Day 361

^^ Surrendered to His awesomeness once again. I went for the church leaders meeting conducted by Pastor Kong. Surrendered to God's goodness. I kneeled down and started crying. Not crying because I am sad. I kneeled down because I am totally amazed by the Holy spirit. He filled me again. My tears flows like tap non stop. God, you are really so amazing and your pressence is so tangible. Pastor Kong Thank you, without you I really do not know where will I be. In the past I dont know why so many people speak so highly of you. But now, I understands. Thank you pastor, thank you sun. 

Day 360

Been unhappy for a few days counting. Don't know what is wrong with me. Lousy foul habit I have, whenever I am unhappy I buy Prada. Bought a clutch wallet, and a  dress from Prada. A BCBG and a Kate Spade dress.  I am losing somewhere and I dont know where.  I am bored. Thank God somehow, I'll be meeting Eve later on today. I need to get on somewhere, somehow. I did what Perry said. I dont feel like talking anymore now. 

Pray

Pray for Japan. Praying for hope. Praying for suvivors to not give up. Dont give up in God, and God wants them to be alive. Churchwide prayers for Japan. I dont know why each time when i pray for china and japan, I will tear. What is that burden in me, why I feel so much of these 2 countries. My dearest friends in Japan, my fellow japanese SOT mates, let us push on strong in spirit and make this disaster of an outcome for souls for the Lord's kingdom. All things will eventually work for Good for those who love God, called according to His purpose. Oh btw, I am discussing with my artist for my comic. For every single one character in my Blog, you will receive my book. A comic I want to delicate to God, a comic to thank each and every single one who crosses path with me in my life. This comic is exclusive and not for sale. If you receive one, you are someone I want to thank for taking part in my life. You will be amazed with my comic. stay tune!

Trying to be

Have a question him. Who is him, you dont know him. I want to ask him, why is him not coming back to God? After so long, oh well, he certainly knows God. He is someone I met only twice, but it seems that we have a certain level of likeness and similarities. I wont deny that the first time I met him, I was kind of attracted to him. He is just too outstanding to not notice him. He looked at me, and say birthday girl, neh !! We cannot get along and I dont intend to as well. But I just pray that he can make his way back home, and I will see him again. I somehow feel him, sad for too long already, like me, come back to God our Father. Be praying for you brother. God is always funny, as he always get me to intercede for people I really dont want to pray for. Well, really hope that you can be happier and not always too chim for me to integrate. P.SSS: sent a stupid msg to Mr LY wu last night; dont what am I thinking also, siao liao. and I really like that,  Insomia  u know, I tell you my story later in a more detailed post. My eyes open big big till 5am just now. REVALATIONS. HAIYA....

Day 359

Day 359

I'll start and end my post today with this.

I smile and I laugh

I snuggle and chuckles

I was well accompanied

I slided up and slided down with my fingers

I sat on my seat and I started laughing

laughing at my text

laughing at a picture

it is good

what is there to be shy about; silly boy

remembering what you've said,

You got it, flaunt it !

You know I've always like you,

like your determination,

like your character,

like your frankness towards me.

Many times,

I wish I can be like you.

truly . . . .

Behind that smile and chuckles I had,

behind that colourful Prada dress I wore,

behind that curly tonged hair I had,

there hide a doubtful self today.

Behind the back of Me,

it lies an I today,

the self backslided,

self had backslided into self doubt.

I dress in colours to hide my grey attitude today.

You know I am always weak,

which is why I need you God.

The moment I woke up,

the moment I brush my teeth.

What a stressful day

I am a human and I do have downturn and emotional day

hectic work loads

I am sorry Father,

I forgot to put you first today,

I woke up with questions,

I woke up with doubts of my self today.

I am sorry Father,

I forgot to put you first today,

I woke up relying on my own strength,

and lord, I felt powerless today.

I am sad.

Lord I only made a submission of 2 cases today,

I rely on my own,

I need you lord,

I need your empowerment,

your empowerment is true power.

Teach me how to run 5 appointments again,

teach me how to submit 5 cases daily again.

I need you Father,

without you I am nothing.

Lord lord lord,

I cry out to you.

Let me fear not

breathe new life into me,

I need you my best friend,

I need you my dear holy spirit.

