Day 267

Day 267

You are more than my clients, you are my valued friends,

I have started afresh in my new work arena in AIA today. I do apologise to you guys that I created some kind of "Hoohaaas" in switching my company. But my promise to you, you are my dear friends I cared, and I am utmost willing to do and continue to serve your remaining policy years even thou I am running my life goals in another company.

I am willing to go an extra mile to be at your service, for what you understand, I honor my responsibility as your financial planner and someone you trust. A friend is someone who does things for you because they care and at their own expenses. I wont be receiving any commissions nor bonus for serving, but I do honor who I am to you. I have an option to walk into an independent financial institute and sell my clientele to another servicing agent to get my compensation gains but I choose not to. This is integrity and when the IFA gave me that as an option, I shoot before even sparing a thought, I went: FOR WHAT? To me, it feels like selling off my relationship with my friends. I rejected immediately, in a polite way of course. Maybe my FOR WHAT shocked him off abit.

Why I choosed AIA? I can tell you frankly that they are not the only offer. What I looked into, is the support they are willing to provide me running on an individual and not a middle person agent. You can tell me that IFAs independent agents are good, because they can sell products of all insurance company, may it be AIA, Income, Manulife, HSBC, TM Asia . . . . . But what I really look into. I will turn out to be just a broker, who will only meet my clients to sell them products, when it comes to quality servicing of the needs, I am just a middleman for I do not belongs to any company. How effective is that? I am not a Salesman and I do not want to be one. 

I am polishing my axe once again in sales presentation with my own personalised style, running cold calling and roadshows once again. I am relearning everything again to work on the shortfall I have missed out in my 4 yrs of insurance business. I have to be top-notch in all areas not only just on referrals.What is my closing rate, what is my appointment successful rate . . . . . I just have to keep hitting on what I am fearful of. YES Cold-calling and handling rejection. Back to old school scripts, sales presentation and a power educating convincing close. I haven get that kind of vibe since long man, as most of my appt, I dont need to talk really much, for people who knows me trust me for who I am. They just sign. I dont even need to present. Good and Bad.      

Well,

The season is here for my change. Activities doesnt = to work but Result are.

Wish me all the best man! I am learning all the products AIA have and I find them pretty amazing in a certain ways. Their systems are really advance, I am really amazed with how they take care of their staffs in provision of support. 

By the way, my mobile line is out of reach due to the change of service provider. Hopefully by tomorrow, Singtel wil be able to restore everything back. Dont worry, I didnt change company and fled! Same numbers, no change . 9853xxxx ^^

Day 266

Day 266

Tummyache and I missed my training with AIA today. Took my medication and headed down to run errands instead. I walked into starhub and decided change my sleek phone into something else more efficient. I dont like Iphone and BB is really too common. I saw a new Sony camera phone but it exceeds my budget. I dont intend to spend any $$ to purchase a new phone in fact. and I saw this:

Selling at  $48 with contract with my plan.

Sticking to my principle of I am not going to spend any $$, I kept my budget and walked out of the store.

I walked into Singtel, and they have this as well.

I asked them if I could port my line over as there is no more contract,

and I got this new cell at $0.

Hot pink somemore! not this is purple!

What's more,

I have a $120 voucher to redeem

I told the man that I really have nothing to redeem,

can I keep the voucher and maybe someday I would like to redeem it.

Guess what,

he said, why not I refund it as CASH to you!

I went: Oh Really, you can do that?

Therefore I walked out of Singtel with my new HotPink Cellphone,

with $120 cash in my pocket.

I am $120 richer, and I kept my promise of not spending a single $ on a new cellphone.

Best of all this phone is SMALL!

God is Good and God is Always Good!

Today I prayed before I left house,

God I put you first in my life,

let your favour be with me.

A new phone and + $120 more.

10% of whatever I get goes into my tithe. 

Thank you father for being with me!

Thank you Father for you great gift with no additional cost,

+ a lower subscription + Cash for me! 

God, please let me put you first everyday,

that Jesus you will shine through me,

be your mouthpiece, be your hands and feet,

spread the good news of yours not by words but by how I behave glorifying our father in heaven at all times.

