Day 354

Day 354

My dearest children; Everlyn Dorcus and Ezekiel Daniels,

When the both of you are in me, I talk to you and I show you how much I love you. You are with me when I pray to God our Father in heaven. You are so precious and I adore the both of you. We sing praises and worships to God together, we dance and commute with God. I blesses you with all encouragements that you will be strong children of God. Everlyn that you will grow up a bright and beautiful lady with immersed wisdom and discernment. You have beautiful double eye lids like mummy, long curly lashes, big beautiful eyes, sharp nose like your daddy and a character of both daddy and mummy; strong and living life with strength of victors. Ezekiel you will grow up strong and honorable, with strength and capcity as a man. You will be like daddy, tall and dark, good-looking and sharp.Both of you are beautiful children of God. Daddy and mummy are angels sent by God to protect you.

When you are born, we love you and nurse you with physical and spiritual milk send by our God in heaven. You hear us pray and you see us pray. My children, daddy and mummy loves you. Your daddy is a great man. He is the physical and spiritual support for us. He is a responsible man of great wisdom and often pray for mummy; for daddy is a prayer warrior in our family. He spend long hours in his prayer for us, your daddy is a great man children. Your daddy is a man of God, for he knows God is the one who gives him this wonderful family. Daddy always watches mummy's back for me and lift me up in prayers when times get difficult. Therefore, I pray to God that one day, you will be like daddy, a prayer warrior in the family. Your daddy is a king in the marketplace as well as a priest. He is a wonderful leader in the international platform, he is a priest in our family.

During the baby delication when the both of you are 1 year old, daddy and mummy delicated the both of you to God. To tell you, we are leaving the both of you on God's altar. That the 2 of you will learn to have a relationship with our Father in heaven yourself. You will grow up in church; a place that touches mummy, a place that united daddy and mummy. A church daddy and mummy calls it our spiritual home, a place our family calls City Harvest. You have seen daddy and mummy pray during prayer time and you learn how to pray like how daddy and mummy does all the time.

When the both of you are 5 years old, you saw daddy and mummy on stage sharing our testimony to the church of how the church holds us together. Of how God found daddy, and how God taught mummy to pray for daddy when he was lost. How God made daddy a real man and led the both of us into a covenant of marriage. Our family is build on a God who loves us wholeheartedly. Children, both of you were in me when daddy decided to come to School of Theology after God has spoke to us. Our family attended SOT together and you are brought out to the world with all blessings of God. Children, you have to give thanks to God in heaven, for without him, daddy will never have a chance to find mummy. Mummy took 5 years to pray for daddy before daddy found God. You have to understand my beloved. God is always faithful and his promise is everlasting.

You will grow strong in the presence of God, learning to be obedient to God all the time. You do not fear when school gets difficult, and you are not afraid when the biggest school bully picks on you. Because you know God is always with you. Even when daddy and mummy is not around all time protect you children, you understands that God is. Everlyn, you will learn to pray for you younger brother when he is discourage, and Ezekiel, you will pray for your sister when she faces difficulties in life. Two of you are in me when you are inside of mummy, and mummy always teaches you to pray for each other in your own quiet time.

My children, you will grow strong in God for you know he is the only one you can trust in life. Be godly child of God and fear God not because he will punish you servely when you do wrong but know that God loves you more than anyone else. You do not want to grieve God or make him sad.

One day, daddy and mummy have to leave you and go back to God. But do not be sad, for even when daddy and mummy leaves you, God is still with the both of you. You are blessed children of God, continue to shine for the Glory of God and be salt and light of the world.

Your mummy

Drafted in 2011

You may find this post incredibly absurb, but you will find this amazingly shocking when this come to pass like what I've said. 2 days ago, God told me; there will be a timing when I publish my blog into books that will be selling on shelves of all the book stores. I know that God honor his promises. He is my most faithful reader here.

Day 353

For the whole of today, I am filled in love, the love of my Jesus. I looked above this morning and I smiled. I smiled at him the moment I opened my eyes cuddling in His pressence. He spoke to me and assured me a wonderful today. He is my God. God's love filled me so much that gives me strength. His love is strength for me. To continue loving and not fear. He alone has placed His pressence into me. I love you God, my Father, my first love. I never know God can be so close to me, and so near to me. I have alot of love to give, God's love in me overflows. I start using this love to love people. the broken, the poor, the handicap, the mentally challenged, the widow. I haven had a chance to love the terminally ill, but I know God will place me there once I am ready. God has never put me in places I wasn't for. Today is the last service in Expo hall 8, I am going to miss you Expo, for you are my first love too, we had been working together in Expo, serving people, serving delegates from all over the world. + you know, I really love you God, and the house you put me in +  Thank you Father, and I know you are using us, all your children, we will transform a community out of love and we can change the world; bringing down heaven onto earth. Bless the Sri lanka mission team lord, may your hands be with them. Bless the Christchurch earthquark rescue team, let them be your vessel to help and comfort the broken hearted. Amen.

