Day 308

Day 308

I can assure you that the post today is something you have not see it before.

My part time job today,

What's all these on the floor man?

Take a closer look, they are all mini-buns 

Its some chinese customary funeral anniversary thing,

which looks really cute to me in fact. 

Family in prayers,

I like the colours they wore,

all in bright colours,

I am not too bad as well,

I am in Purple track-suit Ed Hardy 

When I first saw the monk,

the first thing that came into my mind in his dressing was

Journey to the West

" Monkey God and his teacher"

Tang Seng Zang . .

Handmade paper houses

if you think this is cool,

they are supposed to be burned in awhile

meant to be for the so-called another world.

Nah . . buy 4D 3009

You got to burn it so the deceased can receive them. 

If you think this is really cool,

let me show you my next job venue

Handmade paper house of 6X bigger! 

 The first one was only villa,
This is Palace

If you think this look magnificient,

I've seen those which are like 3X bigger than what it is shown in the picture.

of the price also many many times more than that.

.

 and after that,
we burn it too . . .

 Super huge fire!

Yah, It is so environmental not friendly!

Lastly . . .

Look at this paper Bentley

Life size.

I really think that my dad is a genius!

He made all these himself !

When I made my own paper infinity pool,

my mum thought that was like badminton court

Sigh **

To me, this is call dying ART!

Just a shoutout

So tired after a long day of work. I am turning in for the upcoming week of Woohooo! Let's meet Vanness Wu next week. Packed filled to the brim.

Let Go and Let God is the thing I keep hearing today.  

Still my favourite

No doubt,

he is still my favourite,

look at his adorable expressions

Were you like him when you were young smelly?

The young little smelly photos I used to see all come with super many patterns deh.

Day 307

Day 307

No Goh Swee Ming = No Go swimming. It's raining ! and I do not have the habit of swimming in the rain thou I find this really romantic to swim in the rain, play in the rain and dance in the rain thingy. But there is no fun to do it alone. Never done it with smelly before, he is always very weak. I am afraid he will fall sick after playing in the rain. ^.^ Then I will kanna everything from his mum for making her beloved son fall ill if that really happens.

I was talking to Alexis during lunchbreak and she was talking to me so muchhhhhh about his 11 month old baby boy Lucus. She was showing me how adorable Lucus is. Lucus looks exactly like daddy, totally a junior replica. From the way how Alexis describes and I when I see her husband Desmond, you can feel the blissfulness of her lovely family.

Alexis told me how much she loves her husband and when she sees the little Lucus who looks totally like Desmond. She is in so much of joy and love. During those days when she wasn't pregnant and was browsing through the baby/kids photos of her husband. She was telling me how much she love her husband. Alexis is 10 years my senior and I really can feel the kind of love she has for her husband.

When she told me about her little boy whom she is so proud of, I can see the joy she has just talking about Lucus. I feel so happy sharing her joy. She said, to love my own boy who looks exactly like my husband whom I love equally much. God is truly so merciful towards me. Sometimes you can see those joy sparkling out from these people I've met.

Daddy God, I want it too. I want to feel life living in me, with me, kick me and move inside me. I want to feel this intensive amount of love born out of me. I want babies with the one I love. It will be so joyful when 2 is perfectly so much in love and have a product of love which looks exactly like the both of them. *Heart Melts*

Truly, just imaginating a baby who looks exactly like the man I love, joy has already filled me to its brim. So happy and so beautiful. @.@ both of my eyes were blinking to brightly and smiling so much already.

All things work for the good for those who loves God, called according to his purpose.

So impossible to have this happening in my life. Out of 10 people/10 said I am nuts. God, you know I am not nuts, I am just waiting on you my faithful father. My faith is with you. 

It is impossible for this to happen to me dad . . . .

But I believe one day, God, you will make my miracle. All things are possible with God.

Day 306

Day 306

I finally catch the final Episode of Fighting Spiders2 in xinmsn-catchup

My console,

even though I didn't get to catch smelly at all this week,

I can catch him on xinmsn.

This week seems unbearably long for me I don't know why.

I catched some screen-shots by the way

I like this

Only the pure heart will see 

and you will remember me

Hahhahaaaaa ~~~

My heart is pure as Gold,

which is why I see,

in an amazing way many can't,

maybe for you have a mixed alloy unhappy heart which is hardened up.
I don't know

But I am so sure mine is :

Pure Gold
which is soft, valuable and everlasting.

Well seriously, I miss him alot

Not going to blog much today,

Goh Swee Ming; my new name for Go Swimming
I find this quite funny

I am going for a swim,

It's 9pm

Pink

The official shoots will be done on Sunday

I am the make-up artiste, the choreographer . . . .

Let us see how the shoots will turn out the be

I trust my girlie photographer, and I trust my own taste and arts sense.

These are self-potraits I cam-whore

^^

Love me!

Love me,

my name is Seven

A Singaporean with Big Dreams.

My greatest Goal in Life is to be a Giver.

I picture

One day,

when I am walking in the a medical centre for my check-up routine,

sees a weeping person for he/she cannot afford the medical treament bills.

I can reach out my hands and give.

Say: Go for your treatments, I will pay your bills.

Day 305

Dear Father, thank you for my smelly, through him; I found you. Jesus, please be with him Everywhere he goes, protect him and guide him to the truth. Let him receive the blessings you have put upon him and not let the devil cheat these blessings away. Let him have the boldness and courage to be a conquorer and emerge victoriously. Be with him always for you are the only who is Able to do it.  I trust in you lord. Grow the seed in him and let him receive freedom. Thank you Father, you heard my prayers, thank you for Protecting my dear friends Cindy and Michael, thank you for protecting the little life in her, may the blood of yours Jesus cover the baby well and protect this miracle little life from all harm. Let baby Michael junior be a well. healthy and beautiful boy full of wisdom and hope. Lastly, let your favour be with my smelly hubhub and your spirit of strength be always with him that he will not give up his dreams As an actor. You believe in HIM just as I do. Let me continue to stay by him in spirits with the selfless love you have Showed me how through Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior. With gratefulness and thanks AMEN. Exalt you high above all else, HALLELUJAH!

