Day 58 - 60

Day 58 - finally off my draft
Busy busy, I spent the whole day with Daddy Kong. I am tired but I put my faith through the lord and the greatest helper the holy spirits. I prayed so much every morning for the anointing of the holy spirits to lfit me up and do the impossible. SOT is going to start on Monday. I want to put GOD in my first piority and heavenly father will never shortchange me.
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Prayers: Holy spirits come to me. God I pray for the fruitfulness for my hubhub. I want him happy, I want him great. I want him to be a true good man and to stay away from the evil thoughts that is lingering in him. Give him the power to stop giving excuses to justify the wrong things he did and the power to do the right things the right way.

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Day 59
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"catch wawa" craze: I boiled up this craze when I was at East Coast Park with hubhub. I was in ECP once again last afternoon and I decided to choose and catch the biggest toy in the "wawa" machine. I changed $5 worth of $1 coins with the mindset of just playing for the fun of it. Indeed I was just playing for the fun of it.

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After a while Holly came and I changed another $10 in which I gave $3 to her and ask her to play for the cheap thrill. I aimed at this Hello kitty as it was the biggest toy in those machine. I am not a hello kitty fan. It was exciting, Holly and I were screaming in fact when the kitty got hooked up. Shouted even harder when it dropped with several unsuccessful attempts. Anyway I finally got it for a price of $12.00. Yeah !!!! * stick my tongue out * * Hubhub will surely say this + HaoLian + Errrkkkk... .. .. . ~ ~ I want to eat his black pepper Crab *.* ~ ~
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Hahaa and I purposely put them side by side and take a picture with it.

Just feel that the nails goes well with the hello Kitty and there it goes.

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Prayers: I am a day closer to SOT and a day closer to my ICU Eric Pong. My SOT lessons crashes with ICU Eric Pong. My first hurdle. I leave it to God. Faith. Believe.

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Lord father, please show my love a way, a way of light, the path of good. Take away the evil hubhub, take away the seeds of bad which always lead him stray. Take away his temptation of the straying heart. Touch the heart he used to show me, the true baby heart he has. Not a cheat, not a liar but a loving true baby heart he used to reveal. Please protect him God. I love him.

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Day 60

The most hilarious day after so many years. I had a wonderful day which start early in the morning. It was fresh and great even thou I had a really late night at kai-ma's house. I reached home last night at 3am. Dead beat, after shower, I prayed to God and slept at 4.30am waking up at 7.30am the next day, which is today.

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Teach teach teach, happy and fun ! I love Jazreel and Jayden they are just a lovely pair of brothers. I finish teaching at 3pm and took a bus home. Had my power nap on the bus, I feel recharged. I headed down for a swim at Hazelpark in which I told myself I have to keep myself fit and pump up for SOT. No reasons to fall sick. Like I promised myself 6 laps before I laze in the Jacuzzi pool. and I did in one blow without stopping. I feel great.

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Preparing for SOT. Time to keep myself mentally, physically and spiritually fit. We are made from 3 elements, Body, mind and soul. Let our mind start focus with discipline, and soul to be spiritually fit so we will be able to cast our the evil thoughts we have and lead a fruitful life with the walk of GOD.

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The devil will come will all obstructions to hinder in our walk with God. They stir your emotions, make you cry and break your heart through those you love so much.

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Prayers: Pray for you everyday because I do not hate you, pray for you everyday because I forgive you, pray for you everyday because I do not blame you, pray for you everyday because I love you.

Day 57

Day 57

Counting down on my Big Day on Day 88 ^^ I am very excited and I am joyful ! I am counting down ! *Shouts* I am going to SOT on MONDAY !!!!!!

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Feeling for today: I am so touched today.

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Prayers: Angels , i command you to protect my love hubhub from all harm, God to bless my hubhub with an open heart and a true gracious heart to feel. I want to love him with all I can, and never to give him up. I want to care for him with the purest heart he can never imagine. He is not a bad person. God please look after him, make him understand, touch him personally. I love this man and I am certain this love will not deteriorate with time. I will keep myself scarce for the only him, not to allow any other man to come near me. I am precious and he will be the last man who will ever touch me.

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My hubhub understands me, for the promise I gave him, for the great amount of love I give. I clearly understands that no one can take it away from me. He is a special one, no one will ever understand, only my God does, because Lord sees it all.

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Good night ! 7am tomorrow.

Day 56

Day 56

Random : Have a sudden urge to go to China Foshan Canto for 1 month: I should put my tweet add on my blog instead. Tweet tweet ~ ~ ~ After my MDRT, or else Pong and Kong will strangle me. Bring me to Paris and smell the smelly pigeons and drains.

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I am glad to here his voice today ^^ I am glad he got on-set in time. But the naughty naughty hubhub doesnt seems good in tone during his request when he was driving. * You then stupid ah, lousy hubhub * Since when you get so impatient? Say I stupid . . . . . * I poke poke poke you ah* Chou hubhub ! Complain so much about me, I haven complain about you, you started complaining about me. You are " Bang Sai " calling a nice teapot black. I rephrased the idiom; pot calling a kettle black. * Chou laogong only knows how to bully me. Boo u !

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I am extremely drained out today; I suffered a bad spiritual attack today. I am tired. Good night. I want to go for 7am morning prayers meeting before I chiong work again tomorrow.

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Prayers: God thank you for the determination you seed in me, I thank you for the prophecy you gave me through Eng Han. God please bless the hubhub I always put so close to my heart. Send the angels to protect his daily life, to touch him and to bring him to good. I love him and I always do.

Day 55

Day 55 ~ 没有他的第55天。
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今天上演了"千言万语" 的前转"私会党"。看见了好多朋友也看见了好久没见到的伍妈妈。在人群中也看见了宝贝，头发长长，穿的一身HUGO BOSS西装的宝贝。又是一次的演出，可是这一次的演出可是不一样的! ^^ 我最疼爱的宝贝!
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Its pretty funny and Richard kept poking at Holly when Joshua appeared. Anyway, I guess my baobei has a weird brother Joshua who will always speak weird stuffs. The moment he saw me, he asked why am I there, did LY invite me, does LY knows I am coming and he darted his eyes. He certainly know nuts about Nero Linguistic or human psychology. He is indirectly telling me I shouldn't be there or someone I shouldnt see or something wouldn't know. I just do not like the idea of him knowing nuts about things and treating me like someone retarded or something. Seriously Joshua needs some PR lessons and higher EQ classes.

