so sick

I am ill but my heart is weaker and more fragile than it seems.
I have got nothing to say,
nothing to comment about.
Just a single word after all the truth backdated from the day he decided to prepare black pepper crab breakfast for me.
Utterly disappointed
other than disappointment is there another word to replace something worst than disappointment?
*Those dont worry lar, cook for you* seems like words said just to pacify,
Initially your stomach turns sour,
the gust of body reaction which makes your heart contract.
You just couldn't control the tears,
and
thats the reason why I have got such puffy eyes tonight,
stop asking me why before I punch my scrawny fist out.
She is so tired, ill no longer mentally but with cough and slight flu and she really tired so hard,
so hard and so damn fucking hard to make things work.

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Stop killing those who really do loves you,

who really care,

.please.

I always tell you to cherish not only myself, but people around you.

I've seen too many,

and feel too many.

Likewise what I told you,

yes,

I love you too much,

I may forgive over and over again which is true.

I will not hold any regrets because I really do care so much.

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The reason being . . .

Please do not tell me I am sorry at my 'funeral wake'.