Stop and smell the roses

At times when work is too busy, and i m too anxious in meeting production datelines. I know i neglected alot of the people around me as time i used to spend with these lovely people who are family, friends and love ones are reduced.

Somehow or rather, i just cant shake work off my life. Work somehow been merged and changes my life. Where ever i am, i am occupied with the responsibility of work.

Although most may not understand the kind of stress i m weighing onto myself. I m really trying hard to balance everything.

I know i borrowed alot of time from these people to somehow fulfil my job commitments everything has an opportunity cost to it. No matter how wealthy one may be, that something called "Time" is always equal. Depending on how oneself utilise it.

The pride and ego is the core of change in me. I do not deny that i have a big ego when it comes to work and stuffs. I can say that i am to total replica to the characteristics of a LEO star where she just wants to lead.

The basic me:

Leo Likes: speculative ventures, lavish living, rich food, children, drama, pageantry and grandeur
Leo Dislikes:doing anything safely, day-to-day living, small-minded people, penny-pinching and mean spiritedness.

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What M says was right.

I do not know what my job has done to me, is it good or bad?

Am i too ambitious?

Or i just loses traits of who I am?

I do not know.

Basicially the current qi dont believe in dreams anymore as she strongly thinks that dreams will be within her reach, she just has to work hard on it and she sees glimpes of light. Those goals probably change her.

She expects a higher living in current as well as in near future, she is pacing not against her peers but people who has already been there and done that. All of a sudden, she realised how important money is and the kind of options money can bring her across in future when she can afford a house by herself.

In her mind right now, is comfort retirement with her love lazing around the jacuzzi pool watch time passes by. The picture she has in her mind right now. where the world is moving, her peers working hard to secure their family and retirement, she is so much ahead of them simply because she start to dash for what she wants many times harder and earlier.

That is the future she is working for and she is not dreaming. Thats a strong goal of hers. She do not want to see servicing her house loan at the age of 55 and still chasing money at that age.... . .

No more dreams for her, she woke up and realises she need to fight for her dreams or, that picture she has right will be only in her sleep.

She just want to be sure that, she is chasing a dream to be fufil many years down the road not money.

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Plush

Mr Mogie tay and Sharon @ the Plush

I simply love the wall paper

Seven
The ACS boys stupid action

Littlest things

Little things and efforts made do change a day of someone. These little efforts were being appreciated by a joyful voice of " Thank you Seven, i am really so happy and you made my day." The voice of appreciation makes me smile throughout the day and feels really glad of what i did. I received a little message him R thanking me of the little effort i made, those chocolate which makes a joyful day. I believe work is always stressful, but there are always means to stay positive and be happy at the end of everyday life. Seven will always be the happy seven you guys know. Unpleasant memories dont stay with her for long. She is always looking forward for a better day ahead and thats Seven.

I believe that memories should be remembered, always remember the happy moments which keeps you alive and dim those unpleasant ones which holds you back. This is what i've learn in the NLP which helps, conquer and overcome your unfruit day or an incident. Submodalities is one of the methods used in the NLP Neuro-linguistic programming term for the structure of sensory perceptions.

http://www.trans4mind.com/personal_development/mindMastery/submodalities.htm

check out this link and probably its the key of manupliation of your own mind, to stay and be happy of whatever things that happens around us.

Little note

Stacy: take great care and have fun in BK with KK

SiewKing: You'll do great in your new job!! Jia You ba!!!

Rena: You'll get a holiday job soon :)

I Realised

I realised that we have not been spending enough time togther which indirectly pushes him towards his friends. All of a sudden he feels that his friends are more interesting and time we spend are getting less exciting. The bottom line is not that we do not love each other that much anymore. It was me, not spending enough time with him and slowly as time passes by, i pushes the blame that he likes his friend's company more that me and commented on their as usual activities. Although there is alot of things i want in life and sees in this relationship. but i really do not know how to manage it where time is concern. We had been doing our own things, and value time spending doesnt weigh that much anymore, a sad case to say we are driffing apart and i am partly at fault. I guess i am too engross in my own life and neglected his. i am getting smaller and smaller as friends occupies most of his time vice versa. This shouldnt be the way, we used to spend lovely time together which both of us enjoy so much. As days pass, those loving qualities decreases. That shouldnt be the way. I've borrowed too much time from him and i suppose its time i really do something for him to show him that is how much i care.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS

Lala lalala Lala lalala Lala happy Holidays!!
Lala lalala Lala lalala Lala
Happy Holidays!!
Cheer people,
I love you guys!!

