Friday, December 31, 2010

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This is a song of thanksgiving. Thanking Jesus, because he died for us, we can get away from all the curse in life of negativity, death, fear, sickness and walk towards his land of blessing. As believers, we cry not because we are sad, all those tears are the tears of joy and gratefulness. We are really touched by him. Jesus, he is real. He is not a god to idolise, he is a real God, someone who really cares about you and someone who can change your life. He changed mine. He became my best friend, my beloved Father, he walks with me and lift me up on the heaviest storms in life. He died for me so I can get blessed.
I don't need any luck in life.
I don't need any fengshui, nor whatever divine fortune telling.
With just Jesus in me, I can be more than what is of the world.
 Greater is he who is in me than of the world.
Thank you Jesus.
I love you.

Day 325

Day 325
The Last Day of 2010

A sum up of the year.

The few important moments I had in 2010
Yes I went to Bible college School of Theology 2010 and it changed my life.
I accept Jesus as my savior and delicated my life to serve him as Lord.
I went through my water baptism
I was given a 2nd chance in life
A new life to live again,
born again with the new heart Jesus gave me.
My amazing Journey begins with a new heart.

I had my right hand holding on to Jesus and my left holding to his.
I love him so much and I couldn't bear to let this man go.

Soon it was Asia Conference 2010


I was totally involved in the Asia Conference 2010 serving delegates from all around the world.
I was in the Hospitality PR team
and
was one of the violinist from Mill Orchastra for the last day of Asia Conference.
An Amazing life transforming conference with workshops like:
Managing workplace through the word of God 
Wealth management 
and
many many others.

Dr AR Bernard blew me off TOTALLY with his core values believes.

Asia Conference 2010 came to an end after a week. 

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I went to Bali
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came back with this:
on top of my bible school, music teaching job and wealth management career,
Sun Vale Avenue was born

I went through intensive stretching.
The stretching of God for a greater purpose in life.
I prayed for an enlargement of capcity.
God created that situation in my life and my ability was enlarged through these.

My prayers were answered.
God never leave prayers unanswered.
So sometimes, we got to be careful what we pray for.

During the midway of bible school,
I prayed for an enlargement of my heart.
I asked God to widen my heart with love.

God answered my prayers once again.
I went to hardcore brokenness.

I went through death strike pain,
I learned to obey God.
Obeying God is painful and heartaching.

God puts me in a situation to enlarge my heart.
A heart to give without asking for any returns.

The first time in my life it was downpouring so heavily
I cried non-stop for 12 hours.
The tears just wouldnt stop.

I surrenderred the most precious thing in my life to God,
I left the man I loved so much and handed him to God.

For the next 3 days I obeyed God,
I seeked and ask for his grace to overcome this pain,
and asked God for his mercy to bring the man I love through this as well.

The holy spirits is a wonderful comforter.
He shown hope in my life and gave me visions of God's plan.
I quiet down and received peace from the spirit of God.

God sliced me,
he sliced selfishness off me and he gave me selflessness.
He taught me how to love like Jesus.
Sacrifies.

My heart was enlarged,
my love turns selfless.
I received abundance of Joy with this selfless love God placed in line as blessings for me to pick up.
Thank you Jesus
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I started my outreach and mission field to China with Pastor and Eve
I was blown away once again how God works
Totally speechless of how God uses me to touch broken souls he wants to reach.
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 Very Soon it is my final Lap in bible School.
I was pushing it on.
The most difficult part in bible school is not about learning the bible.

It is about what God wants you to do.
Through bible school,
I released unforgiveness, bitterness, pain, sorrows, resendment, cursed of witchcrafts, generations curses into the hand of Jesus.

I was set free.
My heart received total freedom.

I forgave people whom I never even thought I've hated them.
But God knows.
He wants me to forgive them and bless them.

I forgave the man who hurt me so badly, his mum and I forgave Mel.
In the first place I dont even know why I hated them.
I started praying for them,
praying for blessings to rain onto their life.
I started praying for Mel's career and her fruitful love life.
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Very soon, I graduated from Bible school
and life continues to change.
I changed a new company and I accepted a new challenge God prepared in my life for me.

I took on new challenges in life and I know my authority I have in Jesus.
He gave me my authorities and I am going to make full use of it.

God is someone so close to me,
a father who is never selfish,
a father who is always willing to give.

Jesus is my best friend,
he knows my past my present and he holds my future.

Holy Spirit is my best teacher,
best comforter
and best interpreter in ministry.