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I am happy sitting in my own little corner doing my great goals, continue to love, care and praying for his well-being. Care for him, provide him with a space, a heart he can trust and a pair of hands for him to reach out for. Time will show evidence of what is true and how much I love him.

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After the Gala, the Foo gang headed down to Chua's Restaurant, Lo'hei again. They started questioning about hubhub's stuffs with me. Thanks, Mr Sng has all my questions answered. Hubhub came down looking miserably tired. * Sayang him la * I don't know man, my hubhub and I just have some kind of chemistry I do not know how to explain about. It may be familiarity, love or I dont know what. Maybe towards him, I am just an ex-girlfriend, but towards me I wanted him to be the man I can grow old with which I know that will never cross his mind. Ok, thats the past and I should not hold such thinking anymore, he wouldnt hold my hands and grow old with me ^^, its ok, I can grow old with him right inside me, my heart ^^ *Some readers will feel so upset on my behalf , no worries man, I am not unhappy. I've accepted things I cannot change. I made my choice to be blessing him behind his back and to stay quietly by myself . It is the effect of loving him ^^ my heart cannot stop loving him. Ok I am cursed.*

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Anywayz, Its really nice to massage my hubhub and to rub his head to relieve his headache. I know he is tired. He did ask isnt my hands tired massaging him? I didnt answer but my heart did; If the objective and focus of the massage is to ease your headache, I will tell my hands not to stop until you feel better ^^ I wanted to hug him in fact. But I know I shouldn't and didn't. Hubhub and I have this special unspeakable feelings. Just the 2 of us know ^^ I believe we have been through enough to know each other well enough and he knows it all. ^ so do I ^

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Prayer: Please take away the headache my hubhub has and give him a good night of rest with peace. I love him and god please protect him from all harm. I just have this simple heart to care and to love him. To have a place here and to give him a tiny space to understand I care/love regardless of time, I am always here for him and I will always be loving him.^^ Nights chou chou.

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And something RANDOM : The richest man in Singapore is dead and the 2nd Richest Khoo family in Singapore appeared at the GALA just now, Mr Khoo just donated away 5.5 million or something. Disgusting rich. And I am so motivated to move up the ladder by creating my own wealth.

Day 54

Day 54
I miss . . . . . . .
I miss eating duck rice with him,
I miss flying kite with him,
I miss my big big kite,
I miss waiting for him after gym,
I miss free-spinning his car in the rain,
I miss waiting for him for hours for him to come home,
I miss washing car together,
I miss when your car died us out,
I miss your laughter splashing water to the pedestrian at the bus-stop,
I miss listening to his dinosaur tummy orchestra,
I miss lying on his tummy,
I miss playing magic with him,
I miss holding his hands,
I miss kissing him,
I miss trimming his eyebrows,
I miss BBQ-ing at his place,
I miss going to the NTUC with him,
I miss teasing children when him,
I miss him naughty naughty,
I miss him a good boy,
I miss him taking care of me,
I miss taking care of him,
I miss climbing on his back,
I miss walking on his feet,
I miss stepping on his ass,
I miss hitting him with his boxing gloves,
I miss twisting his ears,
I miss him biting my ears,
I miss him twisting my hair,
I miss rubbing his back,
I miss catching jellyfish,
I miss rolling the boat with him,
I miss his delicious cooking,
I miss making herbalife for him,
I miss shopping at Daiso with him,
I miss him making fun of me,
I miss his hug to pacify me,
I miss him lying on my lap,
I miss watching discovery channel with him,
I miss watching PPS with him,
I miss rolling on the bed with him,
I miss hugging him to be,
I miss massaging his head,
I miss waking up beside him,
I miss him chou chou,
I miss him messy messy,
I miss him kissing me before brushing his teeth,
I miss him being a vain pot,
I miss applying mask on his face,
I miss poking his acupuncture points,
I miss him eating halfway and runaway to watch Tv,
I miss to look at the way he lie in front of this laptop,
I miss the way he wakes up in a blur look,
I miss the way he admire himself in the mirror,
I miss the wet look he gave when he is out of shower,
I miss wiping his back dry after shower,
I miss the fishes I rear at his tank,
I miss those baby fishes he have,
I miss him calling me skinny skinny,
I miss him saying ' bite you ah ',
I miss the pillow talk we had,
I miss lying on his shoulders till we fell asleep,
I miss standing at his windows looking at stars,
I miss him telling me, ' bao bei shi zui bang de ',
I miss him talking nonsenses,
I miss the way he swings me around making me laugh,
I miss the look he will give when he teases me,
I miss him hugging me tight and apologise when he piss me off,
I miss the way he act pitiful so i will Sayang him,
I miss the way he fluster and kept quiet when he is thinking of how to lie,
I miss travelling with him,
I miss when we took a train together,
I miss the way he fart and makes me laugh,
I miss the way he said I love you to me,
I miss the way he present his real self to me,
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I miss so much so much more . . .
I just miss him
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All these are gone for 54 days.
I know these wouldn't come back anymore and I wouldn't hope that they will.
He disappeared physically from me,
but the love I have for him didnt.
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Well it is ok, staying at my little corner working through my goals and praying for him.
^.^ Smile my love, dont worry I wont bother you anymore ^.^
^.^ I've learn to love you from far and to love you for a long long time. ^.^
^.^ I've learn the courage to keep all of myself for you ^.^
^.^ If one day, you feel tired dont worry, take a look back and you will see me ^.^
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Prayers: Pray to god that great sponsors will view his prelude with wonderful vision. The vision of a dream, a dream of many individuals, the hardwork of every single crew, every single actors/actresses, the support of love ones, the fruit of the entire will be well rewarded. I pray to god that he will open up doors for 'The gang' and send angel to touch the audiences. God please shower my love love with light to shine on. I love him.
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God I pray for Foyce that her Movie Gala Happy Go Lucky tomorrow will be a great one as well. Thank god for all the grace you have given. Lets JiaYou ba ! Thank you Allen Gege for those DVDs.

I find this real cute and decided to upload it. ^^

Day 53 Bridal shots

I should get this done someday before I am too old for that.

I should get it done someday before I loses interest in it and I will never get a chance to wear that.

Get a great photographer to take it for me out of the Singapore Island

I want beautiful fairytale ones like those I've seen in bridal magazines.

I wouldn't mind if someone is sponsoring and I do not need to marry him

I should ask Renee'l boutique if she wants to give me a discount for that.

and who says Bridal shots have to be in couple.