Isnt this

Can the love of taking self photos be an addiction?

Day 352

Ok, I just have to blog this out?! I do not understand why some people 'gave-up' themselves. Gave up in looking good. Seriously, I am a believer in looking good, even when I am not extremely drop dead gorgeous kind, but I am not that bad either. This is a question I will always ask those guys who tells me, I am attracted to you. I normally ask them why. They will tell me your character bah blah normal stuffs. But if I am a fat ass, you think that you will even care about my character? If you say yes, that is bullshit. If you are not in my league in pursuing life long improvements in everything, dont try to expand your whatever silly logics to me. If you are fat, shed some weight, if you are skinny, put on weight, if you have poor skin condition, be more hardworking on skincare, you have lousy looking hair, go and look for perry lah. You can never imagine how much I did for myself. And how hardworking am I. I saw micheal's wife. I see Evelyn. I want to be like them. Which is why I say I dont care how old you are, you just have to look good. Because I am going to, even when I am in my 50s, 60s and even 70s. Talking to Micheal's wife, guess she is in her 50s. And guess what she looks like early 30s. Flawless skin, amazing figures and best of all she looks like a super star to me. Who says only celebrities can be like that? I can be that too, why not you? I am determined and have this funny Goal. A guy 20 years younger than me can be attracted to my appearance even when I am in my 50s. Make a bet? Lets see 20 years down the road. And one thing, shucks man, why r the guys who r attracted to me be such a wide range? From a 18 yr old boy, to a 45 yr old man? 

Waimea cliff jump

Lets do it!

Lets do it!

In a few weeks time in Bintan!

Yeah!!!

Who is in ?

Other than WE'RE going

SKY DIVING !!!!!!!!!

In Malaysia,

I need 8 kakis.

Lets DIVE!!!!

Who wanna join me !!

Warning, not for the faint-hearted,

We're diving in the SKY ! 

Beware, Its' Darn addictive !!!!

Thats Living LIFE MAN !

Dynamite Boobs (World's Most Powerful Breasts) [Taio Cruz - Dynamite]

Someone show this to me.

cam whore

^^ This is when Camwhoring takes on a higher level,

with a home photo studio, lightings and tripod stand 

^^

Taken through D900 Sony cybershot.

Day 351

The power of a praying woman.

These few days I've been thinking about Dara and what Dara said to me. It is not only Dara who said that to me many of other praying women had told me this. When Dara showed me her husband, you know God had answered all her specifications in her prayers. Amazing !!!

Ask God for a husband. I asked them how and they taught me how. Tell God your specifications, pray about and write them out to God. In your prayers, God will led you. After consideration and prayers. Here's my petition to Elohim Father.

Dear Father,

You told me through so many sister in your house to start praying for a husband. You taught them how specific I can pray for. The more specific I am , the more you are going to bring them to pass.

Here's my prayers Lord.

Father I pray for a husband, a husband whose heart is after yours. He stands 1.78m tall and is dark in his skin tone. He weights from 62Kg to 68Kg. He can swim and he can cycle. He has jet black hair and dark brown eyes. He always keeps his hair neat. He is fresh and good-looking. He should be a double eye-lid guy and a man who knows how to talk at the right time and play at the right time. He loves his family.  He shouldn't be aged too far from me, maximum a +2 or -2 in age. He is a capable man and has an income of 120,000 per annum. He loves to wear jackets like I do. He drives a car, a continental car. He loves to praise You Father and he loves to worship you as he drives. He hobbies are photography and loves to fellowship with cellgroups like I do. Loves to BBQ and easy goer with my friends. My friends will love him max. He has his passion on mission work and is supportive of my travels around the world for mission field. He will travel to mission field with me once his is available in work. Oh, He is a non-smoker and he should hate smokers. * Gao nan du, because I am a smoker.

He dont have a quick temper but knows how to get angry when he has to. He do not get jealous easily because knows what is faith. He has the ability to forecast in situations and in reactions. He has a mind that knows to act in rational ways.

I am not done yet.

He is a perfectionist in everything therefore he will not allow any satisfactory results. He will do his best in acquiring the best result outcome. He wants all things to work for the best and he has the ability to transform and bring all things into an optimal results. He has strong determination and perseverance in work and in life. He should have a mindset of not staying in status quo in life. He has a mind of life long improvements.

He is a constant motivator of me, in work and in life. He cares for me and he loves me like how I love you God. He is super romantic and surprises from him is never repeated. He knows my heart and he loves my dog. He has a vision like I do, to walk onto international platform to shine for God. We have a strong Goal together, we will shine for God to reflect the Glory of God on different international stage to be victors in our life.