Renny, Stacy, Ping'er and Jas

Roses for all the mothers in my family for our

mother's day dinner

Kuku Kia and Stacy taken at dblo

and that place will be the last place i will go in future !!

It just Sux big time.

Luckily i was with my bunch of kuku pple to do kuku things with me!!

Japanese style in fashion

Check this out!!

Coming back home....

Messages received early in the morning at 5am , 7.30am and 8am respectively from 3 different person. They are back in Singapore for the labour day holiday. One from the off-shore island and the other from NewZealand for business trip the other one was just a heartwarming message from Jay someone whom i knew so long ago when i was still a regular at Newsroom bar. Mike junior will be back this june and he promise me a horse-back riding session as how he promised 2 yrs ago before he left for Australia. Mike senior will be starring the the upcoming homerun movie this June which I am so looking forward to catch him on the big Screen. All of them, followed me closely in life and surprisingly i haven been seeing him since 3 years ago. They are the people who bless my each day of mine with little message of care of a friend. Little care and concern will reaffirm your existance and to live with a positive attitude rather than to just exist. Its sad to exist, its life to live. I am glad to have so many people around myself to give life and colours to my world.

134 - TiaRa part ll

She can dance at 2am in the morning,

She roller blade, and she is only 3 yrs old.

She is polite and definately a refine young lady.

We are having our imaginary breakfast,

she is trying to make my hotcakes breakfast appear.

She is renovating her "so call" home
Isnt she so adorable.

133- TiaRa

I love TiaRa,

someone's daughter i forgot her name,

and i spent all night keeping her company together with noelle, Leonard's gf.

she is so adorable,

who say: no beer allow, Thank You.

She will start speaking japanese and some alien language.

I really love u TiaRa.

You are so adorable.

She will hold ur hand and keep u by her side,

cook pancake breakfast for you,

i had been her friend in the outer space world for the past 3 days = to 1 hr.

I really love her!!!

Here we Go... The Synergy Glam night

Du Bee, Dawn ( my cousin) and myself, sitting in a cozy corner enjoying our freeflow

at Arena Haahhaa

Left to right: Ah Seng the candid photographer, Linda, Dawn, myself, Joey ( Sambat manager) , Daddy Kong and Our New bride Mel!!!

She was at Arena in her wedding gown but changes later on.

Too bad didnt catch a shot of her in her gown

Whats wrong with me with those stupid looks

The Synergy Idol contestants

The winner is our Hokkien Queen Sherry from Louis Chan unit

Look at this!

Sexy dance of our secretary, top manager derrick and best of all TammY!! Our mother goose TAMMY

KENNETH " Wo men yong yuan zhi chi ni!!!
Our Big family of Terence Kong Associates

The candid shot by famous Seng,

Dubee and his weird tongue.

Seven and her weird eyes

Fenny and I

131

I do not long for a perfect relationship, but i am unsure of what will be the outcome of the current. I do not force nor pressure on the other party. We are all adults and no adults would want themselves to be reprimand like kids. Adults will understand what is right and wrong to do. I do not want to fall into that kind of predicament of ignoring anymore. I really do care alot but somehow when caring for someone becomes a pressure, it's definately hard to digest for the both parties. No one want to fail in their relationships so do i. All i want is him to do the right things without much naggings, in school or at work.

I am pretty worried for him, somehow the drive in him had long left since Eugene signed on the dotted line. That was when the last passion left a trail on him. All i want to see in him is simply being independent, considerate and a more caring him. I am not someone who need her bf to be around her 24/7, but the least more sense of "automatic-ness" when it comes to work and play.

He used to be a Yes person, an incident converted him into a No person. Months after being a No person he differentiated back to being a Yes person again. Even thou, he is more focus on relationship now and i hope that applies for the future as well. I really hope that he can be the last man in my life as i am so tired of falling in and out of relationship, its get even more tedious when all my relationships last for at least 2 years. I do not ask for much just a nice warm shoulders to rely on when i am tired, not a shoulder which gives me more stress when i m mentally and physically drained.

Hopefully he can be the one and for those promises made fulfilled.

130

I happened to read through his past blogs and realised how fickle Aquarius can be. Getting to know him for the past 2 years, I've seen parting and heart aching scenes of his but somehow he always recuperate ever faster than i could imagine. Probably i should classify his love-stories under the "puppy love" category. All his stories of care and concerns, words he said; i m unsure who will be the gullible one to believe, but indeed there are. Gullible ones who fall for that and he is the type who makes you fall and land not in his arms but on the concrete ground. He doesn't seems like, but I've seen his character inside out. He is indeed a great friend to be, but other than that *shake head* There's always ample excuses made i don't why. An Aquarius man can be a sneaky as a scorpio do you believe it. Always believe something which is " what it seems it not what it meant."

