Day 344

Day 344

A night of conversation with God

You know right, God impressed me last night during prayers. He told me something that amazed me. He said, ly loves me very much. I ask God why? and how He knows. Ok that's a pretty dumb question to ask God, of course God knows everything. God replied: because he left you. 

He loves me so he leaves me?

Think about yourself: you love him very much, because you left him. Can you understand me now? God looks into my heart and said, 2 of you are so identicial in a way, you feel him in you and he feels me in him. So when you feel that is the best for him, he who is ly will feel that is the best for you. Can you see the love he has for you now? Because he knows, the best for you is through him -leaving -you. The best thing to do for you to do is to cut all ties with him. There will be a timing for everything trust me.

Then God ask me again. Do you think I love Jesus? I replied God, of course you do. For Father, you've honored what He did on the cross to be your lamb of sacrifices. Which is why you made his name above all things on earth and crown him the prince of peace. Then God speaks again; If I love Jesus so much, why do he has to die so terribly? Why does Jesus need to shed his blood? I asked God why?  and He says: Because Jesus is my son, he has my heart, he knows how I think. He who is Jesus knows, He has to die to restore human back to their original purpose before Adam falls into sin. Which is why he is willing to sacrifices for love for his people.

Just like Jesus, when he left his disciples, all his disciples were so sad and deversated. But he promised to send a gift to them which is the holy spirits as their helper and comforter to follow everyone of them everywhere and anywhere. Jesus left, so we can get blessed by this spirit of God the Holy spirit. 

It is like Jesus, because he loves his disciples which is why Jesus have to leave.

It is because Jesus left and send the holy spirits to his disciples, his disciples are transformed.

Thomas is no longer doubting Thomas, Fisherman became the famous gospel leaders.

That Peter who always complain and create strive turns into a great preacher who brings in souls for the kingdom of God.

The 12 disciples did wonderful work only when Jesus left.

Then I started thinking. God talks again: Child, you have my heart too, because Jesus now lives in you. Which is why you know how to sacrifices because you know how to love. And that ly guy sacrifices too, because I told him how to love you in My ways. His time of self reflection is the time I can come and shape his character. If you keep condoning in his weakness, he cannot grow. You are hindering my work. And when he condone in your weakness my dear daughter you will always have that burden in you.

You follow me and you left because you want to see ly get blessed. You are in my will, and you obeyed my call.

That is why things happened, that is why you feel happy like dancing, that is why you hear me now.

I have answered your prayers, you want him to have courage, I gave it to him. You want him to be strong, I gave it to him. You want him to grow, I helped him. You want him to be unselfish, I taught him. You want him to stand up on his own, I gave him strength. You want him to be a real responsible man, I will shape him. You want him to hear me, I talk to him. Isn't this what you ask for?

I told God, yes Father in smile, that is exactly what I asked for. God is so good. He reminded me every single detail of what I've been praying for ly. Time is in the Lord's hand. His timing is always perfect. Now I can rest so assurely and happily until my next call for instructions.

* p.s lord: sister evelyn will be on mission field this wednesday to HK. Let your spirit guide her, empower her and to increase her faith through the works you are leading her. Thank you Father.

I will be on mission field when you instructs me to. I miss sister evelyn and pastor Bob, send me out soon Father to be witness of your works through our earthly hands. I have so much burden on China Mission field and Japan. To witness the wonderful work you did for China, use me lord when you see me ready. Brushing up on my chinese by reading Chinese bible daily and conducting chinese bible study. There is a reason why you assigned me to give chinese bible studies even when you know I understand nuts about chinese vocabulary.

Lastly, after God's showing this big picture to me I can say that, this is the first time ever I am so proud of Luoyi. I have once loved a brave man like him.  ^^ We are both going to emerge as the head and grow from glory to glory.