Thank you God, I've committed life-time partner into your mighty hands. I pray this in the name of Jesus Christ my lord and saviour. Amen.

God,I know on the other end of somewhere, someone is delivering his prayer list to you too and he is prayer about me!

Day 350

Dear God,

a few nights ago, you came specifically to teach me how to pray. You taught me how to pray in specific needs. I learned to be specific, as I hold my women ministry this coming Friday, please led me to help women in my group to pray according to your will. I want to touch on topics of praying for the women's need, personal growth, do and donts in our prayer life as well as most women in my group ask for. We want to love you God and learn to put you first in our lives. In finances, I want to pray that more women in my women ministry group to learn how to be a faithful tither. For I know God, you can never short change us in our lives. That is your character and your character is Holy. Now I understands why do you keep sending irritating people to my life after you revealed to me in the Book of Ezekiel. I should choose a man not of my standard but of God's standard. Definately, I am less worry now because God, your standard is definately higher than mine. Amen. What I think is good enough, God you told me, no. Not good enough, especially for the guys I've been dating. I am really grateful and at peace because God you told me I am never going to tumble in man and woman love relationship anymore. So I wait on you Father, to show and to direct when your perfect one is to come. Thank you Lord for a wonderful morning prayer meeting today, thank you for showing me to my promised land like what you have gave to Joshua and Celab. I really love you alot Father, Spirit and Son. You gave me life. A life I never thought so perfect. To be so joyful, living on abundance and on your wonderful blessings. We are your beloved children and soon we will b moving into Suntec. Please protect and guide all the ministries in your house. The logistic, the ushers, the hospitality greeters, the PR team, the pastors, church leaders, workers and all our beloved members of Christ as well as new comers. I never thought that I will be loving this Church so much until You put me there. I am grateful and I am proud to be a City harvester NOT BECAUSE they are mega, not because they speak in tongues nor is it because I have alot of friends there, BUT because, God I met you there, In CITY HARVEST. And You changed my life. Thank you God, and I pray in the name of Christ my redeemer. Amen.

Day 349

I watched this movie today,

someone highly recommended me to watch it.

It is a movie of exorcist.

I went to watch it myself to see how good the movie does.

Anthony Hopkins, he did well in that movie.

Back to the realness of the movie.

My personal feelings and emotions when I watch this movie.

It is real, and I am not kidding.

In my circle of belief,

we call this deliverance.

Manifestation of the unclean spirit residing in a human body.

These unclean spirits just hide like what the movie says : Which thief will steal with the lights on?

Unclean spirits will not manifest itself unless they feel themselves threaten.

They just come out in awhile and tell you lies whether you believe it or not.

They talk through you most of the time you think that you're the one talking to yourself.

* If you are lying to yourself all the time ^^ next time, trying thinking about where that voice come from? 

Where does those convicing lies come from?

Just remember, God cannot lie. God is to help you, lift you up, walk with you,

He is the loving Father.

They manifest in different forms.

Jealousy, violent, bitterness, negativity, death, unforgiveness, hatrate and many others.

They lie to you to do things that you dont intend to do it,

unless provoked under certain right situations for them to manifest.

In the past I have absolutely no idea what are all these. I used to be a non believer like many of my blog readers.

Until by chance or I should by God's divine guidance I went to bible college as a 3 month old baby christian.

All along I thought bible college is to train me on leadership quality and ways to uncover my potential.

But,

The moment my teacher told me, you got to learn how to cast out demon.

I went huh . .  . ? ?  like a ghost buster?

Am I harry porter?

Like this?

I kept that doubt.

I am still a new believer.

Then many months down bible college,

learning, experiencing God's love for me,

His faithfulness, His wholesome, I was in fact mesmerized by God.

Faith increase, I gave my life to Jesus.

The time of deliverance or exorism came.

Pastor Mike Cornell took the class for a week of deliverance.

In practical: meaning, we see people getting delivered throughout the whole of the week.

Manifestations of unclean spirits.

Like what is seen in this movie.

I was being delivered too for purification and santification.

What is said in the movie is real,

for we see the manifestation of the unclean spirit,

discern its name and commanded them to get out in the Name of Jesus.

Because in the Name of Jesus all things, angels and even demons have to bow down to Him. It is not about the cross, but the faith we have with the cross of what Jesus did for the human race. Jesus gave us the authority to command all things.

Jesus's name is the Power and Faith is the Authority.

True enough, the unclean spirit really do speak,

they do all they can to deceive you.

Saying you are useless,

they are not afraid,

uncover your secret sins.

They are spirits, they have been around for donkey years and they know the bible more than you do.

Seriously these spirits will jump and do some funny weird moves,

they will scream and shout,

I witness it myself.

