When we talk about love, as in loving someone wholeheartedly. The willingness of doing anything for the one you love so much. I learned to love and give without any expect to sow. I realised how unreasonable i was in the past, at that point of time i simply do not understand how to love. The flashbacks of how great i was treated in the past but i wasnt reciprocal. The efforts he made massaging my back without fail during my cramps cycle once a month which lasted for a full 6 years. How he gave in to me whenever i was so utterly unreasonable. How ridicules i was. Thats an irrevocable past i cant deny. Even so, i did not look back and i will never do. Past is always a past, once the feeling is gone, its gone forever. In the current relationship with hubbiee right now, i am just doing my rightful part. It is not to impress, but to give the rightful privilege what my lovely deserve. The warmness and blissfulness being love. I did all because i love him so much. More than i love myself. To release his migraines, i continued massging him despite of the pain i am suffering from my cramps. I didnt feel unjustify, the bottomline, i just want him to feel better. I just found out that, i am really putting him before myself. Loving him more than who ever can imagine. Simply make a comparison of the past self. I am doing everything i wasnt prepared to. I didnt imagine that, thats how much i love him. I would really want to be with him and spend the rest of my life with him. Probably thats the reason why i am giving all my love without any reserve. I made a promise to myself, " no way" i will to do anything to hurt my current relationship, he is someone i wanted so much . . . . I want him to be the last man in my life and i hope i will be the last of his.
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