Day 355

Dear God, you know I am not that strong, and I faces challenges all the time. My heart and my body is in constant war, my Spirit longs for you. Everyday, these 3 parts of me are having war. You are a God who answers prayers, and you are a God who hears my cry. Father, I am weak, which is how your strength grows in me. Father, I longed for someone and you know him all along, and you've hear all my prayer for him. I had been praying for him all along, every single night without fail. Not for my own benefit but for his. Praying for his responsibility, maturity and courage. It is difficult when I have to hold myself back to obey what you have told me to do. I cannot move unless you tells me to move. God, why must you always make me do things I dont want to? Why must you always say the opposite of what I want to do? Why do you have to tell me to continue what I am doing every night? Why must I pray for him and lift him up in prayers? You know God, he will never pray for me, he dont know how and he will not do that even he knows how to. All the visions you showed in me, will that even come to pass? All the feelings you put in me is that even true? You keep telling me the things I cannot see.  I am tired lord, really really tired. I need your anointing and your mighty hands to lift me up once more. You got to do something Father. Help me lord, I am so burned out with all the war around me and in me. Give me a direction and renew my mind. Let me rely on you, fully on you Jesus. Jesus, ur always near to the weak and broken. Revive me once more. Amen. AND, joseph, CAN YOU HEAR ME? Joseph you just got to teach me SOMETHING?! CHEER ME UP JOSEPH, SON OF JACCOB.