I am one of them, I remembered when I was at the altar for deliverance,

I started trembling,

when a fellow classmate wanted to lay her hands over me,

I looked at her arrogantly, and pushes her hands away,

and shouted " Dont touch me " Get your hands off me.

The unclean spirit in me starts to manifest I think,

I am never that rude and crude to people.

I started cursing and swearing out of no reasons.

I told the christian sister, you get lost, sorry you're too weak and I walked away.

Pastor came down, she asked me a few questions.

Looking arrogantly at her.

She said : Do you love Jesus? I replied yes. I do.

Remember he died for you on that cross and gave you freedom.

I started crying non-stop,

all of a sudden she came close and touch my stomach.

She called out, In the name of Jesus Spirit of witchcraft OUT !

I screamed and cough real badly.

She continued, I command you get out of her, you spirit of Pride and Arrogance.

I moved back and tried to get away from Pastor,

I screamed madly and I vomitted.

This goes on . .  and she cast out many unclean spirits from me.

After I was delievered, I filled with the love and comfort of the Holy Spirits.

I fell back on the carpetted floor, panting and thanking God at the same time. 

Deliverance is really tiring.

Its a fight with the spiritual realm.

After that I went around observing manifestations of many of my other classmates.

Some really did acrobat moves.

Some looks as if they are really hating you and wanting to kill you with that much of anger in their eyes. 

I start to learn how to discern spirits.

I remember talking about a classmate sitting next to me, curling on the chair like an eagle with so much of anger.

That was my own deliverance

and

after that

.God sent me on Mission.

By chance or by divine purpose, I do not know what I was suppose to do in that Mission field trip.

Only when I was there.

I realised I am suppose to do deliverance for others.

Seven an exorsist ?

I don't think so.

But at that point when God told me: Do it ! I am with you !

I went ahead with eve and we did deliverance together for the people.

I start to call out and command spirits to get out people after I discern what spirit am I dealing with by the authority given by Jesus.

I just work with the Holy Spirits casting out demons.

They cry and they shout,

nothing new to me.

What I was amazed was,

humans do not understand my language,

meaning, the people I helped they cannot understand English.

Because I only know how to pray in English.

But demons know, they know all languages.

They reacted to my prayers, they manifested.

What is shown in the movie is not fake.

They are real.

I haven seen human vomitting nails out.

But glasses and green slimmy stuffs are real.

The real stuffs are, how amazing and wonderful God is using me,

making me to witness his power and existance.

Honor and praise to Lord Jesus Christ who made me a witness of how he delievered his people from opression.

How the holy spirit works.

That is my experience of deliverance which in hollywood movies they call them Exorcism.

If you ever have that chance, or divine appointment God calls in your life.

You will witness realness for yourself.

For someone, I believe you will.

Let us see when will Father brings it to pass.

This is mine, my testimony for God and his mighty works.

Like what I've always said, if you've been a bankrupt,

you will know how provety feels like.

If you have tasted God's goodness,

you will only thirst for more.

Off The Pill - Weird People

How the hell he can talk so fast ? That's a talent other than I thought only the indian can do it. Truly I am not trying to be racist.

Day 348

Day 348

Sun Vale Avenue

For friends who are closer to me should be aware that I am letting out my shop in Fareast plaza.  I am not winding down the business, so please don't be mistaken. We are going to run on a studio basis for long run and operate on the wedsite base. In the meanwhile, continue to follow the directions God gave. Jesus is good and he truly is.

Debts

I finally breakthrough in debt and living on exccess for accumulation. I can totally understand how does it feels like to be extremely broke. I've been through that even thou I may seems like a Missy for a long period of time. My parents are able, but doesn't mean that I have to live off them at this age 26, it is a shame for me.  Because of pride, I have not dared to ask a single cent frm my parents even when I was super broke. I was forced to take buses, which in the past I would never want to do that. But Living with just 10 bucks in your pocket is not funny, and you can never survive If i insisted on cabbing.  

I've never shared on this, but School of Theology 2010 really stretch me. I was that broke back then living on 10 bucks a day.

Yet I managed to clear my school fees of $1800, I gave tithes 10% of whatever I received faithfully (Thou I was extremely broke) And I pledge a building fund of $2000 when I have zero is my bank account. I have not been working that much in 2010. It was somehow like a year of learning and an increment of capacity for me. I truly do not know how I survived 2010. I guess God is Good, in 2010 although I am in a bad shape of debt, but my investments had been doing pretty well and I am drawing my investments returns for a living.

I still managed to go on mission field to Harbin, and that is the most expensive mission field with compared to others given on the mission field list. Paid about $2000 for mission work.

Amazingly, even when I am broke, I am still able to bless others. I realised money really come from God. Evelyn and I co-shared a new samonite luggage like $400 as love gift for pastor.

Truly, in whatever investments I made, I faithfully gave them to God my 1st 10% of it. God is good. He blessed my reminding 90% and kept it going to the entire 2010.