What a surprise today,

Kelvin Sng came down to my shop.

Mel came down to my shop as well.

Thank you guys ^^

Day 265

Day 265

If not for flyer entertainment, I won't go for the show at Max Pavilion yesterday. I have to admit the the show is boring.

Anyway, spent a wonderful night with my smelly bully. Cherishing every single moment I have with him. Only he has the rights to bully me lar, think about it ! Try bullying me if you are not my smelly, I will snap your head off and I am not kidding.

Baby, please take good care of urself ok,

knowing that you fell ill broke my heart.

Thinking that you haven cover-well during night,

or have you didn't wipe yourself dry after shower.

I can't be around to take care of you, make vitatmin C drink for you,

cook porridge for you and dote you like a baby.

Please get well soon ok baobao

Day 264

Day 264

We cannot escape trials and challenges in life, for the they will be the anchor of our strength in future to come.

Each day I when I am in my struggles I look into your promises. The covenant you have with me, the storms you have put in my life. For you want these challenges to turn into my strength. There is no escape route. The only way is the truth you gave to me. I have no mood to sit down in a  movie theater. Even I didn't I didn't enjoy the movie, I didn't receive the revelation you are trying to tell me through the movie, my mind was corrupted with worries. Deliver me from the worries as I seek strength from you. You are the one who taught me how to crawl, to walk with steady steps, to run and to fly. Even when I stumble, I know you are here with me to pick me up and restore to the purpose you have for my life. Leave my worries into your hands for your grace will be sufficient for me to overcome adversity in my life. 

I listen to you and obey what you want me to do. Because I trust in you for your faithfulness, your mercy and your promises which is never back to me empty. Let me rely more on you Jesus! Never leave me, for you are the strength in my life. You are the vine and I am the branches, You abide in me when I abide in you. Without you I can do nothing. I do not want to walk in circles anymore in my life. Lead me through with your grace and mercy.

Day 263

Day 263

我会在你的心里深处，牵着你的手，陪着你向前走，永不放弃是应为爱你。这不是因为我傻了脑，是一种说不出的奇妙感觉。什么是回报?回报就是你的快乐。这一生能够认识你，能够爱上你，真的是太美了! 真的真的谢谢你臭臭。你让我体会了什么是完美。这份100% 的完美，谁能比呢? 我对我的天父说，谢谢你父，够了，有这样的爱过，真的够了。我的生命和幸福有你来掌权，我不怕，我只要顺从你的意。因你的意比我高，你的智永远都在我之上。耶和华我主你是开始也是结束，我信靠的父。

God works all the best for his children who loves him. My Father in heaven told me NEVER to setter for the 2nd Best, I deserve the Best from the Lord I love and serve. Wait on him patiently, love is patient, love forgets wrong that light up hope for future. I was in my usual night quiet reading and God spoke, that it is his plan that causes us to face hurts and attitudes we don't want to face. But do not run away from that very thing that will bring strength to our lives.


I've walked through, that is my strength, and my strength really derive from LOVE and this love is from Christ who reigns in my life. I recalled the fatal night when God tells me to obey him, when I was crying so badly in pain.I obeyed but keep sulking and complaining God why. Why can't you give him to me when we both love each other. God why you always make me cry by doing things I don't want to do because it hurts. God, you are UNFAIR I said . Even though, I still commit to Father and obeyed what he does in my heart. I left because I love him. 


Immediately I commit into God's hand. I was led to a church at Newton. Korean service some more. I was crying in the house of God complaining to God about my pain. God spoke in the sermon the Pastor gave. When you give up something, a sacrifice out of love, God acknowledges it. He will give you comfort and his grace will be sufficient for you to overcome it. You can hope in God, Remember God's promise to you. What you Sow is what you Reap. Because you sow out of Love, therefore be patient and wait for God to multiply it back to you. He delights when you walk his will and sow in Love.  


Walking till this point, I start to see God's plan. What He impressed in my heart to do and that point of time is perfectly God's will. LOVE had been constantly bringing me on in life, multiplying in loving my man fully at this point of time without resentment. This is amazing and it is the kind of Love God wants me to experience. 