My life,
I delicated to the trinity
Father.Spirit.Son

I will hold on to you as I conquor uncertainty,
bring hope to people,
give,
love,
and care

I cannot accomplish this mission without Father.Spirit.Son
I live my life serving only you Lord.
Speak and I will move,
show me the way and led me there.

Thank you Father for being so real in my life.
You are there
Always there so ready for me.

I love you Father,
I love you Jesus,
I love you Holy Ghost.

I delicated 2010 as sweet aroma to your altar.
With praise and thanks giving
I have accomplished much this year.

2011
I want to love you even more!
Hold on to you even more!
Walk with me Jesus,
Like what you've told me,
Yes, Greater things have yet to come.

All things work for Good for those who loves God called according to his purpose.
For you whom ask through the son,
He who is the author of all will do Exceedingly and Abundantly well for those who ask.
Ask and it will be given to you,
Seek and you shall find it,
Knock and it will be open to you.

This is my Father's promise to me and he said:

Heaven and Earth will fade but my words will stay the same,
He will do something new for you today.

Thank you Father for giving me a year full of trials which shaped my character, and held me even closer to you Lord.

I've sowed in 2010.
Grow my seeds I've left in your hands.

and Lastly

Thank you City Harvest Church


Thank you God for City Harvest Church where you restore my dreams and put it higher.

Something Stupid - Frank Sinatra

Kelly Grace.

The Beatles - I Want To Hold Your Hand

Thursday, December 30, 2010

How come?

How come no one ever did this to me?
Or how come no one dare to do this to me?
Or ask me?
Or prosposed this?
Or whatever?
Am I too heavy? Cannot be right.....

Seraphina

Seraphina is my customer from Sun Vale Avenue.
She is so real and one young sweet thing.
She came down my shop and gave me a card of my Horoscope in which she drew.
Awww . .
Thats really lovely
Thanks Sera!


Friendster

I was actually doing this

I went to look through my old Friendster Testimonies guess what I've found.

Roy
Roy2004T05:56:41Z ( I cant imagine he used the word SWEET) whhaaaaaa!!!!



a very sweet girl.. and one who certainly
knows how to present herself.. she
leaves a deep impression as an
individual with a jovial nature and a kind
heart.. an interesting person to talk to
with endless topics..

 
This is more like the Roy I know
 
Roy2004T15:23:22Z



learning to be contented wif oneself is
hardly enough to be satisfied wif..
becus one cannot progress far without
emotional support.. i guess everyone
haf their own set of problems.. u'r ability
to be optimmistic.. it totally outshines
any of which i've come across.. i would
say tad you are vulnerable.. but yet u'r
someone who's able to hold out for u'r
own stand.. wif u'r own set of principles..
well do try to share u'r load abit more.. 1
person carrying a burden as great
would only seem a chore.. well a gentle
word of advice for the overworked you..
open up a lil.. keep tad attitude.. tad
optimmisim and tad smile.. tad
contagious and overwhelming smile..
but share more than tad.. share your
mind..

 
Terry Tan ( OMG this is really funny )
Terry 2004 T17:38:02Z



Wow what a god send girl... That the
best Dear i ever get making me so
complete in life and lost of words for
her...........Well this new chapter for us
will be a fulfilling one and i definitely will
cherish u with everything i have and
never make u feel regret of reopening
this fresh and exciting relationship of
us..........we will support each other
through thick and thin no matter what
kind of problem arise. i not gonna leave
u alone to face diffcult situation
anymore, put ur trust in me and keep
with me no matter wat...............DEAR
OUR LOVE WILL LAST TILL END OF
TIME..........MUACK MUACK :) FROM
UR BELOVED DAR DAR


I am going to show him this so I can threaten him to show maybe his wife or something. Fwahahhaaaa.....

Arvin Ho
Arvin.mq 2004 T06:54:57Z


Seven - shes a hyperactive, cheerful,
funny, daring and direct person....i
seldom see this "kind" of species
around den suddenly u and ur frens
(almost same character) came and
somehow enlightened me tat such
person exist, nv hesitate to do
anything u want - such courage - if
only i have half of it, i really like ur
directness (unlike other gals or even
guys) nv fail to speak ur mind, and a
good listener who give good advice -
she often guide me on some human-
relations handling (aka
communication with pple and handling
situations) which i'm really bad
at...Thanks for helping me, i know i
am a blockhead sometimes...can;t
help also....
Sorry this testimonial came so late......
Took me more than 15 mins to
write...haha...
Lastly hope u can fulfill ur dreams- ur
so talented and hardworking..i believe
the day will come.....show the traits of
Leo, believe in urself Lady


Ok la, we went to sing KTV yesterday and you dont look like autistic kid anymore. Imagine last time in school they say you're an autistic kid.