Today

What an "old" boring Bible

Let me start this post today with these questions.

1. What If the human soul and the Word of God are made for each other?

. . . . .  and if it is so, link to my 2nd question,

2. Why some find that the Bible is a dull and uninteresting book?

and

3. But some find the Bible to be the most fascinating, engrossing and substaining book in the world?

My boss, as in my business boss once told me this during our work meeting. He said that, the best management book in the world , you know is a bible Seven?

If you're thinking who is my boss, he is the Ah-Beng Terence Kong Director of mine.

I replied to my boss, yeh . . I agree for most of my sales pitch for closing actually comes from the bible. Most of the time 98% Closing rate. 2% still closed but they took awhile longer digesting my words.

By the way 90% of my clients are not Christian ok. I don't go around telling my clients hey dude, JESUS LOVES YOU man, eh buy insurance! I am a believer AND a logically one.

Just rephrase what you've learn from the bible and make it into logical sales principles lar. * Stupid * A few of the analogies I uses. ** Copyright one ok! You go and read up yourself dont copy my sales principles.

1) The Sowing and reaping theory
2) Investment in Life theory
3) You are the Golden Goose
4) The mustard seed theory

All ORIGINALS ok. I don't know how to present them now, I only flow each time I see my prospects and clients.

Back to my topic

Prior to this, I found that the Bible is one of the oldest and most boring books I had ever read or came across. When I first started reading it during Bible College, I was so new is Christ, like 11 months ago, I don't know God and I don't know Jesus. I just know I was touched and I cried when I felt this warmness in my heart when it was broken and hopeless.

I had a mind full of question marks when I read the first few books from Genesis, Why must the 2 daughters make their dad drunk and intimate with their own dad? Major Incest in the bible? And have kids they dont even know should call their dad, Daddy or Grandpa? So many huhhhhhh? and so many why?

I really don't understand.

Why do people in the past have to catch the Angels and bring prostitutes to them? What's wrong with these people in the bible?

I really don't understand.

After the first few days of prayers and worships in bible college, Plus the baptism in water as well as in spirits. I saw my first light and my eyes opened to another realm of things I have not seen.

The Bible doesn't change following our conversion of course. It is still the same bible I am reading but we are the ones who are transformed. You know, there is this amazing God who works in amazing ways.

Usually one has to read a book in order to know and be acquainted with the author. But a Bible is the other way round. We have to first get to know the Author before reading his book.

Otherwise it will sounds like another William Shakespeare to you. You will never understand it. The author of the Bible is God himself, using 40 writers across the world, from the black whites yellow and brown. 6000 years with  39 Books of Old Testaments, 27 Books of New Testament, across all continents.

You have to know that Paul doesn't know Job when he wrote the bible. Paul wrote the new testament of the bible in the Prison lor. 66 books of the bible found in all different parts of the world, the writers didn't know each others, there should be no continuity between them, but all books reveal secrets inter-related to each other. How is it possible when 66 books with no relation gels up so well with each other?

There must be a director behind the scene who directs all these!

Heard of the Scrolls of the Dead Seas, they are the books of the bible babes!

Go and read this lar ---> http://www.sevenbrielleyhubhub.blogpsot.com/ a website I accidentally clicked when I just begin to believe a little bit in Jesus.

By the way this site is abit - OVER la okie. Just hear alittle bit here and there lar ok.

The best thing is you go discover yourself lar, own experience is better than any other research!

How does Isaiah knows about the coming of Jesus? Isaiah died don't know how many centuries ago then Baby Jesus was Born. The whole bible is like a mega Jigsaw puzzle ever. You can never finish reading it. If you have already know the Author personally The word I used is PERSONALLY. I know him personally, Then he will let the bible read you.

Why can't you finish reading a bible?

The reason why you can't because each time you read the same passage/verse/book again, new things arise, they gives different meaning, different Revelation's according to the situations you are facing. You are always reading something new from the same book.

In human term, I have literally finish reading the bible 2 times, but everytime I flip it and read again, wow... Its new to me all over again. TOTALLY.

The story of a little Girl

There is a story of a young little girl who counldn't get the jigsaw puzzle of a map of the world to fit together and was almost in despair until she looked on the other side of the pieces and found they formed a text she knew very well.

It says: John 3:16

When she put the text together, then the world on the other side came out right. Give Christ and his Words the right place in your life and your soul will come out right; it will function in the way it was designed. For Christ and the soul fit together as a hand fits into a glove, as the eye was made for light and as the truth a clear conscience are affinities.

My dearest readers; sometimes when things turned out so wrong in your jigsaw, flip it, it is so close to you. But you've never realised it. Some things may seems so right, but it is the fact of your self-destruction. Don't let lies and deception rob the blessings off your life.

Close your eyes and put your right hand on your heart. Ask yourself,  Are you happy? Can you choose to be happy? Tell yourself, Yes you can ! You Surely CAN! Are you sick in your soul?  It takes courage to receive liberity. Total Freedom of the soul.

I'll teach you how:

Put your hands together and form a cup and say this:

I want to receive Freedom, away from bondages, I can be Happy and I want to be truly Happy. Free my heart off sorrows and pain. Let me receive Freedom of joy from the spirit of liberity who is in Jesus Christ. God, you said, where ever your spirit is, there is Freedom. Let me receive this freedom.

