Day 275

Day 275

New eye-lashes

I removed the eye-lashes extensions and I needed new fake-lashes

My colours of Eye shadows

See my new drawing habits

I finally managed to find some time to put this up.

Colours

Inspired by my dress

And then the purplish korean demure style 

the purplish demure korean type

Eye shadows are part of the enhancement for pretty eyes

They are not really outstanding,

but they do give out different feel as part of the makeup accessories

  Colours are the best creation from God,

love colours, love you life.

Have fun ^^

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I am back today with some substance infiltrating my mind to topic about. If you are someone who is always giving and you feel like you are always the one being taken advantage of. You feel always bottling up and ask why are you always the one. Please don't feel that way. If you are the one who is always receiving, understand this that all things come with a price. Some in dollars and cents whether you like it or not, while some in learning stages or maybe pitfalls.

In human logic it is always wise to say that it is better to be receive than to give. Happier to be love than to give love. Although many may think that way, but do you know, to be loved by someone you do not love can be a real torture. The love from someone you do not love can transform into a form of bondage and irritating stuffs that you wish that you can just simply walk away from. For when there is a substance of love, flaws actually perfected itself, but when love do not come from mutual parties, the imperfection just escalate. The more you get together with him/her, the more you realise that you cannot stand him/her anymore longer. That is the most important and 100% reason of why I cannot fall in love. I cannot stand to date someone I don't love. The more I see the person, the more I feel the surge of uneasiness.

That is why I chosed the alternative route, I give love rather than I receive. I simply cannot walk myself off that agony of a self betrayal of being together with someone I don't love because, he is a good candidate to get married. I will be an ultimate fool to get married for the sake of getting married. For I see this very important point, It is Love that substain a marriage. If your Love do not come with such strong foundation. Then 95%  just be prepared to file for a divorce somewhere down the road. If you are thinking of to get married, look at your own relationship now. Look carefully at your other half.

Ask yourself these question

: Can you vow to take care of him/her and grow old together?

: Can you stand worst of him/her to come?

: Are you excited when you see him/her? If you do not, even for now, either you spark-up your relationship or get spark-off. If not, don't even think about marriage.

: Do you want to see him/her every morning you wake up?

: Are you going to be there for him/her when they are really unreasonable and ill-tempered?

: Can you hold him/her hand and stay strong together to resolve family issues together as one heart?

: Is he/her going to be the one you think of during the most emergency moments in life?

If you are shaking your head right now and reconsidering a marriage, take your time. Because marriage is not just a contract it is a vow you made to God. If you sign on the wrong contract, the torture will be really painful not only to you but the other party who trusted you. This is not a warning but a real life fact. I've met so many divorcees and the real reason why they finally filed for one ; They got married due to age pressure especially my female friends in their long relationship, but they under-looked this, their spark of love had already died off. Thinking that a marriage can re-ignite it. The answer is Teehhh. . .  WRONG. That will never happen.

For anyone who is trying to date me, all these questions run through my mind when the others compliment, : He is a great candidate for you, by the way they always like to use this word: ELIGIBLE! Doctors, Lawyers . .  they are just Eligible in human standards, good because of their profession, earning good money. In my eligibility, sorry feelings come first. 

Then what? Marry someone because he claimed that he loves you and is a doctor. Are you nuts? I will go nuts if that happens.

Example 1: Seeing someone I do not love sleeping next to me and he SNORES! Then it goes I want a Divorce! Then he went to pass motion in the toliet leaving the door open and it stinks madly, forget to flush somemore YUCKS! I want a Divorce! Or you see him scatching his butt or throwing his soiled underwear outside the bathroom before shower. I want a Divorce! Or you see him sitting on the floor, biting nuts and digging his nose asking you if you want some nuts. I SERIOUSLY WANT A DIVORCE!

Because without love, all these behaviour turns so Gross!

Example 2: But with the touch of love; things get kind of different.

I show you how. When the he/she is someone you love and they snores, you will go and pinch their nose and let them choke while you giggles. I love you! Then when he/she pass motion leaving the toilet door open, you started peeping them, and gives them a smelly smelly hand action, I love you! You sees them scratching their butt, you go and pinch their butt make them scream. I love you! You noticed their soiled underwear, you are worried that they are having tummyache, show concern and rub rub his or her tummy. I love you!  You see him/her biting nuts and digging nose, you take over their nuts and feed him/her instead. I love you! Many of you guys is nodding your head right now reading this and thinking that is what you do. You got your right partner! Love doesn't make you blind but it just covers the flaws and turn them into perfection because you love them.

I know many of us are suffering for the indifference when it comes to our partner in the relationship. If you love that man, love will turn your blameless sufferings and giving into something else greater. This is the power of love people!

I see many of my friends in this stage where they truly understand love and commitment towards who they are marrying. That is really sweet. In love, thou we laugh at each others flaws but we know deep down that we love their flaws as well.

I really cannot imagine marrying someone I do not love because everyone says he is good and I know I will end up in a divorce one day. At the end of the day I don't want a boyfriend. I want a real man I love, A REAL TRUE MAN INSIDE OUT.

I want to get married to this man whom I can tell him this after 20 years later when he strip naked. I will bite my lips and say: Baby you are so sexy! and not 5 years later this man strip naked in front of me and I go. . .  Please put on ur clothes I am tired. Hahaaaaa . . . . . . . 

I ask God, Wheere is THIS MAN ? I complain complain complain to God . . .  you know sometimes, you just have to follow God's timing and stop nagging. I tried and complain too much. God stopped talking to me for few days and I went so uneasy without God communicating with me. Everything starts to move in the wrong direction and I went extremely sad. My father God is a living God because we communicate. I love my God because he protects me and take really good care of me as well as the people I love.

I finally found God and I am really happy I did because God responsed. I find myself so funny in the past when I do not know God. I started talking and talking and talking to my "ex god " but I ended up in nonsenses again because my "ex god " haven taught me how and show me how; comfort me when I am sad and show me a better way of life but lead me to worst situations.

My lord now teaches me how to love, how to give and how to walk in faith. Showed me examples in life as he guides me, walk with me through all the difficult times and gave me his love. All I have today, my character, my everything belongs to him. If it is not for him, I will still be a super grouchy, grumpy and blameful kid who never grow into maturity. Thank you father I love you.

I will end my post with this video from Jolin.

The lyrics is all I want to say. Loves me and loves my dog. Can cook and knows sports. Loves me loves my friends. I need a real man not a boyfriend. His shoulders must be able to carry all the stress and carry my love for him.

P.S: Woke up this morning and I miss you real badly. Thinking of you gives me joy and missing you are my daily meals. Loving you is like destinated. I just have to accept this fact. Love you my *super chou*

Good night guys happy reading * Chuckles* and for the ladies, we experiment eye shadows sleepover parties someday yah !!!! ^^