Blogging this entry on the train right now. My love smelly is leaving town tomorrow to Narita and there's me spending my early Saturday morning by his side. Blessed for the love we shared and blessings for seeing him the first thing in the morning I opened my eyes. ^^ What More Can I still ask for? I twitted to GOD, please give him protection and love for his trip. Thank You Father for always hearing my Prayers requests. Thank you God that you are always here for me.
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I went home after my meeting with AIA, the fever and flu came back. Took my medicine and I missed church service today. Switched on the online live-cast in service 2, back in my prayer closet listening to the sermon given by Pastor Kong today. Pastor kong just answered my prayer requests today and everything is in God's hand. I kept asking God this question: Father, when will you touch my smelly? Let him know you, a father who loves and a father who cares about everything that he is going through. Truly I prayed each and every night. I have never prayed to God that smelly will come back to me. I prayed for my smelly to have an encounter with you God. I prayed that God you will place him in favour and shower happiness into his life. Father, I know and I know that my life is safe in your hands, for you are my spiritual food, your words binds me like daily bread you have given me in my life.
I know father, you took me out of his life to put me into his heart. That is why his heart longs for me. But last night I told father before I fell asleep in the arms of my hubhub, I told God, let it not be me but you God, bless him with love and happiness, fruitfulness and joy. I have just prayed to God to release me off the heart of my hubhub. I teared last night with gracefulness and peace. I say God,...... if taking me out of the heart of my hubhub, will make him a happier man. Let it be. It hurts when I see him living in the guilt of me. I know my hubhub loves me, that is why he is not any happier everytime I sees him. Take me out of his heart father and replace it with your love instead. Your love will give liberty, your love is mighty, your love will free him off bondages. God, take away all the guilt he has in his heart. He owes me nothing. For Jesus cancelled my debts, and it is Jesus who lives in me now, I cancel all the debts he has with me in the name of Jesus Christ. If missing me and loving me cannot make him a happier man because we cannot be together, let him forget me. Let him not miss me anymore. God you know that, I love him and I trust him into your care. I believe that you will prepare a wonderful happy future for him, because I know you have hear my prayers God.
After praying to God, I had one of the most peaceful night of rest beside my hubhub. Peace filled me and I know that is what God wants me to say. I fell into deep sleep with blessings of God. Thank you father for you are always so close to me.
As I watch the online live-cast sermon at home, I broke into tears, my prayers were confirmed and I know that is the prayers God wants me to make. God says: Put your most precious as living sacrifies on my alter and I will shape him in my way. Work in my way and not your worldy ways. Because of your strong believes, your faith had made you right with me.
Father, I have my commitments with you. My most precious man is in your hands. Let it be you who works and not me anymore. I will obey for only you my heavenly father knows what is good for me and the best for him. Protect him everywhere he goes as I faithfully keep him close to me as I pray every moment God you insert him into my mind.
I trust you God with my life, I trust the happiness of my beloved man into your hands too. I know you will make him the happiest man the day you are done with your work in him. And I believe that God you will give me a husband who is shaped after your own heart. Amen
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