I will be...

I will try my best to be.
Help you along the way.
Be the even more understanding.
We are both busy,
Let work hard together ya.
Build towards a better future for the good of us.

He/She

I happened to see her in our lecture theathe. She is attractive and adorable. Her metrosexual dressing gave her away. Probably my prediction shall be wrong. Probably she is not a homosexual its just a causal way of dressing. She is the type of person who attracts both the male and female to her. She resembles the above adorable lady Ms Ling. She was backpacking a hockey stick. In a Tshirt and Berms and fashion sneakers fm nike or adidas. Short boyish styled hair black hair looks real neat and tidy for her. The only thing i can say, she got style. The moment i saw her i cant stop turning back to look. She is simply too adorable! I grabbed Rena, when she walked past. Too bad she didnt earn a chance to peep at the right view of hers. Next time round during MR class ;-) I will be her soon to be friend.

Choices

At times i was wondering do i have a choice to make. Many told me of course my dear, better choices out there, those who revolves around you make good choices. I do not know with that much of doubt and bad experiences i had in the past, how far can i continued walking in my current love life.

.Things i did to balance my emotional fears. Too hard even for the closest to understand. These are the things i do not hold threat to me in the past. I am having it all together now. Those things i observed, see and feel, the feeling of people deluding me even the people i used to respect and trust.

He asked me to confront with someone trustworthy, i dont see the point. Once beaten twice shy, i m not going to do that anymore. Re assuring, i do not know whether that helps, but the numbing feeling had risen. One day, nothing is gotta suppress it anymore. I hope that this day dont come, as that will be the ugliest side of me. The cruel and cold me resurfaced when everything starts to fade.

Without exciting point to ignite in a relationship. No surprises only shocks and disagreements.

A "too" feeling person may be good and bad. Everything rely on feelings. I wont drag or waste other's time when my feeling for that person fades off. Just like what happened in the past. The word love should be actionable not only consist of just words.

Someone told me, i am too independent, self sufficient . Maybe its true. This is the kind of feelings i gave others.

Miss him so much!

First night without you around.

I miss your voice,

you hug hug,

You kiss kiss,

You telling me,

Dear ah dont hor.

You telling me to eat more,

*pout lips*

Pls be back soon my love.

Day 2

Its the 2nd day.

Miss my darling so much!

Da Gui, Xiao Gui miss you alot as well!

Waiting for you to be back!

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I m into online auction shopping these days

Above is the new top i'hv got.

Its rather reasonable for the price.

Do take a look at the links

http://sg.auctions.yahoo.com/sg/user/insynclothes

and this

http://sg.auctions.yahoo.com/sg/user/aishiteru_kyo1986

They have got gorgeous and reasonable priced clothes

1st Day

It was a tiring day,
Arghh... lessons lessons lessons.
I cant take it anymore,
i was too tired then.
So i decided to pamper myself so i went shopping at holland V
with Rena and Ping.
got a beautiful top for myself.
Hahaaa.. Excuses i know!
Well i did a lot of things
Other than eating my favourite wasabi seaweed!

I am glad i am done with my laundry and ironing finally!

Holy shit! Opportunity cost:

Do Laundry and Dont Watch TV

Done with ma case study!

At least i would be able to strike off 2 items off my checklist.

BALI ? BINTAN?

The lovely place he went to called Bintan.
Anyone knows about the Bintan or Bali Curse?

How true is it?

I do not know it.

Heard that usually couples broke off after one or both

goes to either place.

Hope that wont happen to me ...

Sounded so serious.

Well actually i dont care a damn.

Bintan or Bali.

Thats not the factor.

Problem lies with people not place.

May it be Bali or Bintan

My bee will be still my bum bum bee bee.

Right?

Pls: I really do miss you alot, well to many things to clear. should clear them while u are away ya. At least i can spare my whole weekends for you!

Hope you are sleeping well over there.

Muacks Nitey whole day

Miss u! Dont even get a chance to hear ur voice.

Count down 1 2 3

1 down.

Belated Birthday Gift

Thanks for that :)

That was from Kai and Ric

Birthday ll

We have got a number of leo babies
Myself
Jason
Angelia
Jerline
Gary
Hazel
Kelly
Joze

Happy Birthday Jason!

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Happy Gui Gui Family

The store i purchased my 4th baby gui

Skeleton Aeromatic watches

This design is interesting

The Skeleton Watch

This 's the one Rach own

Its 25th July 2007

Its my Birthday

The following is from my dearest Du bee CatCat
Thanks my Du bee Cat Cat
I love it very much
I really do appreciate your effort.

Thanks my dear friends for that lovely gift!

Birthday this year was an unique one.
No favorite chocolate indulging nor strawberry filled cream cake.
I'hv got a cup cake.
Those SIM would give their fellow students for refreshments.
The colour yesterday was gloomy when i saw him
he looks unhappy and pissed mostly contributed in work.

The whole evening he didnt smile.
That evening was just an usual one.
Nothing really special

I guess everyone's tired.

