Intensified

There is a hefty swirl inside me,

holding me up not to be tore apart.

The madness pain finally overwhelmed.

I was awaken by my massive cough and I told myself that is not the way when I throw out something unexpectable at the washing basin.

* Dont worry its not worms *

I keep telling myself what is mine will be,

and what is not will never be.

This sentence keep running through my mind and I thought I would feel better in a way.

Physically show its way.

It shoo me out of the way.

I hate my body, why does it always give such signals when I my heart start to tear?

I supposed I am so freaking hell weird,

weird Dee'javu dreams which happen over and over again.

Mind tricks,

Bruises start appearing,

physically tricks.

Dont tell me I am a werido psychic,

someone who can predict all the worst outcome but not the great ones.

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Nothing to complain about,

well thats my choice.

My promise made,

yes, I will still be waiting.

Everything and every promises made to him will remain unchanged.

I am definite,

It can be really a lifetime,

no one can replace the love I've given till its brim.

I have got nothing left to give it to anyone else anymore.