134 - TiaRa part ll

She can dance at 2am in the morning,

She roller blade, and she is only 3 yrs old.

She is polite and definately a refine young lady.

We are having our imaginary breakfast,

she is trying to make my hotcakes breakfast appear.

She is renovating her "so call" home
Isnt she so adorable.

133- TiaRa

I love TiaRa,

someone's daughter i forgot her name,

and i spent all night keeping her company together with noelle, Leonard's gf.

she is so adorable,

who say: no beer allow, Thank You.

She will start speaking japanese and some alien language.

I really love u TiaRa.

You are so adorable.

She will hold ur hand and keep u by her side,

cook pancake breakfast for you,

i had been her friend in the outer space world for the past 3 days = to 1 hr.

I really love her!!!

Here we Go... The Synergy Glam night

Du Bee, Dawn ( my cousin) and myself, sitting in a cozy corner enjoying our freeflow

at Arena Haahhaa

Left to right: Ah Seng the candid photographer, Linda, Dawn, myself, Joey ( Sambat manager) , Daddy Kong and Our New bride Mel!!!

She was at Arena in her wedding gown but changes later on.

Too bad didnt catch a shot of her in her gown

Whats wrong with me with those stupid looks

The Synergy Idol contestants

The winner is our Hokkien Queen Sherry from Louis Chan unit

Look at this!

Sexy dance of our secretary, top manager derrick and best of all TammY!! Our mother goose TAMMY

KENNETH " Wo men yong yuan zhi chi ni!!!
Our Big family of Terence Kong Associates

The candid shot by famous Seng,

Dubee and his weird tongue.

Seven and her weird eyes

Fenny and I

131

I do not long for a perfect relationship, but i am unsure of what will be the outcome of the current. I do not force nor pressure on the other party. We are all adults and no adults would want themselves to be reprimand like kids. Adults will understand what is right and wrong to do. I do not want to fall into that kind of predicament of ignoring anymore. I really do care alot but somehow when caring for someone becomes a pressure, it's definately hard to digest for the both parties. No one want to fail in their relationships so do i. All i want is him to do the right things without much naggings, in school or at work.

I am pretty worried for him, somehow the drive in him had long left since Eugene signed on the dotted line. That was when the last passion left a trail on him. All i want to see in him is simply being independent, considerate and a more caring him. I am not someone who need her bf to be around her 24/7, but the least more sense of "automatic-ness" when it comes to work and play.

He used to be a Yes person, an incident converted him into a No person. Months after being a No person he differentiated back to being a Yes person again. Even thou, he is more focus on relationship now and i hope that applies for the future as well. I really hope that he can be the last man in my life as i am so tired of falling in and out of relationship, its get even more tedious when all my relationships last for at least 2 years. I do not ask for much just a nice warm shoulders to rely on when i am tired, not a shoulder which gives me more stress when i m mentally and physically drained.

Hopefully he can be the one and for those promises made fulfilled.

130

I happened to read through his past blogs and realised how fickle Aquarius can be. Getting to know him for the past 2 years, I've seen parting and heart aching scenes of his but somehow he always recuperate ever faster than i could imagine. Probably i should classify his love-stories under the "puppy love" category. All his stories of care and concerns, words he said; i m unsure who will be the gullible one to believe, but indeed there are. Gullible ones who fall for that and he is the type who makes you fall and land not in his arms but on the concrete ground. He doesn't seems like, but I've seen his character inside out. He is indeed a great friend to be, but other than that *shake head* There's always ample excuses made i don't why. An Aquarius man can be a sneaky as a scorpio do you believe it. Always believe something which is " what it seems it not what it meant."

Other than the handful of nice men around, At, Wp,Eu, Zy, Gn and Kk whom i really look up to, othere than that.................

Another conclusion of: Why are men such disappointments?

Post 1.2.9

There are different criteria in viewing the attractiveness of oneself. Recently i sense an up-rising X-factor in successful people. Male or female. Ultimately looks is not that important anymore when it is put together with the unexplainable quality of the inner being of a person. I should rephrase it, looks isn't that important but appearance of well-being and confidence is certainly a plus point in the rating system in individual. I simply can't help it to get magnetised by successful individual around me. There's an unique sense in them i couldn't explain. Those uniqueness captivated me. You may shine when you have got a great appearance by nature, but i believe character and capability outshines everything. The only calibre in long-run of attractivenss is never the looks but what you are able to do.