Last week Pastor Kong said: In times, God have to take you out in order to put you in again. When it is God himself who puts you in, no one is able to snatch it from God's hand without God's permission.


I found out, God takes me out of the situation because I obey his words, so he can put me in your heart and no one is able to snatch it from God's hand. As time pass, God will use it when it is time to anchor certain situations.


Father I leave my smelly in your hands, work the best off him in happiness, hope, faith and love. Happiness for a fulfilling inner joy, Hope to give light in times of darkness, Faith to proclaim and receive the power of success and the love of yours father. He will understand and know you one day, because God, you are love. You are not a religion. You are so real that even till now, I am awesomely amazed by you. I misunderstand you Father in the past when I do not know you. But now, because you let me experience you, I really cannot believe that how come you are so real in my life. Constantly wowing . . .  for the things you've created and done in my life. Thank you Father, thank you father . . .

Day 262

Day 262

Wondering what have I been up to lately?

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See the blank wood planks on my left?

TaDa !!!! NOW!

70% Done up for my relaunch.

This oink oink pink pig coloured slat wall is meant for accessories,

Our custom made accessories are not in yet,

but be sure, they will be one of the best of the exotic kind,

I will show you some later.

My sister and I were the mastermind of all these hands-on revamp.

The drills, the wall stickers all over.

We took 4 nights to have all these done after we end business for the day last week.

Waiting for the very very cute funitures to be in for the last 25% of finish up.

Cute right my furnitures

and

We have some accessories on rack for the moment before our slatwall accessories are here ^^

They are really nice but the webcam cant show its beauty.

Stones and mother of pearl,

peacock coloured stones are beautiful,

Average selling @ 9.90

my skeleton hand cannot wear these beauty.

The mother of pearl rings,

shark, fingers too skinny too. . . cant wear

At least I can fit into these,

earrings!

Day 261

Day 261

Super dead-beat tired. How are you my smelly. ^^ I am really dead-tired. Love you smelly, always and always. I miss you chou chou and will be always there for you baby! Good night I am going to blackout of the night already.

Day 260

Day 260

Allen Gege's 45th Birthday

Tanjong beach bar

My love Spiritual family

Jamshed is really funny, he probably just like to show off his chest hair!

Yeah, I am talking about you Jams!! xoxo!!

Me, Allen Gege, Jon Chan, Jams, Chris and Des.

Desmond is really cute: I find him so funny when he told me he wanted to go for a swim ^.6

So I told him: Eh desmond, I thought you can't swim! xoxo

Holly and Desmond can shake hands be friends.

Salar, camera man waiter ~~

How can I forget hunker Perry!

Really can't tell he is like 52 this year?

Happiness and joy had made all of us look really young!

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Day 259

Day 259

If you are wondering why am I still awake at this hour when everyone is sound asleep? I've just returned home after work. YES, 5am in the morning. Thank you Jesus for being with me. Thank you my dearest friend Holly for helping me out the fixing the re-launch of my shop. Thank you Sister and Halim for working with Sun Vale Avenue till this late hour.

Without the strength of God I can't possibly be done with what we intend to do today + bonus of fixing up the dressing room as well. All the DIY drilling and hammering, the cuts and wounds on my hands are definitely worth it. This re-launch is in its final stage.

Seriously, I start missing public transport after driving for many days. Home -- > Payar Lebar --> Town --> Office, it is so tiring to drive. Yew Lee metals had been seeing my face for many days. The ladies were like .. Eh Girl Powers are here again today, for my sister and I were the one dealing with their fixtures.

I will post the pictures of my brand new image of my shop up when it is ready. Ludy came to Singapore to visit our store, one of our cooperate partners in merchandise. She told us, when RIP CURL launches in the Asia market, their first store were in FAREAST PLAZA. She is really a wonderful nice lady who encourages us and gives us contact of our cargo ships and furnitures of make easy orders. She is an Ang Mo running the Asia Market. Glad to know her as one of our partners, and selling merchandise under one of their leading brand  XXX * Secret * you guys will know when everything is done up ^^

Dunlop street outlet will be launching on the 20th Sept with our merchandise @ Zirca as one of our cooperating partner.