Huixian
Huixian2004 15T05:41:37Z



Hey,Kaiqi...You and Holly will be my
very best friends forever.You really
associates well with all your friends
and a very good personalities and
characteristics and I think you are
also a rather straightforward
person.Anyway,our friendship will keep
rolling*:)


So super Huixian

This is Victor my dude long time buddy Victor never fail me. ARgh, I feel old now, Cause we have there for each other for like 12 years my god.

Victor2006 03T11:14:51Z



I'm always glad to be around for you bro, just as you were always near me. I'm just a call away should you ever need me :) Cheers!
 
Cant find Joze's.
 
Holly dont do such things de. lolx.
 
Thats about it.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Day 323/4


Day 323


Tuesday ( Superb weather! ) Cool and Windy Temp 24. Yes This is Singapore.


I've decided to sing K-box. So I did, accompanied by arv. I realised singing for 2 hours is not shiok enough, I had been craving for KTV since last Saturday. I think I want to KTV again next Tuesday if situations permits.

Arv and I went to the K-box at scape-park after our lunch at Marche, initially we wanted to go for a K-Lunch, meaning KTV and lunch combined. Dropped that idea and we headed to Marche at 313 orchard.

I've been always a very spontaneous person by nature. While I was in the queue for French Rossties ( The potato potato thing neh ) I was comtemplating on the marking of it. It looks really easy somehow.


After Lunch we headed down to K-box scape park. I have not been singing KTV for the longest time.The last time to K-suites or Lunar for KTV were with the Big players Sean Latip, Alfred and the other half of Fulala's gang.



Economcial people like myself go to this Family Karaoke Place call KBox.
Dont ask me who's that baldie, this picture was taken from yahoo image search
P.S: I miss hearing my smelly sing his out of tune songs. He and his few songs I can remember. He is one man whom I sang the most repeated SONGS with ever in my life.
like at least a few hundred times kind.

You know, K-box don't have remote controller anymore. Their controllers are like touch screen I-pads. User-unfriendly to me, or ok I am dumb, I don't really knows how to use it. Guess, I am too used to controllers.
The room was so freaking hell cold even when I was with a cardigan. I have the thought of snatching arvin's jacket for a moment but I suppose that make be kind of evil also. The whole room was like a freezer. I went out of the room and demanded for a glass of hot water and told the lady that the room was so freaking cold. She gave me a blanket instead.

Just when I was warmed up and in mood to sing, 2 hours is up and the last song was played/done. '.@ Seriously we should have just continued singing for another hour boy. Then I wouldn't have done the next step after KTV where I headed for Happy Hour Beer!

Had 4 mugs of Beer at the Alley, met up with Ian and av left to catch his other group of Friends for dinner. Left Alley at about 7 and went shopping around when the movie timeslots stood me up.

I wanted to get something for Dad. I walked into Ed Hardy. lolx. Dad will scream if I get him to wear that. I really like the top. Ok, not the front but the back of it. I decided to get it.

I gave it to arv as his Christmas pressie whatever cum birthday cum thankgiving whatever, I haven remembered giving him any gift for so long. What was the last thing I got for him? I cant even remember.

He is a really nice boy, good looking, caring, kind-hearted young chap but kind of blockhead er most of the time. Or maybe just because he is with me and always giving in to me all the time. Ya hor, one of these days, we go out again, you plan i say nothing, how about that? I should start praying for him too, God give him a really nice girl to fall in love with, feel the real stuff, brain freeze tian tian de. *sweetness*

Random* Alot of people told me this taiwanse drama * Xia yi zhan Tian huo by Vaness wu is very nice. But the more I watch the more I think Mike looks like Vaness wu. Errrr . .  . . and I realised I cant stand that drama anymore. Sorry Vaness.

This is mike.



Headed down to Esplande for a stroll when I abandon my meetup with Cy at Ritz carlton. Kind of lazy to continue drinking at Chuhuly bar. I walk down to place where my smelly used to film me on his HD cam. I think those undigested nor edited tapes were thrown dont where already. I guess in my lifetime I will never get to see that edited MV smelly shot for me.