Tithe your way through the Financial breakthrough

I have Finally breakthrough in my finances as in Feb 2011. After probably less than 8 months of Tithing. My finances improved. I learned to not live based on Pride and Ego. I realised that there are alot things which are not needed in life. I don't need to take a cab everywhere and anywhere I go.

Now I pump petrol for my dad, not meaning I have to drive. Getting dad a credit card for petrol has been a wise choice I guess.

I learn to trust God on my finances because I know God wants me to live my life with exccess money and with abundance. So when God needs me to give the money to so and so, I just give.

Finally in 2011, I breakout of debts officially without any outstanding of Debts nor Loans. I give thanks to God who taught me of His creative ideas to live on exccess. He said to me, from today onwards : I shall never borrow but lend. How wonderful a life will be that we can be always living on exccess, we can give as much as we want yet we do not need to borrow?

Feb 2011 No outstanding bankloans from now onwards and no more debts! God answered my prayers and I made my $1000 tithe this month. My first 10% to God. Thank you father and please bless my reminding 90% and put them into useful means.

God's chain of blessings operates in this manner.

The chain operates in this way

God's blessings financially --> Me --> blessing others financially

I am just a channel God can use me for.

Even for my job

God's instructions --> Me --> God opens the door --> I walk --> Fact find out the needs --> Caring for others --> Give a solution --> Case close

And by caring for other, God secures my income. It goes back to the chain of God's Financial blessings.

Isn't this a wonderful God gave job, that I get paid caring and loving others. Well even thou, sometimes people don't understands or see where I am coming from. Its ok. They will feel it, not because I have the number 1 class products, It is because I care.

I want to help people breakout, and breakthrough finances. I not only help people in wealth accumulations. Most than often I help them to manage their debts, manage their expenses, and when they break out of that, I does the wealth accumulation for them.

My recent appointment, I helped my client to workout his debts ratios and bring his finances to a positive. We can't live our life in negative figures. I prayed for him, (He is a non-believer anyway) for a breakthrough in finance.

God is good, my client recommended his company's HR to me and I am on my way for a cooperate sales solution. Helping a client out of care and not money, in return God gave me a company size of 1000 employees.

I guess very soon, my tithe of $4000 will come, my tithe of $8000 will come and my tithe of $10,000 will come . . . very soon. Because I believe in God's financial rulings. We sow what we reap. I sow my financial blessings in God's hand.

And I strongly believes, I will have the capacity to accumulate and build my tithe to $10,000 every month. For God says : Seven my daughter, you can! God says: I am going to be a multi millionaire and I know I will one day. 1.2 million of income yearly, that is not impossible to be done.

P.s: Dear brothers and sisters in christ. If a simple and unnoticable girl like me knows how to tithe through finances breakthrough, I believe God has a greater purpose for you. That is my financial story and I am a tither.

Day 347

Day 347

Spiritual dryness

Do you remember the blog post when I talk about the 4 seasons in our lives? Spring, summer, autumn and winter.

Spring is over and I am on my way toward this hot and intensive summer. Encountering my spiritual dryness right now. It has been 2 days since I last hear God speaks to me. It is so dry now and I am craving for my spiritual food. I went for Business Breakthrough yesterday and I can't seems to receive.

I am so harden up I do not know why. I don't seems to feel and I can't hear His voice calling. I feel myself falling into a spiral and I do not want this to happen. I started praying about it, and had been chewing on this verse.

Act 3:6 : Gold and sliver I do not have but what I can give you is the name of Jesus, Said Peter. Stand up and walk in the name of Jesus, Peter said to a lame man.

I do not know what does it means? I ask God, who are you referring to? Who is Peter in my life? Who is the lame man? Am I the lame man who have not been relying enough onto you by faith? Or what? Or am I Peter who should command in faith in the name of Jesus of Nazareth?

What can I do? What should I do? It my soul is burdened. I cannot perform in work. I cannot perform in ministry. I cannot teach. I cannot encourage others and I cannot counsel. What is that thing I have to know. What is that burden in me? Why are you not explaining it to me? Where have you been Holy Spirit? I can't hear you! I can't hear your instructions!

I started thinking about bills, debts and my shop. Everything seems to be stagnant all of a sudden! I don't feel like doing anything!

God I just encountered your faithfulness just last Saturday, and I stuck in awe of your greatness of what you have performed for me.

But now, what is wrong with me? What is this ACT3:6 gotta do with my life?  You showed me the verse and you are not explaining it to me?

I was talking to LK, and he told me something. I realised this thing about discipleship had been burdening in my heart for quite awhile. I should talk to EH about it next week when I get to his house. The last thing I will want to do is to fall back to the old Seven.

Back to what happened today.