 In exchange for this freedom, please disperse away my sorrows and bitterness in my hands. *Open up your palms and release away your sorrows and pain to him.

I exchange them for your spirit of Freedom. As I put them into your hands Jesus, give me courage and strength to walk I ask. Thank you Jesus.

We can shine and bring Glory you can ever imagine!

* Stay Pretty, Handsome and Cute Always

* Those need to lose weight de, Go and shed some weight

* Those need to put on weight de, Go and eat more Mac spicy.

** I will never allow my blessings to be cheated off ! They are MINE ! , Do you allow yours to be cheated off ? **

Day 304

Day 304

Opportunity in disguise

Does opportunities shoutout to you? Hey there, HEyeeyyyy I am your opportunity! Does this happen? The answer is NO. The Biggest Opportunities are usually the greateast problem in your life. They are always problems in disguise.

The anatomy of Opportunities

1. You need a momentum

You have to be always be on the move people. Something has to happen in your life. You need to keep moving so that will make you in position when the opportunity come.

2. Searching

We have to look for them. Apostle Paul went searching for the disciples of Jesus Christ. He went door to door. Look at KFC, Colonel Sanders he went 95 banks before any banks approved him of any loan. They search.

Walt Disney 3 times bankrupt. Nobody believe in him, not even his own brother believe that he is going to build his kingdom on a stupid mouse

3. Take advantage of his opportunity

When the sun is shining reach for your harvest. A door is of no value unless you go through it ! Did you open the door.

4. Recognising all big things start with small things.

You can find the biggest tree in the world, they begin in a seed in the palm of your hand. When you look into a seed, do you have the sight to see the greatest tree in them? 

5. The harder you work the luckier you are.

When Jesus callout for his followers, they are all working, Peter was Fishing for a living out the sea when Jesus asked him to follow him. When God Calls out for Moses the prince of Egypt he is busy looking after sheeps. When God calls for King David he is busy shepherding. When Jesus call out to Paul, he was busy killing Christians and running down churches. They are all busy, sometimes even when you are doing things for the wrong reason, God knows it too.

Paul turns out the be the builder and founder of Gospel in most parts of Europe. Apostle Paul. You can see his church in Rome.

6. You have to be self sufficient

You have to be self-sufficient, you cannot be a Gold-medalist if you do not train it yourself. You can never Gold medal winner of the Olympic when you ask someone to train on your behalf. Do it YOURSELF! Suck it in and dont be a wimpy man/woman.

7. Go all the way

Don't give up, you may have a wonderful great start. But nothing is complete until it is done. Go all the WAY! Jesus went all the way, whipped -> stabbed -> humiliated-> Put to shame -> crucified -> died -> buried -> went to Hell -> Fought the Devil -> receive Victory for you and I -> and then he Resurrected.

He didn't walk down the cross like that :

Hey, I'm already dead, ok because I am the son of God, I am dead, but I can walk down the cross myself. Hellow People!!, see how cool am I.

He has to go all the way and finish like how God planned. We have to go all the way according to God's will to emerge victoriously. You know God says I am going to be a multi milliionaire.  Thou I am not now but I believe in his promise. I am not going to Stop until I hit that mark. I am going to outreach in nations, touching lives, building homes for people. I am not going to stop until I do it. I am doing the job of Jesus in protecting Lives. I am, and I honor my prestige JOB IN  THE MARKETPLACE to serve God Protecting Families, Investing in Life, and Giving my whole Life to Jesus so he can my hands/feet for his purpose to Love people.

I am definately in the Job God wants me to be in. Protect lives through Insurance. Protect your family because you love them. Invest Life and not death. Invest in Faith and not in Risk.

8. Overcome all obstacles

Tackle your problem, and be an overcomer. Your problems are designed to bring something out of you that you cannot do it any other way. The problems that you are facing now, is going to bring  the Giant off you. The opportunity of a life-time only depends on life-span of that opportunity.

We are Giant slayers and we are mountain movers. and if you are waiting for perfect conditions to get things done, they are never going to get them done. The best learning stage and discovering the greatest in you, are opportunities disguised in the biggest problem in your life. They are your biggest blessings!! For if you decide to let these problems be unsolve, you just let the greatest opportunity and blessings walk off your life.

Make your choice now my friends and love ones. We can live a life full of colours and purpose. You can create dreams even at the age of 65 like colonel Sander Mr KFC. God wants to shine your world bright. There will be difficulties and problems along the path we walk. But God can reverse all situations and make all problems your greatest opportunities.

How many of you will want to know this great God who is always by own side? You can say this little prayer with me.

Dear God, let me experience you, let me see the light that will shine my path bright. Jesus, today I want to invite you into my heart. I want to leave all my problems into your hands. Let me see what you see, I want to recieve my blessings from you, walk with me let me see all my blessings of opportunities in the problems you put ahead of me. Jesus, let me encounter and know you more from today onwards as I am saved.

Be blessed. have a wonderful Sunday!

Ps. Thank you Pastor Phil for such a wonderful sermon message. I am so blessed by your words.

Pss. Maybe my private space is long forgotten in your memories, and you no longer flip into it anymore. You no longer frequent them as well as you used to do. You no longer read them anymore. Well, Smelly, you are so burdening in my heart and I just love you so much. But I guess I am the last person you will really listen to.

God you used me to touch and make a difference in the life of many others. Yet you gave me the toughest nut and biggest problem ever to crack. The man I love the most. I have to remind myself of the message I wrote today. The Biggest problem is the greatest opportunity of Blessings in Disguise. 

I wish I could choose a better alternative, but God told me No. This is the best. Eh but I cant see them at all... Then God reply, you'll know it when the timing is here. Jesus at the back saying : Just trust me lah. Relax.

