Day 106
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I want to SCREAM !!!!!! DAY 106 ROCKS MAX TO DE CORE !!!!!!
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I want to SCREAM !!!!!! DAY 106 ROCKS MAX TO DE CORE !!!!!!
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The day I understand, received my finest moment of release.
You ask me why and what happened? We/I had a major deliverance today.
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What happened?
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Our topic today is Forgiveness and true forgiveness is to forget the hurt someone you love the most had done on you.
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Today I lifted up all my hurts, torments, bitterness, anger in a cup palms and lifted it into the mighty hands of my Lord my God.
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Everything comes flashing back my mind yesterday, I realised even when I said I forgives my smelly, but deep down it is just locked up. Once in a while the devil will unleash it and whip it without mercy making it so painful in my heart. That is the reason why, I will cry when I am spending time with my hubhub.
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I finally disperse it and forgives truly with no resendment and hurt.
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This is what happened and the images that flows through my mind when God is releasing my anger, my bitterness, my broken heart, my hurt and my pain.
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I was brought back to the day I fell so badly heart-broken. I have to unlock and face it. God sees everything and he says I am with you, leave all these into my hands. Here's my promise to you:
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My dear child;
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I will help you to forget, forget all the pain you have been through because I am your judge and I care. I will erase all these from you heart and restore you.
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I will help you forget those sleepless nights when you teared so much in pain because of heartache in infidelity of the man you love. I will replace them with peace and calmness in your heart where you will find joy.
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I will help you forget those nights and day when you walked away from his house in bitterness and tears crying for answers. I will replace with joy you remembered singings and practicing songs with your love at his place.
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I will help you forget those days and nights when you were warded in the hospital screaming and crying out of your broken heart. I will replace it with comfort you share with your love when he hugs you tight on the night train in Vietnam.
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I will help you forget the pain when you tried struggling plucking tubes off your wrists when you were warded, making blood flowing all over the place because you dont want to live anymore as the pain of this heartache is too unbearable. I will replace it with the comfort warm hug by your love telling you he will protect you when he hugs you in his warm arms when you fainted at his house.
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I will help you forget the shame you faced when you needed to see a psychiatrist or else you will be admitted in the hospital again. I will replace it with the joy you find laughter when your love splashed water on a bus-stop of people.
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I will help you forget the 4 days and night you are locked out from the world crying day and night suffering from this bad trauma. I will replace it with joy you remember catching the meteor shower with your love on the multistorey carpark.
The day I understand, received my finest moment of release.
You ask me why and what happened? We/I had a major deliverance today.
.
What happened?
.
Our topic today is Forgiveness and true forgiveness is to forget the hurt someone you love the most had done on you.
.
Today I lifted up all my hurts, torments, bitterness, anger in a cup palms and lifted it into the mighty hands of my Lord my God.
.
Everything comes flashing back my mind yesterday, I realised even when I said I forgives my smelly, but deep down it is just locked up. Once in a while the devil will unleash it and whip it without mercy making it so painful in my heart. That is the reason why, I will cry when I am spending time with my hubhub.
.
I finally disperse it and forgives truly with no resendment and hurt.
.
This is what happened and the images that flows through my mind when God is releasing my anger, my bitterness, my broken heart, my hurt and my pain.
.
I was brought back to the day I fell so badly heart-broken. I have to unlock and face it. God sees everything and he says I am with you, leave all these into my hands. Here's my promise to you:
.
My dear child;
.
I will help you to forget, forget all the pain you have been through because I am your judge and I care. I will erase all these from you heart and restore you.
.
I will help you forget those sleepless nights when you teared so much in pain because of heartache in infidelity of the man you love. I will replace them with peace and calmness in your heart where you will find joy.
.
I will help you forget those nights and day when you walked away from his house in bitterness and tears crying for answers. I will replace with joy you remembered singings and practicing songs with your love at his place.
.
I will help you forget those days and nights when you were warded in the hospital screaming and crying out of your broken heart. I will replace it with comfort you share with your love when he hugs you tight on the night train in Vietnam.
.
I will help you forget the pain when you tried struggling plucking tubes off your wrists when you were warded, making blood flowing all over the place because you dont want to live anymore as the pain of this heartache is too unbearable. I will replace it with the comfort warm hug by your love telling you he will protect you when he hugs you in his warm arms when you fainted at his house.
.
I will help you forget the shame you faced when you needed to see a psychiatrist or else you will be admitted in the hospital again. I will replace it with the joy you find laughter when your love splashed water on a bus-stop of people.
.
I will help you forget the 4 days and night you are locked out from the world crying day and night suffering from this bad trauma. I will replace it with joy you remember catching the meteor shower with your love on the multistorey carpark.
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I will help you to forget the pain and agony you faced when you have to put on an act to be happy infront of everyone and you are dying inside. I will replace it with the joy your love teases you and gives you a big hug after that telling how much he loves you.
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I will help you forget those fear and resendment you had when you sit beside your windows thinking to say Goodbye to the world. I will give you hope and light because you have me with you. When I am with you my child, there is nothing you should fear. I will not let resendment and bitterness blocks you up, for I am your heavenly father who will help you to forget all your pain.
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From today on, you will only remember the happy moments you spent with your love and never the bitter ones. I love you my dearest child.
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Your loving father
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I cried so hard, not for the hurt I've been through but the word God told me straight to my heart, the visions and pictures God painted right in me.