I need you to open doors

to open hearts

to give love through me

I am sorry Father,

I slip simplicity off my mind today,

you taught me to be as simple as possible.

I had been thinking too much.

Renew my soul and refresh my mind.

I need you Father.

I am going to dash this crazy weekend,

and I really need you.

I need your favor.

I need your love.

I just need you.

I am nothing without you.

I want to be a prayer warrior but turned out to be a prayer worrier today

Like what you've did for Debora,

do it for me.

Like what you've did it for Kelvin,

do it for me.

Let me fall into your arms,

back into your arms of simplicity,

back into your arms of joy,

back into your presence.

When there is a sudden dampness in my eyes,

I do not know why,

I felt you working deep in my heart again.

Dad, let me hide in your shelter tonight and seek refuge under your wings.

I feel so small today.

Tiny min-ly small.

Father, please let me be truly MYSELF,

ME and just myself.

To say what I really mean and to do what I really mean ~.~

I am just a human,

I cant be 24/7 happy and optimistic

Yes and this,
Angel is right;
we just have to love God and reflect who you are in our lives.
Just love from God is well enough.



Like this (ll)

Like This (ll)

What does it takes for a women to go on a relationship date with a guy ?

1) I've circled enough and I realised if a man wanted me SOOO much, then he would have the guts to go all out !

2) I Don't want to date a wrong guy anymore, so there should be stringent checks before I ever step into a relationship again.

Just 2 simple notes. Seems I am a quite datable girl.

I found out a few points when I was on my journey back. I should start to listen to feedbacks.

By stating this out, It seems totally impossible that I am going to get hitch. But well, my future is with God. Why worry ?

Ok God I have following more specifications of the man I am going to get married to.

He has to pass through these screening.

1) He needs approval of my close friends.

Why ? Because I love my friends. I led a balance lifestyle. My friends have to approve him. I dont want to get stuck in the middle where all my friends hate my husband or bf.

Who are they ? Of course, my girles/buddies Holly, Hx, Joz, Roy, Arv, Zhong.

80% votes to pass.

2) He needs to pass through my spiritual family

Why ? Because this spiritual family they have high discernment power! They x-ray character, personality, and ability.

Who are they ? Perry, Sherry, Stanley, Allen gege and Jamshed. You need a 100% pass for this.

3) He needs ultra scan from my spiritual leaders.

Why ? Because after X-rays they are the ultra scan. Leaders have the ability to outburst hidden potential/stretch/explore what is in it of you. I learn to trust them. They are amazingly super sonic waves that you cannot, not believe in their judgement.

Who are they ? Of course, EH and Jan, they are my direct superior.

It seems like they just know what are you up to. I dont know why.

So, Maybe I will just stay single for the rest of my life, unless God does something about this, for my specifications seems like searching for a needle in the haystack.

Like this !

Listening to Sermon daily has been a Good habit now. And I specially love this one by Pastor Kong, we are male by birth BUT MAN by CHOICE. All MAN says. and the Men in our congreation say.: AMEN ! All of a sudden you felt some MUSCULINE power. That is what Men ministry is all about.

 Be a MAN and not MIAN.

Your ability of a man is not judge by

1. HOW MUCH MONEY YOU HAVE.  

2. HOW MUSCULAR YOU ARE.

3. HOW HANDSOME YOU ARE.

Being a real man is.

 1. HOW MUCH PRESSURE ARE YOU WILLING TO SHOULDER.

2. HOW MUCH RESPONSIBILTY DO YOU DARE TO HONOR.

3. HOW MUCH OF CAPACITY CAN YOU HOLD FOR PEOPLE YOU LOVE.

So, how many Man have I dated? I realised, my answer is none. I've only dated BOYS and not MEN. Hello ! Welcome to my world ! So, if one fine day, I start to have a relationship again. I am sure, you will be screen. I will send you to eagle eyes for x-ray before I even date you. You find it ridiculars, but I am sorry, but I just have to say this, BECAUSE,  I AM TOTALLY WORTH IT ! HA! HA! i m quite happy to see failed applicants in fact, they freaked out. If you freak out in such SMALL situations, how can I even trust you on Bigger ones! FAILED ! just nice, im done, I've reached my apt destination. CIAO..