I will bear the cross

I will bear the cross. It is never an easy task being a Christian. The walk is long and the walk is full of challenges. It get really difficult in times where we go through thunderstorms and varies waves of hardship. But God is faithful, he will protect your heart with songs of joy even thou you are going through the worst period of adversity. He said, there will surely be difficult times to come, but do not get anxious because he is with us. The best part, you can feel his pressence with his warmest love staying by your side to guide you out of your situation. We can trust him. Like a father, who allows you to fall, but always the 1st to wipe your tears and pick you up everytime you fall. It is really heart warming. I love you God. I feel you all the time. In joy, in saddness, in trouble and in success. Always you are there so faithful and loving. THANKING  YOU WITH MY EARNEST HEART. Grateful to you who gave me a new transformed life to restart my wrongs to zero and live a new life to serve a great purpose. Never holding of any pain or regrets ever again in my life. For, you hold me beside you, guiding all the Best things that can ever happen to me. Thank you for your everlasting love for me.

Day 303

Day 303

I was reading a book from Rob Thompson, of the Road to Excellence. It is a management book. I recalled reading something on carrying the load that you are not suppose to ?

If you've me for awhile, you would have realised the highway of life I used to lead. I seems to have this greatest enemy in my life call Money. I really do not know, how did I actually do that ? I can fly off Singapore anytime I like in the past. Fly on good air-ways. First/Business class in times too.

Take a private jet, be a co-pilot and fly along the off islands. Those trips were truly amazing, for just a short while in fact. They are incentives trips from some friends who truly loves me and wanted to see my smile during one of the darkest moment I used to had last year. I get picked up by their drivers when I travel and stayed in one of the most expensive villas while I am with them. Showed me to their horses, go mountain trekking and riding one of the most difficult horse ever.

During those trips, I had really good coversation with those friends who really take good care of me. They are like big brothers and sisters who often share well advices with me. They told me, happiness can never be traded via money/wealth/social status or a rich lifestyle, for they cannot bring you happiness. They told me this : Dear Seven, throughout this week you've spent with me, living a highway of lifestyle, breakfast served in your room, living one of the best first class treatment I can ever gave for you, how do you feel? Happier? I replied, I am really grateful but my heart feel no joy. It is still raining in me. 

Thats the point she said; no matter how rich a lifestyle I can give you, material/exclusiveness, joy has to be from within. I love you for you are like my younger sister, I want you to be happy. You will find no joy when your soul is weeping in you. Find your own joy and seize it no matter how difficult or challenging or even viewed impossible in the eyes of others. You know where you joy is from, don't let anyone, any situation or any principality take this blessings away from you. If you need to forgive, you have to forgive, if you have to love, do it.

Then end of last year, I went travelling with hubhub to vietnam. Although we didnt stay in the best villas, have my own drivers, nor do I special privilages as I travel on their night trains and peeing in super smelly toilets, didnt shower for 2 days as we were travelling around. I had so much of joy. The week of Vietnam trip only cost me 1.2K for the both of us. But it is my most memorable and happiest trip ever in my entire life. 

With compared to the trip I went with Yan where we easily blown more than 12K at least within 3 days all the first class treatments. 

Travelling needs motives as well, some people travel to escape in life while some for a greater mission. Last year was the year I did most of my travels, I wanted an escape last year from darkness. Thou you maybe happy in trips you travelled, but eventually those happiness are short-term. You will still have to get back to reality and come face to face towards your own problems. 

I find that I can never lie to my heart which is why I stayed true to it. It will be easier if I can hate and choose to runaway. My life took a turn when I accepted Jesus and he taught me how to have to true courage to face love and not runaway from it.

Now I no longer travel for leisure. I know no-one will ever give me those feelings of joy like I can ever had during my trip to Vietnam with my smelly. Only do I travel with Jesus my lord for Missions around the world. This is the only Joy that pars-up. The only motive when I travel for humanitarian trips or prayer meeting trips is to seek breakthrough in prayers with giant meeting groups and an increase of faith when Jesus uses me as his vessel to touch and change lives of people.

Maybe one day, when I am back in tong-ren village in china, on missions to xinjiang or dongbei. I do pray to God, that one day you will be one of the few volunteers with me showering the love of Jesus to people who never ever experience how the love of God should feel like.

Travelling trips are never the same again. Father, you will use my hubhub one day right... when the timing is here. Father, continue to protect my smelly, guide him and walk with him. Let him hear your voice as you call out to him, guide him on a track of life in blessings. A life filled with joy and light. My boy is strong, he is courages, he is faithful, he is loving, he is humble and he will find you himself father as you guide him towards you.

Father this is the promise you gave me, you said, through you Lord, he will find the real him. And through you Lord, he will find me.

Gotta go, serving in the ministry and Pastor Phil is here today. Going for my celebration like I do everyweek, to somewhere I call home. Home with city harvest church. 

Day 302

Day 302

I woke up this morning and told God during my morning devotion, Father will I have a wonderful wedding with the one I love? Daddy God replied; of course! But I asked who? An image flashed across my mind. Then I checked with God again saying, Dad, you said that the yoke shouldn't mix, he is a non-believer dad! God replied in a funny way, watch me and it was Isaiah 54:17 No weapon formed against you will prosper. I went.... oh.... and I went to this verse on the same book Isaiah 55;7 while he may be found, call him while he is near, let the wicked one abandon his way, and the sinful one his thoughts; let him return to the lord so he will freely forgive.  Ermmm... and it says; My words that come from my mouth will not return to me empty but accomplish what I please and will prosper in what I send it to do. You will do it, go out and reach his hands in joy and be peacefully guided. This love is made by the name of God and it is an everlasting sign that will not be destroyed. Erm, ok, who else can I trust other than my faithful Father in heaven! In man? No no, man can disappoint you BUT not God !!