Day 53

Day 53
I was at Sharlyn's place this afternoon and we watched 2 touching stories which I really love. This 2 stories kept me thinking.
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The 1st movie we watched; A true story of love and loyalty. Hachiko A true dog's story. This story really made me tear. And the bronze status of Hachiki is still seen at Tokyo's Shibuya's station.

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Hachiko waited 9 years for his beloved owner's return. But he never return. The owner was dead. 9 years is a long period of time in human years, if it is compared to the dog years, Hachiko had been waiting 63 years for a promise he had for his one and only beloved owner's return. To Hachiko it is his lifetime.

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They were discussing about will this happen in human? In which a man/woman loving just a single person for a lifetime? Jamshed said, it is possible, like his parents, seeing his mum holding papa Jamshed's hands tightly before his operation and tell him that she loves him with all her life. At a moment or so, I am thinking that it might be possible. I'll tell you the answer 30 years down the road to see if I am still waiting for the love I've never gotten hold of it at all,. To a delicated man whom I do not understand why do I love so much. No one has the answer for it, so do I. ^^ I have the love and a promise which is always taken granted of. Like how my heavenly father taught me, I do not blame my hubhub at all, not because I do not have the power to, I choosed not to. ^^ Seriously, falling in love is a such a great feeling but that being robbed by my hubhub, he robbed away the power from me in falling in love with someone else. Sometimes I think about it, I feel like I'm being so badly cursed by his hurtings.

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Just like this MV I have always love from SHE.

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The 2nd movie ; It's Complicated.

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The movie its complicated seems like myself 2 months ago. In which my role was switch. A bizarre relationship I had with the man I love. I used to pity myself back then I am always forced to accept situation created by him. He bring me up and leave me hanging. But now I no longer do, it is blessings as well to say prayers for that someone I always love, and continue loving him in another way. I am fortunate in a way I have a faithful god who speaks to me and lift all my worries. Without my hubhub and those situations he put me into, I will never realise how great my lord is and how god create miracles in my life. My lord gives me peace, a rich and forgiving heart.

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Time for prayers

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Prayers: Had an upset stomach, I thank god that I am feeling so much better. I pray to lord for him like I do everyday. Praying for his well-being, pray that he finds his path, find that narrow path which leads to his peace everyday. Although majority would have tell me, its the greatest mistake of me putting my love in my hubhub, but well I know him, understands him enough, I love him enough which is why I have never blame him. Maybe he is right, I may be the person who can ever love him that much other than his mum. ^^ Love him and nights. I really miss him so much even though I know he never will.

Day 52

Day 52

Had a sumptuous dinner and fulfilling day at work making 3 appointment on Friday. Raspberry and honey beer at Novena, tasted so refreshing. I am surprised that the owner of that restaurant remembers me. He came over and wished me Happy Chinese New Year ^^

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I headed out to meet Micheal and Cindy after my mini booze with my bitch. We had a late night. Drinks and supper. Once a while, its nice to hang out at this familiar place I used to hang out at named Zouk. My first Zouk session of the year in 2010.

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Prayers: Painting my prayers for my hubhub on day 52. I pray that heavenly father touch his heart, clear his doubts, plant the seed of good in his heart. I know he is not bad person. It is his unclear character and evil root temptation which causes so much of infidelity in our relationship. I pray to god to make him a honorable person, change and make him a into a great maximised man. I pray for him, continue my care and love for him. I never ask god to bring us back together again. Because for the fact, he've never once part my heart. I love him enough.

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I was on Vince's car the other night and he was doubtful about how is it possible to accept infidelity in a relationship? How is it possible for me to forgive him. I told vince, if you ever love someone enough, you will understand why. At a stage when love is intense, there will be 2 outbreak. Intense hatred due to intensive love. I almost fell into that category I am glad heavenly father touched me personally, he calms my heart and taught me to be forgiving. I am an extremist by nature. When I said I can love someone for my lifetime, that means I can do the vice versa to hate someone and use my lifetime to revenge on this infidelity love. I am glad I chooses to be forgiving and to continue my love and care in a peaceful way. I told Vince, Jesus didnt hate Judah for betraying him, he didnt throw him out of the house for stealing his golds for land. As we walked on with Christ in our life, we begin to truly learn his words to be more Christ like. To forgive and not hate, to accept and not blame, to give and not take. God knows and he will never do injustice to us. Even on the day Jesus die, he was never poor. He is rich because he know god will never short-change us in life. Vince was taken back, mike was sitting behind he gave a pat on my back and said ; Seven, you will be growing in a even stronger positive mental mind through Theology. Like I said, I want to be strong, positive, righteous, humble and be a fully maximised lady of god. I always tell god to give me patience, wisdom to understand, a heart to give and god to take away my pride, my ego and the evil root of temptation.

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Grace

Day 51

Day 51

Received this chinese new year blessings today " May the one you love prove worthy of your love soon, hugs ! " guess who is this from? My lady for all time. She is my Laolao Tan Wendy. ^^ She is someone who reads me inside out. The relationship within the 2 of us, its unspeakable through all these years. One of my heart felt buddies. Deeply appreciated. She is categorised under one of my selfless lady buddy who will go all out for me. Do whatever she can to help me, take care and love my sister when I am away. No question ask and trust me totally in everyway. I Thank god for giving me great family like friends. Thank god I have them. You ladies know who you are ^^ always there for me counting in decades. Always there to hold me up when I am weak to cry with me when I am devastated.

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Thank you

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Prayers: Flying my blessings over. I pray that my love will breakthrough his cycle and to be a better well organised man. A man who learn how to care and a man who learn to love than to hurt. I continue loving him not because I do not have other better choices out there. I continue to love him because I gave him all of my heart to care and love when he once assured me I can. And I believe in him. He is an able man, god please guide him and teach him how. How to path it and be a reliable and a honourable man of words in time to come. I love him. This love for him will not change. * Love my chou chou, huai lao gong de la *

Day 50

Day 50
I started my day 7am in the morning fresh, said my morning prayers / worship / handed my day to lord and landed myself in the office at 9.30am. Headed down to hotel parkroyal for my company lo hei. We are glad to have Keith back. Linda sent me back and I got my bling bling heels from Anna Nucci, so bollywood. I saw Foyce wearing something similar. I dont have the chain chain thing, mine is all blings with Swarovski Crystals, even the heels. I find that such eye catching heels definitely goes well with my Armani Jeans.

