Day 157

Day 157

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Cried my whole heart out.

It is really painful,

but I have to do it.

I have to do that, though it is going to cost me heavily,

I have to do that.

For I love him too much,

I cannot help,

I have to think of the best for him.

I really cant help him.

The only way to help is to let him go.

That means I can not see him anymore,

no more news of him,

no more hugs,

no more cuddles,

for I love him so much,

love is about scarifies.

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I have to say

my hubhub is the key,

I have to break myself for him to move.

I love him.

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God ! Have you hear my cry?

I've cried with all my heart and soul !

Please protect my hubhub,

guard his heart,

all I pray for is his fruitfulness in his career.

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Father !

when he misses me,

give him a good dream,

when he feels like hugging me,

give him a dream of love from me.

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Lord Jehovah bring all my love to him in your ways.

He has to be happy, I really can't bear to see him sad.

I cried not because he hurts me,

I cried because he loves me so do I

but

It hurts a million times more when I know I can never see him or hear from him again.

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Just let me be,

cry my heart out.

It didnt know this can be so difficult !

So difficult to make such decisions.

For him to be good,

I cannot turn back, even thou how much it hurts.

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It is too painful to handle.