USA for Africa - We Are The World (w/M.Jackson) + Lyrics HQ

We are God's children,

a choice we make, that will set us free.

We start giving and loving one another.

There will be a day where everyone can come in peace.

The lyrics says,

if God can turn stone into bread,

he can change your life of despair into hope.

Just maybe one day,

you will be like me,

you woke up one day,

and realised you need God in your life.

Amen.

Day 358

Day 358

Negativity
warning - This is a very long post

No!

Cannot be done!

Impossible!

FML!

My Life Sux!

It is like a piece of Shit!

It is going to get WORST !

ARhgGGGG !!!!

Is that what you have been saying everyday?

Do you know something?

You have been pre-conditioning your sub conscious mind for all these HAPPENINGS!

You have been telling your sub-conscious mind to make all these happen to you!

Here's the catch,

The MORE you talk about it, the more it is going to happen in your life.

Let us look into our mind!

What is it make up off?

You are right!

Our Consicous and Sub-conscious mind

Alright, I'll tell you something about our Conscious mind.

They are what we want!

Our sub-conscious?

 Our sub-conscious is a horrible YES man.

If Our sub-conscious mind is a Christian.

What ever you say, your sub-conscious mind will go

AMEN!

By the way if you do not know what AMEN means,

it means : say amen to express strong approval of or support for (an assertion, hope, etc)

It is a greek term.

It means YES, OK, APPROVAL

.

Alright, take a look at this :

You say: Fark, I look FAT !

Your conscious mind registered,

and that hopeless sub-conscious mind says:

AMEN ! YES ! You are FAT !

Your sub-conscious mind will go all the way to make it come into reality.

So, what has it got to do with negativity?

You attract all the negativity to you.

Sometimes while you are reading my blogpost and feel that some postings I made were absurb max. It is a system of believe. A believe that it will come true for me. A believe I've conceived in me.

Joseph

Let us look at my super best friend Joseph. Joseph is my best example other than Jesus Christ. When Joseph was a little boy, Joseph loves to dream. He has 10 elder brothers. One day young Joseph had a dream. He dreamt that he is a king and he has all his brother bowing in front of him. Young Joseph woke up excitingly and ran to his brothers. He told his brothers his dream. His brothers got angry and think he is mad crazy. This youngest brother of ours, our daddy's boy, is crazy and mad crazy. All his brothers hated Joseph, they find him absurb.

I am like Joseph. Since age 20 I wanted a pair of twins, one boy and one girl. I am 27 this year and I have never gave up on my pair of twins together with my happy future family. I think everyone think that I am crazy, the mission seems even absurb impossible when  X X X X X X X x x x x x X X X X X  is my secret with God. I do not want to reveal my X X X X X at this point of time. I am hopeful. Totally hopeful ! I have never gave up on that. I just trust God on that. I have did my best and God will do the rest. God can never fail me.

One day when Joseph was delivering lunch to his brothers. His brothers plot to kill this stupid Joseph dreamer. They tie Joseph up and throw him into a hole.

Young Joseph is only 16 years old then, he was crying, crying out for his brother. Brothers please why are you doing this to me? Everytime I think about Joseph at this point I feel him. He was betrayed by the people he thought who will protect him, yet they threw him away and left him to die.

I've once been threw away by someone before as well. Someone whom I thought will protect me. Not just once but many times by the same person. I was always the lamb at that time of sacrifices. The lamb has got nothing to retaliate. The lamb just tear and accept because of one thing the lamb knows. The lamb understands and know what is love.

That was how Joseph became my best friend. But Joseph told me, my brothers didnt just threw me into the hole to die. They saw a group a Egyptian traders and they sold me away to Egypt as slave. I was a slave in a foreign land. I have nothing left. No dreams, no hope, no nothing. I was sold to a rich man. I was only 16 years old.

But do you know this Seven, I didnt hate my brothers. I just asked God why. God didnt tell me why, I was only 16 then and God cannot tell me why; because I wouldn't understand. I trust God, in my time I dont have the bible, I dont know what are the promises of God. But I hear from God that he says, all things will work for Good for those who love Him according to His purpose, so I believe and trusted God.