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So sorry, I am having fetish with shoes again, or I should say I always have fetish over shoes. Everytime I am unhappy I start buying shoes. I am glad this time round this bling bling heels I've got is much much lesser than what I've paid to Ferregammo and Prada. My Bling is around 1/4 the price of my costly designer shoes. Know how to spend, got to know how to earn it as well.

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.Here's Ris and she is so funny

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I have got so many movies to watch but so little time. I complain that how come my lappy cant download PPStreaming or PPlive, sharks. . . . At another point of view, Its a blessing as well, as I will spend more time working than PPStreaming. I got to remember PPStream, because that is the site hubhub and I spent so much time on watching lovely movies cuddling each other side by side ^^.

There's this new movie coming up call Interception, niceee, I love smart movies ! CSI CSI ! I used to be a huge fan of CSI but stopped watching it anymore ever since I broke up with Ian. Both of us are big fan of CSI. I stopped CSI totally, I dont repeat activities with my ex(s). By the way Interception is starring Leonado Dicarpio. Hubhub and I love his Catch me if you can ! Muahhahaha !

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Ok here, I came across this ILLUMINATI. There is this speculation about MJ was being killed by this secret society. Something like Davinci Code and the Vatican city thingy. It was mentioned in the bible at book Revelation that the end of the world will be ruled by the Lucifer where they are influencing the nation while lord christ will desend again to earth for a salvation for faithful followers of lord. They all themselves the New World Order or ILLUMINATI.

It is rumoured that this is the song which get MJ assassinated because he somehow like oppose this secret society. No idea but I just know this ILLUMINATI has been around since Christ.

.I find it pretty interesting to share. here's some videos.

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The rest, go google yourself. Time for my prayers

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Prayers: Pray to god that my hubhub will get enough sleep, nice beautiful complexion for his upcoming showcase. I still miss him as much as I do everyday. Pray to lord that there will be enough for the production for Kelvin and my love to fulfil his dream he has been sacrificing so much for. I love this man and all I pray for is the inner joy in his heart. * Pout lips * Nights my hubhub ^^

Day 47 - 49

Day 47

Day 47 is Da Nian Chu Yi. As usual, we headed out in the afternoon to Bian nian at the same old place every year @ Upper Bukit Timah Road where everyone will be there. Had a few rounds of Mahjong with my Aunties and they were asking how come I Luoyi didn't come with me for the visit. I didn't want to talk much about him with them so I just brush it off by saying his work is busy. So they went, ('.')'' so poor thing Chinese New Year still got to work and told me to ask him to come get around at night after he finishes work.* I better siam *

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Dad always dislike the relatives from my mum side, therefore I drove him home with my pet dog baby before heading down to granny's place at Balestier. Its a great well gathering at granny's place. ^^ everyone at granny's place congrats me for my soon to come water baptism ceremony and promise that they will be there for my water baptism ceremony.

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The whole family headed down for movie, Pericy Jackson and the lightning thief and it is a cool movie :-) Ok, the guy in the movie is damn cute. Lolx. Its a great day spent with family bonding. As I do not want to head back to my grand-dad's place at night to avoid my aunties asking the same questions. I headed home and good night myself..

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Prayers:.Hope he ate well and had a warm group of family bonding with his family over his dad's side. I know he always long for big groups family gatherings. Its a pity he do not have a chance to join me for the most interesting gathering of the year, which is chinese new year every year at grand-dad's place.

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I come from a very big family on my father's side; excluding my dad I have 10 uncles and aunties, with the brothers of my granddad still around, Chinese New Year at my granddad's place every year is crazy. My dad's cousins will be there as well. Every year including all my cousins, it is normal to have 40 relatives at one shot. This is only a minority of my direct cousins. I have 25 direct cousins in total, other than those we grew up together, the younger ones I dont even have the idea what is their name called.

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Day 48

Day 48 is the day we headed over to Sentosa with my family. My aunties were there at the Integrated resort as early as 8am in the morning ~ Crazy. I was there at 4pm. It was madness and its so freaking hell packed! I cant stand that anymore and headed over to Vivo-city to shop, eat and chill instead. IR is madly packed with the Indians. I bought a 9" Awfully chocolate cake and headed over to Cindy's place for some CNY mahjong sessions. Started eating the chinese new year junkies for an hour and bitch and bartch sessions with Cindy, we finally start our mahjong. We were watching " Diamond TBV " and playing mahjong ^^ We were talking about investment in stocks and commodity market. I was referring to the Sunday times and said, if we used 5000USD to invest in technological shares like ebay in 1995 we should become millionaire by now. 5000USD shares for ebay in 1995 is 2.5 million USD in 2010.

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Not long after, he came; " happy new year, blah blah " and asked eh why are you here. . . . . . . . . of course, I am there because I am invited. After the mahjong session, we headed to East Coast park for some HongKong Cafe but instead we ended up at the UFO catcher station catching some Hello Kitty soft-toys. Something which I never fancy. But its pretty interesting have the thrill of it once in a blue moon. Our Mrs Ang is a great fan of that. Ly spent close for 40 bucks and got the Hello Kitty for me. Well, but I know that is not the motive he is a egoist not catching anything and he do not want to leave that place with $$ spent with nothing in return. Therefore I naturally became the owner of the 40 bucks Hello Kitty.

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We had Macdonalds for supper instead. HongKong Cafe was close. We were crapping and talking nonsenses while having supper. I got on some wrong nerve when Ly mentioned " I am a good boy thats why I am rewarded with coke " Sounds like some pick-up lines or teasers he will use to hook girls up or show some impressive thoughts. Maybe he using that on the girl he dating or something I wouldn't know.

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There is something I totally loathe about him, I loathe him the most when he uses same lingos he uses with other girls on me. That is totally so not cool at all. By the way, I've never repeat lingos for all 3 of my past relationship. Repeating them seems so disrespectful. So that is the reason why he calls me ' qin ai de' when we first start to date each other 2 years ago. Probably calling his girl 'qin ai de' is pretty much a routine for him so he wouldn't even spare a tiny thought for that.

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The only time I enjoyed during the night was when I shared the moment massaging his hand, rubbing his back and touching his head when we were sitting together on the Sofa. That is one of my way of loving him. My heart turns sour with a few rolls of tears off my cheeks when I typed this sentence. We are just 2 separate individuals now and our lives wouldn't intercept anymore.