Some of the people whom i really admire due to the capabilities in them and the drive which bring them far across to outshine the commoners. Sherry is on my top list. She is the lady! 2 years down the road, I want to see myself sitting next to her desk to start my marathon to success.

Synergy Glam night - Part 1

Here's some pictures taken from our 10th anniversary branch Glam night @ the Arena

New photos to be uploaded once i receive it.

Interesting pictures are worth the wait

Myself and soon to be aboard onto Terence Kong and Associates cousin Dawn

Poorly taken by some so call professionals?

Kel and his usual facial expressions.

Playing in the rain

I met up with my manager " Daddy Kong" yesterday for some self-actualisation goals fulfilling session. We had coffee at the nearby coffee kiosk with some other colleagues including on of the top manager. The story happens last week where they went out for a drink somewhere around tanjong pager. When they are about to leave the bar, it starts to drench cats and dogs. The first question is from daddy kong was, " When was the last time you guys played in the rain?" The spontaneous moves was, the group of guys went running into the heavy downpour in their office attire. The tallest among them all, "Derr" who is our top producing manager recalled how he played in the rain during his younger days, when ever lightning strikes, he will quickly squat down. The reason of being the tallest in the group, he felt that he will be the one who has got the highest chances of being strike by the lightning. The cost of playing in the heavy rain, their phone wasnt working and their leather shoes either died of left in the balcony to air for the following few days.

What follows on, they didnt head home. They are a group of happening and energetic group of managers. They headed to the yacht club and went sailing 5am in the morning. All of them dead tired, they took turns to captain the yacht and agreed to rotate their shift 15mins thereafter. But what happens when its daddy kong to captain the yacht, he dozed off and they will left captainless for the past 10 mins of sail.

P.a.r.a.n.o.i.d

I do not know what have gotten into me, why am i so paranoid when he is unreachable. I cant stand a tinny bit of uncertainty, that's me i suppose. Or it is just not the matter of being paranoid, but i just want to get hold of him and shake him off my life. I often ask myself is that what i want? To be simple i just cant trust. The BIG word is TRUST. Experiences re-enforce that men are jerks, they just cant be trusted. They will lie till the bottomline even when the lie is about to unwrap. They are like warriors guarding their fort of lies.

Unpleasant experiences are the main contributors to who i am now and how i view those rascals. Ample times i just wanted to shake him off and lead a happy lovely Seven's way of life without him. Somehow i do not know why is it so hard for him to let me go? i truely understands what K went through in the past. Those idiotic webs just keep sticking onto me.

He always ask me, what is the point of being together when i do not trust him. I simply replied well, i m fine to leave u. And he will go around hounding which the same old questions" Whats wrong with you? or What do u want now?" Those standard lines used.

Paranoid - i do not know whether should i use that word or there are underlying meanings behind it. I clearly knows that i keep hounding on and behaving to paranoid, is see somethings i want to see in order to draw my lines with him. The word TRUST is too tedious for me to handle.
Many months after that incident, we are 16 month old today. What i can comment on is, its not what he did to make up for the wrongs he did and gaining the trust. Ample times i told him that go ahead with your friends, i trust you, its all crap!! For those dearie who understand the latent motive is merely, i just dont want to care. Caring too much make my life too miserable.

To trash those unpleasant feelings apart, i have got people who helps to balance my emotional feelings, or else i'll land myself in IMH. Work and school is stressful, he is my stress itself. Uncle SS will be leaving soon, he is hopping onto Virgo. Pls bring him along with you.

When we were young

Some amazing photos i found in my old albums,

I guess some of you guys haven even seen such interesting handicraft in your lifetime.

This below handmade " Changi Airport control tower" was made by my dad 30 years ago.
Does it resemble the one we used to see?

My dad at the age of 18 and his master pieces of traditional arts

My Bruce Lee lookalike dad;

Make a comparison below :)

We used to roll around in our kampong at bukit timah.
I spent a quarter of my life living around bukit timah,
Look at the railway track on the background.
You're right.
Thats the current railway mall 20 years ago

Me and my family tradition.
When i was young that was my playground.
In those day, toys are luxury items which my family would never afford,
The masterpiece of artwork which earns us a living is my playmate.