Joseph didnt blame but work all he can as a slave in the rich man's house. Because God is with Joseph for he didnt blame. God prosper Joseph as a slave. Imagine how can a slave propser? The meaning of a slave is someone without wages, no holidays, no benefits nothing! Joseph was great with God, the rich man made Joseph in charge of all his household like the head steward in his house. Joseph became a GM in the household. Imagine the rich man is Donald Trump today, Joseph is a very rich man. GM to Donald Trump.

It's getting long, I'll switch it to comtempory in my way.

Joseph is in high favour of Trump, which gain favour with Trump's wife. Trump's wife tried to seduce Joseph. But Joseph is a righteous man. He said NO! Trump trusted Joseph so much and Jo will never sleep with his wife. Jo ran away, but Trump's wife grabbed hold of his jacket. She took that and accused Jo of seducing her!

Cut the story short, Jo was being thrown to prison.

Sometimes in life, we are accused for the things we didnt do wrong with. But that happens. We offend people when we didnt mean it. It is proven that bad things do happen to good people. And guess what God allows it to happen. Like the sun that shine on the good and the wicked, good things can happen to bad people, and bad things on good people. We have to accept it. But dont forget the promise of God, All things; Not just some. ITS ALL THINGS eventually work for GOOD for those who loves God.

I am hearing Joseph out, his feelings. The best part I love Joseph so much, he did not grumble or complain. Bitch about life nor did he fark it upside down. Joseph cried and he was in prison. He kept telling God, God I know there must be a reason. There must be a purpose for it. When bad things happened in my life.  I felt so accused, feeling so bad and unjustified. I dont deserve all these. I learn not to trust on my own feelings but to trust God's will. Each time I faced sorrows, I cry to God. I told him like what Joseph did. God I saw something bad, I wished I haven see it or hear it. I wish I wasnt there when this thing happened. But I learn to trust God, I said, what Joseph said, there must be a reason, a purpose. God I will not grumble. Let your grace be upon me and walk me through.

It is getting really lengthy I'm going to stop here. You want to hear my story, you wait for part 2. I assured you in part 2, you are going to see something else.

Something I want to say before I end of the day, I found out today, impressed into me again while I was driving. God told me this again, dont give up. I didnt allow you to do that. He said, I am love, whoever abides in love abides in me. An image flashes across, I tried very hard to convince myself that image is not from God because I really do not want to follow. It is hard to follow. I dont want to make life difficult for myself for thinking in that direction. God really gave me an impossible image, He told me to pray. Pray for him. I obeyed eventually because the devil will never ask you to pray for someone else. God, I've did my BEST-est BEST. The rest is really up to you Father.  

Day 357

Ok, here is it. I've decided to pursue another degree course. I am going to study something I am good in. A course I managed to score straight As during my diploma. I am going for a degree in Theology. 又要回去读神学院啦! But this time round is a degree for 4 years. I am not going to chiong the whole 4 years. I've decided to take my time, by just taking 2 modules per semester. After much research, I found out that the top Universities like Harvard and Princeton started off as bible school universities. This is really out as an interest and my love for God I want to know him more. Studying on Hebrew and Greek to go deeper inlove with my Lord. Dont ask me if someday I will become a pastor, an evangelist, a reverend. The fact is I've never wanted to be one. I am simple. I study not to become one of them, but just to satisfy my own hunger for the word of God. I am not going to Harvard or Princeton, out of budget constrain, you know they are expensive, I am settering in Trinity. First, see if my application can go through or not. Somehow, I am wondering, why would anyone verdict that studying Theology, you got to be a pastor? Who says if I studied law I have to be a lawyer? Right? Vickie is a First class honors Engineering PEEE, she ended up a fashion designer, the boss of butter factory, living her dream. Whats wrong with that? When I told my boss, he gave me a very funny analogy, NCC has ps prince, maybe one day we have princess seven. -.-''

Baccarat Magazine - Stephen Fung 馮德倫 - June August 2010 Cover Shoot

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Christina Aguilera - Beautiful

Shine on people,

being beautiful is a believe,

once you believe you are going to be,

you will be !

It is not looking in the mirror everyday saying how bad you are,

but looking into the mirror with a smile,

believing in beauty.

That believe will transform your physical.

It is hard to imagine this,

I believed so hard that I am not going to lose any weight when I am suffering from food poisoning

and

that believe holds on.

