I am just a simple and ordinary
human being. I know he is enjoying his life being single and he is happy about each and everyday. I know that he wont even bother about me anymore thats why I am pen-ing whatever I felt and did in my private space which I called my blog. I guess he wont even be reading this. My blog knows that I am struggling to keep myself alive. Being a Zombie day to day, getting professional help to keep my heart beating like a human being. I feel like a loser. A core damn loser. Why cant I be just like him? Sometimes how I wish there is such medication on earth to forget someone entirely. I just misses him that much. At least seeing him being happy everyday makes me feel at ease, at least he is healthy and happy. But when the night fall, I just cant help but to miss him like crazy as I know, I can only view him from far just like any other audience. I will always remember the kisses he gave on my forehead on the train the other day and tells me that he cant bear to leave me. Well, I will still be doing the usual stuffs like I does everyday, to pray for him, being sound and safe. At least he is still happy and I will be glad enough to watch him from the audience seat to see him succeed and reminisce on the days we used to have. Those tough but sweet old days we used to have. Deep down in me, he will always be my precious little hubhub, and I am sure time will not corrode the amount of care I have in him.
human being. I know he is enjoying his life being single and he is happy about each and everyday. I know that he wont even bother about me anymore thats why I am pen-ing whatever I felt and did in my private space which I called my blog. I guess he wont even be reading this. My blog knows that I am struggling to keep myself alive. Being a Zombie day to day, getting professional help to keep my heart beating like a human being. I feel like a loser. A core damn loser. Why cant I be just like him? Sometimes how I wish there is such medication on earth to forget someone entirely. I just misses him that much. At least seeing him being happy everyday makes me feel at ease, at least he is healthy and happy. But when the night fall, I just cant help but to miss him like crazy as I know, I can only view him from far just like any other audience. I will always remember the kisses he gave on my forehead on the train the other day and tells me that he cant bear to leave me. Well, I will still be doing the usual stuffs like I does everyday, to pray for him, being sound and safe. At least he is still happy and I will be glad enough to watch him from the audience seat to see him succeed and reminisce on the days we used to have. Those tough but sweet old days we used to have. Deep down in me, he will always be my precious little hubhub, and I am sure time will not corrode the amount of care I have in him. 
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