Post number 124

I am pretty amused by the words Rac used, those descriptive terms are "spot on". Things said are true enough and most of us who had read it just nod our head and laugh about it. Well girls we are coming to an end of the semester and we shall just brush everything away and focus on our exams.

Last night, i received a call from a good buddy of mine name F who needs my help. He is walking his beloved grandpa off his last stage of life. F is an ophan who was being brought up by his grandparents. The last thing he could do for him is to have a decent funeral for his grandpa. Immediately i called my dad to discuss some monetary issue which may arise. F is not from a well to do family and i offer my help to him in whatever i can. Erm.... the opportunity cost is to forgo my 4.5k hokkaido trip. Well i guess to put fun with comparison with helping a friend who is in need. its worthwhile. As how i was taught by my dad, being from a well to do family is blessing from god, to repay that, always help those people who are in need within your means.

Bid goodbye to Hokkaido for the time being and i believe it will be more meaningful in helping a friend and a client like him.

To F: pls take care and look on the brighter side of life

Untitled

I am longing to be there Alone or accompanied by just a close friend who need relaxation therapy just like i do.

Little fair piggy to be my guest.

And........... stay tune for more actions whahaaa

No Vulgarities

Loving an imperfect person to love him perfectly;
But its really tough!

Cos he always drench me down using vulgarities; which makes me boil everytime.

Somehow the worst thing to stand is his vulgarities;
I get really pissed when he used them on me,

Those uncouth behaviour, that's something i really cant stand at all.

I dont understand why and what constitute to such kind of behaviour towards the person he so call "love"

It's complex and it not easy to comprehend.

Probably he feels that I'll be that kind to forget and forgive him just like his mum.

My parent dont even bare to scold me, and what gave you the authority to do that to me "HELLO"

You are be super caring and nice when you need me and turns into a devil when you dont.

Ai ya, its karma i guess; i see the mirror me in you years ago.

Probably thats the reason why i keep asking myslf to forgive and forget.

All of a sudden i find myself a SAINT; to tolerant all those nonsenses of yours.

I think i am.

Believe me, and i think you are someone sent down by the god to punish women who take man for granted in the past, and this is what god will say

: HAHA; serve you women right, thats you punishment, taste your own fruit;

And pls do not spit,

You labelled yourself so Chi-na,

I really dont mind if you present yourself the way you are when i first met you, i'll never destest or ask you to get lost, because that's who you are.

Which is in fact you are a total different person from whom i first met and who you are now; all you can tell me is that, you are who you are and you are not hiding * My foot*

I really cant stand that anymore and i do not wish to be that pathetic one living under your foot.

So sian, My foot your foot hk foot IDIOT.

Word for my ladies:

Who would want to be at my guest to Hokkaido this summer, to smell the calming lavender fields and lie under the bed of sunflowers?

That kuku kia i dont intend to inform about the exact timing and date.

It gets kind of irritating sometimes.

Love Seven

To OoXxoO: I know i m real silly, money cant buy love but it gives you a better bargaining chip. Everything is fake, that smile is fake the thanks..... i dont even know whether are they for real. Man are not trustworthy and trustworthy man are no longer avaliable. The only man i need and respect is my dad. The rest of my guy friends, they are great friends. But truely inside myslf, i just get too bored over man.

The personality of a cat

He has the personality of a cat,

What is the personality of a cat?

http://cats.about.com/cs/gamespuzzles/l/blwhatkind_one.htm

Try this link :)

Everything is vice versa,

He is like a total idiot who thinks that he is the most adorable man on earth which sucks at times.

Cat are the only animal who is classified as the " selfish"

They would be lovely if they want to have fun,

but give you a scratch on ur arms if they are not.

" Scenario 1:

When you're busy, and have got no time for it,

he will attitude"

"Scenario 2:

When its busy and has got no time for you, it'll blame you for not helping"

"Scenario 3:

It will be changed so adorably lovely when your are doing the things it want you to do and turn its claws at you when you are not"

How selfish can cats be?

I always hate cats

My work desk

How you wonder?

Do you still remember?

When was the last time u played and dance in the rain?

What was the last time happiness shone so brightly?

Where has the smile on your face gone to?

I still remember those days during my secondary school days,

not running away from the rain but playing and dancing in the rain.