I just weigh myself on the bathroom scale.

I did not lose any weight.

In the past,

I always believed that I am not going to put on weight,

I am so skinny, which is why the reason I cant!

But now,

Everytime when people tells me this,

you are skinny,

I replied, mind you I am on a well weight gaining diet.

Shoo off from me.

When people who hasn't seen me for awhile said,

hey looking good Seven,

I go, Thank you better to be coming on the way.

I believe its the attitude.

Who says you need to go underknife to have bigger boobs,

Lipo for a firmer ass?

Seven say: No need, by believing it, your body works for you.

You tell them where to accumulate healthy fats and where to lose them.

Dont underestimate what your subconsicous mind can do for you in obtaining a perfect figure.

Our subconscicous mind works wonders,

internally and externally showing out in your physical.

If believing is not the case,

please explain why people put on weight even though they only had 1 meal a day?

Changing a new believe system,

I will be beautiful !

I am beautiful !

Ok now, boobs grow by another 1/2 cup size,

you come to a full Bcup

and

Ass, you just got to be firmer.

Shoulders you gotta be more meaty and firm,

and

tummy I want you to turn into a 4 pack abs.

My life long goal, : To look like a teenager even being a mum of 2.
Show you something
Each time I look at Carol,
she looks like a kid to me,
but she is a mom of 2 kids.
one 15 and one 13
Why are my church mommies all looked so young!
All they replied was,
the lord is their joy!

My god, Carol looked even younger than me.
I met her yesterday for dinner with Pastor and Pastor was like,
Yy, how blessed you've married a wife who gives you 2 children yet looks like a teenager!

Eh, future husband of mine,
you are going to be so blessed to have me 10/15 years later.
and I believe in this : 2 should not be unequally yoked.

Because my husband/boyfriend have to know how to pray for me.
How to speak to situations, and conquor mountains, hold prayer meetings, he needs to be a prayer warrior.

I maybe 45 by then but still looks so youthful !
The lord is my joy hhaaaa . . .
People in the 60s looks like in the 40s,
people in the 50s looks like in the late 30s,
and people in the 40s looks like my age.

OMG!
show you another one

Always like pastor Phil,

he is a grandpa of dont know how many grandchildren.

He should be in his 60s

Smile :)

All things will eventually work for good for those who loves God called according to His purpose.

I am going to stay as it is till I reached my 50s or even 60s.
hehehh. . .
Like what pastor kong always say, we need grooming.

U2 - Beautiful Day

Always love the U2 band!

The band of God's Grace.

I love their concert where the lead singer shouted

: I am not going to be sorry for loving Jesus

Thank you God!

Day 356

Day 356

Thank you for reading my blog; readers from UAE, China, Morocco, Italy and regular readers from Singapore and United states.

Suffered from a bad food poison a few days ago and was puking so heavily. There ~~ when someone is in bad shape like me for food poisoning, grumbling starts. There's how blogpost 355 was out. A blogpost full of resendment and grumbling. Nah nah nah, Its over, had an injection early Saturday morning. Oh, I guess too much beef for the whole of last week.

Last wednesday was a good day I had an outing with all my dearest, brought them out for a good meal at Ritz carlton.

Didnt managed to grab alot of photos but glad enough and God is so Good,

I had a wonderful piece of Good News from my dearest.

+ Shhhh, Gee it is meant to be a secret for the current moment +

It is definately a Good Piece of news worth celebration!

 * * * * *

Other than that,

Hx asked me something: Why Av always like a blockhead de ah?

Me: He is always like that what . . .

Hx: -.-"

Me: He is a really smart guy dont see him always "mutou ren", he just keep quiet only.

Oh by the way:

Next Thursday is the last day of my shop's operation,

I need help to paint the shop before my sub tenant come.

Wednesday/Thursday night, I need help.

and

blockhead, Your Christian Audigier is still in my shop -.-"

Help me paint my shop!

and Bye Fareast Plaza,

Hello Online business,

Hello Toh Guan Office.

It is kind of sad in a way, we've spent really well effort in making the shop up,

but well, reality is changes,

and changes are inevitable.