Building up My proposal for cooperate events, weddings, parties etc. will be out to elevate this branding we have.

I really thank God for all the online orders, bulk wedding purchases that brought in Sales for my shop even we are like close for 2 days in a row for revamp. In a week to come, I am preparing for Christmas cooperate Gift packs in proposals. My job comes in place with marketing while sister will run the inventory. I guess in time to come, our office have to be set up to take care of the online orders. I thank God that we have a readily availiable office space in Toh Guan.

If you are thinking that Sun Vale Avenue is just a shop in Fareast Plaza, think twice, For my sister and myself do not dream small, we have God with us. God = Think Big and make it Happen!

Thank you father and Thank you Jesus for helping me. Let me rest well in your arms tonight. Amen

Day 258

Day 258

Today Father said this to me: Unconditional love is not based on performance or even whether is it returned. It does not contains jealousy nor resendment. It is a love that continue to give eventhou when rejected and hurt. It is different from conditional love. It is when someone offended you with things you do not deserve, you are still blessing the person with love, care and understanding. Always bless and never to think bad or speak bad. Bless with all your heart instead of cursing with your mouth and thinking in your mind.

I kneeled down and pray to God, please help me develop this faith in the love of Jesus. The Agape love, for God you are my rewarder. When I sow the love of Jesus, I will reap the love of yours God.

Graduation Leftovers

India Classamate

and

they shot a damn ugly picture of me with the back of Pastor Kong

He is really damn cool,

80 years old uncle Billy

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I am proud of myself

Thank you Jesus for making me proud of what I did through you lord !

Firstly

I cut myself real badly while fixing up my shop,

the pen knife just slip through my index leaving my whole index swollen,

It is painful even when I drive.

But this cut is definately worth it!

 But Thank God,

my shop is fixed up and we are re-launching it.

Wooo hoooo !!!!!!!

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Whenever I achieve a small breakthrough,

I thank Jesus for being my hands and feet,

my mind and heart.

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Spirit of Excellences

Sometimes I really feel that anyone who marries me will be so blessed.

I can

Cook pretty well now

Wash whatever

Fix toilet bowl

Wash car

Just learned how to drill

Fix the lights

Repair

Fix wardrobes

I am learning how to change my carwheel fr the boot when I have the chance

Do house chores

Wash a dog

withstand hardship

Knows how to

Swim

Cycle

Make you laugh 

(Who can be unhappy when they are with me, seriously!)

Play a piano and violin

learning guitar right now

make $$

grow $$

I am

Caring towards parents

Genuine

Real

Understanding

Kind

Spontaneous

Forgiving

Patience

Love God, Love people

not bad looking

Sensible

Considerate

wait wait . . . the BEST thing, I dont lie!

It is tiring to lie and I cant stand testing my memories to remember lies after lies.

For those readers who knows me long enough and well enough will know,
I used to be a perfect liar,
because, I will remember every single lie I've said,
which means it is really hard to find loopholes.
Every lies that comes out of my mouth in the past,
will tally what I've told in the previous lie even 2 years ago.
Scary right,
but nah. . . .  too tiring for my memory to remember all these junks anymore.

What men can do, I can do,

what men can't do I can do it too.

Sorry I am not trying to be sexist towards my male readers.

I am just wanting to do all the best in my life.

I am really happy today and satisify

But I know when it turns tomorrow,

I will always realise that I have not been doing enough yesterday.

This motivation spirit is the Spirit of Excellence.

Always better each day

Thank you God, after receiving your spirits of excellences,

I am never satisfy with where I am now,

I keep wanting to do more,

learn more,

and

achieve more

Care more,

Love more,

and

Do more

What I do today, determines my tomorrow,

and what I sow today, I will reap in time to come.

I sow faith each day, and I will reap the faith

but

If I sow a lie today, there will be a day I reap my enormous spun up lie with shame and contradiction

therefore,

we have a choice.

I've learned to always choose blessings rather than curses.

 That is why I choosed you SMELLY HUBHUB!