Why do guys on date always like to go for movies? Can someone tell me why? You know that I do not watch movies with men, other than those 2 buddies zhong and av. Or other than my boyfriend which I do not have any now. Don't talk to me about movies now. I don't have any mood for that. Guys don't try to date me now, you think I care? Frankly speaking the answer is No.

I just told mom yesterday; if you are thinking of me getting married or falling into a relationship, it is going to be a really long haul wait. In my plan, dating is not a priority at all. And getting married might not even happen to me. Have some preparations, so don't pin your hope on me, shift it onto my sister. She is dating a wonderful guy my whole family loves.

I am going to stop here before this angry spirit gets so hotheaded. I am very angry but I do not know what I am angry with. I think I am angry with myself for being incompetent these 2 days. Give me a breakthrough man!

Eminem - Not Afraid

I'm not afraid, because I don't walk alone. God is with me. I will not be afraid.

Day 346

Today, a major fight happened in office. It was servere and their wedding was called off. You ask me as a onlooker and knowing EK. He is a friend I can call upon, a nice colleague but for a lifetime partner, I will probably shake my head. I am not trying to comment on his ability in work in which I've never doubted his capablilty. Well no one is perfect. When there is this, there bound to be that. Thats always the case. I wonder why do people dont like the idea of a pre-marriage counselling session? Because, if it is for me, I will definately want my partner and I to go through that. Marriage is not just an agreement. It is a convenant. It is recognised under civil law as well as God's law. I will never want to get married to a person God disagree. The yoke should not mix. Therefore the saying is as this, at least it applies to me. I can date a non-christian, but I will never get married to one. A family of a different faith causes more problems then you can ever imagine. How to stand strong to fight strongholds, principalities when the yoke is mixed? One party maybe draining life off the other. Husband and wife should be the one who encourages and lift each other up, and not demeaning or running the other party down with verbal hurts. But at least in a christian marriage, when one hurt the other party, the offended one knows how to seek God and pray for their other half. Vice versa. learning to love through God is the best solution in any relationship. Because sometimes, God do instructs us to do things we dont want to, example : apologising for wrongs we have not done. Asking for forgiviness which our pride and ego doesn't say yes to. A non believer Christian or a back slided one will not be able to understand that. I was reminded the other night by a fellow sister in Christ about woman praying for a husband. I did, I really did pray for a husband. Then she was saying this, no wonder we do not have bfs, because we didnt ask for bfs, we asked for a husband. Somehow, I am so sure that the next guy I date, I do not know who lar, but I am pretty sure God did something to my life which is how God can do something to his life too! I will be good and I will be so blessed. God is always good to me and knows what is best for me. AMEN.

Beyoncé - If I Were A Boy

In fact, this is the first time I am watching this MV

I love the scene when she sat at the dressing table,

with that tears down her cheeks.

Ok, Sometimes I wonder,

are man human?

Do they cry too?

I haven seen a man cry for awhile, in fact a yr ago.

mmm, I dont think he still remembers how to cry?

I will love a man when he reveals his weakness to me.

Now you know why,

I've loved that somebody?

Those in church not counted.

Evanescence My Immortal Official Video

I love this too.

Tell me where can I get such roof tops to catch such kind of shots?

I should go and ask my dear girlie sm.

I guess she will be really interested to do,

Or I should just start dating a photographer.

^^ Nice one right? ^^

lolx.



Better still to be like him
^^ so cute!

He dont need to be super good looking, but I have a liking for flamboyant guys.

Evanescence - Lithium MV

Always have this liking for Evanescence MVs. They always projects a taste of brokenness in life, the imperfection and it is beauty to me.

How beautiful imperfections are,

because without imperfections in life,

how boring a life we will live?

What if everyone is so perfect,

all pretty,

all smart,

all good looking.

Then why live a life?

Day 345

Day 345

Valentine is coming, so

1) I decided to get a boyfriend?

so that I can wear this T-shirt.

Or

2) Get myself a ring,

I have never gotten myself any ring in my life before.

I reckon the 2nd task is much much easier instead

so 

I got myself a stone instead.

Well, the true fact is, I wouldn't really much care about a boyfriend or whatsoever.

I am just trying to make myself sound more interesting "^.^ maybe

Day 344

Day 344

A night of conversation with God

You know right, God impressed me last night during prayers. He told me something that amazed me. He said, ly loves me very much. I ask God why? and how He knows. Ok that's a pretty dumb question to ask God, of course God knows everything. God replied: because he left you. 

He loves me so he leaves me?

Think about yourself: you love him very much, because you left him. Can you understand me now? God looks into my heart and said, 2 of you are so identicial in a way, you feel him in you and he feels me in him. So when you feel that is the best for him, he who is ly will feel that is the best for you. Can you see the love he has for you now? Because he knows, the best for you is through him -leaving -you. The best thing to do for you to do is to cut all ties with him. There will be a timing for everything trust me.