* * * * *

And many times I wish I could be stronger,

like King David who slays Goliath,

Like Elijah who brings down fire,

Like Moses who have the faith to part the Red Sea,

Like Joseph who always have the right attitude even though he was betrayed,

Like Joshua who marches around the wall of Jericho,

Like Jesus who trust God so completely even till the last hour God forsaken him.

I am just a mere human, I have my fear, my relectant and many many other things. I am hearing appeals already, up there! Heros of Faith shouting down from heaven, Hello - -  we are humans too . . .  Stop the grumbling crap. I will just cut it here.

Joseph I need help!

Day 355

Dear God, you know I am not that strong, and I faces challenges all the time. My heart and my body is in constant war, my Spirit longs for you. Everyday, these 3 parts of me are having war. You are a God who answers prayers, and you are a God who hears my cry. Father, I am weak, which is how your strength grows in me. Father, I longed for someone and you know him all along, and you've hear all my prayer for him. I had been praying for him all along, every single night without fail. Not for my own benefit but for his. Praying for his responsibility, maturity and courage. It is difficult when I have to hold myself back to obey what you have told me to do. I cannot move unless you tells me to move. God, why must you always make me do things I dont want to? Why must you always say the opposite of what I want to do? Why do you have to tell me to continue what I am doing every night? Why must I pray for him and lift him up in prayers? You know God, he will never pray for me, he dont know how and he will not do that even he knows how to. All the visions you showed in me, will that even come to pass? All the feelings you put in me is that even true? You keep telling me the things I cannot see.  I am tired lord, really really tired. I need your anointing and your mighty hands to lift me up once more. You got to do something Father. Help me lord, I am so burned out with all the war around me and in me. Give me a direction and renew my mind. Let me rely on you, fully on you Jesus. Jesus, ur always near to the weak and broken. Revive me once more. Amen. AND, joseph, CAN YOU HEAR ME? Joseph you just got to teach me SOMETHING?! CHEER ME UP JOSEPH, SON OF JACCOB. 

Nothing Is Impossible - Planetshakers (City Harvest Church)

This is the DNA I guess ^^

I used to think christians are crazy and out of the world kind.

When I got touched,

I realised, ! Woah ~ ~ ~

Amazing!

I am one of the on fire one of them.

What cares if you are nuts or crazy ?

As long as you succeed in life, be the top, be the head and not the tail, be a history maker, change the world man.

who cares you are crazy or not crazy.

You just make a difference in people's life.

Greatest Ideas usually comes from crazy people.

Imagine the guy who invented paper clips.

Toilet paper.

Post it pad.

People once think they are crazy too.

But who cares.

They are multi billionaires

City Harvest Church: "Freedom" Worship Song Music Video*

Freedom in life

I love this place on earth,

the house of God.

We had our last service in Expo last saturday.

It was super hype up,

you can imagine Christina and myself dancing in the service,

Christina was doing her indian dance,

while I was jumping on my feet along with another 3 who were next to me.

Yey we serve a good God.

Where on earth can you find a place with so much of joy,

that you dont even care about a dah  . . .

I was too happy, not high on alcohol but so super joyful,

I cant stop laughing and dancing on my feet as the musicians play.

I even saw Enghan dancing, being such a stern man who is my leader,

he abit uncle uncle, so his dance is in slow motion.

Seeing pastor kong so happy dancing on the stage strumming on his imaginative guitar,

everyone is church is so happy!

Expo, we will miss you !

At the same time SUNTEC Convention,

lets rock the world with love! 

It's the best club ever.

Pumped up, motivated, on fire, lets conquor uncertainty and be history makers in life.

My love, my spiritual home

City harvest Church.

Day 354

Day 354

My dearest children; Everlyn Dorcus and Ezekiel Daniels,

When the both of you are in me, I talk to you and I show you how much I love you. You are with me when I pray to God our Father in heaven. You are so precious and I adore the both of you. We sing praises and worships to God together, we dance and commute with God. I blesses you with all encouragements that you will be strong children of God. Everlyn that you will grow up a bright and beautiful lady with immersed wisdom and discernment. You have beautiful double eye lids like mummy, long curly lashes, big beautiful eyes, sharp nose like your daddy and a character of both daddy and mummy; strong and living life with strength of victors. Ezekiel you will grow up strong and honorable, with strength and capcity as a man. You will be like daddy, tall and dark, good-looking and sharp.Both of you are beautiful children of God. Daddy and mummy are angels sent by God to protect you.