You will understand what I mean one day,

you will know it and know it.

How much you meant to me,

my dearest blessing God given to me.

Dont doubt it, that's you *chou chou*

You will know it someday when the season come and why do I say that.

Good night baby,

let us focus in our work,

not only a multi-millionaire

but

someone rich from the outside as well as rich from the inside.

God just threw me an enormous Goal through my sister,

Something from God is NEVER Small !.!.!

Self-regenerating business in 2 years time.

I am speaking in my heart, Woah . . .  Jesus! I am holding on tighter onto you to make it true.

I cannot work on my own strength anymore because it is really . . . .  too impossible to be done
But Jesus you will do it for me.

Never leave me Jesus, I am yours to use for you to fulfill what Daddy God wants me to do.

Day 257

Day 257

Father,

I don't feel that good, maybe that is what we call insecurity. Insecurity even he doesn't belongs to me in the first place? It just don't feel good at all . . . . what do you think? This shall be call bonker right? Nuts for sure. I am tired after leaving my shop at 12 am fixing everything with myself and sister. I forget about my dinner and it is way overtime to have it now. Time for shower and stop letting my imagination run wild. I've forgotten that I left something behind unclear and unclean of. Because that feeling of hurt kept of hounding me, scary horrified feelings. If I can remember how does it feels like and it keeps on lashing on me, I should have understand why and know what to do with it. I've did it not long ago and I'll do it again. The release of bitterness and cries, the undeserved and pain.   

I just left a part of my heart uncleaned of " I thought it was forgotten" bitterness, and that shouldn't be my stumbling block. That it.

Day 256

Day 256

Nothing can stop your dream! In all challenges that arise, my father said, it is only the beginning. Never stop believing and dont allow criticism to harm you. If criticism had any real power to harm, the skunk would be extinct by now.

No person, no circumstance, no setback, no carnal opinion should come hindering in your way. I was told never never to give up in what I want, and what I asked from God. Let it be my convanant with you God, that the promises you gave me. The SOT promises you gave and the career outlook vision you gave. Let me look at Jesus and continue walking. In times when I hit on  transgressions, or offenses, let it be you Jesus that carry it for me so I can continue my walk with God no man can touch as I go on with my dream.

Act not on words of the human but the words Revelations from God's words. Trust in him for he will multiply and take care of all his children who loves him. 

I remember in the bible when Jesus walks on water.

Peter sees him from far and thought that he had seen a ghost. But Jesus said to his disciples, It is me! Peter saw Jesus and shouted, It that you lord, tell me to come to you and I will. Jesus replied: Come Peter. Peter got out of the boat and start walking towards Jesus on the stormy sea. He kept looking at Jesus as he continued walking on water. 

BUT When Peter realised he is walking on waters, saw the waves coming, and the current, he got afraid and starts to drown. He shouted: Lord save me! Jesus walked towards Peter and hold him up. Jesus said: Why do you have such little faith? and help Peter back to the boat.  

In times when we ask Jesus to come into our lives, through the encounter and experience, we focus on Jesus. That was when we are like Peter walking on waters towards Jesus. Our Goal is fixed, we look at Jesus. But somehow as we continued our walk, storms of circumstances arise, fear comes in, doubt and questions bumped us right up. We focus on the wrong things. We start to look else where, may it be untrue critics, gossips or things which happen to distract our focus from Jesus. We stray our eyes off Jesus, we get angry, we doubt and that is when we start to drown, we shout to Jesus, Help me! Jesus will always come to your rescue each time you call for him. He is faithful even when we are unfaithful. He is faithful even when we have little faith. Because Jesus is God and my father God loves me. Jesus will re-create and restore me back to ways I've stray to be right back on track whenever I call out for his help. He calms my noisy heart, so I can hear his voice calling. I can clearly receive his instructions and move in the right direction once again, remembering there are 3 things, Hope, Faith and Love and of the greatest is Love. 1Cor13:4. When there is Love, it comes Hope and Faith. Hope in God to see his plan, Faith in God to receive what he has plan for you.  