And I saw this
Looks like Giant tennis balls floating on the water
There's just sooo many of them,
I smiled walking the place we used to walked 2 years plus ago.
He was still with M5 back then.
Time really flies
Looking at the same place,
but it is Qu'lia

The surrounding changes, people changes, MBS is there, lights shooting everywhere,
but the happiness of revisiting this place remains.

One day when you revisit this place.
Will you still smile when you think of me?

Who determines these happiness of memories?
I guess my daddy God is the one.

I went home after esplanade to fry the potato rostties.
Spend an hour slicing and stredding the potatoes,
ended up with my "Chao Ta" burned rostties

= Experiement Failed =


I have come out with 2 wishlist after today's outing with arv.

(1) I want a frying pan, just a normal one will do, I dont need any what Tefle whatever filifala brands. Mustafa also can.

(2) I want a handphone charm, I wanted to get it yesterday while I was waiting for arv, you know those capsules machines

I wanted to "turn" a hello kitty handphone charm,
but I dont have 3 dollars coins,
and I am afraid if I change my 50 bucks with the drinks stall auntie she will scold me.
* I am still timid in a way hahaa ~.~

You know who does the best in pleasing me with such toys I really loved so much?
Look at all my pokemon collections.
He has to be Terry.
He is really sensitive, observant, caring.
But too bad I dumped him 5 years ago due to my Big Ego.
I cannot stand infidelity at all, not even a single little bit, even a small white lie is considered cheating to me - back then.

I dont have a forgiving heart at all back then.
If you slap me on my left cheek, I will slap you on both cheeks in return plus a mega meaty double combo kick up-down.
Make sure you die flat on the ground not moving before I leave you alone.

If you have known me that long enough,
you will see the amount of changes I made,

A change of new heart.
Smelly, I am still questioning why must it be you?

I once told God this : God, I deserved a better man right? Show me. 
Then ur image flashed across.
My first reaction and the word I spoke to God was : You must be kidding me.
I said I deserve a better man, why must you give me trouble-maker?

I dont want him,
someone else?
better?

Then you again.
you again.
you again.
you again.

Enough.
I am not going to ask God this question anymore. 
































































Day 324

I was in my lala land when my cellphone rang early this morning,
my buddy called and woke me up - Very AD-HOCLY
K: Kaiqi wake up, I am driving to your place right now.
Me: Still blur, what you want?
K: Lets go swimming now! Go and brush your teeth, no need to shower, he knows I take super long shower.

I haven even agreed he hung up the line.
I woke up and brush my teeth,
he called again.
Im downstairs, come down now.
There I went swimming
I never like to swim in the day partly owning to the sun.
I dont want to get expose too much to the sun.
and I dont like to swim in cold water.

Swimming in the night is different,
warm water is so sweet at night.

Premature aging when you get expose to the UV
Me and my customised towel from BBG211


I have got really cool goggles

Professional swimming and water polo goggles.
Thou I am not a professional swimmer,
but who cares

I had been hearing complains for the whole day.
Complaining about his wife,
about his greatest mistakes about marrying his wife blah blah,
suck it in be a man,
you are the one who make that choice,
then live with it.

I understand he is living in agony facing someone he cannot stand a single bit anymore.
Well his wife who is my friend as well, I know she feels nothing better as well.
Sad to hear all these happening to all the people who are close to me.

You know when you get married to someone whom you cannot see a future in tolerating him/her for a lifetime,
dont go and waste other people's time and hurting both yourself and the other party.

Even the slightest convo can strike a war,
a minor remark can cause your irritant.
She is not the one,
not now,
and definately not in the future.

Somehow people always feel that things will change once they setter down.
Sorry that doesnt happen.
Even if everything is perfectly good now,
it doesn't mean it will be when 2 start to stay together as a family.
A couple must have the courage and love to walk through all the storms in life,
to encourage to love and to be accepting.

A marriage needs commitment of 2 parties.
Each like the left and right arms.
When either arm is injured, the other will feel the burden and pain too.

If you do not love him or her enough,
dont get married.
Love is the only substance that brings 2 hearts closer and eventually merges as one.

Love is the only thing that changes negative to postive,
create breakthroughs from problems.
bind brokenness together,
hold relationship tight.

The reason most marriages fails and bring the whole family into agony,
they misunderstood responsiblity and love in whole.

You can be responsible for a moment,
but
it is the love that causes your responsiblity to be consistant.

