I was reading a book from Rob Thompson, of the Road to Excellence. It is a management book. I recalled reading something on carrying the load that you are not suppose to ?
If you've me for awhile, you would have realised the highway of life I used to lead. I seems to have this greatest enemy in my life call Money. I really do not know, how did I actually do that ? I can fly off Singapore anytime I like in the past. Fly on good air-ways. First/Business class in times too.
Take a private jet, be a co-pilot and fly along the off islands. Those trips were truly amazing, for just a short while in fact. They are incentives trips from some friends who truly loves me and wanted to see my smile during one of the darkest moment I used to had last year. I get picked up by their drivers when I travel and stayed in one of the most expensive villas while I am with them. Showed me to their horses, go mountain trekking and riding one of the most difficult horse ever.
During those trips, I had really good coversation with those friends who really take good care of me. They are like big brothers and sisters who often share well advices with me. They told me, happiness can never be traded via money/wealth/social status or a rich lifestyle, for they cannot bring you happiness. They told me this : Dear Seven, throughout this week you've spent with me, living a highway of lifestyle, breakfast served in your room, living one of the best first class treatment I can ever gave for you, how do you feel? Happier? I replied, I am really grateful but my heart feel no joy. It is still raining in me.
Thats the point she said; no matter how rich a lifestyle I can give you, material/exclusiveness, joy has to be from within. I love you for you are like my younger sister, I want you to be happy. You will find no joy when your soul is weeping in you. Find your own joy and seize it no matter how difficult or challenging or even viewed impossible in the eyes of others. You know where you joy is from, don't let anyone, any situation or any principality take this blessings away from you. If you need to forgive, you have to forgive, if you have to love, do it.
Then end of last year, I went travelling with hubhub to vietnam. Although we didnt stay in the best villas, have my own drivers, nor do I special privilages as I travel on their night trains and peeing in super smelly toilets, didnt shower for 2 days as we were travelling around. I had so much of joy. The week of Vietnam trip only cost me 1.2K for the both of us. But it is my most memorable and happiest trip ever in my entire life.
With compared to the trip I went with Yan where we easily blown more than 12K at least within 3 days all the first class treatments.
Travelling needs motives as well, some people travel to escape in life while some for a greater mission. Last year was the year I did most of my travels, I wanted an escape last year from darkness. Thou you maybe happy in trips you travelled, but eventually those happiness are short-term. You will still have to get back to reality and come face to face towards your own problems.
I find that I can never lie to my heart which is why I stayed true to it. It will be easier if I can hate and choose to runaway. My life took a turn when I accepted Jesus and he taught me how to have to true courage to face love and not runaway from it.
Now I no longer travel for leisure. I know no-one will ever give me those feelings of joy like I can ever had during my trip to Vietnam with my smelly. Only do I travel with Jesus my lord for Missions around the world. This is the only Joy that pars-up. The only motive when I travel for humanitarian trips or prayer meeting trips is to seek breakthrough in prayers with giant meeting groups and an increase of faith when Jesus uses me as his vessel to touch and change lives of people.
Maybe one day, when I am back in tong-ren village in china, on missions to xinjiang or dongbei. I do pray to God, that one day you will be one of the few volunteers with me showering the love of Jesus to people who never ever experience how the love of God should feel like.
Travelling trips are never the same again. Father, you will use my hubhub one day right... when the timing is here. Father, continue to protect my smelly, guide him and walk with him. Let him hear your voice as you call out to him, guide him on a track of life in blessings. A life filled with joy and light. My boy is strong, he is courages, he is faithful, he is loving, he is humble and he will find you himself father as you guide him towards you.
Father this is the promise you gave me, you said, through you Lord, he will find the real him. And through you Lord, he will find me.
Gotta go, serving in the ministry and Pastor Phil is here today. Going for my celebration like I do everyweek, to somewhere I call home. Home with city harvest church.
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