Why?

Why is it so difficult to get him off my mind?

day and night.

Sigh.

I abandon my plans for movies with zhong zai and decided to stay home for the evening until ken ring by and asked my out for coffee.

He picked me up and we headed to Holland Village, for some chills.

He asked me what am I doing at home on a Saturday night? and Where is my boy?

Joking I replied, we're buddy buddy, following up after him.

As he just ended his relationship not long ago.

He wasn't caught up with surprise,

he simply told me,

The first look he got to know him,

he knows; less than a year.

Well he is not the first one who tells me that.

In fact everyone tells me that he shouldn't be the one I fall in-love with.

But . . .

I am the silly and foolish one,

who wants to prove everyone wrong and wants him to prove everyone wrong.

Probably thats the reason why, I am doing all I can to manage my relationship with him.

To believe what he is not,

ended up slashing myself like a damn shit hole with my double edged sword.

Still trying very best to heal it up.

I just got to try harder.

He just kanna slapped by me again last night in my dreamland.

Sigh.

Hope that he sleeps well tonight.