Prayers: Even with the mindset that our lives will not intercept anymore, I will still pray for him everyday, sending all the great blessings I've ever done in my past 20 years in my life. To love him with my heart although he no longer feel it. I pray for his vision in career ,pray for better finances for him and his family and pray for the peace in him.

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Day 49

I had an open house today where all my friends will gather at my place. Dinner and gathering. I knew he had forgotten all about it since the night before therefore I didn't bother to mention it to him. That is so him because he had never once taken his words towards me seriously. My love and his unchange ' si lang pattern '

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Once there is a father who promises his 3 year old son to bring him to the Zoo next week. His son anticipated so seriously and is looking forward for the Zoo day out with daddy. But each week, daddy forgot about bringing him to Zoo. In the first place, this father has never taken his words seriously towards the son he claimed to love that much. One day when the father finally remembered and decided to bring his son to the Zoo, and he realised his son had already been to the Zoo with his schoolmates and teachers. His son is already 7 years old by then. The son had learn all the possible names of the animals he wanted his daddy to teach him so much in the first place. The irony, he learns it not from his daddy but someone else.

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Everyone is there at my place for steamboat and bonding session. My parents asked me about how come Luoyi is not here this New Year, as usual I have to tell them that he is busy with work and preparation for his prelude showcase next week. Had a great session with the guys today. Thanks guys ! Hope you guys enjoyed the foods I've prepared.

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Prayers: Prayers for him, I prayed that he is resting well as I know he had a late night with us at East Coast yesterday. I pray that everything is fine for him, he will be in good health and he will be in a great condition for his showcase on the coming week. I am a saddist in such an irony position. Well, the only thing I can say; I accept him and I really love him alot. Track me on my day 1499 in five years or 2499 in eight years down the road, you will find me doing my usual updates with buzzing life ( I want my TOT in Financial sector at age 28 and Habakkuk is going to be the next CottonOn in time to come, Habakkuk is going to make it and I am positive. I pray to god that my franchises are on its way so we can lease our 2nd outlet at bishan, 3rd outlet at Wistma Atria, 4th outlet at Tampines Mall. . . . . I thank god for the wonderful marketing concept lord equipment me with for the marketplace and the acceptance in them in my franchises. Let time be my success! I want my marketshare to headbutt CottonOn while I am given the gift to bless the unfortunate in my marketing plan ) and my continual blessings for him everyday. I am accountable for my words as I said he is the last man in my life, because I use my heart to speak it.

Day 43 - 46

Day 43 Wednesday

Normal routine goes on as usual followed by the meetup at Enghan's place with Stanley and Albert. Its a super long walk out of Eng Han's place at Upper Coast road. Sweets joined us later on and we had a great sumptuous supper after that. You never go hungry when sweet's around! He will never forget to feed me well with FOOD! He is like super naggy brother who never forgets to take good care of people!

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Prayers: Please bring joy to my love, I've never leave a single bit. I am faithful and is constantly praying for greatness in him. Chinese New year is coming, and I really hope that he will have a warm and lovely new year.

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Day 44 Thursday

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There is no BBG today and I am able to catch the guys up for Lo'Hei. The usual group of unimates ^^ finally I get to see them after so long. Dinner was great !

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Prayers: Today I pray that god take away something from him. God, please take away procrastination and worries from him. Bring on gifts of faith to my love. I just want him to be happy. I want him to lead a wonderful life even though I may not be the one sharing it with him anymore.

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Day 45 Friday

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I stayed home for the whole afternoon packing up, cleaning the house and blah blah stuffs. Headed down to CNY service at Expo. Today's sermon is about money. Pastor kong was preaching about making wealth and money growth. I've learned the word of god through the man of god. These wordings directs straight to my job, thank you lord for teaching me how and telling me what to do. I am really amazed by how my heavenly father showered wisdom on me. I picked up really wonderful words about how to teach my clients in planning. God always answers my prayers when I ask him how. He will speak to me through people, through his words in the bible and through the visions he gave me. Praise the lord.

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And Dinner was GREAT ! Curry Fish Head with everybody ! followed by Durians at Geylang. I meet up with Daddy Kong after my fellowship. I am glad that I have the chance to speak to Becky to convey the message I always wanted to tell her.

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Prayers: I will never forget my prayers no matter how tired I am everyday. To pray with faith. To shower blesses and the love I have for that him. The love that will never depreciate with time. The care I will always give and the thoughts seeing him good in all ways everyday.

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Day 46 Saturday

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Its Chinese New Year eve and its time for Reunion. Spent my day preparing food and documents for appointment in the evening. My love hubhub called, a call in which I've never expect to receive. I thought its holly or my neighbour. Both have withheld lines. He is the 1st on who wishes me Happy Chinese New Year on the eve. Delighted to hear his voice of course.

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With all the dinner stuffs and blah blah, driving here and there for appointments. I am done with work for the evening. I've did what I need to do and accompanied sister downstairs to walk the dog. It was 12 something, thinking that I haven really wish my hubhub Happy CNY, I dropped him a message to wish him with all best and to let him know I am there behind his back and stuffs.

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He called back wishing me a Happy Valentine in return. Deep down, I was thinking there is nothing to be happy about for Valentine anyway. We talked for awhile, keeping a peaceful heart our conversation went on as normal. I would really like to bring this across to him that 2 right doesn't correct a mistake. It is never measured in that way. He always feel that he has been treating me great and he will always excuse off about the immense amount of hurt he has put me into. How great is the impact of the hurtful things he did on me and how much courage I put myself through to face it leading a blameless life to continue loving him. Many of our mutual friends see it, know it and understand it. Time makes these friends see who I am, that is the reason why they love me and continue to shower care and love. I didn't do anything at all to gain their love, all I did is just simple true gesture of me, a person who cares using her heart.

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I am glad that god walks into my heart and teaches me to be a great faith like child of his. Learning to put others in front of me, to care and give. In return god blesses me with solutions to solve my problems, bless me with great ideas in my up-coming businesses, to teach me how to help my prospects and clients as well as to stay gracious to people who doubt me. I know god will never short-change me as long as I follow his words and continue with greater faith in him.

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Time for prayers and time to get day 43 - 46 out of my draft.