Situation changed after a call from his aunt.
He turned better.
Finally
.
.
.
.The celebration.

I thought i would have a peaceful birthday night with him.
Him and just him.
There is no just the 2 of us plan.

Well fair enough,
I was happy that night.
To have him around on my Birthday for the first year.
Although it looks that birthday this year was a simple one
deep down in me,
I am glad you are by my side.
Initially i thought we will be heading home after
dropping off at Aunt house.

Thanks for arranging that mini yet heart warming surprise for me.

My Favourite Strawberry Shortcake

That feeling

That feelings sucks
When you wanted to spend sometime
pick that time out of your schedule
make an effort to
accompany that one you really loved.
You wont mind clearing off your load
by sacrificing some sleep
to spend time with the person who weigh so much.

In return,
being criticize of since you are busy
you do not need to take up that time for that person whom u love.

Trying so hard to maintain it thou both of our schedules are tight.
To get even more disagreements.
Something i do not want to see.

The feelings of being redundant
The feelings of
without my company,
things will work out better?

That effort i spend is just not appreciated.
Having dinner is not what is concern
Seeing you is what that truly matters

I am getting tired
Just pray that things will still goes on fine.

Ceasar

Spent my night with my du bee
and his colleagues at Ceasar along Liang Siah Street

My assumption was he's busy
and wouldnt want to hinder him for
some social learning experiences or some
tipping point his superior might have tip him off.
I went home after a few drinks.

Work is busy for him,
In future
lesser and lesser time to be spend together
My work will be loading up soon.
A kick start for most of my projects.
Knowing that there will be lesser time to be spend together.
I hope that for the time we spend having each other side by side
to reduce argument.

Probably I am just not myself.
Not the usual self i used to be
making my own priority top of anything else.
Now his priority had became mine.
I do not know why.

Most of the time,
Thinking he will be happy after some of the things i did.
But i was wrong, totally wrong.
Probably I should spare so much of a thought for him
Too much i guess.

I realized its not that easy making the one you love happy.
Sometimes of the night before i sleep,
I felt feelings which i really longed for.

The feelings of being pampered.
The feelings of being spoilt.
I am not greedy.
Probably just once in a blue moon will satisfy me.

The feelings of being dote like a little baby,
Had long parted me.

Friday the II

It was a rainy friday.
As usual i attended my violin class and head off to town
to meet up with my dubee cat.
It was a rush night.
Had dinner and dubee and i went to centrepoint
to look for Irene.
Case close.
Had a short night on Friday.
Went to Newton to meet the guys up for some drinks
and snacks.
I headed home after that
while dubee and guys went on to continue their
drinks an chatting session
at Safra.

That night, Dubee fell asleep,
and i couldnt reach him at all.
Finally at around 4am in the morning,
he picked up the ringing house phone
after ample missed calls.
My tone when he picked up the call was
angry.
Its frustrating when you cant reach someone
especially the one u loved so much.
He's reply was he was too tired and he fell asleep
while waiting for my call.

Thou it was that, i was still fuming when i
put down the phone.
I cant get to sleep till i saw the rays of sunshine
which i suppose its really time
to get some sleep.

Its a mambo night

This's Cass its surprising to see her,
She happens to be Angeline's Good friend
My world is so small!

St James Tiger life

The bar attendant was kind,
She gave me that.
That idiot who approaches me when i was weeping,
I told him to go i wasnt in the mood,
He pressed for my numbers.
I was indeed rather patience not to give him a tight slap across
his face.
Do not try to be funny with a Leo especially when she is pissed
her anger and strength multiplied as her drinks increase.
If you cant speak proper English pls dont embarrass yourself.
I understand mandarin.
He left after i said "I m not a single interested in that! Pls get lost!''

I thank my dear friend you should know who.
Accompanying me for that moment i was alone.
Through just words.
thanks

kai was sweet,
Indeed a friend to be.
I received her sms when i got home.

Its time to be rational
Do things in a proper manner.
Dont club as if no rules apply.
Dont assume when things are not the case.

Be a true me.
To get the me back once again.

Thursday

Overslept and i was late for classes. Lecture was fine today module today is easy to comprehend and the speaker kinda keeps me awake most of the time.

Had brownie for breakfast i had 2 and a half of it but ended up in the loo as usual after my meals. My intention today was to have project meeting and head towards town and either slack in some cafes to read my book or waste money on movies which i haven been watching for quite sometime. It was kind of them after knowing i will be alone for a movie, they volunteered to watch it with me. Ended up watching Harry Potter the order of the phoenix. Wasnt something fantasic to. I would consider watching the half blood prince next season. The plot just die off a bit. Probably i have too high expectation for that movie. After all, The best espisode is still the Golbet of Fire.

.My Du Bee.

Finally i got to see him after 4 days of missing, finally got to kiss him. MUACKS~~

Dont Shoot me!