We are so happy back then.

Thinking back?

We still can how we want to be, just think of a channel to relieve yourself like i always do.

Smile, we can be how we used to be inside us :)

Although we stay in the world of mercenary,

Where some deemed money is the most important variable on earth.

It is evident that money gave more options in life.

While working hard towards more choices in life,

Walk till the end of the road,

the ultimate motive,

We want to be happy

As what i said

I went over to HMV to search for the album Best of De'sree

Its an un-fruitful vain search.

I ended up getting the disc, nu JaZZ after dark.

I think i should be one of the few who still purchases CDs,

Rip all the songs to my lappy and my Disc is kept for memorable purpose i supposed.

I blue toothed the pics on my hp to the kodak machine and gotten it printed out into passport size. Its damn cool lor, i gotta pass one of that to my company Secretary from my organisational chart photo *giggles*

I managed to stuff one of my passport size pic, into the wallet of his (@,_@)

I learn to forget

I learn to forget,

Forget those unpleasant and things not within my means of control.

The reason is not that i cant be bothered ab it as i always said to people.

Its beyond what i can do.

The only way is to search for alternative psychological fulfil in work than to think about things not within my control.

Be indolent

Its a heart felt feeling of unwanted.

Anyway,

Its just a thought,

Wake up tomorrow,

This feeling will be gone.

I had a dream last night.

I was lying in the jacuzzi pool above marriot,

I think i really need to getaway alone.

I need to travel,

To throw all those unpleasant and negative feelings away.

To alot out there,

I know, they just want me when they need me.

Other than that I am just an extra to some.

The feeling of, being needed or wanted.

I dont want myself to fall into that category of his to be needed thats why I am by his side.

Other than that,

I am just a nobody.

Even when we talked about love,

What is there love to say?

I am losing all the feelings towards him,

I cant even tell if i stay by him because he needs me,

or i do love him alot?

Alot of question marks.

But when ever am with my bitches i tend to forget all these negative feelings inside me.

At this moment,

I really cant tell,

If i still love him that much?

Or we are just wasting our time away.

Its just an empty feeling with nothing at all.

I am just so handicap in this game called "Love"

Gimme a break!!

+ calling for my female buddies+

Trip to Okinawa this summer?

Buzz me.

Be my company

I will b making my booking of trip end of this mid april.

Pls do let me know.

Flying off mid May

For those who are unaware of my disappearing act this may?

I am on a pondering trip to Okinawa.

Its a fun filled Friday

Walking as the wave comes
Taken during my 2nd Quarter unit planning

My Footsteps

Footprint on the sand

He is super naughty BooBooo!!!

That naughty cat eating Ice-cream using

Look at his face and ice-cream on his nose

On my way to the unit planning

The Singapore flyer!

On the Cab,

Camera whoring again lolx
Waves washing away sand beneath me feet
I climbed up to the break water zone to catch a better view
That me enjoying the breeze and mesmerizing under the great sun

During project meeting

Monday In school for Marcom meeting

Its raining so heavily

In the evening

look at the Green Lit ted School compound

Looks so eerie

Tuesday

Advance marketing meeting

Jason and I playing with the web cam and web camming Stacy

Also raining very heavily

P.S I Love you people

I really love you guys.

Male and female angels around me.

People who helped me along here and there.

Thanks for all your help for projects, work and so many other things.

I sincerely want to make thank the newly added clientele list

Xian and fred.

Thanks for the trust in me and therefore allowing me to take care of the financial aspects in you.

Rena, Rac and Ping'er Thank you girls

My dear Stacy is ill,

god bless she recover fast.

Get well soon and i'll treat you girls for a great seafood feast ok!!

I am blessed with a great life, wonderful people and remarkable job which i love.

Not many people in life get hook onto the job that suits their character.

While i did which makes me feel blessed.

To stay true to who I am is what my job requires.

Granny's Birthday

TOday's my granny's Birthday,

we had a feast at her place,

I dont even know exactly how old she is probably 76? just a guess

but right now i m blogging, i still feel kinda hungry.

In fact the abalone tasted quite yulking from the broth of Buddha jumps over the wall.

Maybe cheapo one lar.

The bird's nest starter and the mango pudding is still the best.

My Dubee

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I am starting to miss my duling pok and his orh pak.