Towards me Christianity not a religion anymore,  it is my intimate relationship with Jesus, my father and child relationship with God, my guidance and comfort with the holy spirits and my personal breakthroughs in life throught Christ who strengthens me. 

Today I pray, Jesus, continue to walk with me in my life, be my hands, be my feet. Carry my burdens, with you, I am not afraid. Let me bear the cross and walk with you. Be your disciple for it is you who lives in me.

In a calvinitics point of view, it is God who plans, He has solutions for all your problems even before you knew this problem exist. He is holding on blessings in your life for you to choose, blessings or curses. Sow blessings in tears, you reap multiplied blessings in joy, Sow curses, you reap painful curses and learn your lessons in tears. Father for today I sow my love, my blessings, the greatness you are putting into my smelly. I know lord, he is my blessings for you are the one who constantly reminds me. I trust in you God, for you and the beginning and the end, the alpha and the omega. You will work out the best things for me.

There are things you cannot do God, You cannot lie and You cannot be unfaithful. You always keep your promise. Let your kingdom come and your will be done. Thank you father. Remember the SOT promise you shown me. Dont forget ok!

Day 255

Day 255

I am angry,

I realised I have anger,

I will get angry,

I will get jealous,

I will fume up,

I will feel pumped up and feel sour.

I do not know why I should.

Frankly I just do not feel good about it.
I am really uneasy and mad about it

I think I am
Nuts and really nuts

NUTS!!
NUTS!!!!
NUTS!!!!!!!!
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Siao ~.~

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I realised I owe Pastor something,
I better get it done right now.

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You told me about the son of Jacob, who is Joseph,
the attitude to love.
The attitude to give.
Father I choose to give.
I choose life over death.
I choose blessings over curses.

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Father as I pray,
your kingdom come and your will be done,
on earth as in heaven.
Give me my daily bread and guard me from temptation.
I ask for a peaceful night of rest, for myself and for my hubhub.
Guard us as you walk with us faithfully
Protect us as you monitor our progress.
Love us for you never fail to do that.
Be with us as you are with Moses.
I will never let you go Jesus,
you are my strength and my perservarance.
Thank you Jesus,
I know it is you, carrying me all the time when I put my all burdens into you hands.
 My finances, my career, my family, my love and my life.
I belongs to you Jesus
Thank you for you love.

Day 254

Day 254

When God ask you, do you want the best and finest things in your life and live in joy? You replied YES!.!.! The next thing to come, prepare for war with the Giants. You will never emerge a victor if you don't even dare to pick up your sword and put on your armour of Faith to receive. Pick up your sword and God will fight for you. This is my walk of Faith, my walk with God, I believe, I speak and I receive.

I am really flattered today, I heard someone saying : The girl in that shop is really cute lets go and see what they have. When I converse with them and they asked for my age, they freaked out, knowing I am 8 years older than them.

Cute young ladies, sold them some tube dresses :)

And one thing, I realised I do have the tendency to attract lesbian crowds and their partners. Nothing bad, they are just really cool people and you can get really frank with them.

I was tracking my statistics readership views for the month of September

535 - Singapore

135 - United States

83 - Canada

10 - China, HK, India

12 - Germany, Israel, France

Now I know why I received comments of don't know what kind of languages, looks Spanish to me. But sorry I don't understand a single word you've wrote.

Today, someone asked me what is the meaning of ad-hoc, I should just show this to him: www.dictionary.com and I really do not like any traditional MCP thinking "man" to tell me that girls shouldn't roller blade at night.

Anyway, it is only MONDAY and I am feeling so excited to fix up my shop tomorrow morning! REVAMP ! REVAMP ! REVAMP ! It is only MONDAY and I am so excited to fix up my room.