The joke of the day starring the s.w.a.t team: Go go go... Oh pls dont shoot me!
That was real funny when our BBMKG " Hua Zai " imitates me.
Its another tiring morning class,
I miss my Tong tong,
didnt see him 2 days in a row. We used to be meeting 24/7 , thats life we gotta accommodate to each other as we have got our own priorities fulfill.The faith and trust enables us to stand strong as it is. Tong tong Cat i really miss you so so much!!!! BF class was cancelled last min. and i went to shoot some pool games with dear Stacy, gotta brush up my skills a little, try to concentrate more to get the balls in to pocket, true enough i really got to aim properly. We had hideous fun today with Stacy we just cant stop laughing, we are self entertaining come to think of it. So far so good more practice will make perfect, when i am done with my training, it will be time to have a real game with my tong tong cat. I am such a lousy player cos i sucks at that game.

Gavin wasnt in a good mood today which Stacy and me feel, something wrong with him other than tired. Yoz friend relax things will be fine yup.

Tong tong cat went to mid year planning at marine parade today but i was too lethargic to join him. I am sorry about that. Morning classes tmr and gotta do some MA tutorials as well and keep my revision constant. So tired today, gotta take a nap.

Monday moudly blues

Finally gotta meet Rachel's new Tian tian de,
So cute i mean the both of them.
This is a breaking up and find new love season for most of my pals.
Gary has got his, and Rachel found her new Tian tian.

Saw Stacy's so call enemy.
That rich spoilt brat who doesnt knows how to pop a tequila pop,
The resemble,
Who i got in the house?
Its Theresa!
The Rebecca look alike,
the difference is Theresa has got better figures
and BBs
and she's smart, typical girl school look
She is the well known BB in our BBMKG

That stile toe fair lady in class
quite a lot of new faces which arise comments. hahaa
That group of ladies in attracting attention ladies infront of us
did attract the attentions of the guys in our course.
Well dressed marketing students Well done.

We had a 3 hours break today,
guess how we spent?
We spent our hours singing ktv at halo bar over at np.
FOC

Well so much of fun in sch and its time to spend some time on my
revision as well.
Ciao, work hard this semester.

Present a good port folio
Go go go~~~

Human Vs Animals

What is the difference between human and animal? Even little kids can spot the difference. But We look more in depth as an adult.

We compare emotions and intelligence human obsess. An animal wont be able to differentiate what is right and what is wrong unless you will to reward it with probably food when they did the right thing and smack them hard when they did something wrong.

Human, clearly understands what is right or wrong. They would be able to judge according to what the see, hear and picture. Think the consequences if a wrong will to happen, whether they hide it? spin a lie? or confess? up to individual to interpret.

Similarities
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Animals do not have the conscious and intelligence to do what a human can do. They dont even care if the partner they are mating with is from the same mother or what so ever. In fact they can just mate with any animal which of the same kind which walks along the way. They do not need to be responsible of their action, worst come to worst just walk clumsily across the highway and get knock down by some moving vehicles.

Human fucking with someone from the same mother, its consider unethical. To fuck with someone who come along their way is called casual sex and might risk getting aids maybe, luckily there's a great invention call CONDOM. Well even though most human still caught aids, sadly. A human walk clumsily and get knock down by a moving vehicle probably wont die and can sue the driver for a sum of compensation.


Differences
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Animals they do not know what is love, in their dictionary is only loyalty for men's best friend. They do not know what if faithful ( we exclude dolphins as they are real faithful partners) They do not know what is friendship, in their world is all about survival.

Human beings, they can be faithful to one if they choose to, not to fuck around cause fucking around make no difference with compared to stray moaning cats below your hdb. They know what are friends for and they know how to care and shower concern to the people they love and care and in human world survival means adapting and excel in it.

So, ask yourself do u want to be an animal or an ethical human who is able to differentiate the right and wrong?

The Detour

How many people are given a chance to do a detour in life? Many would choose to stay stagnant in their comfort zone and be it the rest of their life. Minor arguments in relationship some says it build up stronger rapport and faith others may debate it in another. People tend to say things out of anger to spite another party whom they might by piss with. Why dont I? Its not because i cant, its just that i know once something is said, that something may not cause any disturbance to yourself but the its always clearly captured into the ears of the other party. I used to be cursing and swearing for the half of my life blaming on who ever i can push the blame onto other than myself.

But I'hv learn my lesson by seeing myself in the other. A total me the unreasonable and outrages hotheaded me. Of most of the time i would choose not to flare and be patient. The short tempered me in the past forgets what i said in a click moments after i flared, but left a hurting verbal abused in others. I'hv come to learn that to forgive is also part of the generous me. Or maybe after so much of pounding and piling i dont get to puke that often. Parts and puzzles of life to never stop learning.

I hear this from a good friend of mine. A super nice person, always care for others and never wants anything in return, One wrong step, that person score him or herself a black spot on a clean sheet of paper. That obvious dot on the white. People start to look only on that tiny black spot.

A super selfish person, who never spare a thought of other's feeling, what ever that person do, he or she want to see a return. When that person try to care and changes just a little, he or she score a white spot on his black sheet of paper. That obvious white dot on a black sheet of paper. It goes the same way, people tend to focus only on the obvious.