And . . . .

When I see my buddy having those sarcastic comments over fb with his wife, I really wondered, why does he get married. Husband and wife shooting each other on fb is really so sad man! People, PLEASE don't GET MARRIED to him/her if you don't intend to face him/her everyday for the rest of your life! You ARE Torturing yourself and YOU are antagonising the other party!

My buddy wanted to be a responsible man by getting married and be a father of his child BUT ended up antagonising himself and his wife. Responsibility need to be consistent if you have not realise that. There is no way to be responsible for 2 months, irresponsible for 3 months and so forth and on . . . . . A marriage is not child's play.

A marriage is a new walk sharing of lives together, sharing the same heart, walking hand in hand no matter how difficult the situation might turn out to be. If you do not intend to do that for your other-half, you have no rights to accept or propose a marriage. For you will end up blaming the other party when things goes wrong, end up looking into faults when things are not ideal. Minor imperfections in a marriage without a strong foundation of Love can lead to crazy pile-up of destructions.

That is why, I choosed to trust God in my husband, my marriage, and my future. God will strengthen them through many many stages, which will be when the day my husband ask for my hand that we combine our hearts as one. Our foundation of Love is built so strong by God that nothing is going to break us apart. When 2 hearts combined as 1 with the rope tied through Jesus Christ, we know that is the marriage God gave. In every challenges ahead, we will level-up, challenges, level-up again !

I pray for a husband

Father, shape my husband according to your heart, shape my husband to be a leader who leads, shape my husband according to your character, he is strong, never a coward. He is faithful and he is kind. He is a man full of integrity. He is humble and he knows how to care of people around him. He is always full of surpises for me, he is always filled with love for me. A man who is positive and holds the power of strength through your spirit. He is my shoulders to share my burdens, he is a real man shaped personally by the hands of yours Father. Amen.

Myself

Father I pray that you shape me up too. Shape me up to be kind, a heart to love and guard it up from bitterness. A heart that is always giving, a generous woman that will always bring my husband proud. A strong woman who is never give-up to adversity and challenges, a woman of the new generation who support my husband in encouragment and wisdom to plan for the family. A woman who cooks well, and runs the household well. Faithful to my husband and always caring towards my family. Let me commit my whole future in your lovely hands.   

Jacelyn Tay & Brian Wong: Love Story Video | SUPERADRIANME.com

I decided to post up this item again.

This is a post that constantly touches me, that we can rely on God in all matters. God is not an obsolete God. He is living, constantly living in our life. A church is not a history building God left on this world where he goes for his holiday in the universe.

God put a new hope and reborn in me a new heart. A heart of forgiveness, a heart that truly knows how to care and love. A heart that is kind and a heart of giving. He live in my life and guides me through Jesus Christ. The road ahead of me is diffcult and full of trials. But I know Jesus you can carry those burdens for me, I trust in you, If you are not the lord of all my life, you are not my lord at all. I surrender everything in your hands.

Filter the bad trails in me through your nailed hands, retain all the goodness and make it grow with you. I have entrust the whole of my life in your hands, I know my future is blessed. Not my will anymore, but yours be done.

No one will believe what the bible says, until Jesus show himself to you, touch you himself and to move you himself. One day, when the timing is here, you will encounter him and get so touch like how he touches me with his love.

Be bless everyone!

I can find my blessed future with him for he loves me so much!

Day 301

Day 301

The life of 4 seasons

We understand the 4 season in the climate but how do we relate the 4 seasons in our life? Let me illustrate it according to my love life of a mission which seems impossible in the eyes of everybody.

My love life had been through 2 cycles of seasons already

Spring

I met my superman smelly and Zouk and . . .

That puppy love sparkle brush on with extreme sweetness and love grew from it. We went through great sweetness and love coated as honey combed with milk. So smooth and sweet, so lovely and enjoyable. Holding on to his hands make your world spin. Sounds familiar? Is it the same for you as well? Those days back, smelly and I were inseparable. Seeing my smelly the first thing I opened my eyes were blessing from God. It is so enjoyable. I cannot help but to always feel that joy when I reminisce . . . . . awww . . . . .  just by thinking of it I can pounce on my smelly and feel the sweetness of it.

But spring doesnt last long, before we realised it, it is summer

Summer

The summer of intensive burning and doubts, seduction and temptations. It is like the furnace burning when I walk through betrayal and selfishness. That was when I went into a spiral of decision making to walk-away or to stay. I fell down and was totally burned up and burn-out. I cried and sweat in tears. But I realised I cannot walk away like that, I cannot be beaten up like that. I endured on and summer went into Autumn

Autumn

Autumn turns out to be cooler and things eventually cooled down. We spent great time in the chalet, pushing each other around in a NTUC trolley and enjoy simple moments together. Spend time cooking and shopping at the supermarket. Cooking crab and spending time with each other loving each other, hugging each other whenever we can . . . . . . when the cold winter comes, Winter . .

Winter

My sky turned totally grey as winter came. This winter was really cold and dark. Day was short and I spent most of my time hibernation in hurt when he left for his selfish purpose. It was really cold and there are no hope left. It was so cold when I spend my nights in the dark hospital ward and when I totally gave up in life. I cant seems to hope but to wait hopelessly. In my wait of agony I didnt realised that spring is on it way . . .