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ON THIS DAY 106 : I SAY: HUBHUB !! I AM JOYFUL BECAUSE I TRULY FORGIVES AND I WILL FORGET EVERYTHING YOU PUT ON ME. THERE WILL BE NO POST OF WHAT HAPPENED IN THE PAST ANYMORE. ALL THOSE HURTS WILL BE ERASE COMPLETELY FROM TODAY ON. And as I walk on to love you more each day ! All the past hurts will never be stumbling blocks in me anymore. I love you hubhubie and I want to love you ONLY with joy each day!
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To all my dear friends: I've found my true joy because I let it go, so I can continue to love him without any grumblings and resendments. I know many of you guys cannot forgive him for the hurts he had done on me. If I am the one in this situation who can forgive and forget, why cant you guys :)
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To my hubhub: If I really received and forgives for the past, you forgives yourself for all the hurts you put in me too. Because I love you so Dont blame yourself anymore. Do not let the past torment each of us any further. Let it disperse in us. I will always be loving you like ever more NOW with no more bitterness ^^
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This post day 106 is a joyful Post,
I am finally released
I will help you forget those fear and resendment you had when you sit beside your windows thinking to say Goodbye to the world. I will give you hope and light because you have me with you. When I am with you my child, there is nothing you should fear. I will not let resendment and bitterness blocks you up, for I am your heavenly father who will help you to forget all your pain.
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From today on, you will only remember the happy moments you spent with your love and never the bitter ones. I love you my dearest child.
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Your loving father
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I cried so hard, not for the hurt I've been through but the word God told me straight to my heart, the visions and pictures God painted right in me.
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ON THIS DAY 106 : I SAY: HUBHUB !! I AM JOYFUL BECAUSE I TRULY FORGIVES AND I WILL FORGET EVERYTHING YOU PUT ON ME. THERE WILL BE NO POST OF WHAT HAPPENED IN THE PAST ANYMORE. ALL THOSE HURTS WILL BE ERASE COMPLETELY FROM TODAY ON. And as I walk on to love you more each day ! All the past hurts will never be stumbling blocks in me anymore. I love you hubhubie and I want to love you ONLY with joy each day!
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To all my dear friends: I've found my true joy because I let it go, so I can continue to love him without any grumblings and resendments. I know many of you guys cannot forgive him for the hurts he had done on me. If I am the one in this situation who can forgive and forget, why cant you guys :)
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To my hubhub: If I really received and forgives for the past, you forgives yourself for all the hurts you put in me too. Because I love you so Dont blame yourself anymore. Do not let the past torment each of us any further. Let it disperse in us. I will always be loving you like ever more NOW with no more bitterness ^^
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This post day 106 is a joyful Post,
I am finally released
There is NOT A SINGLE tear in putting up this post.
I really released,
Because I've decided to publish my darkness and fear,
darkness no one ever knows about how bad I was suffering from.
No One ever know what a bad shape I was when Im warded and seeing my psychiatrist,
not even my bestfriend knows about that.
I let them all go away today,
with a great wide smile.
Dont cry people when you read my Day 106
because I just received my freedom to my heart.
Thank you GOD!
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Isaisah 40: 31
Those who wait for the Lord, who expect, look for hope in him shall get all the strength.
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Praise the Lord
Thank you GOD!
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Isaisah 40: 31
Those who wait for the Lord, who expect, look for hope in him shall get all the strength.
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Praise the Lord
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How great is our God.
He happens in my life, I believe because he let me feel him.
I've found this Place,
A charismatic church,
to sing, dance and shout out for freedom,
its a happy place,
even if you think by giving offerings is spending money,
Well . . . we cant say we are spending money when the money is returned back to us in
: 30 folds : 60 folds : and 100 folds.
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After Service
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After Service
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SAMY CURRY @ Dempsey
I never know Indian Curry Fish-head can be so yummy ! I practically finished like 60% of the pot. Gee.e. Anyway we had 3 pots of Curry fish head so . . gagaaa. . . Most of the time I spent picking fishmeat for dear Desmond. Arghh.h.h. ... Desmond cant eat spicy food.
Sherry !! She is like a loving big sister to me always.
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Desmond and his forever kind of smile,* Roll eyes * Desmond and his 24 pieces of Tickets For JAY CHOU Concert.
He just misused his role as a Fund manager to booked the Tickets.
Sibei Kiasu,
next time when I see his Girlfriend, I tease abit.
Hardcore JayChou fans, Flew to Taiwan to catch his concert.
Dah. . . He is Desmond.
and Chillout @ the hills
Allen Gege . . . ^^
I want to watch his past HK movies and TVB dramas,
but I dont know where can I find.
Old School man!
She is the girl Shirely, I tell you, her complexion is FLAWLESS,and guess her age.
Shhhhhh....... just add 5 years more to whatever age you are guessing ^^
Bye everyone and Good night.
Prayers: continue loving him in a better way. God you are great! Shine in his Life and make him super duper WONDERFUL like superman! I love my hubhub everyday ^^ Even when you are so smelly smelly ^^ 爱你宝贝!
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Pssssshhhhh. . . I secretly asked God if he will provide me with a NEW Louis Vuitton never full purple colour or a NEW PRADA couche . . . . God never reply me and he walked away. I think God is thinking of giving me a Hermes Brikens instead ^^
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