Steps to follow to clear up room

1) Clear all the book on my Piano
2) Clear all the Gifts by hubhubie
3) Put all into the cartons
4) Get the movers and make go my piano to Siglap terrace
5) My piano has found its new owner
6) Shift my wardrobes
7) A specially made wall shelf for the beautiful items by my so precious smelly
8) Drill my newbook shelves (My new bedroom library of book finally has its beginning, friends who borrowed those motivational book, devotional books, prayer books . . . . time to come back to mama)
9) Transparent shoe rack
10) New SS bed
11) New dressing table
12) A sofa bed for my guests to sit on, (Sorry lar, I am weird because everytime my friends who visits my room I made them sit on the floor, my own bed is forever out of bound)
13) Wine rack
14) New wall stickers


You girls will love my new room ^ Wink winkk ^ You girls are going to love my room, my new sofa bed will make room for any girlie stayovers.

I am really certain that it will be wow-ing ^^ Eeekkk I am excited to even imagine it. I am doing it up to have a studio like feeling, so when I camwhore, it just seems like a studio

We can do facial together, face mask, eat strawberries, bitch, camwhore, (I have crazy nuts of bunnies ears, cute headbands, anyway I just have nonsense for camwhoring purpose) 

My concept of colours and ideas

That is why my piano has to make shift

Well, I will have something more than this, warmer, more lightings,

more colours and beautiful custom made wall stickers.

My room is not as big as the picture,

but at least it managed to place 2 wardrobes, a dressing table, a writing desk, a piano and a single bed in.

No Queen size bed for me, No space therefore I can only have a super single.

Those sleepover nua- queens and princesses, you can have the sofa bed ^^

I can't wait to see my new room.

This makes me feel super uneasy now when I see my un-revamped ROOM!!

My Baby ulu smelling nice smelly --> hahaaa ~~ That's long name I cooked out, you must come and see it one day when I am done up with a nice nice room ok ^.^

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Day 253

Day 253

By craigmod photography

This is really beautiful

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I went for my primary school gathering today,

mummies and kids.

Some turned into plump aunties and some hot mummies.

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Seriously, I will never make myself a hag,

10 years, 20 years, 30 years or even 40 years down the road.

I am determined to be a super hot even at the age of 50.

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I think my Xiao yee Carin is really hot even at the age of 39

If you are still freaking hot at the age of 39,

you will be sizzling hot at the age of 49, 59, 69 . . . .

because you will rather die seeing yourself as a hag

This is just a mentally of your self excellence,

When you have the spirits of excellence,

you want the best in all areas.

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I want be a hot mummy one day,

maybe that day will really come,

one day . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Being hot is easy, it is controllable variables,

you just need to work yourself up to be at a top notch form.

But being a mummy for me seems impossible.

For the impossibles,

leave it to God.

For the possible,

let me live the spirit of excellence.

Just continue to make me feels like dying if I didn't uphold this spirit of excellence.

This helps,

therefore this spirit will continue work on my determination and glory over glory of breakthroughs

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How wonderful God is for me to feel like murdering myself,

feel damn sorry for myself and feels really want to strangle myself when I didn't do those things I intend to do.

Thank you father,

Thank you my greatest helper holy spirit,

Thank you my greatest love Jesus Christ.

I love you trinity

Father,Son,Spirit

Thank you for guiding me to achieve the spirit of excellence in life

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Good night

I love you Naughty :)

Day 252

Day 252

It feels like . . . .

It feels like yesterday thou it had been a good 3 years.

It feels like during those days where my heart flutters when I see you.

It feels like those days when I misses you so much and can't wait to see you.

It feels like the 1st few weeks when we started dating,

It feels like I've just met you . . . .

It feels like the way I just fell in-love with you 3 years ago.

I just fell so deeply in-love with you all over again.

How did you do it?

Baby you are so amazing.

It just drives me crazy for missing you, where you were just in my arms 24 hrs ago.

Wow . . . .

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Had a really long day today,

an early day tomorrow to help out my dad in his factory workplace,

business is really brisk,

and back to shop tomorrow night to do new layout.

* * * * * * * * * *

Rest well for the night,

I will have to really try hard to shake you off my mind naughty to get my rest for the day.

What did you fed me with, you are crazily addictive.