Spring

It was spring once again when smelly returned back into my life. A time for harvest while I endured the cold winter I survived, I endured the cold winter with the touch and protection of God who eventually found this beaten and shattered me. Hubhub and I starts to bear fruit. Our first of the season, which is true love. Our first tribulation of love fruit was born. We spend really wonderful time together again like never before. We turned first love once again caring and loving one another so truly. I know that was when, hubhub found out, he does loves me. We shared amazing journey together travelling and loving each other. But you know spring will never last . . . . It was summer once again

Summer

The intense heat comes burning on our seed of love once more. I was burned out once again, so does he. We have to go through this intensive heat burn to strengthen. But this time round, God is with me. This summer I didnt get burn out for the spirit of God protects me through the hope given by the truth who is Jesus Christ. I was sweating really badly but not beaten up this time. For I can hope . . . . . . Things start to turn around when hubhub hugs me tight in his arms again and told me it will be soon over. There come Autumn

Autumn

Autumn came and our hearts cool off bit by bit and continued to love each other through all the trial and tribulation that came along the way. We started a weird relationship and continue sowing our fruit of love in an unusual manner. This Autumn was really short and there comes winter where we have to be snapped and cut once more.

Winter

Winter is here, the most difficult winter ever, I was so snapped up and cut by God to trim off the unwanted/selfish self in me. I was bleeding crazily, crying madly. Hubhub was cut and snapped by God too, I know he was crying too at that time. This winter, both hubhub and I have to make a decision we do not have choices. The situation is planned so nicely by God in order to cut away all the branches on us that will not bear fruit. Hubhub and I cried as we submitted to the situation. It was really difficult for the both of us. We walked together through that..... After the triming and tears..... winter passed. We've walked through another winter, it is spring  once again . . . . 

Spring

This spring bloom off so beautifully after all the unwanted bad traits of hubhub and I were being cut off by God. I was left with only Love, Faith, Joy and Hope. Hubhub and I are now going through our spring. . . . It is harvest time once again, we harvested our love seed once more. Our love grew stronger for it went through another winter. We went back to first love once more loving each other and enjoying every moment of our company. We will never realise that we love each other so much if we haven been through that 2 winters. Baby, at this time, we are at our Spring of love that blooms off so wonderfully. Let us cherish it with all we can before we know summer will be coming again. I do not know how will this summer going to be. But Each season, God is growing our love. Let us pull through another Summer, Autumn, and winter again! Because God loves us so much, and for every winter we walked through together, we can hope for a harvest during our love Spring alright. 

Baby, thank you for sharing your life with me for the past 3 years while we went through thick and thin. Strengthening our love through the situations God placed in our life. I know you are from God because he told me that you are my blessings. I love you and will always be there to walk with you no matter how many season will to past. I am sure that we will bear fruit for God as one, because he is the one who planned for all these to come. Each time we are in the season of Springs, we know our love will be strengthen not by us, but through God who is always the incharge.

Dear friends, we have to understand that our life is build to go through seasons like what the earth does. It is a natural course in our life. You may be in the cold winter now, but dont give up because, spring will always come ^^ 

Happy reading, hope these posts gave some Revalations in ur life. Inspirations as well and hope/motivations. I will not be blogging for the coming week due to really tight schedules coming up.

Bless you guys with the constant spirit of Joy! Hugs.

* Readers from united states thank you for reading my blog. Pageviews from you guys actually increases so rapidly and overtakes my local readers.

* This is a not a publicised blog but a place where I voice my private thoughts.

Katy's Project - The Story of Firework

Katy Perry - Firework

When It seems like you a just a passer-by in life,

but you know,

you have a spark.

Blow that spark off you and let it be the fireworks that shine eternally in your life.

My life is a fireworks,

bright and sparkle even when once I was dim.

Now I lead a life changing the lives of others,

I am made for a purpose in his Kingdom.

My Father told me,

 I make a difference.

I will not give-up and I will be continually shining bright in your Kingdom.

Where is the sparks in you? I choosed to shine and sparkle for a wonderful reason. How about you?

I am not afraid,

I am courageous,

I am strong,

I have dreams to fulfil,

I want to do it all.

I am created for a wonderful reason to cross-path in the life of many people

and

to make a difference.

I have impacted of numerous people I crossed my path with,

and

I will not give up in touching lives,

protecting lives through my wonderful job,

I will not give up in encourging and supporting broken families,

I will not give up even when it seems to be dark ahead,

God you are with me.

I am not afraid.

You will make me shine through the darkness,

This is what I believe.

My religion is not christianty,

My religion is loving people and building love without walls

I am a believer of the truth.

My love ones,
Dont be afraid to live your dreams,
Dont be afraid to face your fear,
We live on this earth to sparkle off beautiful lights.
I believe in you,
believe in yourself too.

We are of the images of this God who wants our life to reach out and seize our dreams.
You can live your life as beautiful as everlasting fireworks too.
God believes in you,
so do I.

Like what I always said,
Choose Life and not death,
Choose Blessings and not curses

I choosed Life and I choosed Blessings.

Let the fireworks sparkle off from within you.
Have a wonderful Sunday

Day 300

Day 300

I am amazingly touch by Pastor Kong today. He preached about our life in four seasons. Thank you pastor, I am so bless by your encouragement.

Perry said something to me too today, our brothers and sisters in Christ, thank you for all your help, loving encouragement and standing so firm with me. Holding my hands so tightly with Jesus and walking with me through this Grace God has given us. Perry is definately an amazing man, who has been constantly a great support to me together with his wife Sherry. Days when I was suffering from my spiritual attacks, they prayed for me and held me so closely to Jesus. Thank you.

Brother Stanley, I love you, thank you for believing in me and I was so touch by you support. Seriously he really treats me like his daughter and blessing me with true courage. The courage and prayers you guys interceeds for me to walk with me in the wilderness. Truly I am so blessed with you guys.

Sorry that I've wronged so many city harvesters in the past. I judge through the tinted glasses I was wearing that hinders me to see the goodness. I was too quick to judge and comment.

