supports me, create opportunities in my life to learn and to grow, provide me with a strong shoulder whenever I feel helpless, he always call me into his wings and he will protect me from getting hurt. I can rely on this faithful father, in all situations I know I can turn into God. When you know and experience this magnificant God, his breathe touches your life. You can never live without him.

You know when I looked back during those days when I was in Japan, I talked to the Goddess, I told her I am feeling very lousy, very tired and very sad. Help me. No instant response, but eventually I thought she did when hubhub came back into my life. I went through another crash of my life. That crash walks me to the true living God. 

I was alone when I am seeking for this living God Yaweh. I said the same thing as what I told the Goddess. Yaweh Jehovah God replied me, I am here my child, always here. I started crying non-stop, I was comfort by his love. I cry not because I am grieved, I was relieved, the feelings of someone just lifted my pain and burden. Peace filled my heart. God told me, dont be afraid I am here to protect you and heal your heart. Immediately after that,  I started talking this unusual language. A language even I don't understand. That was tongues. After bible school then I realised that this incident I experience was the baptising in holy spirits taught by Dr Peter Wagner. I started my journey of encountering God.

Conviction comes from asking, experiencing his love, comforting and the evidence of baptism in the holy spirits. No one tells me what is that when I went through that a year ago. Own experience is better than any story told.

Maybe you can start asking today for those brothers and sisters who hasn't receive this gift of holy spirits, speaking in tongues. The power of tongues is really amazing. It is never about apologising to God about what wrong you commit. It is strength and your spiritual warfare for solid food christians. Tongues can help you pray and speak, experience the heart of an unknown person you are praying for, the breaking through in spiritual prayer life to go into a trance in your prayer closet.

Or you want an experience from this living God. You have to ask. Experience your own story, your own encounter of this true living God Jehovah and his son Jesus the prince of Peace.

Prayers for brothers and sisters who will like to be baptised by the holy spirits. You can pray this simple prayers:

Jesus, I believe in you, I believe that you died on the cross for me and I belongs to you. I ask for the gift to be baptised by the holy spirit like what the disciples received on the day of pentecost in the book of ACTS. Let me experience the power of the holy spirits and your love for me. I pray for the gift of speaking in tongues that breakthrough all warfares created by the devil. Jesus help me as I ask for this gift because you died so you can be with me in spirits always. Thank you Jesus that I receive in faith of this gift from you. I thank you in your mighty name. Amen.

For the neither here nor there ones, but you want to experience this true God and want to invite him into your heart; encounter him yourself, you can say this simple prayer:

Jesus I do not know you, I do not know who is God, but today, I am willing to invite you into my heart. Let me experience you, encounter you. Experience how much you said that you love me, how much you did for me through Jesus Christ who died on the cross for all sinners. I know I did alot of wrong things in my life. Today as I invite you into my heart, help me to overcome them. Help me to to heal all the pain and brokenness in my life. Help me to be happy because I do not want to live an unhappy life anymore! Lead me from now on and let me know more of you. Thank you Jesus, and I pray in your name, Amen.

Day 275

Day 275

New eye-lashes

I removed the eye-lashes extensions and I needed new fake-lashes

My colours of Eye shadows

See my new drawing habits

I finally managed to find some time to put this up.

Colours

Inspired by my dress

And then the purplish korean demure style 

the purplish demure korean type

Eye shadows are part of the enhancement for pretty eyes

They are not really outstanding,

but they do give out different feel as part of the makeup accessories

  Colours are the best creation from God,

love colours, love you life.

Have fun ^^

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I am back today with some substance infiltrating my mind to topic about. If you are someone who is always giving and you feel like you are always the one being taken advantage of. You feel always bottling up and ask why are you always the one. Please don't feel that way. If you are the one who is always receiving, understand this that all things come with a price. Some in dollars and cents whether you like it or not, while some in learning stages or maybe pitfalls.

In human logic it is always wise to say that it is better to be receive than to give. Happier to be love than to give love. Although many may think that way, but do you know, to be loved by someone you do not love can be a real torture. The love from someone you do not love can transform into a form of bondage and irritating stuffs that you wish that you can just simply walk away from. For when there is a substance of love, flaws actually perfected itself, but when love do not come from mutual parties, the imperfection just escalate. The more you get together with him/her, the more you realise that you cannot stand him/her anymore longer. That is the most important and 100% reason of why I cannot fall in love. I cannot stand to date someone I don't love. The more I see the person, the more I feel the surge of uneasiness.

That is why I chosed the alternative route, I give love rather than I receive. I simply cannot walk myself off that agony of a self betrayal of being together with someone I don't love because, he is a good candidate to get married. I will be an ultimate fool to get married for the sake of getting married. For I see this very important point, It is Love that substain a marriage. If your Love do not come with such strong foundation. Then 95%  just be prepared to file for a divorce somewhere down the road. If you are thinking of to get married, look at your own relationship now. Look carefully at your other half.

