The negative escape

I was busted once again.

It is another heart ranching incident I didn't expect to crash that soon.

It's difficult to express what kind of feelings I am facing right now,

I just weep no more.

The hurt is beyond what pain can define.

* A smile of disappointment*

The despair and disappointment feeling in relationships i guess.

It once again gave concrete evidences of how incorrigible men can be,

" How trustworthy " men are.

I do not want to even glimpse, peek or think at what might happen in the near future.

Indeed, the incident which cuts and bruised me badly just happened in merely less than 2 months ago.

What he claimed in less than 2 months ago is as useless as crumpled old newspapers on the streets.

Simply worthless.

Doubtlessly, he makes me lose faith in every single word he said.

I finally come to a conclusion that he do not mean what he said,

whatever he had said,

they are as light as goose feathers to him.

That simply shows how " committed " he is towards us.

How weightless I am to him.

* A crude smile of how pathetic this relationship is *

While I am doing what I can to manage the joy we have for the past months and to retain the laughter which belongs to just the 2 of us,

why are you the leak hole of a barely quarter filled water bucket?

Where's the responsibility and logic you claimed to have?

* Sigh,*

maybe

I am just that worthless in the heart of yours to induce yourself to create such jeopardising situation in our relationship.