Other than the handful of nice men around, At, Wp,Eu, Zy, Gn and Kk whom i really look up to, othere than that.................

Another conclusion of: Why are men such disappointments?

Post 1.2.9

There are different criteria in viewing the attractiveness of oneself. Recently i sense an up-rising X-factor in successful people. Male or female. Ultimately looks is not that important anymore when it is put together with the unexplainable quality of the inner being of a person. I should rephrase it, looks isn't that important but appearance of well-being and confidence is certainly a plus point in the rating system in individual. I simply can't help it to get magnetised by successful individual around me. There's an unique sense in them i couldn't explain. Those uniqueness captivated me. You may shine when you have got a great appearance by nature, but i believe character and capability outshines everything. The only calibre in long-run of attractivenss is never the looks but what you are able to do.

Some of the people whom i really admire due to the capabilities in them and the drive which bring them far across to outshine the commoners. Sherry is on my top list. She is the lady! 2 years down the road, I want to see myself sitting next to her desk to start my marathon to success.

Synergy Glam night - Part 1

Here's some pictures taken from our 10th anniversary branch Glam night @ the Arena

New photos to be uploaded once i receive it.

Interesting pictures are worth the wait

Myself and soon to be aboard onto Terence Kong and Associates cousin Dawn

Poorly taken by some so call professionals?

Kel and his usual facial expressions.

Playing in the rain

I met up with my manager " Daddy Kong" yesterday for some self-actualisation goals fulfilling session. We had coffee at the nearby coffee kiosk with some other colleagues including on of the top manager. The story happens last week where they went out for a drink somewhere around tanjong pager. When they are about to leave the bar, it starts to drench cats and dogs. The first question is from daddy kong was, " When was the last time you guys played in the rain?" The spontaneous moves was, the group of guys went running into the heavy downpour in their office attire. The tallest among them all, "Derr" who is our top producing manager recalled how he played in the rain during his younger days, when ever lightning strikes, he will quickly squat down. The reason of being the tallest in the group, he felt that he will be the one who has got the highest chances of being strike by the lightning. The cost of playing in the heavy rain, their phone wasnt working and their leather shoes either died of left in the balcony to air for the following few days.

What follows on, they didnt head home. They are a group of happening and energetic group of managers. They headed to the yacht club and went sailing 5am in the morning. All of them dead tired, they took turns to captain the yacht and agreed to rotate their shift 15mins thereafter. But what happens when its daddy kong to captain the yacht, he dozed off and they will left captainless for the past 10 mins of sail.

P.a.r.a.n.o.i.d

I do not know what have gotten into me, why am i so paranoid when he is unreachable. I cant stand a tinny bit of uncertainty, that's me i suppose. Or it is just not the matter of being paranoid, but i just want to get hold of him and shake him off my life. I often ask myself is that what i want? To be simple i just cant trust. The BIG word is TRUST. Experiences re-enforce that men are jerks, they just cant be trusted. They will lie till the bottomline even when the lie is about to unwrap. They are like warriors guarding their fort of lies.

Unpleasant experiences are the main contributors to who i am now and how i view those rascals. Ample times i just wanted to shake him off and lead a happy lovely Seven's way of life without him. Somehow i do not know why is it so hard for him to let me go? i truely understands what K went through in the past. Those idiotic webs just keep sticking onto me.

He always ask me, what is the point of being together when i do not trust him. I simply replied well, i m fine to leave u. And he will go around hounding which the same old questions" Whats wrong with you? or What do u want now?" Those standard lines used.

Paranoid - i do not know whether should i use that word or there are underlying meanings behind it. I clearly knows that i keep hounding on and behaving to paranoid, is see somethings i want to see in order to draw my lines with him. The word TRUST is too tedious for me to handle.
Many months after that incident, we are 16 month old today. What i can comment on is, its not what he did to make up for the wrongs he did and gaining the trust. Ample times i told him that go ahead with your friends, i trust you, its all crap!! For those dearie who understand the latent motive is merely, i just dont want to care. Caring too much make my life too miserable.

To trash those unpleasant feelings apart, i have got people who helps to balance my emotional feelings, or else i'll land myself in IMH. Work and school is stressful, he is my stress itself. Uncle SS will be leaving soon, he is hopping onto Virgo. Pls bring him along with you.

When we were young

Some amazing photos i found in my old albums,

I guess some of you guys haven even seen such interesting handicraft in your lifetime.

