Thanks to all my beloved friends and dearies who showered their concerns with their open arms for me for the past week.I am fine and moving on with life with a greater smile on my face.
I've understood the situation and I apprehend that my relationship with him have reached an optimal which we wouldn't be able to go beyond.
A warm hug to the darlings with such sweet concern and 3 times smses of joke for the day to cheer my restless soul up for the past few days.
I am sorry I made you guys worried.
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"许多的事情，总是在经历过后才懂得。一如感情，痛过了，才懂得如何保护自己；傻过了，才懂得如何适时的坚持与放弃，在得到与失去中我们慢慢的认识自己。学会放弃，生活就真的容易。 学会放弃，在落泪之前转身离去，留下简单的身影；学会放弃，将昨天埋在心底，留下最美好的回忆；学会放弃，让彼此都能有一个更轻松的开始，遍体鳞伤得的爱并不一定刻骨铭心。曾说过爱你的，只是，爱你，却不能和你在一起..."
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Below is a letter for him and I hope that it would be a wonderful ending for us:
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Dear L ,
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I hope that this letter will have a wonderful closure for the fairy-tale relationship we shared for the past 10 months. I opened up the folder of photos I had named 爱爱宝贝to review and rename the folders as "The ending Fairy-tale" . Although I cant help to miss those lovely moments we shared and how much we had distanced ever since we hit a stagnant since last month. I am sorry that I wasn't that sensitive enough to be aware of the feelings you had in our relationship towards the ending month. Sorry to make you suffer and struggle in silence when it comes to us. I didn't know that I exert that kind of pressure onto you back then. I really appreciate that you told me everything and enable me to close-up the fairy-tale story of us with a smile.
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Life goes on, and thank you for all the wonderful memories you left in me. I drew out the pictures of myself from the birthday album I gave last year. I kept the slots empty not to show that I hate you. I don't hate you at all. Those slots show imperfection of emptiness in the eyes of others. But both you and I know that, those are the moments we are so in-love, although they are empty now. Towards us, even the slots are empty, they will be always stay Perfect deep down in us. :)
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I will not forget the moment when you held my hand at cathay many months ago and I view you as someone special other than some " Male Bimbo " I used to classify you as. * :p * I will never forget how you used smuggle me into your house as your piano teacher *giggles*. How you introduce me to your mum when she found out about us. I always remember how we learnt piano together, how we practice singing together and how I shivers cold sweat when you sing on stage. *smiles* I will always remember the first time you call me your wifey when we are so much in love back then. You just carry me on cloud Nine back then.
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Deep down my heart I still laugh and reminisce on the crazy moments we had, wrestling on your bed, penguin walking, the DS " I pink u " pink pink pink you, watching just for a laugh together, watching Hooleeyaaa channel together and get excited on homosexual animals on Animal Planet. It seems simple but indeed we enjoyed ourselves very much in the process of loving.
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We do not ike to argue over trival stuffs and shared the same passion for music. We watch ample of black and white old films together, although *rolling eyes* I was pretty bored up with that, I tried my best to show my interest by respecting the passion you had for films.
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Writing this final part of the letter is difficult to not shed a few tear or two . We will have to go our separate ways though I am still very much in-love with you. No one is in the wrong when it comes to relationship and I believe you have did your best in us. I believe fate and music bring us together but destiny seperate us. I love you enough to end our relationship with a smile, to end your struggle in us, to remain as friends and stay visible in each other's life. I wish you all the best and fruitful sailing in your career. I believe one day you will be able to find the rightful girl whom you can love irregardless of how time can stale, who will love you and take care of you more than I do. I will be praying for you and please remember to take good care of yourself. Eat more as I do not want to see you getting slimmer and slimmer.
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We will meet again as confidant and good friend.
Best of Regards
KaiQi
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PS LY: Once again, I really thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing your life with me for the past 10 months and making me the lead princess in the love story of yours. I will still stay as bubbly as how you used to know :) - I know it will be difficult for me to go into relationships in future. You simply set the highest benchmark in my relationship, *Smiles* * A round of applause for yourself * and be proud of it :) Although we part, but I will be more than glad to do silly things with you again as friends. Chat about anything under the sun with you. Simply, you will make the most familiar and comfortable friend who will understand and share the same thoughts as I do. Cheers and toast to oncoming friendship my dear Scrawny Brown Zai. :P
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