Going into my prayer closet now, I am praying for a word in season from Pastor Joseph Prince, that God will use him to touch and open the heart of my smelly tomorrow with NCC. God is never confined in a single church, may it be CHC, NCC, FCBC or any other churches worldwide, God can use them to change your life and create a new heart in you. God I pray that you will open the eyes of my hubhub and let him see what you've prepared for him. Because I've seen it, experienced its power and submitted to your love.

Good night.

Day 299

Day 299

Last year this time, on the 13th Nov 2009, I am on my first together trip with smelly hububie to Saigon Vietnam

 Ok, this little ballerina is a year older now,

so are we.

but I think I look younger even I am a year older

 I went for my water baptism

 I found the real truth

 I went to bible college

 I started up a shop with my sister

 I learn and I grow in Christ,

with hope and love,

with the encourage and love of my fellow brothers and sisters in Jesus Christ

and . . . . .

I grew stronger in love with my hubhub too,

stronger than any adversity which is going to come along the way.

A love which is not selfish and a love which is kind.

I know, you are the one.

The greatest of all which is Love, you cannot love if you are not willing to give.

He ask me this question 2 days ago.

What will tear our love apart?

I have answered this question in my heart.

Nor death, angels, principality nor devil is going to take this love away,

which is approved by my Daddy Elohim God. 

Day 298

Day 298

My sister and I have decided to let go of the beach event. I am not here the criticise the event organiser, but truly they "buang" big time I guess, the event tickets are not even out yet, and the publicity of the event which is like in 5 days time is not out yet and my sister and I really feel pretty pissed of with that company.

Screw it when the person liasing the event is always late for our meeting, not 10 - 15 mins late but one and a half hours. Crap! Didn't did he aplologised for that, and even asked my sister to go for a drink with him before the disccusion of that event. Fuck-off man! Doesn't even have the slightest responsibility of professionalism.

I've decided to build my own event and with my own contacts. A RSVP exclusive runway fashion program with guest speakers.

Day 297

I've been praying for you. All the ones holy spirits impressed in my heart to pray and interceeds for you. In times I do not know what are your burdens in life. I cant be always by your side, but God can, he can give you a word of direction when you feel lost and give you a word of encouragment when you feel extremely negative. Dear steph, I had been praying for you to set free the opression in you, I don't know why, Dear joze, I had been praying for you too. Dear sister I had been praying for you, Dear Rachel I had been praying for you. Dear smelly, I had been praying for you too. I did my prayer breakthrough last night and went into a trance  from burdens to joy. The break free of oppression for some of you whom I had been constantly speaking to God of. God listens to me and he usually give replies through many ways. Dear friends, continue to believe in yourself! BEING THE HEAD AND NEVER THE TAIL, ABOVE AND NEVER BENEATH. For you are the shining children of God.  God never put difficulties in your life to fail you. He loves you, be strong in faith, and hope in his promises. I will end my blog tonight with this verse : God is faithful, even when you are unfaithful, ask and you will receive,knock and the door will be open to you, seek and you will find it. For everything you ask for, he will do abundantly and exceedingly well. For he is a Father who loves you. You can give without loving, BUT you cannot love without giving. God loves you and he is a giving God. Good night

Day 296

On the bus right now, I was reminded of this topic on deejavu. Sometimes, we find ourselves doing certain things or saying something for the very first time yet, it seems like we've a familiar feeling of us doing or saying that before. Ever felt that way? I was talking to Jams and he was telling me about the promises of God through deejavu. Sometimes God speaks to us, inject certain actions and words into us, our spirit ackownledges it but not our logic mind which cannot comprehend the supernatural side of God. Or I should say, you do not even acknowledge God even when he is just right beside you, as soon as you live a life given by him, you will always hear him no matter you believe or not. For the 10 commandments made by moses is in built into you once you are born. 5 in your heart and the other 5 in ur mind. We know what is right and wrong. We know the rules which is built in human nature our consicous. Feel guilty when we did wrong, feel sorry when we hurt someone. This is the 10 commandments. Often in life you will hear ur heart calling out to you, talking to you. One a spirit of encouragement another a spirit of accuser. One a spirit which says, no dont do this, another, go do it the consequences comes later. A voice of Jesus who is constantly wanting you to do good, and a voice always daring you and accusing you which makes you feel bad. Today about deejavu, is years ago what God spoke into you, years later by following and chosing at your freewill, we walks into the path God acknowledges back then. It forms a deejavu. My experience of that, when I cried under the block with my hubhub to obey God's word to leave. Deejavu, and I know that is God's will, I have to obey for I know God with true experience and he will never harm me for obeying him. Another deejavu, I held my hubhub's hand and prayed beneath the alter of Jesus my savior, slamz* deejavu again.  God is in charge of our situation and I said the exact prayer and only realising it after I said amen. The feeling of, hey man, I think I've said that before, but I know never I did. Therefore as many deejavu happened in your life, you are unnoticingly walking God's will, walking nearer and nearer towards the purpose he puts in your life. Nearer and nearer to the promise he gave you through the 4th dimension. If you are experiencing deejavu, try recalling what I've blogged on the bus right now. BUT stop thinking of it may be ur freaking past life memory, for those who had deejavu on texting someone on ur iphone; past life no Iphones only letters pigeons nia::::: think about it.

Pastor Eileen and Johann's love story

Two lives One Path

http://dzignforyou.wordpress.com/2010/11/09/johann-eileen/

My words for my very own love story

“Distance never separates two hearts that really care, for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there. But whenever I start feeling sad, because I miss you, I remind myself how lucky I am to have someone so special to miss.”
Our heart cannot lie.