*Piak*

* * * * * * * * * * *

Back to reality and stop day-dreaming about you smelly

 

Day 251

Day 251

Yet another day had passed. I am here wording my thoughts in this private corner that belongs to me. I can never stop thanking God for giving you as a blessing in my life. From the day I met you and thereafter falling in love with you with conditions which eventually grew into a mature level of loving you without any conditions. I thank God for all the things he prepared in my life, I thank God for breaking me through you my love. That was when I invited Jesus Christ into my life and it was him who taught me how to forgive. God forgives my debts through Jesus who carried the cross and died for me. For all the wrongs I've did. The love of Jesus in my life has been overflowing, to conclude that is it the humanity form of *this skinny Chou chou* now who loves you baby, or is it Jesus loving you through me? I can't possibly answer that question.

I am not that generous, I am not that forgiving, and I can't possibly be doing all the things for the best of you that hurts and kills me. I am an extremist and I arn't that forgiving. Because I am 100% human being. Someone who knows how to hate and knows how to plot and kill.

It is really unexplainable why and how do I nuture all those pain, still loving you so selflessly. That is not me at all. How can a normal human being abandon all those hurts, be that generous to do what is best for you even after all the shocking bombs you've created in my life.

It is Jesus, his love towards you baby. As I accepted Christ into my life, he works within me. I can never have the heart of Jesus unless he lives in me. I can never love you anymore if not for Jesus who loves you. When I looked into the plan of God, I cannot believe the truth of how wonderful this God is working in my life and in yours darling.

God made us met, make us share our lives together. God uses you to break me up into pieces so he can pick me up to restore me to his purpose, to encounter him personally, intensify me up, mould me again and create a new me through Jesus my redeemer. Now I am experiencing the overflowing love of Jesus in my life, so I can touch you with this love of Jesus, to be always giving and never to demand, to love you like how Jesus will, the selfless love. That was when, you experience the unexplainable love you have for me. Why me? Why? I am nobody. Not a princess nor a queen. You do not have an answer, neither do I. God is the one who grows the love in us. This love is from God, no principalities, nor angels, nor human, nor devil can take it away.

The day will come when the love of God swept into your heart, you will experience what I experience, encounter what I encounter directly with God through Blood of Christ who mend the broken relationship between me and God. In times when I messaged you that God loves you, and I love you too. It is really true that God really loves you very much. If an imperfect human like me can make you feel so loved by me, what more do you think God can do for you. How much more will you experience from Jesus himself personally?

Like what Pastor Kong posted on Twitter :

God is better than AnyPost, FedEx and UPS combined, because He DELIVERS ON TIME, ALL THE TIME ... :)

We serve the same Boss who is Jesus Christ, I give thanks to all the great spiritual fathers in my life who grew me closer and closer to Jesus. All the pastors who touched my life so greatly, Peter Wagner, AR Bernard, Ps Phill, Cho, Kong, Bob, Ming, JPrince. The man of God who laid hands on me, Pak Roy, the president of Lippo Group. He is the man who leads me into convergence of the spirit of Excellence. In the eyes of God the apostles are the mouthpiece of God, and we are all body of Christ, Jesus's hands and feet.

May it be the Charismatics churches City harvest, New Creation, FCBC, or the Methodist, Evangelical, Presbyterian, Catholics. We serve the same purpose in our lives. To be fruitful servers of Christ, fulfill what in placed in our lives. The day I see Jesus, he will say: Well done my friend, you have delivered all the promises God placed in you.

For all Christians, a well-done in God is worthwhile in our life pursue towards excellence.

Always blessing you with all the love I can give for you lovely, for I really care, I want to give the best things I can ever give to you in my life. Such a wonderful fine man I see in you, you are really lovely in all ways. Knowing you and loving you is the best gift ever God has put in me. Others might not see it. But I do. God does, Jesus does as well. Because we have great faith in you, and we truly see what you are made of.



Thank you Jesus,  I can never express in words or speech how grateful I am towards you and how much I thank you.

Day 250

Day 250

Someone requested this to be put up

I did a hasty one

The big eyed lashed eyes

Who will wear this irritating lashes out,

especially the lower lashes,

so itch

Plucked everything out

^^

Have a wonderful great Thursday

*Chuckles*

Love you smelly booh . . .

and
I love God and I love his creation!
The World is just AWESOME!
I love this crazy AWESOME WORLD!