When you are born, we love you and nurse you with physical and spiritual milk send by our God in heaven. You hear us pray and you see us pray. My children, daddy and mummy loves you. Your daddy is a great man. He is the physical and spiritual support for us. He is a responsible man of great wisdom and often pray for mummy; for daddy is a prayer warrior in our family. He spend long hours in his prayer for us, your daddy is a great man children. Your daddy is a man of God, for he knows God is the one who gives him this wonderful family. Daddy always watches mummy's back for me and lift me up in prayers when times get difficult. Therefore, I pray to God that one day, you will be like daddy, a prayer warrior in the family. Your daddy is a king in the marketplace as well as a priest. He is a wonderful leader in the international platform, he is a priest in our family.

During the baby delication when the both of you are 1 year old, daddy and mummy delicated the both of you to God. To tell you, we are leaving the both of you on God's altar. That the 2 of you will learn to have a relationship with our Father in heaven yourself. You will grow up in church; a place that touches mummy, a place that united daddy and mummy. A church daddy and mummy calls it our spiritual home, a place our family calls City Harvest. You have seen daddy and mummy pray during prayer time and you learn how to pray like how daddy and mummy does all the time.

When the both of you are 5 years old, you saw daddy and mummy on stage sharing our testimony to the church of how the church holds us together. Of how God found daddy, and how God taught mummy to pray for daddy when he was lost. How God made daddy a real man and led the both of us into a covenant of marriage. Our family is build on a God who loves us wholeheartedly. Children, both of you were in me when daddy decided to come to School of Theology after God has spoke to us. Our family attended SOT together and you are brought out to the world with all blessings of God. Children, you have to give thanks to God in heaven, for without him, daddy will never have a chance to find mummy. Mummy took 5 years to pray for daddy before daddy found God. You have to understand my beloved. God is always faithful and his promise is everlasting.

You will grow strong in the presence of God, learning to be obedient to God all the time. You do not fear when school gets difficult, and you are not afraid when the biggest school bully picks on you. Because you know God is always with you. Even when daddy and mummy is not around all time protect you children, you understands that God is. Everlyn, you will learn to pray for you younger brother when he is discourage, and Ezekiel, you will pray for your sister when she faces difficulties in life. Two of you are in me when you are inside of mummy, and mummy always teaches you to pray for each other in your own quiet time.

My children, you will grow strong in God for you know he is the only one you can trust in life. Be godly child of God and fear God not because he will punish you servely when you do wrong but know that God loves you more than anyone else. You do not want to grieve God or make him sad.

One day, daddy and mummy have to leave you and go back to God. But do not be sad, for even when daddy and mummy leaves you, God is still with the both of you. You are blessed children of God, continue to shine for the Glory of God and be salt and light of the world.

Your mummy

Drafted in 2011

You may find this post incredibly absurb, but you will find this amazingly shocking when this come to pass like what I've said. 2 days ago, God told me; there will be a timing when I publish my blog into books that will be selling on shelves of all the book stores. I know that God honor his promises. He is my most faithful reader here.

Day 353

For the whole of today, I am filled in love, the love of my Jesus. I looked above this morning and I smiled. I smiled at him the moment I opened my eyes cuddling in His pressence. He spoke to me and assured me a wonderful today. He is my God. God's love filled me so much that gives me strength. His love is strength for me. To continue loving and not fear. He alone has placed His pressence into me. I love you God, my Father, my first love. I never know God can be so close to me, and so near to me. I have alot of love to give, God's love in me overflows. I start using this love to love people. the broken, the poor, the handicap, the mentally challenged, the widow. I haven had a chance to love the terminally ill, but I know God will place me there once I am ready. God has never put me in places I wasn't for. Today is the last service in Expo hall 8, I am going to miss you Expo, for you are my first love too, we had been working together in Expo, serving people, serving delegates from all over the world. + you know, I really love you God, and the house you put me in +  Thank you Father, and I know you are using us, all your children, we will transform a community out of love and we can change the world; bringing down heaven onto earth. Bless the Sri lanka mission team lord, may your hands be with them. Bless the Christchurch earthquark rescue team, let them be your vessel to help and comfort the broken hearted. Amen.