Thank you my sweet smelly

Day 295

Day 295

If you remembered I once blogged about Hachiko, read xx blog and the picture of herself and hachiko the bronze statue really made me wanting to visit Shibuya again. Anyway Japan is a place you cannot get lost even thou you do not speak Japanese. I remembered Nano died when xx returned from Japan. I am just random actually. By the way I am getting fatter, Hahaaa so happy, my hipbone is completely covered by my lean abs. If you read about what I ate everyday and follows me on twitter, you will be amazed by my determination. Mom has to buy a new bag of potatoes/milk/lectuce for me every 3 days.

Say I am a sicko, I love to pinch my own firm butt. hhaaaa . . . . mom will sometimes come around and slap my ass, and comment, good work, firm ah. Intensive workouts, carrying weights, crunches, swim and roller-blading, gaining weight in a healthy way really needs determination and time. Really love my everyday life always leading a fulfilling and wonderful life without regrets. On my way to 45kg, once I on track to 48kgs I will be back to the dance school, not Jazz or ballet but doing ballroom dance salsa. You wont see a stick-man dancing anymore but a fuller body towards my own perfection, inside and outside. Feeling so great with my life right now but I am never satisfy, better and greater! BETTER AND GREATER each time! I will never reach my optimal but always improving. There is no prime for me, every stage is a new PRIME. I can forsee myself at the age of 40, still darn prime! Married or not married, I am still attractive.

Once you up-keep such lifestyle, you will never want to let it go. I went to get my professional suit today, can you imagine it, 1st time in my life I feel like the executive wear I got is tight and so fitting. Glory to be with God who strengthens my determination. 

Joze, lets up keep this together lei, work towards it and you will never feel fat. You just need say you gotta do it girl ! Your weight comes down and mine goes up.

Carrying weights everyday, doing crunches everyday can be really tedious. Had been cutting down on roller blading as it is more convenient for me to swim and gym, just opposite my flat at my client's place 100m down the road. 

The next time you see me in my running track-suit and sports gears, you can have a chance a see it and get motivated abit. Everyone can look good if they want it. Dont mistaken me for narcissism. I want to look good but not obsessive with it, spirit of excellence deh...

Continue trusting in God, receiving grace and strength in him, building on determination, I will WALK THROUGH MY STORMS AND Financially wilderness. Anticipating my fat paycheck before Christmas, I told God, I want to give a tithe of $1,000, teach me how. (Tithe = 10% of any proceeds income)  To have the ability to give a $1,000 tithe, potential income for that month. $10,000. And praying that my tithe goes up every month! I need to buy alot of sumptous dinners to my dearest who stood by me during my financial difficult months. Surviving on my last drawn pay which was 2-3 months ago, cannot Jimmy Choo, Ferregammo shoes which will blow easier a thousand bucks off my savings anymore, I learned a hardway to survive without income in a joyful manner.

It is a fruitful last quarter of the year even thou I am financially trapped. But I am so blood damn happy lar. Dont know why, but I just see it so joyful when I feel it coming. The coming of a financial provision from me to my family. I boldy promised my dad a carribean trip for himself and mom during Chinese New Year. I ask them from God, you know that you can ask God for money? Ok, I asked $10K from God to bring my parents off to carribean. During that moment I gave these words to God, the motivation factor in me is increasing my hunger. Everyday every hour. When I stopped my steps, the holy spirits will nudge me, What are you doing? continue running! Dont be a lazy bone, fulfill your appointments and trainings, wake up in the morning when I wakes you up, dont be lazy and fall back to sleep again. EVEN when it is raining heavily in a cozy bed cuddling morning, wake UP!

Something will just wake me up, my dog started barking or my neighbours started knocking my door, or some weird HDB survey people will keep knocking my door till I open them. Or the phone can't stop ringing with witheld numbers. There I will go, okok I wake up! and Its 7.30 in the morning, I wake up, cook my potatoes, ate breakfast, start my morning workout, and prayers.

Anyway I am really close and I feel the vibes constantly. You know I prayed for a MDRT but that didnt happen this year. I just have this very strong vibes that when I asked God for a MDRT, he will not only give me one. He is so generous that he will always give in abundance. God is a mega-giver. I asked for 5 appointments everyday and I see it coming, in times, I will get freaked-out somehow when you see the hands of God moving when you move.... But no fear, no fear, Papa God is in-charge!  My run in Dec till June 2011. 75% of the 5 appointments daily can push me up MDRT already. The over-spills and higher premiums are to pull me up the reminding months from Jun - Dec 2011 to gun for a MDRT Court of the Table COT and I would have clear all awards in AIA.

Sunvale Avenue

Sometimes, I just have this feeling of bombarding a series of shops around Singapore- Sunvale Avenue I mean to create a chain outlet. Manufacturing and mass production of our own labels and self designed tees. Our clothes are really unique, truly you cant find what we are selling in Singapore. S$200,000? Putting the figures together, a montly drawn $30,000 monthly should be able to substain all these. Oh by the way, now all my appointment rates are drawn by how much I want to earn. So to acheive a Xamount of $ I variable them and calculate all my activities.

Home

If you have the chance too walk into my room, you will be seeing figures all around.  All the figures I want to achieve, the targets and goals all in activities and numbers. I scare myself every morning I open my eyes. 90 appointments/ daily targets, and the figure will minus itself as I fulfil them. Yet and amazingly I am not stress at all. I just do, if I don't know how, I shout: JESUS I DON'T KNOW, HELP! Then superhero comes to rescue, sometimes he is the Incredible hulk who gave me incredible strength as an overcomer, sometimes Iron-man who is forever innovative in my mind to solve difficult problems, even in times he turns me into a human magnet and attract everybody to me. Jesus always surprise me with the things he does for me. Everytime caught me off-guard.

Talked too much today, and ok, all my pending posts are up. Happy reading my lovely peps and get motivated, sorry I dont know how. You revalate yourself hor.