This below handmade " Changi Airport control tower" was made by my dad 30 years ago.
Does it resemble the one we used to see?

My dad at the age of 18 and his master pieces of traditional arts

My Bruce Lee lookalike dad;

Make a comparison below :)

We used to roll around in our kampong at bukit timah.
I spent a quarter of my life living around bukit timah,
Look at the railway track on the background.
You're right.
Thats the current railway mall 20 years ago

Me and my family tradition.
When i was young that was my playground.
In those day, toys are luxury items which my family would never afford,
The masterpiece of artwork which earns us a living is my playmate.

Post number 124

I am pretty amused by the words Rac used, those descriptive terms are "spot on". Things said are true enough and most of us who had read it just nod our head and laugh about it. Well girls we are coming to an end of the semester and we shall just brush everything away and focus on our exams.

Last night, i received a call from a good buddy of mine name F who needs my help. He is walking his beloved grandpa off his last stage of life. F is an ophan who was being brought up by his grandparents. The last thing he could do for him is to have a decent funeral for his grandpa. Immediately i called my dad to discuss some monetary issue which may arise. F is not from a well to do family and i offer my help to him in whatever i can. Erm.... the opportunity cost is to forgo my 4.5k hokkaido trip. Well i guess to put fun with comparison with helping a friend who is in need. its worthwhile. As how i was taught by my dad, being from a well to do family is blessing from god, to repay that, always help those people who are in need within your means.

Bid goodbye to Hokkaido for the time being and i believe it will be more meaningful in helping a friend and a client like him.

To F: pls take care and look on the brighter side of life

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I am longing to be there Alone or accompanied by just a close friend who need relaxation therapy just like i do.

Little fair piggy to be my guest.

And........... stay tune for more actions whahaaa

No Vulgarities

Loving an imperfect person to love him perfectly;
But its really tough!

Cos he always drench me down using vulgarities; which makes me boil everytime.

Somehow the worst thing to stand is his vulgarities;
I get really pissed when he used them on me,

Those uncouth behaviour, that's something i really cant stand at all.

I dont understand why and what constitute to such kind of behaviour towards the person he so call "love"

It's complex and it not easy to comprehend.

Probably he feels that I'll be that kind to forget and forgive him just like his mum.

My parent dont even bare to scold me, and what gave you the authority to do that to me "HELLO"

You are be super caring and nice when you need me and turns into a devil when you dont.

Ai ya, its karma i guess; i see the mirror me in you years ago.

Probably thats the reason why i keep asking myslf to forgive and forget.

All of a sudden i find myself a SAINT; to tolerant all those nonsenses of yours.

I think i am.

Believe me, and i think you are someone sent down by the god to punish women who take man for granted in the past, and this is what god will say

: HAHA; serve you women right, thats you punishment, taste your own fruit;

And pls do not spit,

You labelled yourself so Chi-na,

I really dont mind if you present yourself the way you are when i first met you, i'll never destest or ask you to get lost, because that's who you are.

Which is in fact you are a total different person from whom i first met and who you are now; all you can tell me is that, you are who you are and you are not hiding * My foot*

I really cant stand that anymore and i do not wish to be that pathetic one living under your foot.

So sian, My foot your foot hk foot IDIOT.

Word for my ladies:

Who would want to be at my guest to Hokkaido this summer, to smell the calming lavender fields and lie under the bed of sunflowers?

That kuku kia i dont intend to inform about the exact timing and date.

It gets kind of irritating sometimes.

Love Seven

To OoXxoO: I know i m real silly, money cant buy love but it gives you a better bargaining chip. Everything is fake, that smile is fake the thanks..... i dont even know whether are they for real. Man are not trustworthy and trustworthy man are no longer avaliable. The only man i need and respect is my dad. The rest of my guy friends, they are great friends. But truely inside myslf, i just get too bored over man.

The personality of a cat

He has the personality of a cat,

What is the personality of a cat?

http://cats.about.com/cs/gamespuzzles/l/blwhatkind_one.htm

Try this link :)

Everything is vice versa,

He is like a total idiot who thinks that he is the most adorable man on earth which sucks at times.

Cat are the only animal who is classified as the " selfish"

They would be lovely if they want to have fun,

but give you a scratch on ur arms if they are not.

" Scenario 1:

When you're busy, and have got no time for it,

he will attitude"

"Scenario 2:

When its busy and has got no time for you, it'll blame you for not helping"

"Scenario 3:

It will be changed so adorably lovely when your are doing the things it want you to do and turn its claws at you when you are not"

How selfish can cats be?

I always hate cats

My work desk