Then God ask me again. Do you think I love Jesus? I replied God, of course you do. For Father, you've honored what He did on the cross to be your lamb of sacrifices. Which is why you made his name above all things on earth and crown him the prince of peace. Then God speaks again; If I love Jesus so much, why do he has to die so terribly? Why does Jesus need to shed his blood? I asked God why?  and He says: Because Jesus is my son, he has my heart, he knows how I think. He who is Jesus knows, He has to die to restore human back to their original purpose before Adam falls into sin. Which is why he is willing to sacrifices for love for his people.

Just like Jesus, when he left his disciples, all his disciples were so sad and deversated. But he promised to send a gift to them which is the holy spirits as their helper and comforter to follow everyone of them everywhere and anywhere. Jesus left, so we can get blessed by this spirit of God the Holy spirit. 

It is like Jesus, because he loves his disciples which is why Jesus have to leave.

It is because Jesus left and send the holy spirits to his disciples, his disciples are transformed.

Thomas is no longer doubting Thomas, Fisherman became the famous gospel leaders.

That Peter who always complain and create strive turns into a great preacher who brings in souls for the kingdom of God.

The 12 disciples did wonderful work only when Jesus left.

Then I started thinking. God talks again: Child, you have my heart too, because Jesus now lives in you. Which is why you know how to sacrifices because you know how to love. And that ly guy sacrifices too, because I told him how to love you in My ways. His time of self reflection is the time I can come and shape his character. If you keep condoning in his weakness, he cannot grow. You are hindering my work. And when he condone in your weakness my dear daughter you will always have that burden in you.

You follow me and you left because you want to see ly get blessed. You are in my will, and you obeyed my call.

That is why things happened, that is why you feel happy like dancing, that is why you hear me now.

I have answered your prayers, you want him to have courage, I gave it to him. You want him to be strong, I gave it to him. You want him to grow, I helped him. You want him to be unselfish, I taught him. You want him to stand up on his own, I gave him strength. You want him to be a real responsible man, I will shape him. You want him to hear me, I talk to him. Isn't this what you ask for?

I told God, yes Father in smile, that is exactly what I asked for. God is so good. He reminded me every single detail of what I've been praying for ly. Time is in the Lord's hand. His timing is always perfect. Now I can rest so assurely and happily until my next call for instructions.

* p.s lord: sister evelyn will be on mission field this wednesday to HK. Let your spirit guide her, empower her and to increase her faith through the works you are leading her. Thank you Father.

I will be on mission field when you instructs me to. I miss sister evelyn and pastor Bob, send me out soon Father to be witness of your works through our earthly hands. I have so much burden on China Mission field and Japan. To witness the wonderful work you did for China, use me lord when you see me ready. Brushing up on my chinese by reading Chinese bible daily and conducting chinese bible study. There is a reason why you assigned me to give chinese bible studies even when you know I understand nuts about chinese vocabulary.

Lastly, after God's showing this big picture to me I can say that, this is the first time ever I am so proud of Luoyi. I have once loved a brave man like him.  ^^ We are both going to emerge as the head and grow from glory to glory.

Day 343

Day 343

Sometimes when people ask me about my relationship, it is really hard to explain what I have been through. I simply do not know where to start narrating from. This amazing relationship I had. The only person who can see and feel it as clearly as it is, is only myself and ly.

I truly understands where the both of us is coming from. Especially during the days that we meet up and realised no work is done. I will feel very depress.

Ly is a mirror of myself which is how I derived this out. 2 person who understands each other so well, because we feel each other. We have similarity in strength, so do we have that similarity in weakness. That makes the reason why both of us is unable to lift each other higher in certain situations. We condone the same weakness. We are unable and we sayang each other too much, by sayang-ing we condone to weakness. This time, God answered what I've praying for TOTALLY! Exactly what I prayed for. I just go in my Father's will. Till today, I am still so happy. Finally God lead Ly to do something so amazing and brave! I am so happy for all the things God did for me. And I no need to cry out to Lord about Ly anymore. My prayers of 5173 times are finally answered. Thank you Father, I am still so amazed by work that is done by you through you mighty Hands.  Thank you Father.

Smile !

Orchard Hotel 

 With my girlie

 St Regis Hotel

Happy new year everyone!
and
Surprise!

you will know it soon.
whahaaa . . .

Dont worry I will not do stupid things.

^.^

Day 342

Day 342

Here's it. Remembered I blogged about a burden I had days ago? On Day 340, feeling so much of burden in my heart. I am like seeking so much the past few days and praying for what is it to come. Everytime before I bear off fruits for the Lord, this feeling comes into me, I just couldn't stop praying in spirits.

If you are a fervent reader of my blog, you will see all the ups and down, dying and Resurrection.