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Prayers: God, please lift my love off difficult situations and direct him towards the lighted pathway. Teach him how and show him how. Let him know, no matter what he face and how he becomes, I am always here and time will not die me out. He is free from me and I no longer act as a troublesome obstacle he has to try his best to cast it away. I will not obstruct him anymore. In return, I will be faithful, continue praying for him and to love him. In fact there is nothing great about me. All I have is a blameless heart, and the gift from the lord to understand the real underlying meaning of love. ^^ I love my *smelly chou chou*

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If you realised how precious life is, I am spending everyday of my life, more than an hour each day since my post turned into titled "Days" to bless you with prayers. Written or spoken to heavenly father. Even how tired I am, I'll never forget to tell god to take care of you, speak to you through your heart and to bring you true greatness. I am not allow hug you by my side and show you how much I love you anymore, so let my faithful prayers of your well being stays while I continue to love you in another way. A way which is unseen, but my god knows. ^^

Day 43

Day 43
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Another busy day at work. I thank Tammy for helping so much in my documentation. Love Tammy, its so great to have Tammy back.

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Its a Lion world

I find that I am attracted to Male Leos. Leos are amazing charismatic and really special. They give a special Aura to attract me to them. They are either my buddies like Huazhong, special individuals like my Daddy Kong and Arvin, my love Luoyi.

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The kind of brotherly love I have with zhong, the unique thinking and mindset we share especially when we are in the same trade. We encouraged each other and help each other out in our weakness and strengthen our strength.

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A mentor like love for Daddy Kong who is always there for me whenever I needed him, may it be in work or emotional anchor. He always put out my strength and anchor it out. A special kind of doting love for Arvin, in which you just want to dote him. He is a special nice boy to me and I will alway want the best for him. Well, this fine boy is there for me during my dark moment, turning point and I will never forget him. He encourages me and he never let me down ^.^ He is someone really special to me.

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Lastly my love, I do not need to speak much about him. Actions for him speaks so much louder than any language. My love for him is in actions. My love for him is caring, concern, faith, forgiving and the willingness to love him for all the love I can give to tell him that I am making him the last man in my life. During the time when he was unsure, I kept my faith strong, during moments he hurt me and pulls me deep down into the valley I do not blame, during the day he truely say sorry to me, I forgive, during his weak moment, I stood strong in believe . . . . . . . . I suppose that is the knowledge of love. The love that I will not give myself to others but to continue loving him alone by myself.

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Enough for tonight. I need sleep.

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Prayers: God I pray for good health in my love, I pray for a breakthrough in his work. As long as I can, I want to pray for him each and everyday. I am willing to pray for him and love him everyday as I walked on without him by my side. I do not need him to be thankful nor to show any gratitude, my love for him is selfless. Good night. Today I miss the way he hug me tight when I penguin walk on his feet, to pluck his brows with him lying on my lap and to *pink him ah* . I know this love for him will last me for my lifetime.

Day 42

Day 42
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Day 42 is one of the busiest day where I literally got to rush for my appointments. I thank god that he is giving me such fruitful outcome and the best expectation ever ! Praise the lord. Life is busy and I am tired but I am not giving up, dreams and visions has been flowing in and in. Plan has been mapped out through my prayers in spirits with heavenly father. He made me speak the impossible and carry them into action. He paint me a picture and taught me how to achieve it in order to shine in the marketplace he set for me. I've got a helper now who is my dear sister. We had our goal sharing and work it out for the 2 of us through goal settings and actualising it. We give timelines and mapped out our 1 - 3 years plan. We will do it as a spiritual and supporting pillar for the both of us. The bonding between us is so strong, I know my prayers are answered. We set a goal for a combined income of 100K a month in 3 years so parents can retire in comfort. We pray to god for show us the path and give us wisdom and knowledge to make this happen. We are determine! AND we sisters will make this happen. Praise the lord.

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God please teach my love how and show him the path where he should be at. What to do to walk nearer and nearer towards his dreams. God please light up his path, I love him so much so much, I want him to do great, I want to pray for him everyday, I want to love him even though he is no longer by my side. Love is not about control but care. Good night, i miss you alot smelly chou chou !! On day 42, I really miss sleeping beside you, scratching your back, and massaging your hand till we fell asleep.

Day 40 - 41

Day 40

I woke up feeling so super damn tired and headed down for music lessons with the kids. Fatigue is killing me. After music lessons headed down to Ooosh and meet up with Dawn. I am impressed that Dawn is so energetic thou last night was a late night.

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We sat down for coffee as well as to know more about each others life. Learn words about SOT and finally I left without fulfilling the promise to swim at her place. I am so damn bloody tired. I slept at 10.30 on day 40.

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Prayers: Today I pray for the serene and peace in Stacy. God Please path her life and show her the way. Take away her worries and bring more love to her.

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For him. On day 40, I want god to bless him financially. Take care of his finances like how god handles mine. Bring him opportunities which contributes to his finances. I love him, never lesser each day.

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Day 41

I was late for meeting. 15 mins late. I felt really bad about that and I drafted an email for everyone which says:

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Dear all,

First I would really like to apologise to everyone for this really bad habit of lateness in meetings. I have no intention of being disrespectful to my unit mates. For this really lousy habit, I am not going to say more, I will turn words into actions.

I totally agree to what Joey says, "The ones who turn up on time for meetings are the producers, the ones who never come or perpetually late are gone within 2 years, usually with little production."

I am a fucking good example as I fall into the category of lateness, with productions which really sucks for the past 2 years in the job. I didnt do as well as I can. I am just slacking away. I will break my cycle this yr 2010 to be the eagle, not some chicken who try to console myself with Excuses. To strike away my stupid lateness behaviour and to be a producer to the team, to be a strong branch to the tree. Time to stop giving stupid excuses but to really put bread on the table.

For team mates who are in the same category as I do, Its time to break the cycle and make a change.

I dont want to get awarded for the most holiday award like I did last year! *awarded by Elwin kong, The only award I want to look at is MDRT in 2010, and Paris in 2011. I am determined.

We are Eagles !!
With Regards.

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I got alot of feedbacks and support from my team mates after this email. Thanks to my fellow warriors! Heart felt.

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Thanks to Wing San for her sharing our MDRT life-time member. Heartfelt.

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Left office and headed down to Cindy's place. My lovely lady is making my nails gorgeous! Yeah! Here they are:

Everything is so nice. I love my nails ! She generously stick on 20 beautiful swaroski crystals on my nails and beautifully done up with acyclic coating. She made the effort to draw up the flowers on my nails. My fingers actually freaked out with I put them into the UV ray thingy Cindy asked to put in. Michael was laughing by the side when I did that big action. She is so professional. We can do business together. More details to be talk about, its a venture we're coming together into. Taking one step at a time.