Take an example: I love my dog,
I am consistant.
I shower him,
walk him,
plays with him,
brings him to the vet,
cut his hair,
feed him,
cuddle him.

Not a very good example now,
my dog dont know how to scold me, nag at me etc. lolx

Anyway, you get what I mean right.
Think with your toes la and try harder if you still dont get it.

Monday, December 27, 2010

Day 322

Day 322

In my shop again today ^^
Camwhoring before I stepped out of the house
Last night I searched some old photos
This is the best quality I can get,
crawling with my pacifier along the bar-counter in my house
Till today I can still remembered the taste of my pacifier,
you know something,
our taste-buds has wonderful memory,
they will never forget taste and feel.
 Dad and boyish me at our Hong San Walk house
I grew older
Love to swim, even when I am not swimming I want my favourite swan float.
At that age, I am able to swim laps already.
Looking at my tanned skin tone, you know I swarm alot when I was young.
At the Bukit Timah House I used to stay,
horribly, my auntie looked so scary.
My sister saw this photo yesterday and commented my auntie looked like a revengeful chinese ghost.
I guess I am an attitude kid since young.
I have the totally *heck care* look
I am the kid who squarting down,
* Chou chou !, the ah-mah squart was there since young *
1989,
the heck care look again.
I am happier with my parents than other adults/uncle aunties in the family.
Frankly speaking I dont like them (uncles/aunties) at all when I was a kid.
I only like my 3rd uncle because he will bring me to the drains to catch fishes.

Changi Airport 1988
Mummy!
With my pacifier again and a curious looking kid.
I am stuck with my pacifier for many years, my only friend at that time.
You can see how popular Louis Vuitton bucket bag was even at 1988.

I was in a coversation with mummy last night when I start digging out our old photos.
Mum said, you are a different kid since young.
You are very bold and you are a kid who will not cry.

I was such a curious kid that I will always get lost when I was out with my parents when I was young. I will wander away in my own, look around and usually out of 10 times we were out,
9 times I will go lost.

Mum said she will always find me walking around at age 5 like nobody's business looking around and I am someone who isn't afraid of anything.
I guess we're boarding a plane
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I am such a funny kid.
That instant, I got lost again that year in Thailand 1988.
I remembered I got lost in the hotel, where I just sat at the hotel lobby sofa and waited for someone to pick me up.
I tried looking for my parents along the hotel corridoor but that was a vain search,
all the doors looked alike.
I haven learn to read numbers yet at that age.
I have fantastic memories.
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By the way,
I used to be from the Gifted kids programme.
I am just lazy in many many ways.
Dad dont like me to be in the Gifted programme which was why I was withdrawn.
Dad said: a kid should behave like a kid and have wonderful childhood.
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My memory has the capacity to recall memories of incidents far back and reads it like a book. I can recall the whole incident and react the scene with lines. Therefore don't try to test them. I can fully repeat what you've said many years ago without mistakes.
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Dont test my memories book.
But that didn't happen when it comes to studies.
I need to good teacher, being a visual and audi person.
I can remember movements and speech,
but not words.
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Selective memories too I guess.
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The Prayer counter

4618
Buy lottery.
What are these numbers?
They are my prayer counts. I does them almost everynight before I sleep.
Four Thousand Six hundred and eighteen times
praying for blessings for someone I hold so super closely to my heart.

Each blessing I will confess a thousand times.
I pray for his diligient in work. I confess a thousand times,

I pray for him to care more for the people around him confessing a thousand times,
I pray for his responsible character
and many many other things.

This is his individual counter with all my prayers count.
The more I prayed for him, the happier I get,
the joy from Jesus Christ my First Love and savior never fail to add joy into this heart of mine.

Each time I finishes a thousand times of confession,
My Jesus will say: Well done daughter, you've obey and walked my will.
The sermon on the mount wrote,
pray for your enemy,
pray for the one who once hurt you.
I did.

It was really difficult from the start when I have to pray for him.
But now, it has been a year.
I witness his changes,
God really answers my prayers when I does it according to his will.

If you haven pray for your selfish gains,
God will answer your prayers.

I told God,
Father, Let the man whom you placed in my heart to be a happy and responsible man.
I asked God how.
And he told me to intercede prayers for you smelly.

Because I prayed for you in a selfless way.
God is blessing me so much that I can't stop thanking him from.
Thank you Jesus,
I really love you so much Jesus.

*Genecia, now I truly understands how much you love Jesus

2011, Jesus I want to love you even more!