Dead -> Cry -> Obey -> Joy

Dead to a certain act, maybe jealousy, hatrate, bitterness, pain, unforgivness, blah blah u know what lar.

Cry because it is painful to face our fear, it is painful to cut something off our heart.

Obey when we listen not to our mind of heart which is always contradicting us but to God's instructions. Tune into God's channel.

And by large, even non-christians have the ability to hear God's instructions and voice. He made us, all of us of a different personality and character, each living human has a part of God. It is just undiscovered.

God can appear in so many forms. You just haven realise that voice in your heart belongs to a Father in heaven. He is guiding you all along. Since young, since you got lost and since when you dont know what to do anymore.

He is always there, but you haven recognise that was him.

Just like when Mary Magdelene saw the resturracted Jesus walking out of the tomb, he thought Jesus was a gardener.

And then after obeying, He rewards us with joy and peace in our heart we cannot explain. Peace and joy is an extremely powerful tool to recognise God's will. You know you're on the right track. Situations seems eeekkkk but God's voice says: Well done, my daughter. I happy enough already. That 4 words from my Daddy God; My Good faithful child.

Then it goes over and over and over again. Each times these process repeat itself, you grow wiser each time, in strength and this is a process of how God cut away naughty parts in our heart causing obstructions in our life.

Which is why there's a saying : Brokenness is Power.

Why do Christians pray in spirits ? aka. praying in tongues.

Frankly I dont understand what I am praying for either. It is a connection that connect you to another realm of things. Well, we will not be able to see what is ahead of us, what kind of situations is there. But God knows. Which is why He sent his own breath who is the Holy Spirits. Holy Spirits is the spirit of God. The spirit of God wants us to pray in spirits to prepare us spiritual for a new challenge which is for us to bear off new fruits. Amazing and wonderful experience. In tears and in joy.

In tears, grateful that my faithful Father is there protecting me and loving me. His love is so real, especially when you hear him talk. Wowerful!

In joy, the holy spirits send bubbles to your stomach and you just couldn't understand where such joy come from. Like me now, I cant stop laughing in a way. The joy is so great I cannot contain in this weak physicial body of mine.

If I haven mention this in my blog, human is made up of 3 components. Body, Spirit and Soul. The human body cannot comprehend why the Spirit is so happy and joyious, the Soul which is our mind comprehend and explain it through hearing God's word, analysing situations, showing you how the holy spirits works. Then bang! You fall into that realm that your body rejoice as well dancing!

That is one reason why when our spirits says: No, dont do that, that is not good. Our body defy. May it be in alcohol, in lust and in whatever kind of comfort. Then our mind will come in (soul) to justify for our actions in analysing it and creating an excuse or whatsoever kind of theory to back up what our body does wrong in.

Which is why in christian walk, we strengthen our spirit with purification of the words, hear God, and see His true intention in our lives. God is never there to judge us, or condemn people. If he is that, He wouldn't have made such an big effort to send his Spirit, His son Jesus to clear our sins on mount Calvary on the cross.

Jesus died and restructured meaning, in all death we may see, it is a begining of life. The restruction. We are given chances and choice for a Restoration. Restoring us back where we fell off. Restoration may incur pain and heartaches and many many other symtoms. But after that snip and cut, chip and hammering. You emerge better and closer to be like God our Father. Like a plant to bearing fruits.

God's breath and spirit are fertilizers. His words are farmers who will cut your branches that doesnt bear fruit. Before any fruit is bear, there are changes, challenges and intensivity of pressures. Cutting and snipping, then Pop goes the fruit. The fruit is able to multiply and the cycle goes again.

Love you so much Jesus. You certainty knows everything. Inside out of me. I was so amazed by all the things you do. I really wondered how you know things, plan and execute it. All things that happened, that make me feel, even to the messages I sent, they trigger effects of your cause and will. Who is the one who directs all situations?

Take this as an exampled.

Met the guys up, drank, talk to mel, called Arvin. Arvin make his choice to not meet us. If Arvin decided to meet us up, I will not have met up with Luoyi. Sang KTV, I sang Jai-ho. Richard buzzed me, went down to butter factory. Luoyi called, I was in butter. I went to meet him. Had the longest prayer ever for him. I was so tired then, also dont know what am I talking about mumbling beside him holding his hands. But I suppose that is part of it. Because that action I did holding his hands and pray is super so De'javu, and De'javu means you are on the right track of where God put in it. Pray until I fell asleep.

And then the next day, my burdens are instantly lifted.Max man! Max till Bao *explode! Happy Till Bao diao also. Super duper max happy till in everyone I meet I want to buy them dinner! Although yesterday I seems so shag... Haaaa, of course shag lar, you try to cry 3 to 4 hours non stop. Ai sey, darn shiok now. Really and really! Nomnomnom, I am going for a shucktie buffet!

Jesus, you are so steady lei. Heee, I love u!