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.Anyway, Stay tune, my boutique is coming up. Gorgeous clothes will be coming. I will talk about my coming shop design, I found a great place! God bless, cheaper rental and much more. Crowds! I will do all the marketing and get someone to carry my shop brand. And Thank god and faith that We obtained so much more supplier! LADIES just stay tune. I have a few shortlisted lady celebrities and media well-knowns, I pray to god they will just help me out for free hahaa !!! .

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For work updates: One step closer to MDRT YEAH !!!!!! Get ready for my blaze Daddy Kong. I love to be a Financial Planner !

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Prayers: God please bless my him like how you bless me with ! Faith and more believe to bring him higher like how god lifted me up! Love you always my smelly chou chou * doing the chou chou action with 4 fingers* and nights!

Day 37 - 39 and Day 32 updates

Day 32 updates :

Sly's hair seems glued on his forehead I do not know why.

This is the yellow dress I wore on that Helipad thingy party.

That day, I took down my blink blink cross necklace thinking to put the yellow glass necklace given by hubhub's mum.

This was what happened to the Pendant.

My heartached and skipped a beat when it goes " Piang " , I saw a similar one in Blue in some frozed glass shop, I wish it is not sold out !!!! The shop was closed when I saw it and I have no time to go and purchase it. Please dont get sold out!

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Day 37

Everyday just passes so quickly that I dont even have the time to like paint my toe nail? Or pamper myself with a mask. Its Friday today, Branch meeting in the morning, followed on by combined group meeting, I was rushing here and there. Argh, Its 6pm already. Time for dinner with Rachel Summer and Holly. I used to see Holly quite often, But not now anymore. Everyone's so busy!

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We had Ramen at Cable place and we headed down to Boat Quay,

Summer wanted some drinks. I am not drinking . . . . . Yeah ! Give me a pat on my head and say well-done eh.

My bang bang client Jez, the rest you guys know who.

* Dont be too sad hor, " Lee Ming Shun " ok la, we go swimming tomorrow, lolx. !^^

Friday ended.

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Prayers: I prayed for more faith in his career, I prayed for greater things to be coming along the way for him. I want him to sleep well with peace in mind and to stay healthy. I want to continue to love him although he is far away from me and I longed to hug him with love but he is no longer there.

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Day 38

Teach teach in the morning, Burberrys sale up to 80% in the afternoon but Hahaaa nothing implused anymore. I not only quit on drink, probably I should quit on designers items as well. No more Pradas or shopping Therapy anymore, those silly shopping therapies doesnt help in all in fact.

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My violin is back, I'm going to do it well this time.

^ Sing sing sing and make praises to the heaven ^ I give thanks to Jonjon for his prayers for me in SOT. Eng Han and Janet for the assistance, If I am going for Kungful training as compared to in the olden days, SOT is like going Shaolin Si for intensive mental trainings for 5 months ba.

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Seriously I have no idea how am I going to cope for it . . I'll let god arrange it for me and timetable he plan while I'll just follows what he tells me to do in 2 weeks to come. Sorry ah, my god speaks. He will tell me what to do de. I dont want to explain the way of communication. My god speaks to me in all ways. You doubters wont believe it unless you experience it !

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Violin Orchastra needs practice like 1-2days everywk, SOT is daily less overnight prayers meetings + early morning meetings. I will still drive my way THRU work, I know my lord will never short change me in life. I am leaving everything to him Totally this time round.

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I received alot of hugs not only from my cellgroup members and also my music school teachers, Teacher Doreen gave me such a convicted grabbed and raised up her hand * Teacher Seven! we pray for your breakthrough to be stronger in Bible School * after knowing that I am going for SOT being such a young christian, I haven even finish my getting started and Introductory in Church. I haven even been through my water baptism. But god really calls man !! Anyway you guys wouldn't believe it even I tell you so. I prayed for you guys that you will be able to experience it yourself ONE DAY, when god picks you up..

.Time for Fellowship ! Gags, KTV at party World.
I do not know why Nicholas Bloodworth NB is there are well, I rolled my eyes when Perry and Sherry thought he is my bf. My eyes rolled even more when Perry said that NB looks like Aaron kwok. Errr.. . . . .

Hui Ting and sis Sharlene, the sister I prayed for 2 nights ago, I love her and she is so hugable ^^. Steady, they sang till 3.30am while I left with NB, I cant stand anymore my eyes were closing. I left at 1.30am and was knocked out even before 2.30am. Dread tired and I am teaching the next day, waking up at 8am.

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Random Note for the moment: I always wanted to do a lead MTV for myself, more pro ones thanks. Those not with just 1 camera man type, I want a crew with director and videographer, make-up artist and wardrobe. If I happen to get married this will be the quality of my those what montouch video. But I think the marriage thingy will not happen anymore. Nevermind, I can fund my own MTV. I will start calling for crew once I settered down with all my other piorities on-coming weeks/ months, SOT, Arise and build fund, Paris, ShangHai, MDRT and school comes first. This MTV dream wouldn't be really that expensive as well, probably it can be setter for like 10K, I just need a great director. and a normal photographer with a tiny bit of creativity for still-shots. Interesting eh. Money can buy dream de. * I cant approach Roystan, later he will make my MTV looks like 881.

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Enough for today. Again, 7am tomorrow, I really need to snore myself away. Its 10.30pm now.

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Prayers: MOre and MORE and MORE work for you to keep yourself occupied. I really miss you very much, But there is nothing I can do, All I can do is to sit aside in a corner praying hard for you, sending blessings and have faith in you. I seems like fufilling vows and promised which is like unbreakable, I can never love again. Ok, the last man in my life really looks more like a curse than a vow now. Good Night. I love you !

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S$425,000.000

Maserati brandnew, I am eyeing on you for the coming 18 - 24 months.

Dont ask me why not Porche or BMs,

I hate BMs since last Christmas, Porche is not grand enough.

It has always been Maserati or maybe a lower value SLK S200 if you know me well enough, I love the crown logo and its one of the reason to get GUYs away from you when you are a female owner of Maserati.

Day 35 - 36

Day 35

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My day is as usual stuffed with work. I headed down for bible study with Eng Han, Stanley and Jim. Something happened during our session, when we were praying in holy spirits for Jim, ( aka. prayers in tongues ) it gets so in tense and Jim broke out in holy laughter. Amazing and that was the 1st time I encounter holy laughter. We are not mad by the way.

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Prayers and grace for my him.