Ask yourself these question

: Can you vow to take care of him/her and grow old together?

: Can you stand worst of him/her to come?

: Are you excited when you see him/her? If you do not, even for now, either you spark-up your relationship or get spark-off. If not, don't even think about marriage.

: Do you want to see him/her every morning you wake up?

: Are you going to be there for him/her when they are really unreasonable and ill-tempered?

: Can you hold him/her hand and stay strong together to resolve family issues together as one heart?

: Is he/her going to be the one you think of during the most emergency moments in life?

If you are shaking your head right now and reconsidering a marriage, take your time. Because marriage is not just a contract it is a vow you made to God. If you sign on the wrong contract, the torture will be really painful not only to you but the other party who trusted you. This is not a warning but a real life fact. I've met so many divorcees and the real reason why they finally filed for one ; They got married due to age pressure especially my female friends in their long relationship, but they under-looked this, their spark of love had already died off. Thinking that a marriage can re-ignite it. The answer is Teehhh. . .  WRONG. That will never happen.

For anyone who is trying to date me, all these questions run through my mind when the others compliment, : He is a great candidate for you, by the way they always like to use this word: ELIGIBLE! Doctors, Lawyers . .  they are just Eligible in human standards, good because of their profession, earning good money. In my eligibility, sorry feelings come first. 

Then what? Marry someone because he claimed that he loves you and is a doctor. Are you nuts? I will go nuts if that happens.

Example 1: Seeing someone I do not love sleeping next to me and he SNORES! Then it goes I want a Divorce! Then he went to pass motion in the toliet leaving the door open and it stinks madly, forget to flush somemore YUCKS! I want a Divorce! Or you see him scatching his butt or throwing his soiled underwear outside the bathroom before shower. I want a Divorce! Or you see him sitting on the floor, biting nuts and digging his nose asking you if you want some nuts. I SERIOUSLY WANT A DIVORCE!

Because without love, all these behaviour turns so Gross!

Example 2: But with the touch of love; things get kind of different.

I show you how. When the he/she is someone you love and they snores, you will go and pinch their nose and let them choke while you giggles. I love you! Then when he/she pass motion leaving the toilet door open, you started peeping them, and gives them a smelly smelly hand action, I love you! You sees them scratching their butt, you go and pinch their butt make them scream. I love you! You noticed their soiled underwear, you are worried that they are having tummyache, show concern and rub rub his or her tummy. I love you!  You see him/her biting nuts and digging nose, you take over their nuts and feed him/her instead. I love you! Many of you guys is nodding your head right now reading this and thinking that is what you do. You got your right partner! Love doesn't make you blind but it just covers the flaws and turn them into perfection because you love them.

I know many of us are suffering for the indifference when it comes to our partner in the relationship. If you love that man, love will turn your blameless sufferings and giving into something else greater. This is the power of love people!

I see many of my friends in this stage where they truly understand love and commitment towards who they are marrying. That is really sweet. In love, thou we laugh at each others flaws but we know deep down that we love their flaws as well.

I really cannot imagine marrying someone I do not love because everyone says he is good and I know I will end up in a divorce one day. At the end of the day I don't want a boyfriend. I want a real man I love, A REAL TRUE MAN INSIDE OUT.

I want to get married to this man whom I can tell him this after 20 years later when he strip naked. I will bite my lips and say: Baby you are so sexy! and not 5 years later this man strip naked in front of me and I go. . .  Please put on ur clothes I am tired. Hahaaaaa . . . . . . . 

I ask God, Wheere is THIS MAN ? I complain complain complain to God . . .  you know sometimes, you just have to follow God's timing and stop nagging. I tried and complain too much. God stopped talking to me for few days and I went so uneasy without God communicating with me. Everything starts to move in the wrong direction and I went extremely sad. My father God is a living God because we communicate. I love my God because he protects me and take really good care of me as well as the people I love.

I finally found God and I am really happy I did because God responsed. I find myself so funny in the past when I do not know God. I started talking and talking and talking to my "ex god " but I ended up in nonsenses again because my "ex god " haven taught me how and show me how; comfort me when I am sad and show me a better way of life but lead me to worst situations.

My lord now teaches me how to love, how to give and how to walk in faith. Showed me examples in life as he guides me, walk with me through all the difficult times and gave me his love. All I have today, my character, my everything belongs to him. If it is not for him, I will still be a super grouchy, grumpy and blameful kid who never grow into maturity. Thank you father I love you.

I will end my post with this video from Jolin.

The lyrics is all I want to say. Loves me and loves my dog. Can cook and knows sports. Loves me loves my friends. I need a real man not a boyfriend. His shoulders must be able to carry all the stress and carry my love for him.

P.S: Woke up this morning and I miss you real badly. Thinking of you gives me joy and missing you are my daily meals. Loving you is like destinated. I just have to accept this fact. Love you my *super chou*

Good night guys happy reading * Chuckles* and for the ladies, we experiment eye shadows sleepover parties someday yah !!!! ^^