Baby i cant be by ur side tonight,

but ur always missed by me.

Sick and tired of that

I dont want to be the one who hanker you over what you should do and what you shouldnt

I just cant stand someone who doesnt even have the damn fucking pride, no matter how much you provoke him,

After awhile the old back style is back once more.

I cant stand someone who keep saying but does shit about what he should do.

I am just too tired even to care.

He just dont care, therefore why should I bother?

I dont see a point why should i stick on with a person who doesnt even care about what he needs to do, want to do and have to do.

I am going to stop all those spoon feedings and let you to live on ur own.

What is the point of having a big goal and does Shit abt it?

= to nothing!

Giraffe Night

Me and my new found friends.

I remembered their names.

Joanna, Dawn and Joanna sister lolx

Thanks girls i had a wonderful nightout!!

My lovely Buddy Stacy!!

I love her,

We walked side by side,

bought the same watch,

Fake arguments at time,

do funny actions

But STOP!!

Both of us are TAKEN!!

Gee...

And Stacy Bu, pls do send me those ugly jumping pictures,

I really wanna post onto my blog so MUCH!!!!

Tot, thats ugly but that True enjoyment and unforgetable for me!
PS: I love u

Lets work together

Lets work together for a better future,

By working hard as one,

save for a humble home which belongs to only us.

To be how we can be just like how we want to be.

With no grumbling of things which doesn't even concern us.

To lay back in the black sofa we picked,

sip some wine,

watching animal planet together,

seeing the world on our 50" HDTV.

Look out of our balcony,

its the dark blue pool below our feet.

To lie in our jacuzzi tub to ease away our stressful day.

To cuddle each other to sleep in our satin texture comforter,

dim lilted table lamp,

tranquilize smelling lavender oil burning incense.

Wake up the next day seeing each other by our side.

Living the life we want to live.

Living the life we cant afford to have now.

Let strike hard and build our enchanting dream together

Love qiqi

Quotes

The Pass Class Assignment

My group scored a pass in our project in advance marketing. Every single one the our group is disappointed with what we got for our project and started blaming on each and every one in the group for the inedequate of work done which eventually contribute to ONLY a pass in the assignment. We started to blame on one another; Jerline for not double checking what we did before the print out of the assignment ; Gary for not adding the tables in and forgot to add in the breakeven analysis ; WP for being so Ali loso which deducted points of scoring etc. Pls dont feel sad my dear group mates, everyone has their short-coming. Though there are points of deductions, there are always plus point in each of us. We just keep blaming on everyone other then ourselves. Its kind of Sad. I believe everyone has a strong point to compliment about. Lets work hard for the coming 4 assignment to balance out the ineequate of effort we gave for the previous 4. Jia You. Let get HD for the following assignments.

Pls: Weiping, we can do better and things will definately turn out for the better. Everyone in the group is freaked out for the lousy grade we got for the assignment. I know effort will be doubled for everyone in the group. Jia You and we will do it fine :)


love Seven

The disappointment

Ever got the feeling of being disappointed?

Especially when things changes on the negative side.

The change which reveals the true nature of the person whom u thought you could spend ur life with?

The fake initial up-front?

The gentleman side of someone which fade as time goes by?

Which i classify it as "Man"

I quit on "Man"

They are such a disappointment

I really wonder

I wonder and i really do,

when was the last time he even care to look into my blog?

To learn the inner me?

To not confuse incident which causes frustrations to be linked with another.

Not to vent anger anyway how.

Being pissed with one single incident linking into a series?

Everything is in oneself.

I cant even be bothered to be pissed or angry.

I cant be bothered.

I dont know why i get into a relationship with so much of problems?

Isn't the other half should be someone to share burden, encourage each other and give more faith as time goes by?

But why am I always hounded by negative feelings?

This journey is a learning stage.

I just feel lost in this relationship but i do not know why i still hold on?

Love and faith is losing bit by bit as days goes on.

And i know, he dont even know a bit about it.

He do not need to feel or say anything about this.

I am just not the right one for him.

Its time he should think about it and find someone who love whatever he does.

Not grumble, be a simple and obedient girlfriend he is longing for.

And that person is definetely not me.

I dont feel the pain or hurt, love still exist but look at a bigger picture.

Pain can always be heal as time goes by.

I do not want to look back as its time to move forward.