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Day 36

Thursday

I have decided to attend School of Theology (SOT) in march on top of prayers meeting, BBG, Bible study and weekly services. SOT 5 days a week, 9am - 1pm. Maximising full-force and I am getting into a perturbation mode in work. It is getting intense, with increasing load during July when school starts. Someone please say wow !! I released my goals to my branch today, I know I will not fail them. MY MDRT GOAL ! and likely to be even more.

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School of Theology will stretch 5 months. I am really getting Perturbed! Which is really good. I will then force through my ability and stretch myself into an intensive care limit. I will do my breakthrough. This perturbation will either make me into a glowing 10 carat diamond maybe even bigger ones / or break me. But I know that I am going to shine ! I am shining now ! but just a cubic diamond, those man-made ones, looks like real but its yet to be. Everyday I am filled with this Aura to attract. I love it ! Totally ! Its so GREAT ! The greatness of getting everything I want in life, I forced my way through my trash-hole. Its an open-heart to receive and give out to others as blessings. See me 5 months later from March, Dont be too surprise to see my glow ! The Glow of success after intensive trainings! I look at sister Corine and Peter, they are great golfer who owns this company which brings professional golfers all over the world for competitions. I hear how sister Corine breakthrough the intensive 5 months of SOT ! I hear about how Genecia breakdown but eventually breakthrough her SOT. SOT is tough, and super mental challenging! I know I just have to go through that to grow and evolve stronger and ever. This is what the Business Breakthrough Group is all about ! Our goal is to SHINE in the marketplace and to bring blessing back to the society through the blesses and grace god shine on us.

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I hoped onto Parry's car after our Business Breakthrough Group, what I saw again today, A Green Bumble Bee. We headed down to River Valley for Supper with Renee and her husband. Home sweet home after supper and its already 12am. I am dead beat.

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Prayers: prayers for my love love him for great jobs coming along the way, doubts to be cast away ! I didnt love him any lesser, I am always here with him.

Day 32 - Day 34

Day 32
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I started work early, had 2 new students and a nice chio bu mother who sits in my music lesson. I headed down to office for documentation and back in town for work appointment. My client used to be the former client of Ian, and we ended up in a big group after appointment when Morgan and Ian join us up for a late afternoon chill. I left there after and headed to Huixian's place to check out the stocks she had from BBK. and saw this white bumble bee on my way home.
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I am encountering spiritual warfare. Keeping my faith and walk with god high, I have been learning alot from this site concurrently with my bible study. I'll discuss what I've read through this site with Elder Eng Han in order to learn more about the application in the marketplace with more of God's faith and believe.
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Random: I have been seeing bumble bees lately, average at about 3 everyweek. Today I miss the way I hug him tight when I was a passenger on his bike when we were at Vietnam.

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Prayers: I am praying for great and wonderful things to happen to my hubhubie. Although he is not by my side, but I will be always praying for greatness to fall on him.
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Day 33
Its Monday early morning meeting, thank god I am not late. Did my calling and meeting for committee. I submitted the quotations for Richard's Coral Village and Nabins for the attention of my directors to hold our 130 pax Chinese New Year Lo' Hei. They were rejected and we ended up in Park Royal Beach road. Another up-coming program which is the Synergy day, where I am going to prosposed Nabins' place and the Helipad. I need to call Chris up for Helipad. It was a tiring Monday, I headed home early due to this irritating headache. I thank god it is gone after my nap. Holly came over my place to collect our online shopping items. Before I sent her off around my house carpark we saw another bumble bee in red. How come there is so many bumble bees lying around?
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Prayers: I had a super long prayer today and I am praying for a vision for my love. A vision which will bring up across and strike through all obstacles along his way. I am always here for him.


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My hubhub say this is a song for the bad boy, for my 最佳坏老公奖!

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I saw this picture, time really flies ! This is taken on Stacy's Bday in 2008.

Day 34

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It was my day out with Cindy, and we certainly had alot of fun. We're doing alot of sampat stuffs and giggling over tons of " we dont know what " thingy. lolx. We had lunch at Schoflate, Ice-creams @ Marvelous cream, Yami Yogurt . . . . She is shopping for Diamonds and thank god I stopped her ! O, I am more persuasive than the sales ladies! We just enjoy each other's company and most importantly we can eat non-stop ! We love to shop on WEEKDAYS! Yeah! We wanted to go to the cake place at 313 next time and we gotta decorate our own cake. We do not have enough time to do that, as I need to head toward Helipad for some dont know what thingy, I dont even know what am I doing there. Its some media socialising party Deric organised, I am not from the Media, I just make people buy insurance from me lei.

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Helipad

Met alot of people at the Helipad, some known and some unknown. I just remembered shaking alot of hands and getting alot of namecards, and a few of them asked me to go down for some castings. They thought that I am from some modelling agency or something, or some said I looked very familar, am I in some commercials or what. . . . erm ya, whatever. Then the michelle Chia lookalike thing come flying around. I was wearing a yellow tubetop dress with my newly coloured tong up curly hair. The funny part was when Allen Wu bow at me, kissed my hand and calls me the Queen for the night. Thank god, brother Allen Wu didnt call me 七姑 in front of so many people. Its really nice to see David and Kelvin after so long ^.^ YEah! I want to watch Hubhubie on The gang !

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After Helipad.

Guess where we head off after Helipad, lolx, Adel came down and we headed to Club Giogio. I shared a cab with Nicholas some channel 5 fulltime actor. I dont really watch TV, so I really dont know who he is.

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I wasn't the boss of the day, Adel was and they ended up with 2 bottles of Macallen, none of my business, I dont really want to drink man. Just one mug of beer and one shot for the entire night. Adel wanted to sing at Club Giogio being the only lady with del, Kate wasnt there yet, I went up the stage to sing with del. The funny part, Del and I got flowers eh, $100 each, and the waitress cash in $60 for each of us, Hahahaaa I earned $60 from Club Giogio last night.

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Its getting late and I need to yawn ! Nights to the very naughty hubhub.

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Prayers: I pray for Kelvin, praying that what we expect for the best will come in time, just keep our faith going and believe strong! I pray that the sponsors will come in place and lets leave the project in god's hands. The best is yet to come, that is what we believe!

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I pray for my hubhubie, to vision greater things to come. I want him to be healthy as he walks on the rocky pavement in work, lesser procastination and work toward what he told me. If my dreams cannot make money for me, LET ME fund my own dreams by working hard towards it ! You remember that my love? I am always backing you up ^.^ , my heart is always attached to you.